cozy video games 🎮, library books haul 📚, strawberry crochet 🍓 ( weekend in my life ) 

Definitely relate to having anxiety over the end of quarantine. It's a global light at the end of the tunnel, but personally it feels as though my safety blanket excuse is being pulled away and I need to face a lot very suddenly.

im absolutely obsessed with ur fashion sense ur brain is so huge

Honestly even the people with direction have no idea what they’re doing. Lol I know growing up is scary but life has never ending possibilities. You don’t have to write a book today to be successful. You just need to be happy and healthy. Make small steps towards what you want in life. As far as your writing career make a little list that dedicates steps that don’t scare you but motivate you. You got this.

You speak so eloquently about anxiety and I relate so strongly and I believe most people are feeling the same way. Thank you for speaking through your thoughts in such a real way. 💛💛

I graduated college in the pandemic and your feelings are 100% valid.

Re: pursuing one’s dream... even after you get rejected, you keep that dream alive! I always have to remind myself that rejection (and failure too) is a necessary part of the path. Best of luck to you!

New viewer and I’m obsessed with your videos! This one was esp the perfect blend of cute, interesting book recs and eloquent/vulnerable thoughts about genuine struggles of the pandemic. You seem so wonderful, can’t wait to watch more!

Me during the existential crisis part of the video: YES..YES...TOTALLY *nods vigorously* I feel every word you say Monica. It's so hard and so weird to feel this way, but I hope we make it through💕🌸🍃

I feel you so hard on the existential crisis 💜💜 I was already pretty directionless before the pandemic but with lockdown I gladly put worrying about he future on hold for a while. It was only when my unemployment was going to run out (which didn’t end up happening but regardless) I felt the same panic of I have to figure out what I’m going to do next. I eventually decided to apply to grad school but making that decision was so anxiety inducing! It’s so hard to take your time and make decisions that are right for you when it feels like there are time constraints. It helped me to remember that I don’t have to figure everything out all at once, and that I can always change my mind if it’s not the right path for me. I hope everything works out for you 🥰🥰🥰

Your editing is so beautiful 🥺

this was such a cozy vlog! i totally feel you on trying to make up for time in quarantine. it's a lot to take in for sure.

Your existential crisis section really hit home with me. I want to be a writer too, and the way you described needing to write and the fear and the reasoning of at least if you're not rejected it means you keep the dream alive...yep. I feel the exact same way! You are definitely not alone. (Plus, I know plenty of writers who struggle with writing...it's a really hard and often isolating thing, and sometimes it's even harder not to beat yourself up over it.) Take small steps and take it one day at a time. You always speak so eloquently and kindly and from the heart, so I have no doubt that any future books written by you would express the same!

I really love this vlog!! You can just see the care that goes into your editing! 💕💕💕

For me, it wasn’t the writing that made Radio Silence, it was the relationships that were so raw and heartbreaking

I have had migraines for the past 4 days and your channel soothed me so much. Finally feel a bit relaxed again. Tysm

I’m not sure how much you’ve actually written and made public but like anything start small and go from there 화이팅하세요 ฅ^•ﻌ•^ฅ

I love your vlogs ✨ I really feel you on the lockdown-is-ending-crisis, I think a lot of people are feeling it! 💕

I saw that thumbnail, went ooooh (insert heart eyes) and immediately clicked on the video

Aww, this was such a lovely vlog. I feel like I'm hanging out with a unicorn in an ice cream parlour with all the lovely colours 😍 those dresses are so cute! I hope you're not too stressed over all the big life stuff! I think we live in a world thats so success and action driven and sometimes we have to remind ourselves that its OK to just be OK. If that makes any sense!

Monica 🎀✨ you and i have such similar likes, personalities, and quirks. I’m a second generation korean canadian girly (my dad Korean my mommy white, I’m also a Kim!) and youre literally the Korean friend I never had irl. Its been a blast parasocially sharing similar interests and lifestyle, korean culture, crafting, cozy video games, personal style, and your appreciation for tenderness and beauty in the world around you. Ive watched so many of your videos lately and its been getting me through a really tough time. I paused to read what part you annotated as “stunning”; i really loved it and thought, “wow. So often do i feel seen and delighted by what she chooses to share. I’m so glad she chose to share herself and what she thinks and enjoys with the world.” You are so lovely. Thank you, I’m grateful for you and I’m sure I’m not the only one. You are a wonderful, beautiful, and STUNNING person inside and out. I wish we were friends, but tbh i respectfully also wish i could smooch you! MAJOR GIRL CRUSH ALERT

is that namjoon's answer sticker on your camera? omg you are the cutest :( i love watching your vlogs so much, your aesthetic is just so perfect & your voice is so calm and nice to listen to :))

