Don’t Eat The Candy Challenge! 😂 

Thanks for watching today’s vlog! Today we watched the twins try the “don’t eat the candy challenge”, went to the creek, and I got a tiny bit emotional over a mulberry bush. 😂😭 Subscribe to see my vlogs every Monday, Tuesday, Thursday, and Friday! Make sure to subscribe to the Podcast channel! - www.youtube.com/@relaxwithcolleenanderik7764 Instagram - instagram.com/colleen/ Colleen Ballinger PO Box 55995 Sherman Oaks, CA 91413

Please do the candy challenge again but each child separately. I think Maisy would have waited had she not seen Wesley eat it. I’m so curious.

Hi Colleen, you should try the candy challenge with the twins again, but this time tell them that they can have two pieces of chocolate if they can wait until you come back. I believe that’s how the original concept goes, and one of the twins asked “why can’t I eat it?” which makes me curious to see if they wouldn’t eat the chocolate if given a reason not to

9:40 “My whole world looking right at me through a window.” Aww. My Heart!! 🥹💜

Colleen I’ve never connected with you more when you were talking about how a year ago you were disappointed you even woke up.. a year ago I felt the same way .. but now , I’ve changed so much.. I was going down such a dark and depressing road just to feel ANYTHING .. literally on deaths door , and I was so okay with it. TODAY im happier than I’ve ever been .. I’m with an amazing man who is my best friend .. and pregnant with my first baby. I thank god every day for not giving up on me.. for keeping me alive to see this beautiful life evolve into something I never thought it would be. AND YOU have kept me going for YEARS . I love and appreciate you more than you could ever know. Always keep going , not for anyone else, but because YOU deserve it. And girl- if you need to sit and cry in your mulberry bush ! YOU DO THAT!! Feel what you need to feel but don’t sit In the bush to long ( or those feels ) Love you foreverrrrr ❤

*After the twins had eaten the candy.* Colleen: “Hey, did you guys eat it?” Twins: “Yeah.” Hey, at least they were honest!!🤣💜

you’re not crying over a mulberry! you’re crying over the memories associated with a mulberry and that’s okay ❤ we don’t know the extent of the darkness you faced but you do, so for you to say that you’re proud of YOU is so massively important and you deserve to feel proud of yourself and how far you’ve come!!! healing is a long journey but you’re rocking it (literally) 😉❤️

Why do you insist on using the blunt end of the hammer. Use the sharp end!!! Haven’t you ever watched Snow White and the Seven Dwarfs?! 😂

Hey Colleen!! For your laundry problem: they have a service that you put your dirty laundry in a bag and they come pick it up and wash it and fold it for you! Maybe you should look into to that to see if they do it around your area. Love the vlogs!!💕

this time last year, I remember missing you & your vlogs so much. when you decided to take a break from vlogging & youtube all together, it was honestly the worst parts of my summer, I did understand though why you had to take a break & at the same time, I had been watching you & your vlogs EVERYDAY since March 2020- it had become such a a big part of my routine. I'm so glad you are here Colleen, & I'm sure so many others feel the same exact way. you are a breathe of fresh air, you're funny & witty, & you make your days so fun & new to the average viewer. I know its been a really hard year for you, but I wanted to let you know, I am glad you're here, you're babies are glad you're here, Erik is glad you're here, & thousands - maybe millions of others, are so glad you are here! you were born with such a blessing & you share your blessings with us, your viewers! keep your head up high Colleen, you have a true gift from God, & you really do know how to use it! I can say from experience, having thoughts of "unaliving" oneself is so hard to manage, you feel like the world, your family, friends, etc. are better off without you, but Colleen you're special. use the gift that God gave you, make people smile, & laugh. I can also tell you, as someone who struggles with lots of mental health things, your vlogs, podcast episodes, etc. make me so happy. they take all those yucky feelings that I feel, all away, thank you for fighting those thoughts, thank you for being here Colleen, we all love you

Flynn and the twins are so smart and adorable. The m&m thing make me laugh. Thank you so much for posting when you can. You don't know me, but you're vlogs make me happy. I've been going through a lot lately with my Grandpa being in the hospice house and tomorrow they are transferring him to a nursing home because he needs 24/7 care. I took care of him before all of this. I feel so empty without being with him all the time. Please keep us in your prayers. I love you so much Colleen!! ❤

The mannequin is funny like a fashion scarecrow love that 😀🧡🩵🩵

Colleen I have a watched you for years and I adore you and your family! It broke my heart that you had to go through all that hardship but to see where you are now is so inspiring and I am so glad you have found hobbies that bring you so much joy! As a fellow swiftie I LIVE for your deep dives and breakdowns of her songs!!! Anywho love you! Keep on doing you, you’re doing great💜

