Director Reacts - Episode 22 - 'Outro:Tear' ORIGIN DISCOVERY 

In terms of the almost-disbandment, the impression I got was that while they had always dreamed of succeeding, the DEGREE of international success they hit was wildly beyond what they could possibly have imagined, and they genuinely found that degree of fame a bit scary. Suga in particular has made references to how scary their fame is/was on more than one instance (most notably a poem he wrote during a Run BTS episode called "What a Relief" as well as in his song Interlude: Shadow). I think in 2018 they really had to take a good, hard look at whether that was something they wanted to continue with. I think they had a very realistic understanding of how much their lives would change if they continued forward.

Great reaction man. The lyrics to this song have such a deep meaning to them. It's hard not to get emotional which Jhope showed on stage. It was written when they were having thoughts of disbandment. I look at each members part as how they would react to it. "You're my tear" "You're my fear" We as ARMY are always afraid of the day we hear the news that BTS is disbanding. But it's also bittersweet at the same time. Because we think of their futures. Seeing them raise their own family. Their songs Louder than Bombs and Bulletproof the Eternal make me cry because they make me think about the day it's over. But in a way, it'll never truly be over. Even after they, and the generations they raised are long gone, they will be remembered as legends. Because legends never die.

JHopemade everyone cry, then Jin just killed us

Every time I watch this, I am struck again about "how much time" was allowed for BTS to say exactly what they needed and wanted to say. After years of being cut down, cut off, brushed away they come into their own becoming *Kings* not only in ARMY's eyes and hearts, but in the eyes of their peers and adversaries as well!! The *Power* 💜⭐🤴⭐💜

This translation wasn't as eloquent as what they said ..V Said "Even if I were to die and be reborn again ...ARMY would still be the best gift I've received "

One of the things I love so much about the guys, they aren't afraid to show emotion. So many of us have grown up surrounded by the attitude that 'men don't cry', which is one of the dumbest things ever. Their sincerity echoes outward and you can't help but love them for it and be drawn to it. Same for you Couch Captain, your sincerity rings true and it speaks to us. Really loving this couch, it's very cozy here and it already feels like we've been here for years. What a great feeling.

When you were waving the spoon and then paused and said, "Sorry, I'm not threatening you," it made me think of this one vlive with Jin when he was ranting about something while waving his knife (he was eating) and paused suddenly and was like, "I should put the knife down so I don't scare you." Lol.

If we had known u were gonna watch THAT SPEECH, we mightve tried to stop u. Thats probably one of their most intensely emotional ones.

If we consider the reactions during the MAMA 2018 acceptance speech, it seemed that Tae was the one who was spearheading the break-up thoughts, because he lost a family member during the time they were promoting non-stop and he wasn't able to go home for fear of losing momentum (or maybe he wasn't allowed). He couldn't even get time off to grieve. The stress piled up and then the possibility (to break up) came up. Also, I want to add that the fact that Jin was the one to reveal to ARMY about their possibly break up, which Hobi only hinted at, was strategic, because Jin was the one member who could make that call and take full responsibility for it, being the eldest and having the most authority. He puilled the hyung card in this instance (hyung means the elder, whose authority is unquestioned). Even NamJoon didn't make that call to just come out and reveal that.

lol Roscoe is in the phase 2 of becoming an army. Go crazy. Then backtrack. Then develop a good pace to incorporate into ur life in a healthy way.

As an ARMY English and critical thinking professor, I enjoyed your approach to the content as a conversation. It can be a bit overwhelming, as there is so much but I believe that everyone's journey is and should be their own. Comments are great tools but it is the perspective of that person's journey. I subscribed because I like your approach thus far and will enjoy watching your direction. 👍😎💜

Their affection for each other really knows no bounds, like their relationship is so deep. It's one of the most heartwarming and wholesome things to watch, and it's so rare to have that level of a bond between friends. If you ever need something super heartwarming and happy to watch, there's many videos that give a peek into their beautiful bond. And you'll discover it as you go. It's just so obvious how much they love each other, made even more clear by the fact that they aren't afraid to verbally or physically express their love. It's also fascinating to see the differences in how each member expresses their love. There are videos of them writing letters/poems to one another, giving compliments (very common for them lmao), cuddling, feeding each other food, reflecting on the past/future/each other and just so honestly talking about each other in such loving ways, very adorable acts of kindness, they say "I love you" a lot, missing each other when alone/some are not there, etc. They're the most loving family. It just makes your heart feel so full when you see, for example, Hobi becoming so overwhelmed with affection that he just grabs Jimin and holds on tight. Or seeing Yoongi say he cried alone in the bathroom when Jungkook got injured because he was so worried. Or seeing Jungkook talking so many times about how much RM inspires him and how he looks up to him. How they all basically raised Jungkook from the time he joined them at age 13. How Suga and Jin go fishing a lot, but Suga admitting that he doesn't really enjoy it that much, he just agrees to go when Jin asks because Jin loves it and gets all excited about it. Another fascinating thing is their bonds within the group. Literally, if you pick two random people from the group, their dynamic is different from another two random people. Like the dynamic between RM and Suga is TOTALLY different from the dynamic between RM and Jungkook, or between Suga and Jin, or Jimin and V, etc. And then there's stuff like (for ex.) if you add Jin to RM and Suga, the dynamic will suddenly completely switch up. And yet each dynamic is so heartwarming, and you can clearly see how much love they have for one another. The CEO even said they dyingly love each other. There are even songs that they've written to each other! Like Outro: Tear, or "Friends" by Jimin and V reflecting on their own friendship, or "Begin" by Jungkook talking about how he feels when his older brothers (or "hyungs") are in pain, etc.

