@@itsnotjustaboulder look kid I understand you don’t have a soul a Conscience a sense of humour a sense of humanity you don’t care about anyone you hate what is popular to hate and making people feel bad about themselves fuels your self-esteem if you continue down this route you’ll have no friends nobody will actually like you and you will end up dying all alone
Same ah. I always try to act like a certain person I want to be, but in the end of the day, I always am dissapointed with myself. It sucks but I hope you are doing fine , take care
Same, I always act differently whenever I’m around different people and I struggle to know which one is the real me, even when I’m alone I feel like I’m pretending to be someone else, so it usually leads to me wondering if I really am someone if that makes sense? Cause I know I exist and I have a body and a name, but I act differently around different people and I’m not sure if any of those “personalities” (I’m not talking about alters btw, I don’t have DID) are even me, idk who I am and it bothers me a lot, I hope you’re doing fine tho ^^
same man, honestly i have a lot of anxiety and i dont think that mixes well with RU-vid But i mostly do it to make people happy an to get me away from stress and people. I get really uncomfortable near people especially now that I’m in highschool it really difficult because i dont have all my old friends and they’d help out a ton with my anxiety. Anyways enough shit about me, hope you’re doing great and dont worry about stuff to much, hope everything gets better. and stay safe everyone
I've gotta say, as a dad, that I hope crumbs family is proud of the amazing work she does. Her work is incredible and her personality is always a highlight when I hear her in videos with captain sparklez, playing among us or stardew.
I feel like this video describes how Crumb feels like her existence is split into the image of a human/creator (human Crumb) and her art/avatar (cat Crumb), with the anthropomorphic cat being the self that comes out of these images (let's call her real Crumb). Crumb as a person feels torn between her life as a shyer creator (human Crumb turning away in the shadow) and her fame as an artist, her avatar smiling in the center of attention (flashes in the face of happy cat Crumb); She's therefore "in the middle" between the two extremes (real Crumb always standing and walking between human and cat Crumb; flickering between human hands and paws). However, real Crumb is scared that avatar Crumb might outweight creator Crumb - after all, creator Crumb seems unimportant next to avatar Crumb who is loved by everybody. She is afraid that her creator self becomes more and more unimportant until her art, her artist persona, is the only thing left in the public eye (human Crumb flickering and disappearing, real Crumb hugging human Crumb close as human Crumb cries). This encompasses the deep fear of people only caring about her because she makes pretty animations and not because of her personality, and that she will only matter to people and be remembered if she creates artworks - in fact she's scared that people don't even think about Crumb as a human at all, and the only thing that matters is her art. (That might also mean that she might end up neglecting her personal needs in order to make more animations which again, ties in with creator Crumb seeming unhappy in the animation.) With these worries in the back of her mind, Crumb tries to figure out who she really is, especially in the eyes of others. Between her as an creator, and her avatar, who is she supposed to be? Is she not so much more than just her art? And of course, there's a fourth Crumb, as the four chairs at the table show. It's a shadowy human form, a very important Crumb... But she has never been seen by us viewers. This is the real life person Crumb, the one hidden away behind a metaphorical door. A mystery to the public... But not to Crumb herself. And while real self doesn't really play a role when it comes to her troubles concerning her public standing, she's not unaffected either. And so, Crumb needs to balance all these aspects of herself, and it's hard. It seems that sometimes, the pressure to make art in order to satisfy her viewers expectations is overwhelming and that she fears that people will be mad at her or leave her if she doesn't make animations. She is scared that people might value her work, but not her as an creator, not even mentioning real life her... And as if to prove a point, she deals with this sentiment in a way that will also peak the interest and entertain the fans of her art - by making it an animation.
im not even a big creator but this hits too hard. I can't begin to imagine how stressful being a public figure is, and all i wanna say is you as a person are infinitely more important than as an entertainer. take care of yourself, no matter what others think
Can we just take a moment to appreciate that this is at least 352 frames she had to draw. This is such a good animation and so emotional I don't know how you do it, it's amazing. I sincerely hope you continue to animate you have such a talent!
