Draw my Life :) ASMR 

I've never been so angry and so relaxed at the same time

Maria, you have SO much strength. You deserve peace, happiness, success and good health. You've survived and thrived.

You are not an ugly lady. You are beautiful. I would never of known. I'm so sorry these evil men hurt you x

Holy shit Maria this is the third time I've listened to this and I only JUST put the pieces together and realized you were trafficked. The guy who met you and said he helped university students find work and then set you up with a hotel and demanded you pay him for his "service" and then gave you a choice between stripping and cleaning work? ...Yeah, that's a human trafficker.

They didn't ruin your looks, you're beautiful

Omgggg and now you are a FAMILY!!!!!!! Can you believe it???? You, Darryl and baby Mila ♡♡♡

I will never understand three guys beating up a beautiful girl God will handle them

I don't know why I've never watched this video before... (and I've been watching your videos for years !). That totally moved me, this is a true lesson of courage, love and belief. You're a creature of heart, and a beautiful personn. Thank you, Maria. Thank you.

Damn girl you've been through some shit. I admire how positive you are. Such a beautiful woman

I respect you so much for all the things you have been through, and that you still shine your light after it all! You're an inspiration darling. I love your videos and I love YOU!

I’m crying at this video , I can’t bare the thought of all that pain when mugged . Your face is beautiful.

I know this video is old but I think it's crazy how you're so happy and positive and not bitter and angry as hell after everything that has happened to you!

Those people who best you deserved to go to jail for 20 years

I am so angry that such a lovely and caring person was taken advantage of and messed around so much in their life as you have. I wish you the best in everything you do, I love your videos, I enjoy ASMR with artists I really connect to and you were the first artist I discovered. So much love to you

Now you are happy married and with a baby! You deserve all the happiness

I cannot believe how STRONG you are oh my goodness. You're an amazing example of humanity at its finest

Damn this took me some tears.... I don't have words to express my admiration for you.

I like how this was more about your actual life than your time on RU-vid. I feel like a lot of "Draw My Life"s tend to skim through their actual life and then spend too much time on the RU-vid part. Congrats!

And now Mila is a month old 😭🥰🌠

Masha: "I grew up in a small town" Also Masha, 7 seconds later: "about... FIVE HUNDRED THOUSAND PEOPLE" Wow, everything is so big in Russia.

It doesn't matter how you look now or how you looked before. The most important thing is that you know you are pretty, and a hole lot of other people think that to. Don't forget, people will accept you for who you are and mostly all of your subscribers will as well. I know that because I'm one of them. For people who don't think the same, then they don't know what pretty is.

Thanks for sharing your story Maria. I'm sorry for all the hardships you've been through. However, you overcame those struggles and are a stronger person! Not only that, but you help many people with the content you make. You've helped me so much through moments of anxiety. Thanks so much. I wish I could give you a hug in person.

I'm so mad at everyone who has ever hurt you. The fact that you're so happy and at peace instead of being hurt and bitter forever is phenomenal. You're strong, and you're so, so brave. You're a pillar of this community, and we are all so thankful for you. You've got a family in us too, Masha. 🙏🏻💖

Wow. You went through a lot. Nuclear blast, grandparents dying of cancer, being in an abusive teen relationship, being beaten by 3 thugs, cops doing nothing about it, was offered to be sexually exploited by a loser who offered to help you and an ex husband who dupped you into paying off his debt. Thanks be to God you found a good man and you have a beautiful family. I would have to say you turned some crappy experiences into a beautiful million ones. ❤️

I know this is an old video but that was extremely touching, I would never have thought you went through all those tough times but I just want to say it's great that you're now happy and thank you for making these awesome asmr videos. You're a true inspiration

I never comment on videos ever.. infact I have literally just had to create a channel just to write this comment! But I just had to say how much your life story has touched me. You have seen some of the worst things the world has to throw at you and despite that... you have still emerged from it all as a strong amazing person.. and I respect that so much.. You have been so brave in your life and done things some people dare not even dream of (myself included). You are a walking inspiration for so many people.. I hope nothing but good luck follows you around from now on :) I doubt you will even see this comment but I had to write it regardless.. oh and btw.. your face is beyond beautiful.. those thugs could never take that from you! Adam x

Seeing this now knowing you’re married with a beautiful little girl makes my heart so full 💗

