I was on meth for 3 years. It completely destroyed me and my life. I was 23 when i started. Im 27 now and 10 months and 14 days clean. I am so proud of myself for getting cleaned up and improving my life.
That is so awesome. I'm 50 and I didn't get clean until 2 years ago. I injected meth. I thought that I was going to die in active addiction. Everyday I thank God for my amazing life and my amazing brain because I could have lost both. It makes my heart happy to know that you will have a couple decades clean by the time you reach my age. I'm very proud of you. Keep going kiddo!
Go out and experience the world. Travel, make new friends, do things you never thought you'd do. What once was will never be again. When you increase the amount of experiences you have during your life, the part where you took drugs will become only a small part of it.
I think she's suffered more trauma than she either doesn't remember or doesn't know how to express. There's more to her story. I hope she finds kind people to help her.
This was a very good friend of mine who over the past several years has had stints where none of her family knew where she was. Prior to this video, I had no idea that she ever had an issue with meth, which she appears to talk her way around by avoiding or not acknowledging the subject. On the one hand, I'm quite glad to see that she's alive, but on the other hand it's incredibly difficult to see her like this.
@@amyfitzsimmons4445 Does she resist help from your family? I wish Mark would interview some of the family members of his interviewees. They, too, suffer and have heartbreaking tales of what it is like to love someone, yet be truly powerless to make them get the help they need. Also, it would be an interesting psychological experiment to see how the stories of the addict/mentally ill/etc differ from the stories told by their family.
I was horribly addicted to meth for 5-6 years. I’ll be 10 years sober in July. I got married, had a beautiful daughter and moved across the country for an amazing job. It’s possible to stop.
@@ibobeko4309 No, hes not. Hes fallen into the same trap all intellectuals/clinicians do. Hes found A correlation, and thinks EVERYTHING is that correlation. He thinks hes founf the answer, and focuses solely on that conclusion. blinding him from any other possible prescription. Highly intelligent, and talented, but lacks wisdom.
@@carllennen3520 Its ironically, not dissimilar to stimulant abuse, hes caught on the high water mark of being acknowledged for a legitimate discovery, and has subsequently become fixated on that instead of looking at the other offerings in the tide cycle.
Meth totally destroyed my sons life and he died of Fentynal overdose at 44. He was so wonderful and talented and accomplished between meth episodes. He was very Good at construction..a computer genius..and an RN who worked in ICU at the Maricopa Hospital in the Burn Unit in Phoenix Arizona. I miss him so much. 😊❤
@@tessamilano5697 Oh! I have So Many Good Memories! God Made Sure I got to be with him a lot before he left us. I miss him though because he was my only child that understood me.
@@kathleenwharton2139 this breaks my heart for you! I'm not much older than he was and have been through many struggles as well...I do hope and pray peace and joy for the rest of your life. Wish we could talk! Maybe in another life we'll meet, until then take care🩷❤️
This is one of the most heartbreaking ones I’ve seen. She seems so lost. I really hope someone helps her and she’s able to get back on track with life.
@@zoilalulu3798yep exactly if only people would stop thinking they need help... they stole and corrupted everyone's help, help is the last thing they need imo. It enables their addiction
@@ras_krystafari3333 I'm impressed, you sound like you really know what you're talking about. I bet you've legitimately given this idea thorough scrutiny through the lens of a non-biased, rational, statistically based point of view. You sound like you've studied psychology under the masters, possibly even ready some Jung, and aren't just parroting ideas that reinforce your worldview.
I started doing drugs years ago as a teenage, got addicted to meth. Spent my whole life fighting meth addiction. I suffered severe depression and mental disorder. Got diagnosed with cptsd. Not until my mom recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment saved my life honestly. 3 years totally clean. Never thought I would be saying this about mushrooms.
YES very sure of Dr.alishrooms. I have the same experience with anxiety, depression, BPD and addiction and Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today.
Yes he's Dr.alishrooms. My daughter did straight shrooms in few days. Made her whole! after words, no more addictions, pains, ptsd and depression. It helped us.
Saw people talking about..checked him out, I must say he's good at what he does. My son is clean 1 year now. Good luck. just micro dose and you won't trip. Mushrooms helped my son get off opioid.
This is one of the most tragic interviews I've ever seen, on or offline. I sure hope this woman gets the numerous kinds of help that she so desperately needs.