@@choco_riri rlly? That's crazy to do it at that many frames per second, when I animate I often don't do it at such high FPS as it means drawing soooooo many frames lol
Hey guys just letting you know that crumb is probably ok!! As someone that also uses art and animation as an outlet for stress and overwhelming things, it's nice to be able to draw out fears, anxieties, depression, or just overwhelming emotions into animation and art! It's calming and is very healthy to do. I've never met a single artist that didn't use their passion as an outlet for strong emotions. Even when you are technically okay, it's nice to draw the feelings you can't put into words. This was gorgeous to watch crumb! Really resonated with the anxiety and stress you feel. It's amazing how you manage to show you're negative emotions into heart touching animations :)
Yep, also it's good not to be an armchair therapist by trying to psychoanalize people. Just let crumb have her privacy and express herself they way she wants to.
Guys, I know "lore" and "OC's" are common in the animation world, but for real, Crumb is clearly expressing herself and going through emotions. Hard emotions, but hard doesn't need to mean bad. Anyway, she is not trying to write a story other than the story of her life and who she is. I feel that this is healthy escapism. Love you Crumb!
When this animation came out I would watch it over and over to figure out the "lore" of it, but I'm now struggling with my own identity and realize that's all this animation is... Probably
as an artist with a persona who people seem to like more than the person I really am, and who people seem to think is the real me, this hit WAY too close to home lmao
Crumb! This turned out so good 😭 I was really excited to see this when I saw the frames and you did such a amazing job animating this, there's so much to digest in here especially with the emotion! Keep up the amazing work, and I hope your alright 💖
This captures my feelings towards RU-vid as a whole so well, I’m glad I’m not alone in this. You suffocate in trying to put on this image/persona so much you lose yourself in the process.
I've actually become someone else due to this. But I have a lot of different personas around different apps, so that kind of keeps me on track, but I spend more time on here than irl
(ES) Lyrics: How does the world perceive me perceiving myself? All i care to do is sip on beer and chocolate milk I'm frightened more than usual, lately I do not translate into 'One of the boys' 'Lotus flower' Or 'chinita' I'm just ES and i'd prolly rather Nap than wonder, restlessly: Will ya ever be impressed by me? Mom doesn't think i fit into the Darling archetype, but That's an ancient pair of jeans And my thighs are Crafted Holy, Rolling thunder Forget the numbers Forget the numbers, please Every goddamn family reunion, Someone's got somethin' to say How didja become this way? As if i've made a mistake Meanwhile, they've slaughtered the cake
Tiny crumb is the main attraction, basically what crumb acts to the public. The box crumb is how she feels around friends and people at school. Unidentified. Whilst the humanoid cat is a mix imbtween or it could be a more shy version of the others. Last is shadow crumb. This is the real crumb the crumb that nobody knows of. This shadow crumb carries all the weight of the other crumbs but yet still feels love for them. Shadow crumb is the hidden crumb that's probably why she is a shadow.
the amount of emotion you can see through the thick lineart is amazing- even such a cute or simplistic style can be used to express different emotions and this captures the whole idea well
If Crumb says she's uncomfortable with this I will delete it! Okay, I don't want to go too deep considering all the characters are representations of yourself in some way BUT I think (or at least how I'm percieving it) is the the anthro crumb is the "best of both worlds" so a mix of box crumb and regular crumb. In the last video, regular crumb was shown to be a villain of sorts and box crumb to have been resentful of regular crumb's existence. From this video, we can see that regular crumb is like a front, or the star child of the channel, she's the face. Box crumb is less so, attending things like school and being the quiet bit of the whole operation. The box is also shown to hide human crumb's face who we see as a shadow in these videos. So the story I'm getting here is that each "crumb" represents the mind (box), the heart (middle) and the body (regular). All of them are separate entities, box crumb wants things to go unseen and to disappear? Middle crumb has fears and insecurities while regular crumb mocks both of them because she's the popular one, the star child. Why can't they be more like her? Whether regular crumb is doing it on purpose or not is up for debate but otherwise this story (and vent piece, if that's what it is) is wonderfully crafted. Amazing work as always Crumb :] EDIT: to clarify, regular crumb isn't actually a villain- im just using basic story vocab to fit things into other things. regular crumb is still crumb in a sense, all of these ARE parts of her.
i think that the person with the box head is cuptoast, the cat is their online persona and the humanoid cat is cuptoast looking in trying to decide which is their real identity, but thats just my interperatation of it (amazing animation by the way, looks super cool!)