I've been an ARMY since Dec 2014, so I've been around a long time... I remember this award show happening (it was their 3rd time getting Artist of the Year in a row at this award show which was *insane*) and ofc, while its going, there's no subs, so we had no idea what was being said until it started going around that Jin said early in 2018 they had considered breaking up and it was just... all at once, it was the entire ARMY internet freaking out and crying because We were always like "BTS won't break up. they love each other. they love us, they love what they do". it never occurred to us how terrifying this steep incline of fame was for them, but then we looked back at early 2018 and it made a lot of sense. They were so quiet early in the year. They turned down the Olympics so that they could take a much needed break for their mental health in fact and it wasn't until almost a year later we realized any of that. BTS continue to talk about how they know this fame won't last forever, yet at the same time, they haven't reached up. They talk about how they want to be together for decades, and I think they can. We do have at the very least another 5-6 years with them as they renewed their contract for another 7 years. I think they can be one of those groups that go on for decades if they want, and I think they've finally reached a place where they're comfortable with themselves and their growth. It took a lot getting there. I just wish I could tell them that ARMY aren't going anywhere. Even at their concert a few months ago, they were talking about how scared they were that there weren't any ARMY left because, even though the numbers were still there, they hadn't seen us in 2 years. I know I'm an ARMY for life. Unless something... bad happens as in any of them do something bad, then I'm going to stick around, but knowing how *good* of people they are (literally, everyone who has ever interacted with them has only ever had nice things to say about them. Nobody has ever been able to say a bad thing about the members when they've met them) I truly don't think that'll happen. BTS are definitely one of the most important things in my life. They've made me cry tears of happiness more in the last 2 years than anything else ever has before combined. I just love them so much and I want to make all their dreams come true.

That's the thing.. when they receive awards, the first thing they always shout is ARMY!! It gives me a looot of feelings. They never fail to give thanks to ARMY aside from their family and label. BTS is never without ARMY and vice versa. "We are not 7 with you." We are ONE

Roscoe! You thought an acceptance speech would be safe! Then you met 2018 MAMA ATY BTS acceptance speech.😭😭😭😭To see them trying to hold it together...😭To see Hobi, Jin and V shed tears so hard just rips your heart out! Discord is coming! The Couch of Discord is coming!😁 Journey on... 💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜

There is not enough "Silver Spoon" comments here, considering how much you were waving the spoon around in the beginning...lmao. But regardless, a very emotional speech that I had not watched in a long time. Glad I watched it again with you and the couchcrew. Cannot wait for the discord chat so we have a place to chat when away from the couch. 🛋💜

JHope raps with his body RM raps with his mind Suga raps with his soul. That is why they are the perfect trifecta. BTS has the best rap line. Anyone who disagrees is just in denial. 💜💜💜

Im not even going to try and imagine everything they went through that year, its basically written all over their faces. Only themselves know and how hard they had to work emotionally and physically to get through that year. Sure we heard the speeches but im sure they didn't share everything with us. I cry ever time I see this speech, and to know they came this close to disbanding that year makes this award and speech even more special. I am so thankful for them being a very very close group , closer then any group I have ever seen, even if they are not my favorite group id say the same thing. I believe the love, respect and the very strong bond these boys have got them through their toughest year. I think without their hardships and their emotional struggles they would not be as strong as they are right now. I am so proud of this group for sticking with who they are , what they stand for and what they want to give to the world and come out bigger and better then ever. This is why I think they are such a special group that deserves all the love and respect in the world.

