everyone bashing on psychedelics and yet they drink and had done tons of drugs and have the impudence to blame it on something that is our only way out of this ignorance is bliss bullshit belief just cause everyone thinks thye got enlightened for having seen some stuff in some other bullshit dimension when not having navigated anywhere really…
@user-xo6qx4ii9c yeah do that first lol. But if you are absolutely dead set give DMT a go first. I have a feeling it would work really, really well to change people's minds
My man, I had the same exact experience but with lsd. I did lsd every other day for two years when I was 17. Then I finally hit my bad trip and experienced the same thing you did for 4 days straight. Shadows dancing and trying to get me. Shadows of what I thought was demons on the side of my face taunting me. My friends trying to kill me. I was messed for years. I feel the pain you’re feeling. I tried dmt 3 years ago and told the shamim about the issues. Took the first hit and all the flash backs came and I backed off the first hit. I just want you to know that it will pass. Stay strong.
Thank you for sharing 💜 Your the first person Ive watched That understands what I lived through as well I warn people as well the dangers of a bad trip I too had a DMT flash back I thought i waa going crazy
I never really understood "ignorance is bliss" until I had my own traumatizing experience almost 2 years ago. I'm doing better now, but I definitely haven't fully recovered, and I don't know if I ever will. I still have terrible anxiety every now and then and current events in my life certainly aren't helping. But hey, Im glad I at least dont feel like I'm in hell 24/7 like I used to. Anyways you seem like a cool guy to chat with. Hang in there, I know how rough it can be
you’ll get better brother. I was in the same boat. the way you fight it is constantly putting yourself to work. get things done and improve yourself constantly
Aww man 🥺 I still suffer from panic attacks/anxiety too and it’s been a decade 😭 it’s truly the worst thing ever and I hope another two years later, you’re doing much, much better now!!! Ignorance can definitely be bliss in this world.. that’s fa dam sho 😓
@@thedouglaspodcast 2 years later and I definitely am doing better. Still struggling a bit but I got a girlfriend now and she helps me a lot, and other aspects of my life are looking up too. I get anxious quite often still but the panic attacks don't happen near as much as they used to
Aye man your Brain is just super alert, your super aware now dude, there’s gonna be fear and anxieties but don’t let ur mind win, as long as ur alive on earth doing what you do everyday then ur good my guy no stress
So sorry that you had a hard time, and I'm sure it's not fun for you. We hear vast numbers of stories about how DMT has contributed to an improved and lasting paradigm shift in thinking, it's important to also hear about seemingly rare cases when this fails to occur.
I was literally going to try it this week. Nah, not happening. I tried LSD a few times in my teens, and while you spoke I had a vague notion of that dread. Like from a distant dream. I found this video for a reason. So thanks. I’m looking for answers we’re not ready for in this life. Answers I don’t need. And maybe ignorance is bliss.
Everyone are different. Bad trips are hard but teach a lot. If you use dmt you should not be afraid of any state of consiousness. I was in a lot worse state and I didnt panic at all. At last it is all just illusion.
@@sonikwrosometimes it's not up to you, you know? You think you're in control, you think you've got it figured out, until you don't. Don't be so arrogant. Some people are safe others are not. If you're unlucky, all your set and setting ain't gonna save you from shit.
