Day 936: 22nd July 2024 | What a day 😢 

I completely agree that we could be our true selves in person. Thank you for sharing about your beautiful friend. Crying it all out really helps sometimes I find, though. I am glad that my videos bring you some peace and benefit. It's nice to know. Especially when I second guess my more emotional videos. I am going to fall asleep now, as it's 2:58 in the morning and I really need to sleep. Hopefully, my bladder lets me. It's been giving me havoc the past few days. Sending you so much light and love Peter x

good advice. i dont think she reads the comments god bless you both

xanex, aka BENZOS are certainly not healthy, neither is Adderall or speed they are both also sold as really hard street drugs ;also beware of any drugs containing heroin or Opioids they are highly addictive

I very much read the comments. You don't read my responses

Thank you, Abel. I'm prescribed the medication I take for a reason. The only thing I did wrong yesterday was not take it soon enough. I am barely smoking cannabis. I had one tiny bit yesterday. That's all. I am starting to feel like sharing honestly is not being appropriated when I get comments like like the reply to your one below. I know you mean well, but I'm almost hardly using it and am feeling attacked by some people

STOP telling me what to do with MY medication! I very much do read the comments, and YOU are driving me insane!! I BARELY use cannabis these days and only had the tiniest amount yesterday. Same with my medication, that is to take as needed. I only take it as NEEDED. People are prescribed medication for a reason. Everyone is DIFFERENT! Just because you seem to dislike all medications does not mean I have to. Ok. I appreciate people care, I really do, but I have a fantastic medical team. They are the ONLY people I will discuss my medication with. If you are so against me and everything I do, you don't have to watch my videos. Do you even watch them all the way to the end or just bits and pieces since so many of your comments have been discussed in videos? I am aware that I keep slipping in my mood and have had a few days of crying. I am still devastated by what happened with my mum. My trip keeps getting delayed, and yesterday, I read a post on Reddit about someone losing their dog. Boss is dying, and it set me off. I honestly don't understand why people without a medical degree think they know more than the prescribing doctors. And no, they don't just prescribe anything. It's not that easy. I get that everyone is different and that some things work better, some and not others. But I don't understand why people keep telling me they know better based on a few minutes or so of a video I make. I have actually joined a new, far better medical cannabis company and actually have THC liquid vapes arriving today. It is the first time using them, and as much as I'm sure you disapprove, I am looking forward to trying something new. I really want to make something extremely clear. I do NOT use cannabis like you all seem to think I do. Yesterday, I literally had one puff, and that was it aside from my anti anxiety meds. Which again I take AS NEEDED. Please know that I appreciate people care, but I do not appreciate comments where I'm being attacked by someone who knows nothing about the inner workings of my medication regime. When I first started making these videos, I had a follower constantly message me to the point I no longer enjoyed even looking at the comments. Please do not make that happen again. Also, I would love to know if you, @SheriffofRU-vid, actually read my reply comments since you have decided that I don't read the comments. This is laughable because I most certainly do and have replied to all of yours from what I know. I have also told you to back off regarding commenting on my medication and cannabis intake. The difference between you and Abel, who your comment is in response to, is that he never makes me feel like I'm being attacked. You do. I'm sorry if that’s not your intention, but nevertheless, that is how I feel sometimes. Please hear me when I say that from now on, I will only engage with you on comments, not about my medication etc. Why don't you tell me something about yourself. Why do you follow my videos? How about joining the Discord group. Maybe a back and forth conversation would be better than via the comments. Especially since I honestly don't know if you even read my replies. I will say one great thing has come from waking up to these messages, though. I am feeling great and ready to start my day. I have been really proud of where I got, and I am not going to beat myself up for having a few tearful days. discord.gg/JvKvgEKHns