You're absolutely right about conquering a shitty day sober! Waking up the next morning and thinking "I hope today goes better" but then realising that by not drinking when you were stressed and angry actually made yesterday a great day, stupidly the odd day like that is sometimes nicer than a good day because you build confidence in your own resilience
Thanks for a really helpful video that definitely resonates with me. I know everyone will be different, and no doubt will depend on how bad the drinking or alcoholism has become, but I always found days 4-7 the absolute worst for me. It was still hard after the first week, but it became very slightly easier. I did always enjoy waking in a morning after another day of sobriety…..I hadn’t woken damp with sweat, I hadn’t done anything silly, said anything silly, upset anyone……it was a bonus to have that pleasant thought upon waking.
Thank you: invaluable. I hadn't even realized that I was going through these cycles unthinkingly. To know they are an actual thing and that other people have been through them, and the reality is that they're tough is super real and super helpful
It's still rough after being a little over two months from my last an hopefully, final relapse. I am eating much better and just trying to stay busy. Working on my channel helps a lot. I've been down for several days, but it will lift. Also, H.A.L.T. is something to be very mindful of.
Also. Waking up in the middle of the night wanting to pee a lot is common. The body is used to being dehydrated from alcohol and programmes itself to retain water to compensate. Suddenly it doesnt need to compensate from the alcohol during the night and the excess water puts pressure on your bladder resulting in wanting to pee a lot. Lasted first 6 weeks.
Having been on-off-on-off for a decade+, the only thing keeping me off now is what you said about ‘the return to chaos’ - thanks for your videos, helps me stay on target!
Firstly thank you for these videos. You're so relatable to my experiences with alcohol, your straight talking level headedness definitely helps make realise I'm not alone and it's not me it's the addiction making me feel this way. I see it like a parasite that's desperately trying to stay alive by being fed alcohol and me not doing what it wants makes it even more desperate and determined. It's really tough and I've had some really fucking tough days so far and I'm certain there's more to come yet, but I'm a month in today and it's gradually easing but still there. I keep telling myself "it wants me, I don't want it" Thanks again for these vlogs. Very helpful and inspiring.