Same 😭 been a decade since I last tripped and I can’t do it anymore 🥺 people in the comments are telling him to do it again lmaooo. It’s like bruh.. no. That’s unbelievably disrespectful to the substance. I feel like they let yo ass know when it’s time to be done. I’ll foreverrrrrr cherish the trip experiences I have.. the “good” a biiiit more than the “bad” 😅 they changed me forever and I’ll always be so beyond grateful for that.. but once you’re done, sometimes you’re just *done.*
I have had similar experiences not to be comparing mine to yours just pure speculation, but scientifically It dose sound like psychosis brought on by the alcohol. Psychosis can cause hallucinations and schizophrenia like symptoms as I am sure you know, after having psychedelics I had to stop drinking alcohol and stop smoking cannabis as some times it can put me in a state of panic, fear paranoia and I can hallucinate mainly in the come down or the day after. for me it lasted about 3 weeks and felt like I was consonantly being attacked by negative thoughts and Dark entities telling me things about myself and others that are not true. I did think for a while that I could be stuck like this for all my life. Trying to distract myself did not work it just made the voices louder and the panic worse and I would get Angry and have mood swings. But on a spiritual level it sounds like maybe kundalini awakening or dark night of the souls where all the dark energies are released from your body. This can be deferent for everyone For me I couldn't stop vomiting and feeling pure dread, fear and panic. I could feel all the emotions and anger and pain of everyone around me as if it was all being directed at me.The hospital is one of the worst places you could be if you are experiencing this as I am sure you know. For me I needed to be as far away from other people as I could because I could feel all they're emotions and energy. It reminded me of an ayahuasca experience but I had taken no drugs other than smoking cannabis a few days before and I was on the come down. I then did some research and found that after taking DMT I had raised my vibration, but when I drank alcohol or smoked cannabis that my vibration had been lowered. This allowed dark energies and demons in and made me susceptible to psychic attack if you believe in that sort of thing. It sounds like you maybe being targeted in the spiritual realm and somebody is cursing you and sending dark entities your way. Or possibly some past traumas coming to the surface for you to heal. The energies at this time are quite chaotic with everything going on around the world at the moment. There is a big planetary cleansing going on and these dark energies are panicking and looking for somewhere to go. If you keep your energies high they won't be able to get to you as much and will move on to somewhere else. What helped me was staying healthy eating good high vibe foods staying away from any drugs a complete detox. I started exercising more, going out for more walks in nature, meditating more and listening to music. I worked harder on my spiritual practices to protect my energy I used sage and pyrite to protect me and my home from the dark energies. I did things to help me relax and look after myself and give myself the love and attention I deserved. I also cut a lot of negative people out of my life who criticised me and would try and put me down I found that most of the dark energies around me where coming from others judging and cursing me. In my mind I went through things that have happened in the past until I realised these things don't define who I am. By no means am I trying to say my experiences have been the same as yours, and I don't know if what worked for me would work for you. But I hope this helps you and gives you some insight. As for DMT smell, taste and experience the mind produces its own DMT it is possible to have a DMT trip without taking it you can do this with breathing exercises and meditation and certain types of yoga. Remember you are loved, you are strong and can keep the darkness at bay. Much love and peace Bro hope you find your way. Also some RU-vidrs and Spiritual teachers that have helped me are Teal Swan, Aaron Doughty, Victor Oddo, Leo from actualized.org, complex ptsd made simple, your mate Tom, FitlifeTV, Shaman Oaks, Abraham Hicks, DoctorRamani and Kati Morton
I've never done DMT, never tried acid either, but I am very into psilocybin experiences and microdosing has been the best thing I've ever done for my mental health. I saw someone in the depths of a REALLY, really bad LSD trip when I was a teen and that's why I chose not to dabble in it. I've heard great things about DMT but was hesitant...and since I have experienced severe panic attacks before, and reoccurring in the past..so I think based on your experiences I think I will stay away from DMT By the way, I am so sorry you went through this. I cannot even imagine how terrifying this whole situation was especially after EMT came and being afraid of being permanently in a psychotic state you were experiencing. I cannot imagine. I hope you're doing okay, I appreciate you telling your story. Ive never heard of side effects like this, and I think more people should listen.
Thank you 🙏. We live subjectively and so everyone’s experience will definitely differ but for those like me who suffer bpd and adhd, it’s probably best o refrain from trying the super powerful psychedelics
I've experienced similar everythink periods and I understand the ignorance is bliss part. There have been times that I wish I knew less, and times where I wished I could just be somewhat normal than stuck in my anxiety flashback mode of thinking that I cannot turn off. I've felt pure fear, pure anxiety, etc. Sudden wavess, random feelings. I'm sure your experiences have been more intense, but I can empathize. You're not alone and with time your mind will heal itself, steady usage of certain meds might help regulate your mind as well. I suggest regular exercise as that has helped to boost moods and can help regulate your mind's biochemistry which won't stop these incidents from happening, but it will give you an edge on managing them as they occur or even staving off the frequency and the actual events.
