Courage is Saying F*ck You to the Social Matrix 

It’s funny and endearing One of your life experiences is putting people to sleep and the other is encouraging them to wake up!

To the person who said: “it’s so much harder to do inquiry when there’s someone else around.” I get it. Relationships take up a lot of time. But the cool thing about inquiry is that you can do it on-the-fly, here and there. It’s not like Jhana practice where you need long periods of sitting in silence. Whatever you’re doing can become inquiry: “who is cleaning” - “what is driving this car” - “where are these thoughts appearing” - “what does the ‘I’ refer back to” etc. I’ve found it to be a portable tool. Also, an interesting fact: most people on the self inquiry retreats I’ve been on have had the Awakening (kensho / Satori) outside of the meditation hall. Usually it’s while walking in the grounds or while in bed dreaming and they literally wake up and True Nature is known. Or sometimes at home after the retreat is finished they go home and it just spontaneously happens. It’s not something that has to be worked out in a focused way. 😊

The mind keeps wanting to participate in the awakening process, like it's trying to manage the process. Then when there's an inkling of realization, the mind jumps up saying "ooooo! is that it?.... is that it?..... is that it???" Ultimately, that "it" never seems to arrive and I'm left with thinking that the mind has no understanding, but that's where this realization or awakening process ends. It's very confusing.

Just plain effing wonderful.

The pointing instructions that clicked for me were the complete opposite of what everyone recommends, I read a random reddit comment that said something like "Sit down and actively try to be UNAWARE, if you become aware of anything at all you lose and have to try again". Very quickly you realize that it's impossible NOT to be aware, because your very nature is awareness.

Awesome answers Angelo! One of the things I've noticed recently is that I am much more open to go to people and ask instead of just ruminating on a question and never asking because of being completely afraid of confrontation. I still feel that nervousness when talking to someone for some reason but it's a lot easier to actually approach and it happens with zero thinking about it beforehand. In other words, I don't imagine conversations anymore too.

I love it when you laugh Angelo. It reminds me to keep things light. Thank you for all you do.

No dollar amount could show my immense gratitude and appreciation for everything “you” have done for “‘me” 😊 I have found doing inquiry in any daily task or any moment of sensation to be so expansive and creates an ease into the “struggle “ of life. I like to ask myself almost jokingly “but from what point am I even sensing or experiencing this??”

Thank you for your commentary Angelo. What I find the most helpful while encountering my shadow are actually your videos about mind identification and meditation, also meeting my own pain with love and acceptance. The acceptance part is hard when body and psyche tantrums in tandem yet the very little part of me stays conscious and watches the cyclone while it’s happening. A year ago there was no conscious me present in that story. Now I feel (when I can 😂) and dis-identify (when I can) and it works. Slow process but worth it for sure as I can clearly see that my suffering is a mechanism that has been created and I now know it can also be un-created with practice. Many thanks to you as I find your teachings and book super helpful 🙏🏻 Ps. The supreme ice cream search never ends… I’ve been roaming the Earth for centuries hoping to find the ultimate flavour of liberation 😂

I really feel grateful for having you in this.

Everthing you post seems so synchronised with what’s going for me atm ! 😲 it’s wonderful ! !👌💯🥰

Enneagram fear points are 5,6,7, 2,3,4 are image points, and 1,9,8 are anger points. But everyone has fear, anger, and image. The Enneagram is a powerful system to see the primary fixation of the ego-how the ego identifies at its root. Seeing your Enneagram point deeply helps you wake up from it.

The path has been quite solitary today. I had a very melancholic dream. I know I have the capacity for the sadness, but the mind still feels like it needs to make sense of it, even as the world keeps turning and the dream fades further from my memory.

thank you! right first answer - about having no agenda spiritually and in practical life was so on point to this moment, loved it

Just realizing now how this really does get easier as it progresses in terms of time. As the illusion of time disappears it becomes easier to get past thoughts like "this is taking too long" So much easier to sustain practice when it doesn't feel like there's any wasted time

The acclimation was as intense as the remnants left of self-will. Thank you!