From what I'm understanding, this is supposed to be Crumb splitting into 3 personalities: one that's more private with themselves, (The person with the box), one that's more inclined to fame and attention (The cat), and one that's supposed to be an in-between of them (The cat person), but, the more private personailty is becoming more distant and disappearing. (Again, this is from what I understand, if anyone has a diffrent opinion/view on this, you can go ahead and share what you see in this with me)
The familly renounion part is very relatable with me on m'y fasse Side of the familly its like the whole familly Hates me and as someone Who as facial and body desmorphya and as someone Who also suffers whit their own identity this hits hard i hope your good life can be hard also crumb your so good at editing i wanna become like you one day!❤️🍄
@@willowpets finally someone that I agree like all the other comes are theorizing like very complicated stuff but like it's very Cleary a identity problem
You are who’s most important, my friend. The person behind closed doors deserves love and recognition as well. They’re also a person and is just as amazing as the person who everyone else sees. Take care of yourself, you’re more than worth it.
@@itsnotjustaboulder uhm excuse me, But don’t just assume they are a furry like that? :// It’s just rude and disrespectful. Even if they are, what is the problem? Just get off from here bruh
I love the way you used Furry!Crumb as metaphor here! Box!Crumb is the more irl personal one, as shown wearing a backpack, presumably going to school, while Feral!Crumb is your RU-vid persona, being in front of a bunch of camera’s flashing, Furry!Crumb is somewhere in between, both physically and personality-wise, trying to find where they belong
Hot damn this is gorgeous and you've wrangled a comprehensive idea out of an abstract feeling and I made respect you! (Also that flicker at 1:00 is absolutely /chef's kiss)
tbh whenever i watch or listen to this video and looking at the comments it would just make me cry every time and at first i thought it was about someone u love leaves u but turns out its about someone who doesn’t know their own identity, love the art btw❤
I think it's interesting when the personas we create for ourselves, either to express ourselves or to get away from our reality all eventually become integral to who we think we are (which can be really confusing for someone). I'm not sure if this is what crumb was going for as a message, but that idea resonates with me.
Okay this make me feel called out, I have problems with my identity to the point that I even question who I am or forget who I was, if you talk to someone near my location like my neighborhood or at my school people there will tell you different things, like for example some called me stupid while others called smart, others say I'm lazy, some say I'm burnt out, and that's just at one place And it's hard knowing that I don't even know who I am, and I know that a part of me will always be missing or forgotten
Hey Crumb I have to say this resonated with me. I may not have a public persona to balance with my identity but I often don’t feel like myself either. It’s weirdly comforting to know other people suffer similar problems as me, and for that I have to thank you. Anyways I hope the best for you, even if I don’t know who you really are.
it's very rare that I see a video that I can heavily relate to my thought process and how it seems too layered compared to everyone else's,, thank you for making me feel a little more understood :)
I can’t wait for the premiere! Your art is amazing! And before this starts, I wanna say that you are a nice, awesome, funny, talented, likeable and great person🌻 I hope you know that
Dear Crumb, Thank you for sharing your deepest emotions with us and making something so beautiful. As someone who experienced a lot of similar feelings (potentially, i can relate but I can't truly know how you feel) this really comforts me and makes me feel less alone. Now I can revisit those feelings in a safe way.
there are 2 main versions of crumb, small cat and box cat. the small one represents her online life and the other her personal life. the furry-looking cat is trying to hold on to her personal life but slowly over time it slips away as her online persona takes over i like it :)
CRUMBBBB THAT WAS BEAUTIFUL!!!! the emotion is palpable, i love how you used such a happy color palette to depict such different scenes, oh my god. this is easily my favorite animation you've done so far, i'm gonna be replaying it for days
aah this is seriously so well-made! i love your works, the way the music and the animation pair off each other really well ugh ❤️ i know i shouldn't be concerned cuz im just a stranger, but i just hope u r doin oki! that is all crumb you slay this animation thing ✨
This feeling is familiar. When you try to fit to every circumstance, you're putting different masks every time you try to communicate, and in one moment you feel like you are losing yourself. You don't know which mask is you. The animation is smooth. I hope that the animator is doing okay. Greetings from Russia, and please, don't worry - you are not alone.