Aye man I hope it gets better I’ve been dealing with a similar sort of thing I don’t know what substance did it but it broke me I’m 19 and have been irresponsibly doing psychedelics, drinking, and smoking weed and cigs since I was freshman in high school currently stopping all unnecessary substances for now I’m sticking to my native religion and trying to find my neutral state of mind again it’s been working but I do get episodes every now and then but I hope it gets better much love from here
I did dmt, and had really heavy period where I was lost, but then I sat with myself and "hugged" all the things that were coming to me (the good ones but especially bad ones), and I am still doing that (I believe all the bad things are here to teach you something or prepare you for something worse,(also I would like you to realise that everything is passing, good or bad)). I'm sad to see you like that, but I think you can snap out of it. I think you need to believe in yourself and know that you're powerful. Let's just see how panic attack works, where it actually controls the whole body. If you can do that to yourself, imagine what can you do to yourself if you're thinking positively. You and everyone of us are just beautiful individuals who have the whole power in our hands only don't know how to use it properly, and that's ok cause we didn't have from anywhere to learn it from. The most of the things that they are teaching us(from our parents to school) is how to function in this world(human civil world), not within ourselves. Working on yourself it's the hardest thing you'll ever do, but it's worth it cause you were born alone and you'll die alone. Anyway i just wanted to say that you didn't deserve to live in fear, and you are the only person who can help yourself. What is the point of this life if we don't enjoy it...? Would really like to help you and if this post means anything to you just contact me and we'll talk. That's sometimes the best therapy. I am now sending you lots of love and joy, and wish you to understand yours and the world's beauty and really enjoy life. NOTHING IN THIS LIFE IS THAT SERIOUS, PLAY THE GAME.✌️
Forgive the very late reply lol . Thank you for reaching out and showing genuine concern ❤. This video is now 2 years old and a lot has happened since . I’ve recently given into the idea of Christ and have gone back to church after nearly 30 years away from it . I deleted all social media’s in December 2023 and it’s been the best decision I’ve ever made for my mental health. I am always grateful for new friends tho and I do have WhatsApp only because it’s one on one communication rather then daily bombardments of posts and reels . I hope you’re doing well and are happy ❤
Wish you the best brother. I had similar experiences but due to smoking marijuana. I stopped but when I don't get sleep and go for days I start experiencing symptoms as these. Much love
@@man.itz.ashtonhell yeah I’ve had some weird shit from weed too.. I have a super low tolerance- one puff and I’m gone for hours lol. I don’t like it that much so maybe smoke once every few months or so but I’ve had some odd bizarre shit from weed
I ate an adible more than 2 months ago and I feel like my brain changed in a bad way, It's not worse like you experience at all but I feel you man. Be strong.
@@danapixel Its so hard to explain, I hallucinated a lot when I smoked and after it I just felt really disconnected from everything or I feel like my senses have gone a bit weird or unreliable. for a few days after it happened I thought I was dreaming, but its gradually getting better although I still get these waves of anxiety. how do you feel?
You absolute boss !!!! I know this sounds mad but another hit of DMT could potentially snap you out of this insanity it did me when I was experiencing knock on affects from DMT years down the line my brother all peace and love
marcus l I was talking about my experience and what helped me hence I said it could “potentially “ help if you read above !!!! I didn’t say it WOULD definitely sort his problem out purely speaking from a similar experience that helped me..... don’t be insulting I’m not trying to be a know it all drug guru you utter Imbecile .... how about you make a post and comment with your views and expressions and don’t jump on mine 🙄 moron
Drinking is the problem. Anxiety and panic disorder will not go away if you continue to drink. If you are having hangovers with any regularity, you’re drinking too much. It sounds like you need to stop entirely. Alcohol messes up your brain in ways that are permanent. It also messes up your digestive system and your sleep patterns. You also are still learning how to manage anxiety, which is a skill in and of itself. It takes years. The two takeaways you should have from this are: 1. Stop drinking 2. Don’t do any psychedelics If you haven’t figured this out yet, or you’ve been asking for help from the universe, or you’ve been saying “god give me a sign” THIS the sign. Stop drinking. And take vitamin D. I’m betting you don’t get enough sunlight. 5000 IUs a day. I promise you that if you do this for two weeks, you will turn a corner. And you’ll do it for another two weeks. And then four. And then eight. Step 1 is to stop drinking. That’s the solution. That’s the ticket out of this hell. I promise you. Ignore the other well-meaning nonsense in these comments. The problem is alcohol. Please don’t take this like a scolding parent. I’ve been down a road similar to yours and I’m just speaking from experience.