The sounds as she's hitting the rocks 😂

Colleen, I looked up a random laundry service in Calif and for pickup, wash, fold and delivery, it’s about 1.50 a pound with a minimum of $30 an order. That would definitely be worth it to me if I had to do laundry. It’s just my hubby and I now and he does all the laundry since I’m health challenged. But I had YEARS of laundry when we had 4 kids. I hated it. Should have thought of a service back then. 😂

I’m so happy you continue to make videos! Your videos make my day and I relate to you a lot because I struggle with mental health things myself. Thank you for showing us that just because some people say you’re cancelled doesn’t mean it’s true. If you just keep going and continue to bring happiness to the world no one can stop you.

😂😂😂😂the video starts and Colleen thinking exact same thing I was thinking. I love Colleen ❤❤❤❤

I don't blame you at all for getting emotional. You went through a really hard time. It happens. I've been dealing with strange emotions the past couple days and I didn't know why until I realized the 2 year anniversary of my fiancé passing away is coming up on Saturday.. it's crazy to think about what I've been through in the past couple years since then, and I am a completely different person. I'm so much stronger for the difficulties that I had to endure. And I am now very happily married to someone who understands me and my past. Things change but usually for the better. Thank you Colleen for being there for me through all of this, even when you were facing difficulties yourself. I love you🥰

Flynn is so clever , little David Attenborough in the making xx

You’ve been through so much! If you want to cry at your mulberry bush you should! I’m so proud of you too. 💜 You are a symbol of strength and resilience to me.

I think when you walked away and repeated “then you can eat them” wes maybe heard “you can eat them” lol

Precious kids! I'm so glad that you and Erik have instilled such a love of nature in the kids. That's the way we raised our CA kids, too. My oldest, Alex, got the nickname "Bug man," at his pre-school class. You are doing great, Colleen! We're so glad you're still here where you belong! Thank you for vlogging and sharing your life with all of us. Love and hugs to you!❤🫂🌈

last year was so hard for you im just glad you're still here and posting vlogs ❤

The patio area with the twinkle lights 😍 SUCH a wonderful backyard gardens

My heart ached for you and what you have been through this year😢. Yes, you are strong and your family, as you repeatedly show, is your anchor. I wanted to share a message I sent to you on Twitter in 2016!!! I’m sure you didn’t see it and you probably won’t see this either but that’s ok…just putting this out to the universe. I’m so happy to see you smile and seem happy…you bring the world joy…I want you to hear this!, believe it! Hears my message…take care…. Wanted to tell you how much I enjoyed your Netflix show. It was so funny and heartwarming. I was not prepared to be so emotional during the season finale. It was beyond words!! Ok, fine, I sobbed into my pillow. It freaked my dog out a it...she's ok now, we talked☺️🐶Exceptional. Love your cast. What a delight! Anxiously awaiting season 2💄 A brand new fan Melody Mayberry

So impressed with how well you appreciate and use your garden. It’s incredible! ❤

Small things like a mulberry can for sure set off a heap of emotions! Don’t feel ashamed. You’re a wonderful human and I’m so happy you’re here to bless us with your presence ❤

It’s such a beautiful treat to witness the three kids growing.

Thank you for coming back! We all love and support you! I love your videos so much! Sending you so much love and positivity ❤

It’s okay that mulberry lead you down a sadder path. That’s part of being human. The smallest things can trigger the worst and the best memories within us. It’s best to sit with that memory and let the emotions flow thru you as they come, which you did. So no need to apologize! I can only imagine how hard last year was for you… I hate it had to happen tbh but you’re right. You are SO much stronger now that it did! It’s inspiring to see how you’ve bounced back. And hey, we’d love to see your mulberry pie recipe 😜💗🥧

I am so happy you kept on getting out of bed. ‘Last year Colleen’ would be very proud of how far you’ve come from that day. 🤗

Our wonderful Colleen, sit and cry by the mulberry bush for a while if you must, but don’t linger there too long. You have important things to do, beautiful children to raise and amazing vlogs to make! You were so missed when you took your break. I have seen an incredible, strong, kind and humble person emerge from the wreckage. Never forget how amazing you are queen, now straighten that crown and keep going 🥰

You’re not crying over a mulberry your crying because of how far you’ve come! You are so much stronger than you think! After such a difficult year you are thriving; maybe it’s not in the way you saw but it’s a pretty great life you’re leading! I often think about how the psychic you saw said how your career would take a different direction but that it would all be worth it in the end! Your best days are still to come and I’m glad I stuck around to see it 💕

I am very happy that you are still here, too❤ Mulberry is a symbol of abundance. Even when you felt like you lost it all you still had and have abundance. Abundance, like people in their development, always grows. Lots of love to you xo

It’s hard to have reminders of how low you were. I get them sometimes and even though I wish I could look at them and be proud of far I’ve come it’s still sad to reflect on the pain that got you where you are now.

