Hi Everyone! I'm finally able to talk about some things I've been needing to talk about for a few weeks now. I hope everyone is hanging in there this holiday season! It won't last forever. Believe in yourself! I love you all -Jo
i cannot begin to imagine the things you are feeling. though i'm sure often you may feel like you're falling apart, all i/we see is incredible strength and bravery. i'm so very proud of you for sharing these things with us, it really must take a lot. wishing you the best over the holiday period x
It was so brave of u to share this, and I'm glad that by making videos and talking it makes you feel more real. I have DID too, (I had the same experience of researching it online and finding it extremely relatable). It's sad to hear that u can't find a good therapist where u live, I'm so thankful for my therapists patience with me. Recently I have been really remembering/trying to remember my past so I can move forward and undersrand, and my therapist recommended this book to me that seems really helpful. It's called "coping with trauma related dissociation". I haven't started it yet but there's like 60 free pages online if u want to look :-)
(Hi, I changed my name on Google a little & my picture but before it was "jb g" in case you're like me & get confused when people do that) Wow that was brave of you to make & share this video! I got tears in my eyes watching/listening. I'm sorry someone violated your boundaries by armchair diagnosing you with DID publicly -- but it's good you did your own research and found that it seems to fit for you. Honestly I've wondered about that for myself too - I also have PTSD from childhood abuse & rape & there's so so much I just can't remember & have no idea how to but it does feel like a TV show like you said, and I kind of get "pictures" of things in my head from before I know I can remember and I can't tell what's real and what's not and it's so scary. I do feel like my life and my identity is broken into pieces in a way but I don't know that that means I have DID, I don't know what it means. I just know I'm scared of every man in my family & I don't know exactly why and I'm scared to find out. How did you start to remember? Also, I know you said your medical cannabis is an indica strain. I need to look up the laws in my state on medical cannabis & talk with someone about getting some but anyway, what does it help you with and how does it make you feel? I used to smoke pot occasionally with friends or my cousin or acquaintances but I think it was more the kind with a lot of THC and it'd just make my brain weird and I'd black out and stuff. I just need something for anxiety/PTSD and chronic pain. Anyway I care about you and I relate to you a lot and I'm proud of you for being you and doing what you can to take care, I understand it's scary when people care about you too though if you haven't really had that. Anyway, hearts.
+jordan bayley Hey thanks for letting me know about the name and picture change! I tottally get confused by these things, so it's nice to know who I'm talking to :) Thanks so much for sharing what you did! I'm so sorry about the shit that happened, but I'm glad to be here with you and to get to talk about it. I'm going to make a video about how my trauma memories began in answer to that questions (it'll be much easier to explain with hand gestures). As for your question about indica strains, I find that the heavier the strain the better? Couchlockers are great. And I avoid high THC strains, and try to get things with THC between 17-20%. But also I'm not an expert, and or medical professional (obviously you know this, suddenly I just got anxiety about sharing cannabis experience on the internet. But it's all over the internet. Call down Jo. :) ). Anyways.... if medical pot is legal in your state, it's the best to get an authorization and go into a dispensary. Usually they know a little bit about their strains, and can help you find things that will work for PTSD. If, however, Medical pot isn't legal.... message me on tumblr and I can suggest some more ideas maybe? Also, cannabis and stuff aside. I care about you too, and I really love getting to know you through all the comments you leave.
+Jo Progo thanks for your response :) Also thanks about different strains of pot! I'm not totally clear on what the laws are for medical pot in Maryland where I am, so I'll have to double-check. At least now I have an idea of what to look for, so that's good.