The dark red strawberries are gorgeous with your dark hair and bright lovely 💕💕👩🏼‍🎤skin 📚💃🏽

What is the name of the Dracula book, beautiful angel? (Does anyone else know?) I didn't catch it... can't see the cover all that well. 🧛‍♂️🦇

omg i would LOVE to talk to you about that whole anxiety thing! i was definitely going through stuff like that and im STILL going through it (although i have kinda determined that being a proofreader is my next step) but the biggest thing i can recommend is the book "What Color Is Your Parachute?" it helps give so much clarity to those worries of "what's next" and such. but if you ever read a book, just simply based on what you recommend and talk about, i would be 1000% down to read through it!!

My brother's husband is soooo cute!

Looks like you are on the right path...you are doing exactly what you are meant to do...thanks for sharing your joy with the world ...don't worry so much

Girl, I've just found you and my god I adore your videos. I see you read a lot of graphic novels - and so in regards to your anxiety about finding what you want to do, I'm going to roughly quote from one of my favourites, Fruits Basket. When you're surrounded by piles and piles and piles of laundry, what do you do? Do you sit at the centre and panic? No, you reach for that first bit of clothing and focus on the smaller steps. Looking ahead is so difficult and you've done amazing to break everything down that you need to do... but we don't have to be focused on what's five steps ahead... sometimes it's okay to focus on what's in front of us...

If you’ve noticed a spike in views on your channel lately, I’ve been binge watching your videos lol you are so cute, I love your vibe, it’s so calming and I love your book and game recommendations! By the way, have you considered self publishing? I have published 2 books (children’s books) through kindle direct publishing, it’s completely free to use so it’s worth checking out 😊

I loved this whole vlog. Every second. I love your willingness to share with us, the music, the ambiance, it was all so soothing and relatable 💕💕💕 also you really made me want to physically read a dowry of blood which is crazy since I mostly audio read lol 🥰

Argh I want that denim dress with the funfetti jumper, so cute and cosy! I’m binging your vids as I’m in a stressful adulting phase and they calm me down xx

love your fashion, i should take some inspiration🥰

Hello! Please don't be so hard on yourself. Life is a flow and changes all the time, approach the situation the way it makes you feel comfortable. We are all different beautiful beings and you are such a creative special being that deserves to shine and always be kind to yourself. This virus was very hard for everyone but at the same time there are some lessons to be learned from it all. Trust yourself and just follow your flow gradually 🧁💗 Sending lots of huggles 💜

I am a new subscriber and so far, I am truly loving your content :) I was wondering if you had any plans on doing a Q&A video? I would love to know a little bit more about who you are :)

I can absolutely relate to the anxities you have. I have absolutely the same & people keep telling me I'm doing the right thing and I'm on my right way but it doesn't feel like it. So feel hugged, you are not alone.

About deciding what to do with your life when you come to a roadblock here is how I am doing it: I set aside a time of day (for me it is 21:00 every day), where I stop what I am doing, put on some music i love and go online searching stuff, taking notes and writing down phone numbers and e mail adresses for questions i want to ask the next morning. At around 22:30 i am done with searching and go back to doing stuff that I like. Every day I am doing this even on weekends and until I get a new job or some kind of income I will keep doing this cause even if it is a slow process, I've learnt so much about so many things, that there is no other way, than to get to the bottom of it in the end. If you are consistent with your searching and do it everyday, you will get there one day. Just set a specific time for it, so you won't have to worry about it all day.

i just found your channel yesterday and i am in love! your style is so amazing and i love all the colors everywhere ♥ i wish i could dress like you :)

another wonderful video~ thank you monica!