That speech still makes me cry so much....when i watched the awards on a live stream I started crying and couldnt stop for over 3 hours. Ive always been quite closed off emotionally before BTS. They have opened me up so much I am more demonstrative with my children and grandchildren. These guys can make me laugh, cry and just about all emotions inbetween and I dont know how they did it but I love that they did. Ive been a fan now since 2017 when they found me and Ive never regretted being a fan regardless of the strange looks I get or the derogatory comments. Recently somebody said to me oh i dont like them and I asked have you listened to any of their music and they said no. I said then how come you dont like them and he said the fandom to which I replied shouldnt judge the fandom by the negative things you see or hear we are so large there are bound to be bad apples I also said go listen to them if you dont like the music thats fine but dont judge them by any other criteria.Its unfortunate that people sometimes judge the boys without listening to them because of outside influences. I sometimes run into "negative" fans I tend to ignore them they dont promote the boys message at all. Specially the ones that have "their point of view" and wont accept that other fans have other views. We are all allowed to have different beliefs same as with religion or politics..... it would be a strange world if we all viewed things exactly the same way. Oh and im still an introvert and always will be but my emotions now flow much more freely and my best friend of over 40 years (not a BTS fan but Im working on it) told me when i mentioned them etc that I had finally found my passion and that is so true. Im thankful that I got to find BTS during my lifetime as im a "golden age" army. Ive always loved music but over the last few years before I found BTS i was finding less and less modern music that I connected too the guys changed that for me and opened me up to so much and I will forever be thankful to them. They feel like honorary grandchildren to me (they are similar in ages to my real grandchildren). Sorry about the long azz comment!!!! Borahae !!!!

"The universe is telling me no....so let's try harder to find it." Hahaha!

17:44 Roscoe looks down at his Jell-O and misses Joonie’s incredible smile as he’s walking please go back and look at that again sir💜😂💜

"This is just an acceptance speech. This shouldn't be a problem." Ummmmmmmm, get ready. Yep I'm pretty sure we have all cried watching this, and it make us love them even more. Their humanity and vulnerability is so precious. Love watching your journey and our sessions on the couch.

The" Rise of Bangtan" starts at the beginning....also "American Hustle Life " is near the beginning...Helps you get to know them💜

Roscoe! I have been watching you since you started your BTS journey. I just have to say you have the best personality ever!!! So fun to watch. Remember ARMY is just as obsessive about BTS as you are💜💜💜

Actually, from the first time I listened it, I knew it's not a 'breakup' song. So i cried a lot at first listen. I'm K army and i talked about 'its somthing weird' with K armys. Not only me but some armys sensed something strange.(and right before this /Let go/ was released)So we can't say that any ARMY didn't know at first. Furthermore, Members posted something deep thoughts at that time, so I was anxious. When I was actually interpreting it, I couldn't thought that it was about the members, but about the fans. So I've listened it only few times at that time. It was too hurt for me. I couldn't speak because I could only guess. And then, Joonie did an album review, but he couldn't say much about this song. So I could tell it's really something. Then their variety show went on a break too. I thought the contract renewal would come soon, so I was sad to see if it would end like this. After a while, they were actually discussing a contract renewal at that time, and I just nodded at the fact that they were contemplating whether to quit.

Aahhhhh!!! This is why you are connecting so well with us. You are really delving into the abyss that is BTS. It’s not just that the songs have a great beat, or the flow is good, or the dance performance is flawless….it’s so much more. When you understand the message, and you couple that with the knowledge of the sacrifices AND hardships these 7 members endured, but kept going because their passion for music outweighed any negative elements (trust me, they experienced some extreme nonsense). After 3 weeks, you still haven’t scratched the surface. Your mind will be blown with every content you experience from here on out! And I’m here for it all!!!!!💜💜💜💜💜💜💜

Dang it! Suga is chopping onions again! No, you should not watch We Are Bullet Proof: Eternal...yet. You need to see more MVs, and learn more of the members' journey, to fully appreciate all the details of the MV. The wait will be worth it.

I’ve seen this speech too many times to count at different camera views and I still cry each time 😭 Tae breaking down will get me every time 💜 I’m glad they had/have Army and each other and decided to continue on their journey. The world needs them and their messages 💜💜🛋

Fame is difficult to handle. It brings money but the constraints it puts on the lives of the famous is hard. Despite having suffered depression and social anxiety SUGA has said several times on camera that he wants them to be together forever. Watching their speeches at that award show is heartbreaking. Even RM shed a few tears. It’s good that no one cries alone in BTS. There is always another member who will comfort them. Military service will be their next big test. Being away from the support they give each other will be hard. It’s not an easy 20 months for any Korean man.