The 4/4 insight! That will stick with me, thank you caller. 😉

Love this format also. 💙🙏

Wow! Grazie mille, Angelo! You answered my question in such a detailed way 🙌🙏 I really appreciate it and this is super helpful. I will continue to put the attention deeply into the emotions as they come up in uncomfortable situation and I fully believe it will lead to greater and greater freedom over time 🙂

I like these videos and your live streams the best.

Thank you...these Q &A videos are great!🎉🎉🎉

, this really is a great format. Thank you so much, Angelo!

great questions, great responses...cheers

Thank you, this video was very helpful to my awakening process.

Title topic is perfect timing for me. Thank you for your regular content. Also want to say the retreat last month was a powerful catalyst for me. Grateful for you hosting them.

If PTSD is a pathological association with thought then how do we explain a prominent teacher we all know to be liberated developing it so severely that he had to quit teaching.

Thank you for these videos, I am not sure where I am at in the process but I can feel the truth in your messages.

Thanks Angelo 🙏

Please 🙏 ANY advice for someone who just can’t seem to shake a habit. Beer namely. I feel I just can’t say no. I get these waves of motivation lasting a couple weeks to a month but I always come back. Long family line of drinkers. Idk WTF to do. I’m exhausted from the fight. The guilt, shame, success ⭕️ lap is so boring and predictable. I’m just done trying to quit. Fck it

Love this! This is very fun and helpful. Thank you for taking the time to do this. Angelo’s answer to everything-Keep waking up!! It’s funny because it’s so true. 😊❤

Hearing you answer my comment gave me joy 😊

Loving the facial hair and the color of it!

When you say the sense gates are our access point to reality (paraphrasing), what I am confused about is, anything we perceive by way of the senses, this is always going to be a representation, our mind/brain's best approximation or interpretation, right? I get that it's not that there is a 'thing out there' and then a rendering of it... I think. I guess the answer is that the perception is all there is, however it is. Maybe it's not even accurate to call it a representation, since there is no thing represented. The experience, is the experience, is the experience. And that is the only reality to be experienced in experience. Right? Would so appreciate guidance on this point!!!!!!!

Thank you ❤

Yesterday I was walking thinking about my morning meditation and an inquiry came (won't try to explain it) which led me to a striking realization : I never was this person 😮 It wasn't that I was becoming this person less and less through shadow work or by seeing what I really am more and more, I WAS NEVER this person. I have known for a while that this little me is not who I am, but I had not seen the illusion through and through... not only this person isn't who I am, this person doesn't exist! There is only "I" (playing a game here 😉) 😂

Your content is next level fire. Took me years through the process of spiritual maturation to be able to connect with and begin to understand non-duality. Audience questions are also next level fire. Glad I found this channel.

Yea I liked this type of q and a. Thank you 🙏

love it !

Living fully outside the matrix 👍

Preach brother 👊

Just finished your book Angelo and just wanted to ask if using the terms - 'surrendering' to openness, salvation and liberation - come from mystical Christianity? I'm not religious but I remember Sunday school and the lessons of surrendering to Jesus for salvation. Thank you for all your guidance, it is all much appreciated.

💣💣💣🎯🎯🎯 This 💎🌊👉❤👈 These diamond waves pointers are bombs. Great gratitude for your Hereness,Isness beyond the words we merge

‘mind on tilt’ I was doing my taxes years ago and reach a line that said “if your child has been kidnapped go to line 49.” My mind stopped , for days. I was working through abuse memories with a therapist and went to her snd said’ I’m not crazy, the world is’ she said when you really get that, you’ll be fine. Thanks . I had no names for these things, lots of them. Thought hi was crazy.

This one has dharmma daddy energy written all over it, and we are here for it.