I hope that after a month you are on a better place about the future. I hope that you will be able to find options for your writing career. I will advice that you try to find a mentor that will help you set yourself right.

appreciate your real talk moment about what next, because i was also worrying a bit about while leaving my parents' in the fall will mean independence things are just gonna be so different so while i cant try not overworry about things that haven't happened yet it is hard to do. also i listened to yahdon israel's ig live today about the books he wants to acquire/invest in as the new senior editor of simon & schuester instagram.com/tv/CM0RBI4hx7I/? and i think what i want to say to you is don't discount yourself before you've begun! knowing your audience and figuring out what the story you want to tell and write is key and then i think publishing is slowly shifting to make it so that your future book will totally be acquired and out for folks to read one day! also agh those rainbow dresses and strawberry earrings are so cute!

thank you for being vulnerable and relatable 🤍

I loved A Dowry of Blood and Howl’s Moving Castle! I found the book to be pretty different from the movie but I really adored both. It was so good to see love for A Dowry of Blood too, since you’re the only person (besides myself and the friend I buddy read with) I’ve seen talk about it. Sorry you’re feeling the quarantine wind down panic, I hope things feel better soon 💖

You are really cute and pretty!! You seem like a very sweet person 🥰💗

All your Videos are so nice to watch its all worm and cozy vibes

🙋🏻‍♀️I'm still in NYC! I wanna hang out and learn your whimsical ways🥺

omg your dress is so cute. where did you buy it?

Your talk about direction and life really hit home for me 💕 as someone who is currently going through a similar experience, it really brings me comfort to see you discussing these topics 💖 what has been helping me is just taking these day by day and living those little joys instead of stressing endlessly about the future like ive been doing my whole life. In the end, whatever choice we make will be the right one, and if its not, we can also choose new paths!!

Can totally relate on the existential crisis! Another lovely video Monica ❤️

girl i need the link for those white boots!!

omg i'm going through the exact same existential crisis so i feel you 💜 i personally feel stuck, like i'm running late and need to figure out my like right now because i'm 24, which is ridiculous obviously because i'm still young lol anyways just know you're not alone and as cliché as it may sound i honestly believe that everything will be alright ✨

you look so cute! what a cozy vlog

ooh, a dowry of blood sounds wonderful :O i can definitely relate to what you were talking about! for me, i'm going into my senior year of college in the fall, and am kinda terrified of the idea of graduating and having to actually go out into the real world after..

The page refreshed right before I could send my comment orz - here's to me trying to rewrite it again lol --- I've added Dowry of Blood to my TBR, too~ Spoilers in case you haven't picked them up yet / finished them: I love Howl's Moving Castle - it's one of my fav Ghibli films, and the books are amazing, too (I rec checking out the rest of the author's books if you haven't already! I own quite a few of them (and borrowed a lot more lol)). I remember being so surprised how different the two were from each other, but the books give a lot more context about the movie (and even a few surprises like her sister*s* hahaha). Thanks for the Bloom rec! I finished reading it a few days ago, and it was cute! There were some parts that I thought transitioned weirdly or that I needed more information about, but I enjoyed it all the same~ I'm currently finishing up The Unbearable Lightness of Being, of which I have mixed feelings about. I had higher expectations, but really I ended up hating everyone LMAO. I also just finished reading Counting by 7s (nice story, bit too neatly wrapped up by the end but might be because it was targeted for a younger demographic?) and All Systems Red (really good - am interested to read the other books). --- Thank you for talking about your anxieties. It comforted me to know that someone was in the same boat as I am. I've been a constant ball of stress, fear, and anxiety (since before quarantine), but have managed to put it off for the year. You really put into words what I feel right now, and it makes me feel better to know that others are going through the same things. Together, we can make it out of this 'slump' and into the next chapter~ (I love your metaphor, but I personally consider myself to be one large book with each chapter or part being the start of something new, but all contained in the same entity - me.) --- I love love love your outfits. Your aesthetic (clothes, make-up, decor) always puts a smile to my face even though it's not my particular style. I think it's because your demeanor is so infectious - thank you for that! I'm glad to have stumbled across your channel recently~

I love your dress!

How old are you

Read Radio Silence and loved it. It felt very relatable and it was just a fun read. Also Ni No Kuni is a great game🤗

U r so cute sis.

I can relate to SO much of what you’re going through here in your ~existential crisis~ and I just really appreciate you being honest about it!! it makes it all a little less lonely. hang in there, you’re doing great 💕

Your talk about what to do next and the feeling of not having your friends bc they left the city is something I really relate. I miss being in college exactly because of this.

