I feel so sad for Conrad. He has tried for years to meet the expectations of those around him. And he has very high standards for himself also. And this being the year he started to realise about his mam’s cancer and reason behind the divorce, I think he just broke. He started shutting down and tried to control what he could - stopping football, smoking, drinking. I think this both soothed him and disappointed him. Belly is the only one that can save him from his despair. The only one that got him, even more than his mum. But he was afraid to mess with his relationship with Belly as he might loose her too. And what then. He’d be even more alone than he is now. So much complexity in his story. Fundamentally though, he wanted what was best for everyone, for Belly, he just had a hard time showing it 💔🥰
People thinking he’s being rude to Belly, not realizing he has avoidant attachment style… All because he was the hyper aware and super responsible and protective kid growing up… Takes one to know one))