lyrics :) How does the world percieve me? Percieving myself All I care to do is sip on beer and chocolate milk I'm frightened more than usual lately I do not translate into "One of the boys" "Lotus flower", or "chinita" I'm just ES I would rather nap than wonder restlessly Will you ever be impressed by me? Mom doesn't think I fit into the "darling" archetype But that's an ancient pair of jeans My thighs are Crafted holy Rolling thunder Forget the numbers Forget the numbers please Every god damn family renunion Someone's got something to say "How did you become this way?" As if I've made a mistake Meanwhile they slaughter the cake
This hits really close to home for myself and I know it has so much weight packed in it. Your animation work is stellar, but I hope that identity is something you can find peace with someday soon. You are you, and that's rad no matter what it means
I’m not sure what to type to support you, but you’re awesome- aside from the animation part. You seem like you’d be a really cool person. I don’t want to say everyone goes through hard times, because I feel like it would seem as if I’m saying “get over it” so I’m going to say, I think your an amazing person, you legit wow me- like cross my heart and hope to die. I admire you as a whole- not just me, everyone does. Whatever you do or even create, I will adore and I’m not just saying this to make you feel better, I understand what your going through and you are heard- your point came across incredibly, and we will never judge you for that. -To cuptoast -Love, kenzzie
THAT WAS AWESOME!!!! So expressive and the new representation of existing as both crumbs is so interesting! I hope you keep doing impressive shit like this! Also, I know this is just a RU-vid comment, but I'm so proud of you and you deserve all the love your getting! /gen
I think my "theory" on this is that people often see crumb (and other creators) as the personality they show on camera instead of actual people with actual lives, and this is crumb showing that cat crumb, the persona, is more viewed than box crumb, the more personal piece of crumb. the cat humanoid is like the mix of both when crumb doesn't really know who she's supposed to be
That looked really good crumb!! The animation was pretty and the colors were nice. ..are you okay though? It was a bit concerning. Ofc you don’t have to share if it’s a vent or not but if it is I hope you feel better❤️
“Don’t be sad I accept who you really are so don’t be sad were all here for you and will always will be to hold your back”-random dude that actually cares about someone they really are and ready to help or make things better in the future
1:02 “Will you ever be impressed by me?” To answer that, *yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, and yes. Also yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, and yes…. And also yes yes yes yes yes yes yes yes yes yes yes yes yes.*
this is genuinely my favourite song and the song i relate to the most right now. i just found it about 2 weeks ago and it hits me really hard as a trans girl with an unaccepting family. seeing this made me realize how many interpretations you could get from this song, though. i think i understand everything you're trying to convey in this but i'm not gonna go into like an essay about it because a bunch of other people already have. you are like one of my favourite people just because of how cool and stuff you are, i really do look up to you because of your aesthetic and stuff (i'd love my wardrobe to look like yours someday ^ ^). anyways yeah, i got a bit off topic there but hayuvspojifsehrbfdahsud. if you're reading this, know that, even though i don't know you personally, i think you're awesome :> i know it may not mean much from just a single person but y'know 0I9ASUISEJDUFUHFG. ALSO MY FRIEND MET YOU IN A DISCORD VC ONCE- SHE SAID THAT SHE TOLD YOU HOW WE JOKE ABOUT HER BEING YOU ALL THE TIME BECAUSE OF HOW WELL SHE CAN IMPERSONATE YOUR VOICE AND SHE ALSO HAS AN ACTUAL LIKE MODEL OF THE BOX HEAD SHE MADE HERSELF ANYWAYS BYEEEEEEEEEEEEE HAVE A NICE DAYYYY :D
Together may you be whole again" I see a lot of the symbolism in how keeping things separate and how all of it works, though feel free to correct me because I could be completely wrong. Also this was amazing and keep up the good work, I just wanted to write down what I grabbed from this and mr trying to put myself in your shoes. The tiny little cat that we see all the time is the online personality, the one that gets all the attention, sure everyone can feel it but it's all on them. This cat has no eyes because dose not feel right, it dose not feel like you. The box, the bits of you you can show but you still have to do it behind the cardboard to keep the world's of the internet apart from your private life it represents you. The fading this is what baffles me a little bit, but I think I got it and will say more later in when talking about the anthro cat. The shadow with the eyes is you without the box, the physical