She’s definitely delusional. She had a baby with Matt Damon. She needs help badly. I don’t believe she’s pregnant at all. I think she wishes she was. I hope she gets some help.
@@joedesena6507Matt Damon actually has a daughter named Alexia. But her biological mother is his current wife, so she definitely got that from somewhere.
You mean how cruel are people with themselves putting drugs in their bodies. This was her choice, no one forced the drugs into her. Is not drugs that destroys people, is people destroying themselves.
He comes across that way but honestly I’ve seen concerning behavior from mark. He recently posted ch*ld p*rn as one of his photograph portraits of an underage prostitute. He literally forced it upon us whether thought thru or not and I’m really disappointed and grossed out I had to see that child that way
She’s not going to seek help, I’m pretty sure it’s not mental health issues that drug puts you in that state of mind while using meth, My brother didn’t have mental health problems but every time he uses it he’s a totally different person, in fact he’s three people at once each with their own voices speaking to each other and he doesn’t want help,I had a couple of people come to help him even cops to try and get him out of the house and into a hospital, but as they told me they can’t force him to get help since he’s an adult,.. Sad my brother is a great person and smart up until he touched this drug
This is so painful to watch, what a lovely lady, some people will prey on that vulnerability in the streets. Hope and pray she gets the help she needs in the future
Gosh, I feel like if she were given a breast reduction, her neck and back would be in much better shape. She must be in a lot of pain, with the disc issue and such large breasts to carry around. I feel sad for you Sara, I hope you are ok, and do ok in the future, good luck getting a place.
Most dont use meth for pain. If she began drug use bc of pain, ot would've likely been opiates of some sort, then maybe led to meth. Although she claims she only drinks.
Keep in mind there are different perspectives to this kind of situation. Some people who may feel judgmental towards her probably have trauma. I grew up with an addict and it was such a terrible environment. It becomes difficult to feel love towards them because they are never themselves. I don’t feel as judgmental anymore, but I used to. So please, don’t be angry with anyone who is judging her. While it isn’t right, they are just hurt and they are working to be better.
@@Pixyedustno its not. But as they said, its not a typical thing for drug addicted, unhealthy, obese woman to become pregnant. Yes it can happen, chances are slim though
@@curlycoo50 oh my reading comprehension is just fine...I understood that you said she didnt seem to come across as a bad person...maybe you should check your own reading comprehension!😊
Heartbreaking! I don't believe she is truly pregnant but probably longs to be a mother. God Bless this woman and protect her while she's out there. I pray she gets the help she so desperately needs.
i thnk she also longs to BE MOTHERED. Often ill people become parents bc they themselves need parenting. One of the reasons that there are so many grown-up "throwaway children" on Skid Row
I could not finish this video. Glad you made it; but it's internally disturbing and deeply painful to see someone so obviously in need of a major intervention. And now that i know that she has passed away, it makes it that much more sad. I hope she has, at last, found peace. ☮
This poor woman is suffering from a mental breakdown which is causing delusions and has made her lose her grip on reality 😢❤ I'm sure drugs are a huge factor. Hoping you get all the help and support you need Sara! Hugs and prayers to you precious 🙏🩷
This is very sad. She said she is addicted to alcohol but doesn't drink often and has a baby with Matt Damon. Thank you Mark for posting these. You are an earth angel to these souls.
@@towerofresonance4877 Mark interviews several people a day, edits at night, travels all over and spends his “free” time helping many interviewees. Single-handedly he produces free, quality content. But let’s shame Mark that he isn’t commenting quite enough! 😅
No mental health issues, then proceeds to say she had a baby by Matt Damon. Bless her heart. We need to do better as a country with mental health issues and homeless
I understand Sara has passed. She was so uncomfortable in her own skin, so I pray she's flying free now. Coming back to this vid, I see some cruel jokes and comments. Really disheartening, as Sara suffered from mental illness. People can really be sh$tty. RIP Sara.
What a sweet lady. It’s disturbing how we live in such a privileged, high tech country, and there’s so many people like this, desperate for help they’ll never receive.
The Internet has made alot of insecure people mentally ill who have become dependent on compliments and likes, not her though. I wish the internet would be used for public information, knowledge. I mean look at this world, people have become so anxious, sad and alot of people became introverted because they get all the entertainment inside their home instead of going out and explore the world, or getting to know neighbours, or family who is left.