Astounded to see this title, as my mantra the last two days has been , “F*ck you.” Its effects are pretty remarkable. After a while, the “victimized ego,” loses the sense of being a victim and becomes empowered and centered. Whatever adversity comes at me is now met with an unapologetic and resounding, “F*ck You.” This is one of many times, for me, that you’ve put out a specific video that seems to correspond to my direct experience and mental content exactly as it’s happening. But to see, “F*ck you.” What are the odds? 😂. Thank you!

Thank you this was very helpful. On hearing you mention the enneagram I am compelled to give reference to the Enneagram of Liberation by Gangaji’s husband Eli Jaxon-Bear it’s very different from personality based enneagram teachings. His focus is on each specific fixation to help unlock and see past identification to source. It’s a book but also part of the Leela school courses. 💖💖💖 It’s masterful and powerful.

Through observing my body sensations I have come to a place without hope. This feels so radical at times that the mind thinks: I cannot stand this. Nowhere to go and nothing to do.

I live pretty well outside the social matrix. Often many days go by without seeing or talking to anyone at all. I have no agency in that respect. But I do have agency! I make sure there are no visible insects in any wood I put on the fire :)

There’s a lot of talk on the internet about “ follow your excitement “ but I’m starting to see excitement as a rabbit hole distraction , so just trying to observe it , could you say anything about this please ??❤️

U R Awesome!

For years, I've been following the teachings of those who say "Thoughts become things, you create your own reality with thoughts." Visualization exercises, "law of attraction" type teachings. The idea of this felt empowering, but I never mastered it. In fact, I seemed to "manifest" all the stuff I hate, or the opposite of what I thought I wanted. Then I had years of very intense physical symptoms of anxiety, which led me to finding things like "The Release Technique", which helped me tremendously, then I found Mooji, who says "stay as the witness, don't create anything." I was doing Dr. Joe Dispenza's meditations, which often focus on "creating your future self/personality." I wonder what you think of those types of things. I am burned out, but can't give up, for some reason. I also have had extreme instances where "something took me over" and I acted violently. That was helpful to hear that you understand that state of being, but I still have so much guilt. Maybe there is no "I", but violence occurred and someone was hurt. I am new to your teachings, but ever so grateful to have found you.

"Just Right" that came up for me before watching this...in the goldilocks story..not too hard, to soft.. as a sort of compass. Lol ty as always

Angelo, we’d love to see you in Australia and we’ll reward you with our beautiful sun, sea and sand and put a little colour on your pale skin. Please come and see us soon. 😎

My hang up obviously, but saying “the money isn’t in…’ is a yucky feeling analogy🙏

Mamalian social order, love it ❤😂

TKY 😌

F**k you social matrix, can't catch me hehehehe

Yes energetic restlessness 🫠😖

How do questions get posted to your question list?❤

Do conversations feel like you're perpetually telling little lies with people? I dislike answering "How are you?" because not only am I marring experience (making little of how much happens in a day or day-to-day living) but I am partaking in the social matrix by answering with socially-accepted prescripted responses.

Trying to do shadow work after first Awakening without knowing why it didn't seem to be working. I realised id put my heart❤ in Davy Jones locker couldn't feel much.Not much suffering but not much joy either very flat emotionally.Aha! It out twas just a trick

Oh god, movement with no afterthought is so weird and scary. Do you have any tips for that? I feel like my body is moving on its own and I've got no control. That is afterthought right? Anyways that's new to me and I'd like to know what to do or where to look to make this easier for myself

It was so uncanny getting my name mentioned when I wasn't even expecting it. Thanks for answering my question Angelo.

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angelo when you're awake is it like your're dying every moment?

So the difference between experiencing episodically and periodically is that realisation is a permanent shift? Because it's clear I experience it episodically and periodically and experience it a LOT. I use experience colloquially. I know what you mean. But I also love to think without being identified with thought (though there are also thoughts that are not pure mechanistical thinking so I am not realised). Thinking is rich as a sense in and of itself. I'm sure you're still thinking, you're just not attached to it. Thinking as a tool instead of a master. But I agree this is insidious. I am or have been a deeply analytical person but over the years it has gone down a huge amount. There's a lot more living in the moment and letting things unfold or maybe I'm just winging it but he seat of my pants (this is what I used to think when I used to this, before I had to have it all planned out and be on top of things which I enjoyed but I've just changed, just more relaxed about it all). I wonder if something is happening gradually or maybe it's just relaxation, because that's all it is.