We have to have steady tissue supply near the couch. Thanks couch crew. Borahae. Roscoe, now this made Outro:Tear much more meaningful to ARMY.

i thing this is why they are so special, they show us vulnerability very often, i don't know any other artist that conect so deep with their fans and get real, share feelings without the fear of their idealized image shattered. They are really relatable people with flaws, they are humble despite being biollioneires, fame didn't erase their values and it's really really nice to see that every day. Have a nice day!

yeah Namjoon is smart, not only academically but he's also emotionally intelligent... he's a philosopher/poet (a clumsy one lol)

More backstory: In Nov 2017, BTS performed DNA at the American Music Awards, and it was the first time a k-pop act had ever performed at an American awards show. In Festa 2018 (which takes place every Jun) Suga shared that he cried in the shower after the AMAs. “It was beyond what I had imagined. I could not even have dreamed of it. When I was showering, I felt pressured and lost about what we were supposed to do from then on.” That AMA moment was a HUGE turning point for them. It was the catalyst that led to them thinking of disbandment, but ultimately it was also the catalyst that launched the next phase of growth that they eventually became grateful for. This makes it extra special the first (and so far only) Artist of the Year Award they've won in the US happened just a few months ago at the AMAs. 🙂

I realized even watching you pluck foil out of your coffee is endearing... LOL I'm never leaving this couch. #coachcrew4eva

This couch has started to become my new favourite place! I watch a lot of BTS reactions on RU-vid but there is something different about this community that is being created through this channel as you are starting your BTS journey 🥰 listening to the end of this video made me understand why I love watching these reactions so much - I don’t have anyone in real life to share these things with so through these videos I get to relive all these memories with you and this community, so thank you!! I also really appreciate your note on how you don’t want there to be and tiers or hierarchy to the couch, because I’m excited to see everything that you will put out as you continue this journey!

No shame in crying.... If you know even a little about these guys when you watch this video it's gonna be impossible not to feel their honesty and vulnerability.

I would just like to share that I was at my sisters house and I had my RU-vid up and my niece saw your video and she got excited and was like "oh do you watch him?" And we were both talking about how we love your videos and your BTS journey so far. My niece (who is almost 18) and my sister are the only was I have to really talk about them with. My bf doesn't mind but he has his limits lol which is fine. But I love how I've connected with my niece through my own BTS journey..and I may not talk to many people online but just feeling apart of this community makes me happy😊💜💜

Yep, that was me… and now I’m a subscriber. I really didn’t get the appeal of the Beat sabre thing, but that’s kinda my bad because look where you are now. Just goes to show how many roads lead to Seoul 🙃. I’m enjoying your journey.

They were always sincere about their journey and feelings to us. Thats what makes them special to ARMY

Oh boy this award show still brings me to tears. I was new ARMY at the end of 2018, only about 4-5 months as a fan but I can tell you that I was broken once I saw the translations of what was being said. I swear that you could hear the collective shock going through the audience once Jin mentioned them disbanding. I can't even begin to imagine how pre-debut and debut ARMY were feeling at this time but I tend to think it was worse because they had more of a connection to the boys than I did during this moment. I watched fancams of other idol group who were in tears too and I think out of everyone there they understand the struggle the most for their industry. I'm happy that they were able to pull themselves back up together as a group and haven't lost the desire to continue on for who knows how long into the future. My biggest lesson learned here: Request time off work for end of the year shows because I'm a zombie after staying up until 6-7 am. Having a breakdown ugly cry didn't help things either but I hope that seeing these clips gives you a better understanding about how BTS are different along with our connection with one another.

I get chills everytime I hear them yell ARMY!!! because everytime I remember that they're talking to me. They care about this random person who lives in a small city, in a small state who hasn't had the opportunity to even see them in person.

😢😢😢it’s ok to cry. I’m crying again each time I listen to their speech. Thank God they didn’t disband.

Honestly i am glad you found that video in your own way, without knowing what was about to hit you. To experience that moment like all the ARMYs who watched it live. I like you just searching things out and discovering it all!

Of course we need to see you pull the jello foil out of your coffee - it's things like that that make this journey with you real. We don't want a professional cutout with a script. Real life is far more fascinating (though have to admit it would have been funnier if the jello (not just the foil) had gone into your coffe!!) Thanks for the nice relaxing Sunday morning on the couch (even if I did shed a few cathartic tears with the guys during the speech). Hope you do more lives with us in the future. BORAHAE and have a great Weekend💜Please say thanks and pass on our love and greetings to Mrs Roscoe for letting us take up so much of your time.

Looking forward to the start of your deep dive. As others have suggested, the Rise of Bangtan series is a great way to move through the content systematically in a timeline. The episodes summarize their journey in small chunks of time and provide a lot of context for what they were going through at that point in time. So watching episodes 1 & 2 and the music and MVs from 2 Cool 4 Skool along with other content like Rookie Kings and KKUL FM shows really immerses you in what 2013 was like for them. And since their songs are a reflection of who they were when they wrote them, they make more sense. Or at least it was easier for me to understand how to interpret what was going on. But everyone will have a different approach. It's like do you really have to watch the Clone Wars to know what's going on in the Book of Boba Fett? Maybe not, but it sure makes it a lot more fun to watch.