This is heartbreaking! I knew someone who isn't much older than Sara: now 46, and she abused meth heavily for 13yrs., and abused coke for at least 10yrs before graduating to Meth. She fell into homelessness 2 different times, each time from drugs: the first time: coke, the 2nd time: meth. When I met her, she was 2yrs. into recovery. I tried to help her, but things became very complicated whenever I interacted with her. I could tell that all those yrs of substance abuse really took a toll on her critical thinking skills, cognitive functions & emotional regulation. There were some personality disorders involved as well. I wanted to stay in her life, but It became so toxic between us, I had no choice but to leave to preserve my identity & individuality. I still care deeply for her, but I can no longer help her. She's needed professional help long before I ever met her. I still wish her the best.
@@akedi2734 you don't think it is common for people to end up with mental health/psychiatric issues as a result of drug abuse? Lol. Yes of course some people use because they are suffering ...but that does not negate my comment whatsoever
@@PrimateProductions I don't understand why some people on this channel always feel the need to correct people and not let them just have their say...
@@PrimateProductions because in her head that probably isn't a lie to her. It is blatantly obvious she has had a complete break from reality. Did you not see her talking to imaginary people in the beginning of the video?
My only son died 10 months ago from a herion and coccaine overdose, over the years i tried my best to help him, it breaks my heart that he passed on his own😢
I am sorry you lost your son to addiction. I hope you know you could not have helped him. Addiction is a disease, and recovery has to start with the self. Peace to you x
These videos are important to educate us and help people understand mental health, drug abuse and the true need for understanding. I hope Sara gets the help she needs
Relapsed since my sobriety comment 3 years ago, back to 15 months sober, I did get a DUI, 2 parking tickets and quit my job, was this close to ending it, went broke all in 4 weeks. Thankfully I’m here and I learned, I get scared knowing what if I did end my own life that morning.
Just wanted to say, glad you are still with us! You are loved, wanted and needed here. Zack, your life is important, you matter and know that I’ll be praying for you!
She is in desperate need of a breast reduction and mental health meds. I hope Mark can take her to some sort of facility. It is so so sad that we don't have institutions like we did before. At least they got some level of care there. With better standards they would be a real help.
@@Kimberly_K_ From gaining and losing weight rapidly, meth also reduces your elasticity and cause early aging and sagging of the skin. She is also not wearing a bra, and most women in our society wear bras in public.
She never admitted to crystal meth. I realize we don’t see everything. Mark may have seen her use or seen paraphernalia. But it shouldn’t be in the title unless it was self identified by her. She doesn’t deserve that. The title should be changed for integrity purposes…
He’s there all the time maybe seen her use. She doesn’t seem too with it I don’t think alcoholism can make you hallucinate about having a baby with a celebrity.
I totally agree I was thinking the same thing. I was reading the comments about her alleged Meth addiction but I honestly don't see that this looks like schizophrenia/psychosis not Meth.
@@tatijanvier8092 totally! It just feels wrong with him asking her repeatedly, her denying it, and then it being the title-and now her official label. That’s all. She was with it enough to deny drug use, showing she didn’t want that to be part of her story. Mark should have respected that. The title is a simple thing and what he types has influence.
i hope someone can help sara - i see a hurt soul that needs someone for help with her disk disease as well as pregnancy - chronic pain hinders the body. really hope we can see an update ❤ you’ve got this sara
I don’t think she is pregnant, I think she is suffering from delusions. Also, the Matt Damon story didn’t make sense, I don’t believe that was real. She is in psychosis because of the drug use.
Why is she labeled as a meth addict though? she said she is not using any drugs, delusions like these can easily be from a natural mental disorder without any drugs being involved.
@Broski Snowski I mean if you look at the other upload its obvious he is on crystal meth, in her case it might actually just be a mental illness of some sort.
@@jhozthron4415 lol...so you believe the person that claims to have a baby with Matt Damon that he is currently raising when they deny meth use?? Gullible are you?
Psychedelics are just an exceptional mental health breakthrough. It's quite fascinating how effective they are against depression and anxiety. Saved my life.
Can you help with the reliable source I would really appreciate it. Many people talk about mushrooms and psychedelics but nobody talks about where to get them. Very hard to get a reliable source here in Australia. Really need!
