Crossfade is a great band. This song has a deep meaning, as well as a deep connection with me. I hate the way I am, and in the end I realize I not only cheated the ones I love, but also cheated myself by hurting them. This song is amazing, and slap in my face in a good way.
I agree I was in Wausau at treatment at early 20's for three months and this song would come on the radio 📻 it made me think about everyone I loved I hurt them never meant to be so cold.
Favorite song as a child, favorite song an adult. Honestly this song has gotten me through some dark times, I've always had and been told I have a "Cold" exterior, I don't mean to I've gone through so much I keep myself closed off to everyone rarely let people in. It really does hurt I have trouble making friends and keeping people, "I'm sorry for the way I am"
This song touches on so many aspects of my life. It stirs up voices of old demons that float on winds of my subconscious. I can still feel the welcome sting of old wounds that help me to remember why I will always continue to fight!
i can remember this song when it was first out i had fucked up with my ex it came on the radio and i let it play on her voicemail this was long before we had all the tech shit we got... this song is like the athem to my life
“I never really wanted you to see the screwed up side of me that I keep, locked inside of me so deep, it always seems to get to me. I never really wanted you to go, so many things you should have known, I guess for me there’s just no home I never meant to be so cold.” Mom although you weren’t around as much when I was a little kid and I know we used to argue a lot when I was 19, your sister said we did because we are the same and have the same personality and it’s been 2 years since you left this world. I’m grateful that you started to become a mother again towards the end but it still kills me to this day that I can’t wake up and walk into the room and see you next to dad in bed in the morning. Although I live at home physically, mentally I guess for me there’s just no home and that “home” was your love as a mother for me I miss you and I will forever be broken from loosing you there is no mending my heart back together…
This song is the best song that I know by far that can describe something I did in the past, I dealt really bad with a situation that really put me down back then and I was cold with this person, but I never really meant to be cold.
"Crusader Tank responding." "Delivering ordnance." "Clear a path." That's right, bitch. I found this song through Generals: Zero Hour. Eat your heart out.
I remember listening to this song for the first time. My brother had won a psp from my local churches raffles. The tears streaming down my face as I reminisce. I never meant to be so cold my whole life. I didn’t know this is how I am. I’m sorry but my words are meaningless. It’s too late. I’m sorry and want you to know I’m still learning as a person. I thought I had shit figured out but I didn’t. I really wish in the close future we can reconnect but I know it’s almost impossible. I’ve done wrong but I still cannot fathom this was the result. I’m stuck in my cold, lone world. I really want you to know, to show you my heart/guts but I know it’s not going to be accepted anymore. I never stopped to think of you. When I first saw you, I had knew from the jump that I would need to change in order to get you. You alone changed me. But then a simple error blew out of proportion/control and it spread like the everspanding universe. To this day the effects are still around, but we simply pretend they arent. And I hate it. Everyone went from genuine to cold and it’s so painful to see and live but I understand. Ever since the error, I reverted back into who I was. And by doing so, I took a step backwards. I felt like that’s what I was supposed to do but that wasn’t it. I don’t know what to do. I’m lost. I’m hurt. But my back hasn’t touch the floor. I’m taking it all to the chin. I’ll keep walking, but I want you to know I acknowledge my faults. My errors. My fucked up life. I knew but I kind of never believed that everything I witness and done during my youth would affect me so heavily. Why was I always this way? Why am I me.
♫ I never really wanted you to see The screwed-up side of me That I keep locked inside of me so deep, It always seems to get to me I never really wanted you to go So many things you should have known I guess for me there's just no hope; I never meant to be so cold ♪
I'm here because this is a fucking awesome song! Can we all just agree on that, emo or not? Jeez, just listen to the song people and stop hating on each other!
xD me n my ex gf haven't spoken for around 3 weeks now, she just randomly sent me this song like 20 mins ago so I sent her "the bitch came back" -theory of a dead man (p.s I was a crossfade fan long before she sent me this song :D)
6 years late but kind of going through the exact same with my crush and guess what, bitch came back randomly played on Spotify last week. She's the I'm gone, no I'm back type and I've thought of sending it to her. Normally has a sense of humor but doubt "bitch so dumb she'd sing along" to that one
Being a drug addict myself being with a girl who is not this song really hits home she obsessed with trying to change but she has not been successful so far
I am a female...and yes my ex fiance had changed a lot and was incredibly mean during the time he was cheating on me and I didn't know it. When i found out and broke up with his, he realized that I was the best thing that happened to him. I helped him out so much in his life, but he paid me back by cheating on me twice (two different girls).
Same here. It's between me and my mom. Nobody else needs to know. We all have those things that we keep to ourselves. The song says a lot in so many ways.