You hit it right on the nose. I was going to comment on that about the experienced he had as the first few hours of alcohol withdrawals. I too used to trip a lot on LSD back in my day and when I felt that way I would always blame it on the flash backs on LSD and not the fact that it was alcohol. I protected my alcohol use for many many years until 4 years ago it send me to the hospital with a severe case of alcohol hallucinosis. I stop drink And sure enough my ear still rings like crazy but now I can handle it because I stay sober. I relaps of time to time because I stupid and like to party and the same shit happens all over again the paranoia schizophrenic feeling, but it gets worse every time so I need to stop for good. I can bet you it was alcoholic withdrawals and not a DMT flashback. I can’t believe they didn’t catch it at the hospital. It’s one of the first things they ask you if you drink too much or do drugs.
Hey man , same thing happened to me around the same time you had these experiences, it gets Better , I don’t feel like the same person after doing Dmt , for good and bad reasons , I think the best thing to do is work on yourself everyday to achieve good things in your life to get you to the person you should be , How are you now brother
yeah that was four years ago and im only recently finding my philosophy . I am actually pondering doing another more powerful dmt trip in the near future. I'll be taking all the precautions this time tho .
@@Simsandwichman I plan on doing a "breakthrough" mushroom trip soon to prepare myself / determine if I'm ready for DMT (which is my psych substance end goal), after having just finished all your videos of your DMT experience I couldn't fathom living through what you have after DMT. I am so incredibly curious after reading this comment, what would make you want to go back?
@@gizmo4486 the place and company are so very important. I would have to do it outside in great weather in nature away from concrete and people. I would also want a very small group of people who know with a lot of experience what they are doing. These two things are paramount to a positive experience.
Yeah there's nothing as depressing and anxiety-inducing is the wait for crisis worker in the ER. Maybe one day there will be a centre that's much more welcoming when you're overwhelmed and in need of calm support.
Was going to do Ayahuasca but I don’t think so. Imagine having a bad trip and being in this state for a year or 2. No I’m good. My life is ahead of me. Keep it up brother and take care
Thanks for sharing and taking heed to your message! I tried Dmt but don't think I did it well......because I didn't experience anything psychedelic... I just experience my senses becoming heighten, skin moving and residue in pipe moving. but when you say on your second trip that you was knocking on the door to other dimension and seeing it... WHAT was THAT like????
Awwwe see now you gonna have me go in on it cause I want to know SOMETHING..... even though I was warned lol but there has to be way for you to express that experience. @@Simsandwichman
You should form a support group. There's at least two others on RU-vid that are still feeling broken as a result of bad experiences. You should reach out to them to help each other since your situations are unique and not really addressed by the psychiatry professionals because they lack the experience on the DMT world.
What does it mean to be aware of other people's thoughts? You can't know what they're thinking so it's interesting to hear what's your experience exactly with that
Our brains probably produce DMT during sleep. The alcohol + double anti psychotic meds + waking up probably during REM = waking up with a surplus of DMT in the brain.
This is an extremely unpopular opinion, however I can tell you’re a good dude with a lot to give. Stay away from psychedelics and TRUST your intuition for it will not lie to you. It isn’t hard for evil to mascaraed as benevolent. Take notice in the individuals who consume massive amounts of psychedelics. Nothing wrong in getting a bump in the right direction. But we need to be honest with ourselves. Do the “gifts” out way the payment? What is the payment? And since when did we have to pay for gifts? Maybe you should write a book man. Or do some art. Pit a message out there to the world. Even if only a few see it it will be much like a seed. A seed that may possibly grow into a tree. A tree that makes seeds. And so on.
I can’t help but wonder if the hyperventilation helped release DMT and exacerbate your situation. I’ve heard a few different anecdotal instances where people have reported that meditation and breathing exercises have brought on DMT trance like states.
You really NEED to purge, especially without a guide or shaman. 2 weeks of healthy foods and positive subconscious stimuli helps tremendously, fasting for 24 hours before isn't necessary but I find its good for me.