Yes, dr.sporessss. I have the same experience with anxiety, depression, PTSD and addiction and Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today.
There ain’t no help. 47.5 million American living with some kind of mental illness. That’s 1 in 5 people. Only 43% had any care. 14.1 million Americans living with a serious mental illness. That’s 1 in 20. Only 64% had any kind of care. There are only 35,000 beds for mental heath treatment provided for by the government in the the entire country. And that’s for actually treatment. Care can mean anything from seeing a psychiatrist once a month to getting prescriptions to even a 72 hour psyc hold, etc. none of it is actually treatment. Unless you’re rich and can pay cash to a good private mental health treatment center you’re pretty much screwed. Because the private treatment centers that take insurance, they try to keep costs low. They keep as little employees as possible, cut corners, they do whatever they can to maximize profits and there’s also very little oversight. The worse insurance you have the worse places you’ll go and it’s the people that need treatment the most are the ones who cannot keep a job at the kinds of companies that provides really good insurance. That’s why you hear about ‘Booty Juice’ (powerful sedative) so much, especially from mentally ill homeless. Because the types of private treatment centers they’re going to is are the places that just knock you out all day so they don’t have ti deal with you and so they don’t need a full staff. Those 35,000 spots in state run facilities are the really the only chance they got, but the numbers are like winning the lotto. The reason state run facilities are so much better is because there a lot of oversight and it’s not profit driven. They actually spend the money. It’s tax money so they spend.. They have full staffs, different departments. They actually take the time and do treatment, therapy, group therapy art therapy, they teach them coping mechanisms, like skills, they get them into a routine, etc.They spend the time with the patients and really try, but the sad thing is, with how little amount of beds the state has is it ends up the people that become eligible for those beds are usually the most worse off, and I mean the top couple of percent most serious cases, many of them cannot be helped. When Reagan slashed the fund for state run facilities, and that was one of his biggest slashes, America just stared dumping its mentally ill in prisons and the budget for treatment has only been slashed more and more since. No place makes mental illness worse than prison. Putting mentally ill people in prison should be outlawed, it’s cruel. And many of them can be helped if judges were able to send them to a state run mental heath treatment facilities during their first few arrests, but there’s not enough beds and so they go to state prisons and they end up doing their time in solitary, which can drive a sane man crazy, and they come out more violent and more mentally ill each time. That’s why when you hear about these crimes that shock the nation, you can always see the building up in their rap sheet. Each arrest the crimes are getting worse and worse. Those are all missed opportunities to help them. But apparently half the country thinks government providing services to The People is ‘communism’ and so it gives the politicians permission to slash and slash these budgets. It’s weird cuz I don’t know who the hell they think provides the prisons. But that’s the long and short of it. There’s no help. America has screwed itself.
I used to stay up so long weird words would come out on my mouth. My hands would cramp and contort and I wasn’t able to get them unstuck for 30seconds or more. Not sleeping eating and not drinking makes your mind absolutely fckd. 7yrs clean would never go back I don’t miss it at all
@@sydneyjordan7331 weird to have this kind of positive reply on the internet. Was immediately was skeptical. .. lmao. Thank you! made my day. I hope you and your loved ones are well!
Congrats on recovery from H, that in itself is a huge achievement. You've got this, keep going and Alcohol will be a thing from the past as well. I have had therapy which helped me cut right down to being a social occasion drinker. Joining a gym and being creative and painting have helped me refocus away from alcohol. It's not easy, but it is so worth it. Proud of you ❤
If youre conscious of it, it definitely is a burden. Mg personal experience with being a prisoner of mh own mind makes it hard for everyone else vecause a lot of the time I'm not aware of how I'm acting sadly
Sarah does not appear to be a meth addict. It looks like she's struggling with mental illness. She has a good heart and like others have stated in the comments, I hope that she gets the help she needs! Very sad.
She can get a breast reduction surgery free from Cal Optima / Medicaid in California. Her poor back pain has got to be enhanced with her breast size. I work in medical billing for a plastic surgeon and she is a good candidate for this procedure. She may not realize she qualifies.., I’m just saying that I can see cal optima approving her
How well would she do taking care of herself following surgery? I would really worry about her ability to stay clean and wound care. If she had a very good bra and would wear it that would help her alot.
