I'm struggling hard with this. I know the truth, I know that Christ died for my sins and my punishment is gone. I just have to keep preaching the gospel to myself everyday.
Question: I recently felt an impulse that I needed to tell my wife every sin from our relationship that I could think of. I asked God to reveal everything I've done so I could tell her all of the things. However, there were things I forgot to tell her that plagued my conscience the next day. Then I told her those things. Then the next day, same thing. Eventually, I started confessing things "just in case" because I couldn't even remember if they happened or not. After this, we had some real good conversations about leaving the past in the past and moving forward. However, my conscience still feels guilty because I can think of even more times I have thought lustfully about someone, even recently. The past month or so this has been going on, I have felt restless, fearful, and shame. And worse yet, I can see my wife's heart break each time I confess something new. Any advice?
@@gwayne8758 It's a hard road. I talked with my uncle who went through it for 3 years following a cancer diagnosis. It's hard to see things rationally when we are in our heads all day long. Seeking counsel from other God-fearing men is a good place to start.
@@gwayne8758 He said don't expect there to be a "silver bullet" confession that makes you feel better. He said the constant need to confess is driven by us wanting our anxiety to go away. There is no secret confession that is going to make it all better. He said the best thing he did was accept that he was going to feel this way, and just stopped fighting it. Once he fully gave in and stopped relying on himself, is when he started to feel better. He said as far as the confessing, no person has the capacity to forgive us the way God does through Jesus. He told me that I could confess to him if I needed someone to unload on, but unloading on our significant other is selfishly motivated, in the aspect that we are trying to make ourselves feel better by unloading our burdens onto someone else. Accept the journey, and I would add accept the thoughts and feelings as what they are. Just because we think or feel something doesn't make it true or from God. I hope you feel better soon friend.