They were working so hard, flying all over the world, barely sleeping, getting sick, getting injured. They were working 28.5 days out of every 30. It was tough. They and their company finally realized they had to take time to take care of themselves. They really love each other and it’s one of the things ARMY loves about them. Thanks for reacting. 💜🙏💜

When you talked about how some of us don't have someone to share BTS with my heart dropped, i put so much energy into ignoring how much it hurts me that the people I love don't care enough to take the time to figure why BTS means so much to me, they get mad at the fact that they have become a part of my life and It hurts so much that I can't share BTS with others. I even have dreams of watching BTS with my family and they are actually interested. I know in my heart they could love them too and that's why it bothers me so much.

When u “Im not crying, u’re crying”, u caught me off guard coz i was crying 😂😂

The speech broke so many hearts the day it came out. Your reaction is basically how we reacted, when we heard the speech. We could barely speak, our tears were flowing and we rode the whole emotional rollercoaster. For most of the ARMY, we had no clue that they were considering disbandment. 2018 was a VERY big year for BTS, especially internationally so to hear what they said in the speech was just shocking.

I just found this wonderful channel a couple of hours ago and I'm hooked! Not only by the BTS content, but how intelligently you approach them and their work is so beautiful. As someone who has been on the BTS journey since day one, I always love finding other people's own journeys. Especially people with open minds who don't immediately judge them off of what they see from a first glance, because it's so much that I see even still to this day, it is so rooted in bias and racism and just really disgusting aspects of the world. So it always brightens and lifts my heart that new people are joining the family that genuinely want to be a part of it and them. You have created a beautiful space for people to feel safe in. I cannot begin to tell you how much I appreciate you going on this journey. Much love and blessings to you and everyone close to you. We purple you! 💜💜

I love being in the Big Confy Couch. It's a pleasure to laugh, dance, get hyped up, get angry, get sad, celebrate, hurt, get frustrated, win, lose & cry with you Roscoe. There will be many more of these types of situations coming our way. I'm looking forward to going through the emotional roller coaster along with the #CouchCrew. That's what ARMY has been doing since 2013 and will continue to do. That's why we consider ourselves a family and not a fandom. Fighting!!!!

I loved everything about that live ! Sharing and crying together ! It really feels like a sweet shelter for ARMYs, thanks to you Roscoe and the Big Comfy Couch Community as well ! 💜

I'm fine with the quality of video & audio now so feel there's no need to spend on equipment, for an activity that's not really bringing in income as music video reactions make no money due to copyright claims. I know you are not in it for the money but I believe genuine reactors should get something for all the time, effort & energy they put in for their work, also esp since platforms can charge for usage/donations as well as other costs like PO boxes. Another BTS reactor also pre-empted if people chose to support them in monetary terms that's great but that's not gg to dictate what they are gg to do (beyond interest polls etc) n they are doing well with Army.

I am so thankful they decided to stay together. I didn't become ARMY till 2020 and I never would have found them if they had disbanded. They bring e such joy in my daily life. If i don't listen to them at least once a day I just don't feel right. Their music has become one of the only things I listen to now. And I find a new song all the time. I just saw another reacation to LOVE MAZE for the first time and had to add it to my play list that minute!! They are such a joy to watch, listen to, and learn about.

Ohhh no! Looking at the thumbnail.. I'm sure I'm gonna cry..cuz if it's the acceptance speech..we know Armys cry everytime we see this video 😭 i can't even imagine BTS not being together & disbanding.. I'm late..but ready to cry early in the morning now.. grabbed my tissues already🤧

When J-Hope cries, the world cries with him. Once again I am in tears. It's hard seeing them cry and you wish you can hug them and tell them it'll be alright. I love how strong they are and get through the tough times. I'm sure they know that ARMY is there for them, and I know they have each other. Wish them only happiness in their lives forever. 💜

this speech never fails to make me cry. it was such an emotional roller coaster, one minute armys were celebrating and the next one we see hobi the sunshine of the group breaking down on the stage, the rest of the members following right after. i remember how army translators who were live translating the speech just went silent when jin dropped the bomb. we never knew that they were considrring disbanding, so when the translations started finally coming through, an utter chaos happened. armys just couldn't stop crying, it was so heartbreaking knowing the boys were going through such difficult times but i like to think everything happens for a reason and the boys came out of it even stronger than before, making armys even prouder if that's even possible.