you, the box I think might be gone but the shadow of you is still there with the rest of your reprentations. The tiny cat is still there, and the you still remain in the shadows behind these representations. The anthropomorphic cat, more of you than the little cat, and quite literally more human. It's why when box is left behind you are in the shadow of them at the end. The tiny cat is there two but that is because it is still a little part of you. This one is an accumulation of everything of you. It's why there own shadow is split like they are, in between this identity on the internet and the one that is you, the personal you, the shadow, and the one that created these interpretations of you. You may have created this image of you a while back or recently but it was closed behind doors. That could be for meany reasons, mabey due to the bad stigma around furries or mabey it was showing a bit to much of the actual you. I love the animation you have made and I hope you enjoyed reading, weather or not you are Crumb. Have a good time.
for a lot of my life, ive struggled with a lot of breaking down of myself, like who i am and such,,, but this really hit me hard, once i saw it. i may not know a lot of answers and stuff but, it takes time to understand yourself. i would say its hard to understand people too, but you truly can never comprehend them, as i have never in all my years understood them. i understand if you arent feeling well at the moment, but i truly believe in you. im sure many others do too! and im not just saying that, know that, in time, you will figure yourself out. maybe not today, or tomorrow, or even 3 years from now, but in time. i think a lot of you, crumb, and i personally believe that you are doing great :) and remember, if you do feel unwell, take a break!! you over-deserve it at this point, as youve helped me and SOOO many others feel better. thank you, again, for being who you are.
Crumb toast In Her Videos Is Experiencing It's called a visual hallucination, and it can seem like your mind is playing tricks on you. Beyond being scary or stressful, it's also usually a sign that something else is going on. So if it's happening to you, talk to your doctor. That's the first step toward getting better And Also An Social anxiety disorder is an intense, persistent fear of being watched and judged by others. This fear can affect work, school, and other daily activities. It can even make it hard to make and keep friends. The good news is social anxiety disorder is treatable Which Is What We See In Pad Thai Where There Is People Around Her Laughing Like Being Judged So She Is Having Anxiety Problems But Also Might Be Having A Sleep Paralysis Demon Because As We Can See In Pad Thai Once Again You Can See A Sleep Paralysis Demon Or A Creature At 0:51 She Might Also Be Experiencing Exploding head syndrome (EHS) Which is a type of sleep disorder in which you hear a loud noise or explosive crashing sound in your head. The sound isn't real or heard by anyone else. The episode typically happens suddenly either when you're beginning to fall asleep or when you wake up during the night. Which Is Exactly What We See Throughout The Entire Video Of Pad Thai But I Am Assuming That Monster Is Her Anxiety Which Makes Sense If You Think About It And She Is Experiencing Another Disorder It Is Depersonalization disorder Which is marked by periods of feeling disconnected or detached from one's body and thoughts (depersonalization). The disorder is sometimes described as feeling like you are observing yourself from outside your body or like being in a dream This Disorder Is About Seeing Multiple Of Yourself Like The Kineko Kittens What She Sees But In Reality It Is Her Imagination So Those Kineko Kittens Are Part Of Her Imagination She Is Also Experiencing Another Disorder People with schizotypal personality disorders have difficulties forming relationships and experience extreme anxiety in social situations. They may react inappropriately or not react at all during a conversation or they may talk to themselves This Means That The Kineko Kittens Don’t Exist And When She Talks To Them It Is Really Her Imagination But Also There Is Another Disorder That Causes You To Talk To Other People When Nobody Is There It Is schizophrenia And Usually When Your Wearing A Cardboard Box Over Your Head There Is 2 Things Why Your Doing It 1 Anxiety And 2 Gelotophobia What Is Gelotophobia? Well It Is The Disorder Of You Being Scared Your Gonna Get Laughed At But The Reason Crumb Toast Places A Hat On Her Face Is Because She Is Scared Of Being Laughed At Like We See In Pad Thai But Also She Wears It Becauses She Isn’t Ready To Reveal Her Face To The World Making Her A Faceless Creator And She Expresses This To When You Watch Pad Thai There Is A Creature Looking Like Herself In The Shadows With No Cardboard Box Covering Her Head It Indicates That She Is A Faceless Creator And Has Anxiety Of Being Watched And Many More She Is Also Experiencing Ammesia Interesting Isn’t It?