Put your mulberries in pancakes or waffles. It is so good!! And I boil some with a bit of sugar to make a simple pancake syrup.

Your whole world jumping up and down and smiling at you in that window is grateful you wake up each day. Don’t ever forget you are worthy and loved ❤

Beautiful backyard! So much can change in a year.. that’s what your heart was feeling today.❤

7:31 Grrrrrl, same!! I cry about absolutely nothing too!! 🤣

You should get the LG 2 in 1 washer. It has a setting to wash and then dry so you don't have to remember to switch over the clothes. Might help you a bit😉

We're glad you're here Colleen. ❤ So glad to see you continue to heal and grow. Much love to you. Hugs Momma.

IT WASN'T EVEN ME and I was traumatized by what happened to you last year. OF COURSE direct reminders of that time (mulberries) are going to trigger the heck out of you. So proud and grateful that you're back 💚

I don’t know why but when you shouted at the rock “why won’t you break?” I had a thought that I bet that is what your haters are thinking about you. Be like that rock gurl and never break ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

Oh colleen! I could just hug you! Mulberries are pretty great and so are you! It is my belief that once you start to grow the world will throw a wrench in your plans to try and stop you but if you can get through it you come out so much better and stronger and more powerful! We never know our own strength until it is put to a test and you will forever be able to look back at every bump in the road you didnt think youd get through at the time and think about how strong you are and how much youve conquered ❤

I'm glad you chose to stay. You survived!

get that rock tattoo!

Your mulberry moment was raw , real and beautiful to witness xx

We're so proud of you too Colleen!

Lol zero effs given from the twins lol. Ate the candy quick. Wesley has the best luscious looking hair lol.

Colleen, what happened to you was so horrific. You are so strong and we are cheering you on.

You should get a food dehydrator and make dried fruit for the kiddos. As well as make your own fruit gummies and fruit leather! Even freezer jams or canned fruits, you’ll have them all winter. Sooooo yummy!

Lovely to see the little ones have been taught to be gentle and to respect the bugs.

your garden is a dream!! it is so beautiful and full of life and SO MUCH FRUIT I love it. you are so blessed to have this as your home❤🌻

I am so thankful for you every day. ❤. Specifically. You bring SO much joy to my day. Thank you. I love you so much. For years. You have been the highlight of my day. Now watching Taylor’s live feed as well haha and we have that in common so. Basically we’re twins. Ly ❤️ Lisa

We are here for you. Feel free to vent to us always. We love you. Ride or die💯

Your garden is so dreamy!

Those shoes are so cute for the kids! ❤😊❤

Hello Colleen! How is everything? Love the little, tiny shoes for the twins. Your twins are awesome. Big hugs.

Hi Colleen, You may not be where you wanted to be, but I am so proud of where you are. You bring love, light, and laughter to so many people. Last year was incredibly tough, but you showed all of us just how strong you truly are. Please be proud of that. Please also listen to the song Rainbow by Kacey Musgraves. Each time I heard that song, I would immediately think of you. Also!! TTQ: Have Flynn, Wesley, and Maisy, heard any of the the songs you’ve sang about them? I love the Grilled Cheese and Applesauce song. I got to see you and Erik perform it live last summer in Indianapolis. Love you

you weren’t crying because of a mulberry, you were crying because you reminded of an awful time in your life. it’s okay to cry and morn the life you used to have when you grow and mature into the person you are now. it takes time and i’m sure you know that. love you colleen forever and i hope you are doing better and better everyday 💖

I freaking LOVEEEE mulberries!!! We have SEVERAL wild mulberry trees on our property, and Im obsessed! Never tried them til last year! I just picked some today too :)

OMGosh!! I love those white flowers that resemble daisies!!!! Does anyone know what they are called????

You ROCK Colleen!💜❤️💛💙💚💜❤️💛💙💚💜❤️💛💚

I love your garden wonderland!

I love you Colleen! I'm so glad you're protecting yourself. Gloves and goggles when breaking rocks! Maybe a sledge hammer? You have a most wonderful garden. Your adorable children rebel against authority! Your Jack (Wesley) takes the candy immediately, and Jill (Maisie) comes following after.

How come we never see your nightly dance parties anymore? Do you all still do them?

I can't believe it's been a year since everything changed. I'm so happy you're back. You survived and thrived!