Oh nooo, I missed this live! 😩 Also... Roscoe: "I don't see a lot of decoding going on, it's pretty straightforward." BU: *hold my Sprite*

I became an ARMY during the Tear comeback, and it remains my favorite BTS album to this day. When I listened to Tear and read the lyrics back then, I thought it had to be the most just raw, heart-wrenching breakup song I heard maybe ever. I remember that night (or really, OMG in the morning, since that's the East Coast US ARMY life during Korean award show season) watching the MAMA Artist of the Year speech live, and reading the near instant translations on Twitter. But even before I knew what they were talking about exactly, when Hobi and Jin broke down (they rarely do), I was just hysterical. And I remember, the translations just...stopped for a few minutes. And little posts saying Jin said they considered breaking up in early 2018 startined trickling into Twitter...and then became a TORRENT. The shock LITERALLY felt and heard around the world was... indescribable. None of us had ANY CLUE that Tear almost never happened. That this beautiful family almost ended (and I NEVER WOULD HAVE KNPWN THEM, because I became an ARMY in May 2018)... I'm talking jibberish because it was really sad and a little traumatizing to think what almost happened. And then to think what these wonderful guys we love so much, who have shared so much with us, must have been going through... That MAMA moment was profound and really HARD to process. Somewhere down the line in one of the documentaries or maybe some DVD commentary later on, Suga just says, "Yeah, I wrote this melody when we were considering breaking up," and each of the rapline wrote their pieces about that, and how they all cried together... Bro. That was like a SECOND punch in the gut. Tear is not just the most raw, painful breakup song I've ever heard, IT WAS BTS' BREAKUP SONG. Especially the rap line, who had been together since before debut. Who started this whole phenomenon together. It hits me every single time now. All these years later, I still get lost in thought about what that must have been like for them. And then I'm even MORE grateful that they pulled together and pulled through, because they are family, the world needs them so badly... And in the most basic, selfish terms, I might not still be here today if they hadn't persevered. And THAT helps ME hold on when things are tough. MAN THIS SONG, THESE BOYS! 💜💜💜💜💜💜💜

I cry EVERYTIME... to see Hobi cry and the way Taehyung breaks down just kills me. Thank you for feeling this way about the boys... they deserve our tears 💜💜💜💜💜💜💜

It's reminds me that Vlive that Jimin does, in april 2018... he talk about the struggles he have, the way he watch over and over again this video when Army sing for them "forever we are young", saying how its' difficult to talk about his struggles with the other members because they all have struggles too, and how they decided to gathered a few days without working, just talking and chilling together... I was very touched by what he said (as always on Jimin's Vlive, he really talk to us heart to heart ) but it's only make sense for real when I see the MAMA 2018 and understand what was the point in late 2017 early 2018. So heartbreaking. And so understandable : they were in such a roller coster, so high, so speed, (with an amount of hate that encreased too, aka death threats against Jimin in 2017) ) , so scary . Being the genuine and humble boys that we know, they probably think that it was too much, too far, being afraid of lost themselves, and their passion from music under the pression and the fame, maybe afraid of the fall after the rise. Suga's poem "What a relief" seems very clear to me. I'm so happy that they could clear their mind, and continue their path, look at them , now ! Their smile and happiness at the AMA 2021 ! They still faced some difficulties, prejudices and injustice, but they are stronger than ever . (sorry for my poor grammar )

Yeah this is the reason why I stan bts, they are vulnerable and I can relate to.

I loved the video and the premiere also!!! I think it's a great way to interact with the #couchcrew. The boys worked so hard and deserved that award, that was 2018 and at that time they had been together for more than 5 years and never taken a break, not even a week of vacation, never had a few days to rest. This year was the first time ever they were able to spend the holidays with their families. They have always been so hard working, so it's really hard to watch how much struggle they had at that time to even consider disband, and you can see it by how the broke down during that speech. They are very kind and loving people and deserve to be happy.

Literally crying all week …….. this will break me again. 🤧

And here WE are 21 episodes later. Enjoying my dinner with your breakfast 😆 Love it 💜 Also.. I was not a rap person before but NOW, the rapline have some of my favorite songs, including this one ♥️

Once you decide to go back and start from the beginning, following the Rise of Bangtan documentary series is a really good approach. You can listen to the songs chronologically as relates to each chapter of the documentary and the documentary allows you to see their personal vlogs and journey at the time that those songs were written. Just a thought!

Some people "talk in circles"...Rosco speaks in sidetrack of sidetrack of original sidetrack. Truly entertaining. 🤣💜💜💜

The acceptance speech is killer. They are just pure. I bawled my eyes out yet again, like I haven’t seen it a zillion times.

I am halfway through the video, and you just uttered the fateful words: "This is just an acceptance speech, this shouldn't be a problem." I really feel for you, because you don't know what you're getting yourself into. Every single Army cries watching that speech, and with good reason. The silver lining is, the experience is going to give you necessary insight into who the guys are as people. Lovely human beings, every single one of them. Hang in there, future (past) Roscoe...and I hope you had tissues handy.

