Thank you, god, and you❤ I have filament Bible app How would you respond or look at a woman that falls for your husband and keeps trying to get into your marriage? My ex, whom I thought was the one at the time, told me last night in his dreams or garden he sees his ex. His car and the car she drives are parked outside my front door (not their actual cars but the same cars.) I want to stop needing his love to feel like I’m not ugly or worthless - it’s based on depression and low self esteem and all that fun stuff. But the battle I’m fighting in my mind is hard. And I still love him with every cell - I do believe that love is real. But I have never had to experience this before and I am struggling.
I always thought it was God's fault not to be offensive on here. I grew up thinking it was. In my head I always thought well Rachel and Leah are siblings and they share the same parents. Any siblings would pretty much share some similar features here and there but bible describes them as being complete opposites. Bible describes Rachel as the modern day what would be a model beautiful in appearance and figure and her sister not really well we get the picture. If anything I tell myself, sure God did bless Leah and made up for the deep rejection she faced but isn't God the first to be at fault here because we all know he made the two sisters polar opposites Rachel was lovely and beautiful and Leah was that person that gets overshadowed and seen as the less then the one that gets compared to her sister. What did God expect? Pretty much this would happen and Leah knew this is the kind of treatment she would receive from people. She knew she wasn't pretty she knew she was the shadow of her sister and this is the expected reaction and treatment from her dad and people with the two women. Why couldn't God make her lovely not the same but beautiful but different surely I don't think she would have no one at least any wanting to marry her and see her for who she is so that she wouldn't have her be put in this deceptive scheme by her dad to get married with Jacob because no one wanted her. What did God expect. Did Leah ask to be a Leah she didnt. And yes he made up for it but he was the first responsible maybe he didn't have to do her in that way why should their be Leah's in this world they hurt bad nobody has to question their value or feel less than but reality is not all women are created the same. Some women are beautiful and attractive physically and can love Jesus and be beautiful on the inside to in their character they can have grace for all we know not only is Rachel very beautiful attractive, stunning but maybe she also has a stellar personality, there's women loving Jesus and just as attractive on the inside and then there's also people like me who are very ugly and unattractive for a woman and in all honesty I felt like I had no redeeming qualities I am also ugly if not more on the inside just as I am on the outside. The thing is we can't control this things and it hurts. Leah couldn't control that she had to be Leah eitherz more than anything I don't think it's just the fact that she was unloved, rejected, overshadowed, unheard of but also she didn't love herself at all and my prediction too that she didn't feel like she was a woman, didn't feel like she Could get herself to like her. I could be writing longer here but I think I'll stop here. Maybe I'm wrong for blaming God but that's how I feel. Please let me know your comments. Thank you
Thank you for watching this and taking time to share your heart. We are so sorry you have been holding this heartache. What we know from Scripture is that you were created in love, by God-and He sees you as beautiful and He doesn’t see what man sees. We love this quote from St. Catherine of Siena: What is it you want to change? Your hair, your face, your body? Why? For God is in love with all those things and he might weep when they are gone. We will pray for you specifically as we will add you to our team prayer wall.
Dear Myka, God loves you just the way you are. He will give you the grace to change the way that you think about yourself. It is never too late to pray for the grace to transform yourself and your character. We want to be a mirror that reflects God's goodness and God's beauty. We want to let His love reflect back to others. Mother Teresa said that we should try to go to Confession to clean our soul and our hearts so that God's love can shine in and reflect back out as through clear glass, not clouded with the stains of our sins. Bless you. Ever child of God is beautiful. Trust and find that beauty in your inmost soul. God loves you as His precious daughter.
Hi Myka, 💛I hear your heart. I struggled with massive amounts of insecurity as a girl growing up as well, both physically and socially. I wanted to reply to you with what I believe is the core of your burden, when you said: "Leah couldn't control that she had to be Leah eitherz more than anything I don't think it's just the fact that she was unloved, rejected, overshadowed, unheard of but also she didn't love herself at all and my prediction too that she didn't feel like she was a woman, didn't feel like she Could get herself to like her." You are correct, Leah couldn't control how she looked or that she was "Leah," and Leah also couldn't control how others treated her, but what Leah COULD control was where she chose to point her compass. I cannot control things my body, my skin color, my hair, my freckles, or anything, neither can I control how other people perceive me for such things, but I can control how I view myself through the lens of how God views me. I can control my response to reality and accept reality and choose to love myself as God loves me and to love others as well. You can also choose where you point your compass. God allows us to go through suffering in this world, which does not make God evil. We all go through seasons of struggle, if not a downright tragedy in this lifetime. God even came down for us through His Son and suffered on our behalf, facing rejection by men, torment, humiliation, and unimaginable persecution (much like what other Christians go through for their faith even today). He did this for you and me to be saved through Him and to have hope. It is written, "These things I have spoken unto you, that in me ye might have peace. In the world ye shall have tribulation: but be of good cheer; I have overcome the world." - John 16:33 Jesus was speaking to everyone when he said this, not just to 1 person (we know this by the word "ye"). In this, you can rest assured that you are not alone, beloved! ❤ Tragedy is the result of sin in this universe and God will make it right when He creates a new heaven and new earth, and He already has made it right through Christ for believers like you and I. God did not make you physically unattractive, as "unattractive" is subjective, meaning a personal feeling. The problem we have is with the world and how they have been conditioned by the enemy of our souls to view "beauty" as wearing tons of makeup, looking, and behaving in a certain "doll" like manner. It is very fake. And I say, you are YOU and always be YOU at your core, always be real. People need to see that. People need to face reality and the human race needs to learn how to love people in their most vulnerable moments. In Christ, hope is available and you have been given the strength to step into a new mindset of His word and a new power (much like a spiritual coat that you wear, see the whole armor of God, Ephesians 6). God will comfort your heart and your tears and he will bring others alongside you to comfort you and encourage you in this battle of life when you share your story with others (much like what you are doing here). But for this to happen, you first have to submit to God and recognize how little you and I can change in this universe. If it isn't a physical issue we struggle with in life, then it could be an issue with family, relationships, poverty, mental health, you name it. The problem is most certainly not God, it is the nature of man to choose evil and to refuse to submit to God and overcome through Him when He has shown The Way, who is Jesus. So may I encourage you to practice self-compassion and pray to God and tell Him your feelings and talk to other safe people about your struggle, whether it be a counselor, a safe parent, a friend, or safe an emotionally safe Christian. Please read the book of Romans and Galatians and let it clarify your perspective and strengthen your love for God, yourself, and others. I will be praying for you as I remember. Thank you for having the courage to share your heart. Stay strong and God bless. 💛❤