Hey there! After watching your videos I really wanted to try and sum some things up which I'm actually sure you're aware of. Having your perception amplified to this point is crazy, I wonder how you are right now. The fact is we're not made for this kind of information processing. As human individuals we are like lots of pieces that are made to feel separated so interaction actually has any meaning and we can talk and hold hands and do whatever with this "I'm me and you're you" kind of shit. That limitation is so we can feel unique, and develop in unique ways, and try to have fun, and learn, and actually use up time to evolve as individuals which are not an "infinite everything" I guess. The math gets crazy when we try to apply the oneness to our view of reality -- this oneness makes so that the world is more "alive" than we give it credit for. Every event and interaction is actually our own reflection, just as it's meaning, and be it good or bad the meaning we give to it, it's just trying to wake us up - by mirroring us. Not messages or things we should try to grasp or understand, but actual mirrors of what we are doing to ourselves. If you have the time, please search for a book called "The School for Gods", from Elio D'anna. Hope to hear from you!
That’s an interesting insight. Thank you for your comment. I’m doing much better other then sleep issues which I’ll have for as long as I own this body . Do you share your thoughts on a channel?
@@Simsandwichman I'm glad you're better! Hearing about what happened brought back memories from my own psychedelics abuse - I remember this one time I could hear everyone's intentions as you were explaining, and instead of asking for help my reaction was trying to escape! 🤣 I put my dog in the car, packed my bags and were on my way nowhere! I lived by myself but on a family's house. Of course there was no escape from my own head, so it was just the need for grounding. There's no point on being that much perceptive about other people. I don't have a channel nor anything like that as of now... I do have a big-ass text in which I try to explain reality in words, but it's written in my native language - Brazilian portuguese. I'm not sure words can help anyone though. It's like pointing to the moon - all we have to show for it is our finger, the moon must be experienced, not explained, and in this case it's a lifelong "moon". If the oneness subject is of your interest though, you can find my untranslated words on "um.enzovecchio.com".
You suffer from PTSD , alcohol may be a trigger. You should try EMDR treatment as one of your trips was that bad. I had the same thing with a overdose THC.
@@babblingalong7689 yes it helped! The trip was so long, i had spasm, hallucinations, i was in a "psychotic" state for over a week. After a week or 2 i had formed ptsd...EMDR helped me get over the trauma ( bad trip i had for like a week )
I’m not an expert but I’m pretty sure this wasn’t the dmt that caused this. Chronic alcohol consumption can cause psychosis and or worsen mental states and you also mentioned childhood trauma. I truly hope that we can find better ways to help people.
I have experienced psychosis from alcohol abuse and his was a different experience in a big way but it is possible. I’m not a biologist or scientist either so you could be right but it was still very different.
@@Simsandwichman Hey I hope you're doing ok and wish you the best, I am wondering if you had BPD or psychosis since you were younger or did psychedelics bring this on? Like did you potentially have an underlying mental health condition since you were young?
@@Simsandwichman ok thank you for the reply, I wish you the absolute best, sending some positive energy and hope that things in due time get better for you
I used DMT hundreds of times. Mostly good trips. But I had a terror trip and it changed everything. It completely changed my life. Ultimately, I hope for the better. The night I had the terror trip on DMT I was drinking vodka heavily. I was extremely intoxicated. I also took an unknown MDxx compound earlier that day to complicate things even more. Anyway, I developed DP/DR. I also would get nightmarish panic attacks after using cannabis. I never had panic attacks unless it was drug or alcohol related and mostly from weed. It took years to recover. But I still am susceptible to panic attacks from too much weed. I should mention I never heard any voices, saw anything or had delusions. It seems it just made my OCD preexisting anxiety worse. I wish I never would have mixed alcohol and DMT. The lesson is to never mix DMT with anything. If you do be careful. Because there are things you can mix it with safely. Definitely not booze though. It's better not to mix it with anything though.