Have Therapy , then random thing makes you cry, of course it does. You can’t just shut off your emotions based on the hour being over. PLEASE Don’t beat yourself up over it. Remember you are the example for your children (niece and nephews too) Demonstrate Perseverance!

Oh a great tattoo for you would be- “rock on” because of music and the inspiration to keep going that rocks helped inspire!

Love your family ❤️

1. Did you used to smell the strawberry shortcake doll 2. Did you also have a rainbow brite doll! Love that sweatshirt

Colleen I’m so proud of you and how far you have come, I know you said life isn’t where you want it to be right now but I know it can be again because of how strong you are and that your an amazing beautiful person💜. Your vlogs help my mental health so much and I enjoy seeing you living your life it always picks me up when I’m down and brings a smile to my face. Relax the podcast also never fails to make me laugh. Also Maisey calling the bug roly poly is so adorable I can’t!!!🥹🩷

Hiii could you show us how you prepare your artichokes? 😊

Ilysm Colleen ❤ So glad you’re out there in the world

I love your videos!!

Dear Colleen, You probably don’t think of yourself as a very brave person very often. But when I hear you talk about the year you’ve had, that’s all I see. You’re the bravest person I know. After everything you’ve been through, to keep showing up every day as your authentic self with such a big heart and so much kindness and humility and not apologize for existing is extraordinarily brave to me. You may think you’re just “little old me” 😉 but you are so inspiring to me. It’s not nothing to go through hell and emerge on the other side of it still an angel of a human. I’m so glad you decided to stay here with us ❤ (P.s. if you need to take a sec to cry over a mulberry, please do lol, we get it!). I love you so much, and I hope this year is so much better. Love, P

Perhaps a "Be Brave" tattoo with a mulberry next to it is in order. What a beautiful reminder that would be.

Hiiii Colleen I love your videos and family. your life is literally like mines. I feel like we would be best friends. I swear ❤😊

Always look through the windshield at what is ahead of you and not the rear view mirror at what is behind you 🥰🐳MULBERRIES mean a time of great abundance and beauty! Just like your rocks there are meanings behind so many things that you may not be aware of at the time but all things work out the way they are meant to we just can’t always understand it at the time..just know you have so many who truly love you we are here everyday and are so grateful for you!! Hope you feel better and your thumb heals and you give us an update on your shoulder ☮️

Love you Colleen!!!❤

colleen your so amazing i love you so much ❤

I cried one day when I smelled suntan lotion and my heart broke. 💔😭 We lost our cousin to suicide. She always wore that suntan lotion when we were together. Lost her in 1988.

Sometimes when I see Maisy look up and her face looks so like Baily.❤

Colleen, you're not crying over a mulberry. You're crying over what it represents and what it symbolizes for you. The smallest things sometimes aren't so small and have the most significance.

YESS!! Knowing your love for rocks, I think a Rock Tattoo would be ABSOLUTELY PERFECT for you!! 😍💜

Hi Colleen!!! I love your videos! TTQ: Have you ever thought about making a song out of lyrics the twins or flynn wrote like you did with Bailey and Parker? I have watched you for so long and I really hope you see this comment!

You should be proud of yourself and I am so happy that you are back!

Get a tat that says My life rocks lol

How does Flynn know so much?

When I was the twins age, my mom would take me to the south street seaport in New York get a pickle. The employee would get a pickle out of the container and ask if that one was good. I would always respond “bigger!” Then I would just suck the juice out of it. Even at 2, you are who you are going to be because I love pickles!

I love you Colleen! I feel like you help me with my problems!❤❤❤❤❤

Apples are a Fall fruit. Leave the apples until September

You are doing great Colleen. We are here for you 🥰

My husband had one of those magic laundry machines... his mother!

Love the kids shoes

It's sad to hear that you were upset that you woke up. Depression is hard, even if it was a mistake that you made. Your kids are glad you are glad you are still here, Erik is glad you are still here. Your mom and dad and siblings and friends and fans are all glad you are still here

adorable kids all children love candy and themtoo excited for young children to discver tne very adorable nature

Lol😂i forgot last video I watched was 2x speed and when intro came on I was like “WHAT are they feeding Flynn?!”

Did you know that you make those grape leaves when they get really big into Greek Dolmas. They even have a video on RU-vid on how to prepare the leaves you take off your grape bush (How to Prepare Fresh Vine Leaves for Dolma) And then also I'm sure there are several videos on how to make the actual appetizer. I used to live in a home with a wine grape bush and those leaves got really big!

Aww i just loved that raw Moment u had , U definitely should Be proud of yourself, i really hope To see U perform one day !!