@@imcuznoIdkwho thanks :) I went into a lot of research to get to that conclusion also that comment was a year ago so I’m sorry if it didn’t get updated or not but I am happy you enjoyed my comment :)
what if this animation is what happens to the other three at the end of amnesia was her name? we dont see the human crumb anywhere and the background is a cool white all the time, like at the end of that animation as well
this shows how you dont need small lines to make a good video, as crumb (an awesome and amazing person) shows even if the lines are thicc make the most out of it like they do love you crumb
Analysis time ! As usual if this makes crumb uncomfortable I will be open to deleting it! So when it starts the real/human crumb is split into two, anthro crumb, (anthro for convenience) and box crumb (box for convenience), i perceive this as crumbs true self being split into her enjoying making art, anthro, and her living day to day life when she isn’t making art. I’m guessing the human crumb isn’t there anymore because now these things have to be separate. One more thing about human crumb, she seems to leave anthro in her eyes reflection, as she closes the door, another symbol of her leaving. Her hands glitch, from boxcrumb to anthro. Ok now onto the next part, the 3 crumbs seem to live equally, but then they split off, box crumb seeming upself going to school I assume with the backpack and cat crumb being happy with internet fame. Anthro sewing them be overwhelmed by the abundance of either happiness of greif. Herself being upset, I assume she wants things to go back to being equal. He song goes “will you ever be impressed by me” as human closes the door. Seeming to disappoint human, she closed the door on her. She then closes the book with the theater stage light thing, with the light only flickering out on box, foreshadowing her leaving. I assume that’s her idea of her mind, or her wishing it was all equal again. Forget the numbers, Anthro seems to beg boxcrumb to stay, but its too late. Now the cat has taken over her headspace. Now no human attributes remain in her sonas. The table (family reunion) The table has 4 seats I assume for box, anthro, cat, and human. Human left awhile ago in the beginning, and box now is gone. Notice how the only ones left are ones with more animalistic qualities, now completely isolating herself from human traits, “how did you become this way” as her hands flicker just a little bit human one of the last times in this animation. Then final scene, confirming box crumb has left, with her and human only remaining in the shadows of anthro. I JUST REALIZED the parts where it’s flashing, itsarts out as all of them flashing, then box deterioating, then just anthro and cat. CRUMB U PACKED SO MUCH SMALL DETAILS INTO THIS USUHGGG CONCLUSION Human crumb is just real crumb Box crumb trying to be online as her true self Anthro, crumb with artistic ideas, her semi online Cat, the online presence of crumb. I belive box crumb and anthro are more real crumb, with human being genuinely her. I belive human isn’t in this animation a lot because it really is her, you can’t fully put your true self on the internet, you can try to put a copy of t but you can’t get the original. The way human is copied is through anthro and box, box being Thhe only “human” left. Then she leaves. I belive this is her mind not wanting to let go of the only human part people precives her but everything is too overwhelming. So she leaves, leaving the very fantisized “perfect” cat crumb and anthro. The representation of her online presence, cat, mocking her for being the least bit human. Over all this is a beautiful animation packed with so much meaning and emotion. You never fail to fill you animations with metaphors and symbols, crumb! This is amazing.
I think this is about how crumb is stuck between their online persona and reality and it’s caused them to not know who they are anymore and the more personified they are the more they don’t feel like themself but when they get online attention (the cat) they feel like it’s not them getting the attention but rather someone else. This has sent them into several nights curiously crying never really having answers.