Reach out to me, i entered a psychotic episode and have ptsd from my DMT trip as well. Anti psychotics and effexor combined saved my ass overnight. I never thought i would get my life back. I was shook and scared to my core and lost everything. I couldnt even think about anything. The sheer magnitude paralyzed me with fear. Biggest mistake of my life. Got stuck in a timeloop that traumatized me after i came back. Its hard to imagine how fucked you feel when you get stuck in a goddamn loop where even your own thoughts are looping, like a 5 second loop repeating for so long, and that was just the takeoff Nevermind how its even possible to be aware of a loop in which you yourself are looping Funny thing is i felt fine for almost a week after coming back. But then the insomnia and triggers started happening. I would start to feel like i was losing my mind, and panic, and that my sanity was so delicate, like a thought bubble ready to burst. Nowadays i have to be careful about drinking and coffee. Binge drinking and alcohol withdrawal coupled with caffeine is enough to sensitize me and make the flashbacks come
Yeah my last Dmt trip was in 2018 and the anti psychotics did help and I’ve only been free of them for three months now which is so nice because I genuinely thought I’d be on them for life given my sleep problems. Yeah I had a similar experience with time looping which is scary as fuck . I had a hyper lucid dream that the world was moving in reverse, like the superman movie except for the spin of the planet . I came out of it as if it was a real place I had escaped from and it took several hours to shake the feeling. Psychosis is no joke and doesn’t fuck around. The trap of getting locked in existential despair, knowing everything and knowing when anything will happen, it’s so intense and near impossible to explain to people the true meaning of dread felt . Glad you’re feeling better now friend .
@@Simsandwichman you too man. It's something I wouldn't wish on anyone. We don't appreciate what it really is to be a sane person who doesn't think this way until it's gone. Once you open these doors there is no going back. You can sometimes ignore them, but there is no going back and the truth is so bizarre that if there is anything about humanity which you really want to hold onto and cherish, then you shouldn't play Russian roulette with dmt. I think it should be for very old or suicidal people. People with less to lose
@@Simsandwichman I had a drinking problem afterwards too, just to fall asleep. I had to pass out because if I just tried to sleep, I would hallucinate insane shit especially audio, people scratching at my doors, calling my name, explosions... and I could feel my body shutting down as I crossed the threshold of sleep. Like being sucked backwards into a gravity well while your heart stops beating and your lungs no longer respond. Makes it hard to sleep lol. But after a point you just get so tired that it happens. Over time it just makes the whole cycle grow worse and worse.
The only person who was there for me was my mom. My gf of 7 years left me shortly after I started having trouble and took my pup too. I dropped out and lost my job but none of that even mattered in the face of how ruined my mind was.
@@finnaplow I too was abandoned by someone who was the closest to me for over 18 years . I realized that once I was sick , I had became a hindrance to them and I then realized this person was a sociopath the entire time who used me until I could no longer serve a purpose. I don’t know your full situation but if your girlfriend left , it’s probably a good thing she’s out of your life now .
You have an incredible spirit. DMT is the top of the top in my mind. You really find out alot, even if it is overwhelming!! Just what I learned from salvia was enough to know that dmt probably wasnt a good idea for me.
@@mulletsandmustaches8656 felt squashed down and went flat (1-D) like a piece of paper and was stuck there for the duration of the high, terrifying...never again!!
The Bible says this is sorcery but all who repent and come to Lord Christ no matter the sin will be saved. There is nothing the blood of Christ can’t buy.
@@Simsandwichman There are many spirits a spirit is it’s word is it’s character and not all the spirits are the same. The Lord said Matthew 6:24 “No one can serve two masters, for either he will hate the one and love the other, or he will be devoted to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve God and money. The knowledge of good and evil has been placed in the heart and is a witness of good and bad spirits showing a division. Spirits hold territory on earth the spirit of buddha is not Christ and good ministering spirits are sent to all.
At any given time there is as much DMT in your brain as serotonin. Thoughts can alter any one of your neurotransmitters. It seems like the ratio of DMT to other neurotransmitters for you was out of whack for a bit for whatever reason. If it happens again you know that you survived it intact before so it won't be so bad next time. People get NDE's and claim to still have access to that other world years later. It is just a matter of having a good relationship with that realm.