I’ve watched the acceptance speech several times with different reactors and cried every single time. Today is no exception... seeing you cried makes it even more impactful as a silver army myself. These boys are so precious, they deserve all the love in the world. 💜💜💜

Jin acting like the oldest hyung and keeping it real as he always does. V broke down after seeing the look of devastation on JK's face. I have never seen a look like that before. You should do the brilliant The Seven Members of Bangtan by Ida S. This is a must and gives you a little bit more info about the members.💜

When you said "it's just an acceptance speech, how bad can it be?" I thought....get your heart ready. I remember watching a behind the scenes of this day and V continued sobbing backstage for a long time after the speech. It was heart wrenching. Here is the full behind the scenes with english subs if anyone is interested ru-vid.com/video/%D0%B2%D0%B8%D0%B4%D0%B5%D0%BE-WWl0-w26j4I.html all the backstory makes it even harder...they have been through so much. Looking forward to the discord to continue this sense of community. Thanks for reacting

When you clicked on the link for the acceptance speech, my heart missed a beat. This was what I was waiting for. You're now officially army, congrats. 💜

That acceptance speech is so heartfelt and sincere, these are some the qualities that make so many of us love and admire these fine and immensely talented young men. They share their humanity with us, the good and the bad. Even as music superstars they are real and relatable 💜💜💜 Outro: Tear will forever be a masterpiece!

I can never make it through that speech without at the very least tearing up. I wish I'd been around for them during that time, but I'm here now and I love them dearly. I'm so glad they hung in there

I’ve seen that acceptance speech at least 20 times already and it still makes me cry every single time 😭

I am so happy I found your channel. You are an amazing person. I seriously love your discussions, you are a very wise man and I am happy that we have such people like you within ARMYS. When you said about "people do not have who to share with these BTS moments, that is why they seek it on the internet, on these platforms" I started crying, because that is so true. BTS is one of the few things in life that makes me happy, and I believe many ARMYS feel the same. having on mind that there are always more things in life we don't enjoy rather than things that makes us happy, that is just how life is for everyone. Therefore, watching BTS reactions and talking with other ARMYS on social platforms feels so joyful. English is not my first language therefore, sorry that I am not able to articulate my self to the highest potential. But I wanted to say thank You. Thank You for spending time out of your day and making these videos, thank You for letting us experience these beautiful as well as sad moments with You, thank You for letting us see Your vulnerable side and thank You for Your honesty. There are too many fake BTS reactions in the youtube, therefore, I want You to know how much I appreciate your videos and your presense. I am sure many ARMYS feel the the same way about You as I do. We really appreciate You. Thank You for being You 💜 We seriously appreciate You 💜 I hope that the happiness You give to us, ARMYS, through Your videos, I hope that we can give happiness to You back as well 💜🥺

i cry everytime i watch that MAMA speech for one can feel how genuine, real and true they are. their brotherhood is as real as you get. yes, i cried with you. carry on brother.

This speech ALWAYS brings me to tears ... to see how close they were to not being BTS anymore ... the thought almost breaks my heart xx

I love it soo much that you actually take the time to not just read all our comments and then find out more information regarding what we’ve said, but that you record your reactions to it and share it with us :)!! They literally are 7 superheros. They give us sooo much strength. And it’s why I will always be right behind them forever

Just woke up and you have me balling my eyes out with that sad clip... Seen it many times, but it still gets me everytime 💜💜

Even videos I’ve seen a thousand times… Roscoe makes me want to pay close attention to every frame. He’s so engaging and you can tell he truly cares. The best BTS reactor in the game!!!

Thank you Roscoe. BTS has filled our hearts with so much love, so our hearts break when we see their pain. Army is so grateful for their existence, and we wish only the best for every single member, if/when they do break up, we will continue to cheer for each of them - we will be excited to see them continue to live their lives and be happy 🙏💜💜

Roscoe ~ it is such a huge discography, even for us that have been ARMY for years. Going back to the beginning is wonderful, but daunting especially when you want to toss on a BTS PL and jam out to the tunes. Only thing I suggest is, go back to Daechwita and watch that Korean interpretation. Its imperative to understand all the Korean nuances that are there, that pass over our Western heads. Gives a whole new meaning to the video. Love what you do, keep it up, DO YOU!

Thank you! Thank you for providing a safe and comfortable space for us to experience BTS together.