Just imagine for one second she’s not lying. Or she met some dude that possibly looked like Matt Damon and lied to her about it. I’m sure it’s the meth and mental illness speaking but can you imagine?
@@craftygirl9666 Right? That would be a trip. Imagine no one believing you and calling you mentally ill for years over it. I think that would be enough to drive anyone crazy.
@@PrimateProductions I think it depends on your definition of potential! This woman has the potential to thrive in society with some medical help. If she got clean she could be a productive member of society and live a happy and healthy life.
@@bobbijodubelaar6151 unless her resulting mental health disease does not resolve...however you are definitely right that she has potential as I guess everyone does so my apologies
I know this is not the place for jokes, this poor woman is clearly in a lot of distress and lives a very difficult life. I truly do feel for her, hopefully this video opens up some form of opportunity for her to help her further..... But you definitely nailed it with her needing “support”. I don’t think I have ever seen breasts hanging that low. She would probably feel better about herself and be more comfortable with proper bra and support for her chest
@@Day-ZDukeLololol😂😂😂😂😂😂😂I was looking 👀 for this comment! I was gonna say she need support in the chest area. They’re “Udderly huge pendulum swingers” But yes on a serious note, this person has many issues that need addressing.
I wish I hit the lottery because she would be the first one I'd help. I had family member with large breasts. It's so painful. Indentations on shoulders. Causes cysts and much more. Addictions come from trauma. And struggles. I can only pray, but prayers go along way. God bless her.
My ex wife is a meth addict who has stage 4 cancer. She has been a meth addict for about 8 years now. In 2021 she left us for some kid she met at rehab. Ever since she has not seen nor talk to her son, or even paid a cent of the court ordered child support. Between the lying and cheating, she’s the reason I am highly judgmental towards addicts. Me, I got a career in IT and just graduated from college last month. Life has been progressing since she left us.
Congratulations on your education and props to you for being a stable loving father. I never dealt with many addicts, but people I care about have and they all left a path of destruction and trauma everywhere they went. It's difficult to empathize with most of them. Some I can sympathize.
@@lillustpotion did you not read ? She left them for some other addict. Her children and husband, left them for drugs and another junkie. Empathy ends when you value your next fix over your own babies and husband. Doesn't mean anyone wishes them bad or has no sympathy. We all know they're dope sick, but they are to be held accountable for the damage and trauma they inflict on others. I hope the children and husband have peace.
As a co-host of an addiction medicine podcast, I find your content informative, well produced and sometimes challenging to watch. We've considered featuring patients on our podcast, but the ethical dilemma of informed consent always arises. It's not a criticism of your content, but rather an observation - some subjects appear to be in distress or possibly under the influence, which raises concerns about their ability to give truly informed consent. This is a complex issue in the portrayal of addiction and recovery.
Hard to qualify the veracity of their ability to consent,when often,especially here they aren't even able to know where they are,what there really doing, and show no signs of competence. Its an unbelievably powerful testimony for us, but long view,how's it for them?
@@cashmoneychanel1209 I don’t know the answer to that. The participants do seem to have a genuine affection for their interviewer. I have heard many speak favourably about what they’ve been purchased in terms of gifts.
I have the same disease, the degenerative disc disease. It is very painful and I have surgery over 15 years ago and I'm still in pain. Got hooked on narcos and morphine. Haven't taken any drugs for over 3 years. I hope she gets the help she needs. Poor lady 😔💓
I have DDD, herniated Disc's and Arthritis in my back, I have a addictive nature, I REFUSED OPIODS.I use THC, Lotions, drops or smoke, I don't use it everyday. Only on bad days.
Prayers for you Sara! Mental health is not high priority right now and it should be. It seems like drugs are intertwining with the community and ripping people and homes apart. Heartbreaking and scary!
Your channel deserves a reward. I don’t know if you are a journalist or not but this by far is one of the best channels. I cry watching most of your videos and pray for strangers. So many lost souls that could have been helped. ❤
@@StefanReich no they're not, the courts are a revolving door and that's the problem. Move to Seattle for a bit and see if legalization is the right way....I'll wager that it would no longer be obvious.
This isn’t just addiction. There are obvious mental health conditions/illnesses she lives with. I worry about her & her baby, if she's truly pregnant. 🙏🏼