My heart goes out to you figuring out what direction you should take. I graduated high school 5 years ago and never studied and I’ve never had any sort of job. I live with my parents but I’m a heavy burden on them. I’m so scared and I feel hopeless so often, so I get it. Here’s to us. 💓💓💓

Honestly, actors, writers, singers... they all get rejected so many times before their opportunity comes through so I would keep that in mind. It is a weird moment in everyone's life so really don't stress. I think that now you can start working on new projects that you have thought about it. Or continue with projects you have left aside. If there is a story you are writing, keep going! If you have an idea, start it! The fear and anxiety are always going to be there and at least for me, I just had to go for it. Jump into the deep end, That's what worked for me. Hope you are doing okay! xx

Your outfits and whole aesthetic is so adorable and unique! 🌷💕 if you don’t mind me asking, where are your white gogo boots from? The heel shape is so lovely!!

Okay, love you, you're so sweet and nicely rounded! You're also sooo pretty and this whole clog felt just so, so cozy and like I was talking to a friend!

I really appreciated you talking about your visions and anxieties about your life. I'm currently working full time but thinking of going back to school part time and listening to someone else having some of the same thoughts I am was really affirming.

Oh wow! What you told about anxiety towards what's coming next, I really feel that way and you put words on it, thank you!

I love your vlogs !! The vibes are all here haha, oh and do you, by chance, remember where you got that namjoon and bicycle standee??

Omg do you happen to have that strawberry crochet pattern? I want to crochet that for myself 😭 its so cute!!!

I read Howl’s moving Castle recently too 🥰✨🌷

Thank you for being so honest about your anxiety when it comes to making decisions for the future, I feel exactly the same!!! (And now also less alone💛) I also really loved your comparison of different parts of your life being like different books in a series, what a nice way to think about it!

So cute! 💝( 👍🏽 can buy pink cord covers, I have so my bunny doesn’t chew my cords….and it’s looks really pretty 😻

thank goodness for another monica vlog! I just finished last night at the telegraph club. the themes of race and sexuality were painful at times but it was so well researched and well executed and the romance was so lovely, I'd highly recommend! 🐛

your videos make me so happy💕

Love those little dresses, let me follow them now lol

You are crushing it! You should go for it with writing! Have you read Julia Cameron’s the Artists Way? You should check it out! Don’t worry about getting so far into your worries about the future things and just think of the next right step - which is writing each day! You already have such an amazing audience that wants to see all of what you come up with! 😊 (Yes I did bring in Anna from Frozen with “the next right step” but it is such a good mantra!) Doing that helped me this year to reevaluate my own life at the age of 33! It is never to late to make stuff happen. 💪

Your dresses are so pretty! 🌸🌸🌸

I have ni no Kuni on ps4 and I’m not a huge fan but I might try on switch! I’m currently reading midnight library and hating it but I’m powering through!

This was such a lovely vlog🍓 Truly just listening to you talk and your way of expressing your thoughts I know your writing is beautiful. Wishing you all the best pursuing your dreams and making writing your career. Excited to buy your books in the future🌻

MISS YOUUUUUU

I get that so much what you said about needing direction and not really knowing whts next. I have felt so lost for about 5 months now and now that I am finally somewhere close to an "Out", my coices are being questioned left and right. I have always done my thing despite that, but its exhausting. for once in my life I would really love to do something and just have everybody be ok with it, not only my mom and 2 best friends. Thank you for sharing your thoughts, sometimes it really helps me to hear that there are other people too, who dont have it all figured out either.

Thank you so much for posting. I love all of your content. A Discovery of Witches is on my night stand ready to be read. Excited to start it! I don't have anything super useful to say, but I would encourage you to just keep working towards your goal. Don't give yourself a deadline, don't worry about the logistics ahead of time. If you're a planner that might drive you crazy, but it sometimes helps to just go at it one step at a time without worrying about all the steps. You're definitely not alone about end of pandemic anxiety. Hang in there!

Your vlogs are always so comforting and calming! I'm currenting in the mood for a mystery so I started the second book in the Good Girl's Guide to Murder series! Also I was wondering where you got your vases from? They are so pretty!

30 minutes!?!?! wow 🤩 the colours in this are just stunning and so are you🥰

The hair flip shadow made me weirdly content

I absolutely love the film Howl's Moving Castle, in fact it's my favourite film of all time. But I didn't love the book and it made me so sad. Having said that though, I was in a bit of a slump when I read it and put it on pause halfway through, so maybe I should try it again

What was the name of the brand where the dresses came from? They’re so cute

Fun new vlog!

I love your vlogs a whole lot

Howl's is such a great book

Where is the link for the small business?