Hey Bud, I had a psychotic episode from cannabis one day last year. I have been smoking it since I was 16 not ever day but yes at least once or twice a week. I am 31 now and I thought it would never happen to me but it did and it was the weirdest shit ever. I had the biggest hit from gravity bong and 10 minutes into the experience I realised that time had stopped like completely like I was near a black hole and I was paralysed, I lost my long term memory for 2 hours I had no idea what I do for work when was I at work last even though I actually worked that day I forgot my first name as well as my last name who my fiance was I forgot about my parents siblings and etc. The ambulance came and checked if I was ok and yes apparently I was so up until today I really don't understand what actually happened and why but I it was the scariest moment of my life as I thought that I was going to be like this for the rest of my life. The only positive thing was that every time I thought of the vastness of the universe and infinity it was calming me down and this voice inside me was saying it is going to be ok. So I think knowing why are you taking your substance and what are your intentions is very important. I have started experimenting with dmt like 8 months ago now starting from microdosing 5mg to 10 and 15 and now 35 to 50 mg. Last time I have do 3 rounds of 20mg one after the other and I am telling you brother it was the calmest moment of my life, like ever. I started meditating twice a day for at least 5 minutes since last and writing journal right after the experience and started really going deep into this process. I even contacted Rick Strasman who wrote the Spirit molecule asking how to actually do it properly, he replied back and gave me really good tips how to get started with the medicine. The more you know the better because that is your SET your settings your mind your letting your subconscious know what's about to happen. Never go all in thinking what is going to happen you really have to start slowly almost like shaking hands with dmt so you and the substance get to know each other. Let me know if you want help with anything I am happy to help. Take care and stay safe brother... Peace 🍀
I've been to literal hell on 15 grams of mushrooms. If I can offer any piece of humble advice it would be come to Christ and Orthodox Christianity. Not Christ consciousness as that is luciferian based demonic delusion. One of the interesting things about the original Orthodox Christian Church is that when you're welcomed in as a catechumen you receive 3 exorcisms in the catechumen ceremony. I think you could thoroughly benefit from this. May Christ guide you home brother 🙏☦️🙏
I had a scary experience with hawaiian baby woodrose seeds before everytime I blinked I was teleporting to different locations. One of the scariest experiences I ever had.
The human body contains DMT naturally, and supposedly it causes the profound near death experiences people have. I wonder if your body released it for some reason. Or it could just be PTSD.
It's pretty apparent that your problems started way before DMT, ie. you mention childhood trauma and other mental health issues. While i get that DMT probably "finished you off", it seems disingenuous to keep giving it 100% credit for your predicament. You need to accept that you're suffering from paranoid psychosis. A proper diagnosis would help, you can then take the right meds (not double the dose) and quit drinking. You seem overcome with fear and dread at your own helplessness. Yes you're suffering, you think you "know too much"... Well there's still a lot you don't know, I'm sure, or you would be the greatest sage who ever lived. For example you seem to have no idea how to get out of this mess... Isn't that ignorance? That greater ignorance/bliss that you regret losing, you need to get over that, or put it in proper perspective. In other words, you could integrate it as a rite of passage. We all experience the loss of innocence one way or another. The core mystery of life still remains, so why not take solace in that. It's a win win scenario, if you really "know too much" then use that super duper wisdom and save yourself. Or if you don't, if you still feel helpless, then you actually are still like the rest of us.. be humbled and grateful you still don't know shit. What I'm trying to say is, try to accept the worst case scenario. You need to make finding peace your top priority, or you're gonna end up like Chris Cantelmo.
DMT is just too much for some people. Just the thought of smelling burnt plastic and hearing a wrapper crackling sound in my head is enough to make me stay away from it. I already know that's gonna give me a bad trip. They say you have something of a DMT flash at death so you can always play it safe and experience it then.
So i may be completely shooting off of the mark here, hullucinagens very rarely give flashbacks but they can very well do, you said you had deeams of your fathers place and not supposed to be there, before this trip that "ruined your life" was there any guilt or hard feelings for what you had done in the past or a traumatic experience that happened? That could of very well been brought up during your dmt trip, which heightened your anxiety even more and could of made that condition worse, ptsd is a very real and horrible thing, could the dmt experience have heightened this. Nightmares are usually brought on by something in our subconscious that we need to work on or that is bothering us, maybe you could benefit from apeaking to someone or dealing with your demons man, also I have to say psychodelics, while they can have alot of benefits if you suffer from mental illness beforehand it really isn't a good combo, I've seen this before in a close friend I had years ago, whenever he would take psychodelics it would really bring out a psychosis in him
I’ve spoken to countless “professionals “ in and out of the medical field and unfortunately there is an invisible block of some sort that allows that kind of help to .. help . I do suffer from extreme ptsd so I’m aware of that aspect of it and you’re right about the Dmt digging it up . These videos were over five years ago and a considerable amount of things have happened since , some new problems and some old ones that I’ve come to terms with having to cope with for the rest of my life . The question and answer is always paradoxically life . It’s an insane thing to live and yet here we are . Every single dream I’ve ever had of a “home , whether it’s one I’ve lived in or not , I’m not supposed to be there and that recurring theme is the real question I might never get an answer for . Depending on what we subjectively believe, I could be trapped in a reincarnation cycle here in earth 🌍 or I could be a lost spirit stuck here looking for a ship to take me back to wherever real home is . A fallen angel ? A caged demon ? Or a man who has been traumatized so badly in places that called themselves home and the child mind grew a defensive reaction to the idea of home 🏠. . It’s a conundrum of the highest order . Thank you for commenting . I appreciate you .