Interesting because I have religious based OCD and my brain has always tried to figure out what or how that plays into awakening. Like is it a tool to use or is it simply suffering for suffering sake? It’s very tough also not to feel like my brain possess me with its agenda. Is it my shadow? Hmmm🤔

So, to put it very simply: after awakening one still retains the capacity to engage in work, or even plan for the future, right? Or use imagination as a tool if that's what's required? I'm asking this as someone who has real issues with getting stuff done and has a strong tendency to just sit around and contemplate the present moment, etc. But planning and executing often seems like a monumental task. Perhaps it's perfectionism, so there's an actual desire to create, engage with life but also a persistent belief in my own helplessness, lack of control over my life in the relative, practical sense. How do I work with that? Question the "I" who believes is helpless? Or the motivations?

hello viewers of simply always awake, I have a question for you all or anyone here, what, if any, changes have you noticed in your facial expressions/eyes during this path? something I think about semi-regularly as its very fascinating to look into all the eyes of these teachers but I don't see anyone rlly talk about it, they look crazy (crazy as in crazy cool)

Do you think about what you're saying? Or do you always just speak?

I'm not that exercised about the social matrix. I have people I can be authentic with who accept me. Don't need more. But there's a part of my ego that's still digging in, saying, "So I'm just stuck like a fly in amber in some multi-dimensional ever-transforming, never-transforming object of no time and no space with no purpose? I have no agency and I'm not even allowed to ask who came up with the whole thing or why? (Or apparently I won't care at some point -- and how is that different from being incurious and accepting my fate with pure faith like a religious fanatic?) And so what if I do surrender? It doesn't seem to matter anyway, since everything is already written…" Fully accepting the universe, war crimes and all, feels like Dr. Pangloss constantly chirping to Candide that this is the "best of all possible worlds." I know that's the most cynical possible interpretation. (Hello childhood trauma.) Even after doing so much shadow work, it still pops up between the cracks at the slightest chance. Especially when I feel vulnerable -- when I feel close. I guess it's not anyone's job to sell me on the universe. Other parts of me know it's all a gift, magnificent beyond all reckoning, and so much more than any human can begin to enjoy and appreciate in thousands of lifetimes. But my little ego still (quite hilariously) seems to think it's a savvy and canny maverick who’s going to outsmart the universe, if only it hangs on long and hard enough and thinks hard enough. Sigh. It's OK, habibi. I'm here for your frightened delusions. I love you, too.

What would you suggest when it comes to psychopaths and sociopaths (both are psychopaths), as they don't have the ability to empathise with anybody or anything?

" seemless" or "seamless"?

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Great video. Thanks. Check out the Oscar’s nominated Japanese movie “Perfect Days”. It’s about a man living in a perfect state and living life. It’s difficult to describe but absolutely beautiful.

While listening to this I wonder, how you would position all that politically. In my process of healing I realize more and more the role capitalism and class play within my traumata. Also I dived deep into Derrida and it seems to me, he was very much awake compared to what you sometimes say. I also found, that you are using the word ghost very compareable to him and he had a strong political dimension in his cosmos of metaphysics.

Surrender means there is no longer any restlessness. Surrender means you know through every fiber of your being that there is no one here living a life, there is Life flowing through the body-mind personality, for as long as it lasts. TRy not to laugh at this 😂😅😂

How is it possible to fully get what you say, vids and book, yet be so far away from even a shade of awakening. Ha! The joke’s on me. Huh??

I don't think you are a two.

soothing.. but not as U.G.Krishnamurti does. He still rules.

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Thanks for sharing.

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