One small step at a time conquers the mightiest of mountains, I encourage you to keep taking those small steps forward. Mental healthcare is extremely important to sobriety, by reaching out to someone it'll help to make your recovery a little bit easier.
I just found your channel and your journey just now. I don't know you, but already proud of you! It was a hard day, but you made it! Wish you lost of strength for the next day(s). (Sorry for language mistakes, English isn't my first language)
Honestly, when I got sober 10 years ago, the only way I got through the first week was by telling myself that I was possessed by a demon and I was essentially exercising the demon. Every time I threw up during the first few days of my w/d, I thought of it as ridding myself and my body of all the evil. After I got a few weeks, and the "mind fucks" kicked in, I continued telling myself that there was a demon trying to take hold of me and wear me down to the point of submission, but I was STRONGER than the demons and I had JESUS on my side! I commented on your other video on a few things to try to help you through this and the mind fucks. Most importantly is to try to keep busy, and go to meetings or see a therapist. You have to talk through all your feelings otherwise they'll consume you and you'll fall to your demons again. You got this though, and don't forget to give yourself grace. You are so fucking strong for getting clean! You got this! Today day 3, tomorrow day 4. One day at a time.
I was in your shoes 10 years ago.. Its hard and stressful but I'm 100% sure u can do it if i did it... The more u speak about it the easer it will be...