Your comment is pretty old, but if you're still there, do you mean depersonalization/derealization disorder? could you describe more what you experience? I also think what he's describing in the video has some similarities to it, although I have never heard voices or had other true wakeful hallucinations. I mostly see visual distortions that make everything look unreal and dreamy. Aside from that I have seen momentary "corner of the eye" things while sleep-deprived, floating shapes with eyes open in complete darkness and also LSD-like fractals on the surface of things while waking up on a couple occasions. I think in my case it is connected to some vestibular system or migraine-related issues. Research seems to suggest anxiety, dissociation, migraine, and the vestibular system all play a role in these symptoms that could be interpreted as a form of Alice in Wonderland syndrome.
@@DefyDistrict I made several but deleted a few. Covid has ruined production for me unfortunately. I don’t want my videos to all be done in my hand , I don’t any a crew again so I’m just waiting for Ontario to get it’s shit together
Really sounds like your brain was stuck releasing natural DMT after you woke up already. Alc def can cause this type of psychosis from experience/being in rehab and watching this happen to others as well.. Who knows. hope you feel better man.
Smoking and drinking are serious, You opened a door. Time to ground yourself, and accept what is happening. You need to heal your mind, body, spirit. You are on a journey now.
youve done dmt so you know there are dimensions. you are having trouble balancing the physical and spiritual/mental. You need a strong truth to ground you in moments like these. Know that God is the Universe. God is Creation. God is everything. You are part of the universe. You are part of God. You need to sit down and understand your own beliefs. If you were God how would it all be planned out and what your your purpose now be?
i didnt try dmt but understand what you are trying to tell. there are other dimensions and dmt and other psychedelics are very very dangerous. Try to listen Quran believe me it will help.
Yeah you have to completely cut out nicotine and alcohol for atleast 3 months before you go back to them AT ALL. You will see very positive results. Nicotine and alcohol can cause psychosis to attach to you longer than you realised and bring on waves you don't expect - even if the original cause of the psychosis was the use of major drugs like DMT. (I have been through this shit do not ignore this advice or you will continue to torture yourself and and end up posting videos online like this which do no good for YOU). After the 3 months maybe drink once a week max and keep the nicotine intake below 2 cigarettes a day or you will revert back to your psychosis pretty fast.
You sir need to do some shadow integration. Stop blaming the external world, get your ego in check, the amount of drugs you have done doesn’t amount to this knowledge you say you have. We all have to acknowledge our traumas at one point or another, and own them.
The fear mongering is strong. I'm gonna chill and relax and find PEACE. To end war is to find PEACE. The only way to find pure peace is to create peace. Creating peace will be established as the way to end war. The one who will create peace is called AND TRULY IS, PRINCE OF PEACE. He is the mocked, tortured,and crucified and more importantly the RESURRECTED, Messiah and King of Kings and Teacher of all Teachers. YAHUWSHUWA. The sword from His mouth IS obviously His WORD, which is the utterance of His name in places where the poor need to be fed and where the sick need to be healed. Once His name is uttered to be taught in those circumstances, the children will be healed in the name, YAHUWSHUWA. Then soon will the angels visit and commune and show ETERNAL LOVE TO THE CHILDREN AND THE ADULTS WILL HAVE CONFIDENCE THAT THE CHILDREN ARE THE SAFEST BEINGS ON EARTH THANKS TO YAHUWSHUWA, Whom The Father, YAHUWAH elevates His Sons name to equal stature as them being ONE. When the children are healed first, then the adults will find confidence in uttering YAHUWSHUWA and right then and their, find PEACE.