I hv wrote this same comment on your outro tear reaction..so I'll paste it here as well.. about song & their thought of disbandment : *This song was written by the rap line of BTS (RM, Suga and J-hope) The lyrics symbolizes what a breakup means to each, it was tears for RM, tearing apart for Suga and for J-hope it was fear Suga about Outro: Tear --> "The lyrics were written for the members; when I was writing the melody, at that time, we were contemplating whether we should quit or not. When I played the song for the members, we all cried together"* I think it is fair to say that much of the stress that led to BTS members having to reevaluate their careers came from the exponential growth of their popularity and the unanticipated demands this placed on them...Their original Idol platform origins did not predict worldwide large arena then stadium concerts with millions globally having constant eyes and opinions on them..So disbandment due to pressure was on the table for BTS which had different members managing the pressures differently..but BTS members always had talk things out and come to solutions. All were able to evaluate the future, whether they could continue the evolving project with the kind of group and individual joy which was necessary. Outro: Tear reflects on the deepest emotions that were involved with that process: sadness, the sense of things being ripped apart, and fear of the consequences. BTS is number one because they consistently share whether emotions or messages. Outro: Tear is one of those cases where they share something both personal and difficult. (Cr. Eric)

i got so excited when I saw this up, and then realised it was a premiere. It will premiere at 1am Monday morning for me, so I will have to wait until I get home from work on Monday night to watch it 😪. As much as I love your videos Roscoe, I have to teach 40 3-5 year olds all day for my job. I need my sleep for that!

woke up this morning, excited to watch another comfy couch video. oh yay, we are talking about Tear more. ... 2018 acceptance speech... i was not ready! i have to mentally prepare every time i watch this! "i'm not crying, youre crying" yes.

I'm not an easy crier, but this always gets me in the feels. Everytime i see this i just want to give them a big hug. Reading the comments hits me to. The couch family is so great. Thank you all. And thank you Roscoe for letting us come along on your BTS journey

8:45 "We're going to do it together on the couch... Sounded strange." I've been laughing for five minutes straight.

unrelated but reading SUGA's GQ magazine interview article made me almost cry. Suga is someone who makes me feel seen through his lyrics and his words have an air of reassurance. I highly recommend checking out interviews of BTS members, the ones where they get asked real questions and can answer in the language theyre comfortable in. They are all so articulate.

For me it's exactly like you said...I have no one around me to share this life changing experience, which ist BTS, with. As I watch others react to their content I feel less alone. So thank you very much for taking on this journey :)

I love being apart of the couch family. After the premiere I realized I want to be apart of the "known" family. Then I realized I don't really share and that could be a problem. Sorry it's my Yoongi half coming through. 💜🛋️

I watched that live with no subtitles and I sobbed like a baby, because I hate to see them sad. When I watched it later with subs I was an even bigger mess. I love those boys so much and they have meant so much to me. They got me through one of the toughest years of my life. I love it here on the couch, it’s become such a great place to be. Like you said I don’t have anyone in real life to share.

That was the hardest acceptance speech ever. I was dreading you watching it. But here I am, bawling again. Lol. 🛋💜🛋🤗💜🛋🛋🤗💜🤗🛋

Thank you for reading my comment 🥰 Initially I wanted to give you the link to that 2018 Award Speech to better understand the context to Outro Tear but I decided you're not ready for it coz it's too heart wrenching. But you found it on your own so you can't blame me 🤭😅

There’s so much I wanna say words fail me in every way and the tears they swallow me the shadows follow me As I watch and I listen Hearts breaking Words shaking I relate to every step And how could I ever forget All your love unrelenting Came to me as I was breaking Bangtan sonyeondan - Pure Gold You’re my Breath You’re my Truth You’re my Soul Borahae 💜 ~ Natalie Rodreguez

I did the same.. I got into BTS because of dynamite.. late 2020. So I kinda went backwards on my journey!! Some how it all came together though and I’m up to date… I think😋! I actually still learning more about BTS everyday!! Enjoy the journey!!! RM is very intelligent, humble, and talented!! He to me.. is the ultimate Renaissance man!

Roscoe! You’ve got ARMY behind you now. We’ll help each other with Discord. You don’t have to do it all. Do You. Do You. Do You. Do You. Borahae 💜

Was that strawberry jello? How do you take your coffee - black? The guys love their coffee! Usually they enjoy iced americano first thing in the morning. Yoongi shifted to decaf after his shoulder surgery. Jungkook at first did not like the bitter taste of coffee (fondly recalling one Run BTS episode). Taehyung does not drink coffee but will gamely taste any concoction haha Anyway every time I see you with your warm hug in a mug, I imagine Namjoon, Jin, Yoongi, Hobi, Jimin, Tae & JK gathered around Roscoe's couch with their iced Americanos watching us with wide eyed wonder, ear to ear grins, probably shaking their heads from time to time marvelling and bewildered that we watch and talk about them every single day. Would not be surprised if their ears are constantly twitching and "itchy". I keep praying that they will find your channel simply for the pure joy they will experience when they watch your videos, see their journey through your eyes and so they get to read all the beautiful, poetically articulate, hilarious, very touching, extremely insightful & intelligent comments in all your clips and those written in the Community posts. How wonderful would that be?