I watched this video when it was first uploaded, as a 14 year old girl and a fan of your channel. Now, as a 24 year old woman (and still a huge fan!), I’ve experienced more of life and fully understand all the trials and sadnesses you’ve had to overcome. You’re an amazing woman! This may seem strange, but growing up and watching your channel over the past 10 years I feel like you and other original ASMRtists like Emma WhispersRed are such wonderful and powerful role models for me and others, especially other women. Choosing to find calm in the rush of life, peace in the chaos (and occasional unpleasantness), you’ve always been there. I guess I just wanted to say thank you for all you’ve done over the years, for all of us. ❤

I know this video is old but I just saw it and I have to comment . . . it is incredible that you have experienced so much cruelty at the hands of humanity and yet you still so filled with love and gratitude . . . you are a joy and a true inspiration. You deserve every ounce of joy in your life X1000000 :)

I didn't even start to imagine how difficult it was. What's behind you. I respect you so much. You're such a warrior.

You are so beautiful, from the inside out. Darryl and Mila are so lucky to have you in their lives.

I'm so late with this video but oh my god... I don't even have words to express myself. I watch your videos because you always make me feel calm and everything about you is just positive and kind. And now I just discover all the struggle in your life that you had to go through. Maria, you are truly an amazing and strong woman and I want to thank you for what you're doing for others. I hope everything will go right in your life for you and your loved ones.

I've been a subscriber forever, and am just now seeing this. you are beautiful Maria. you've helped so many people. you have a beautiful spirit. always know that about yourself

This actually made me cry. I've always known you're sweet, warm, caring, beautiful, loving and gorgeous person, but the fact that you've been trough this all is just...wow. I admire you now more than ever, which is really much. I can't even express in words how much. You are so strong and truly amazing woman. Damn I'm crying a lot. Fuck this fucking unfair world, you should be riding pink unicorns, you'd deserve that. And if you can't ride unicorns, you deserve at least all the best in this world. I truly wish for your happiness. And hey, Maria, you know we love you, right? You are kinda like the source of our powers, and our oasis. You are dazzlingly beautiful and gorgeous, as close to perfect as a human being can be.

I can't believe people wait around at the airport to prey on girls like that. How horrible. I can't imagine sleeping on the floor! Whenever I hear stories of immigrants who have no connections here and fall prey to bad people, I wanna scoop them up in my arms and hug them and promise them that the United States can be really good- I promise! There are bad eggs in every country, and unfortunately they target the people who really need the most help. Ugh, man. That's so hard. Maria's a fighter, though! I would never have guessed she'd been through all of this! She's scrappy and has clawed her way back to life and fulfillment and has surrounded herself with good people. I'm super impressed after watching this video. Well, I've always been impressed with her, so I should say I'm MORE impressed after watching this video. :)

**Me not knowing this was made in 2013** Her:"I was born in 1986, so that makes me almost 27 years old!" Me: " *Wait a minute* "

when life screams hard, whisper gentle. you are incredible, maria... infinite flavors of spectaculicious. you've got creativity, authenticity and mind-melting/heart-humming/soul-numbing awesome sauce out the wazoo. & we dig it so. a beguiling, inspiring fairy heroine to save our planet from shadowy cacophony with whispers that remind us to love, remind us of light and wake us up gently into brighter life. & we dig *you* so.

STOP THE WORLD! WE HAD JUST FOUND THE MOST AMAZING PERSON ON THE UNIVERSE !!!

I'm just so shocked that this happened to her. She's such a beautiful woman and she didn't deserve these awful things to happen to her 😢 She is an amazing inspiration to us all and everyone who ever gave hurt her is an awful person. She's so amazing and strong xxx I love her so much and I just cannot believe people could hurt her like this. She's just so amazing and I don't know what words I can say to describe Maria xxx I love her and I will support her till the very end xxx

"a little sad at times" is quite the understatement; Well, You should do another one now in 2022 showing everything since 2013!! Lots of Luv Masha 🥰

WoW..... I'm speechless right now BUT at the same time I wanna to say sooooo much that I just can't. The only thing that I'm gonna tell you Maria is that you are an amazing beautiful young woman inside n out too. I admired you to the fullest. I just wish nothing but only the best for you and many many Blessings to you. Just know that God is always by your side no matter what you are going through ,even though at times didn't seem like it ,but YES ,He was right there with you. I just love how you are n the person that you are ,such a lovable sweet heart. God Bless You always n Thank You so much for always thinking about us...... We love you too......a lot!!!

This is the only ASMR video to ever make me cry. I am so sorry you've went through some horrible stuff. We all have a story and sometimes we just don't get to see everyone's story. Thanks for sharing yours xxxx

its 2018 and im watching this and crying, you were the first asmr artist that captivated me to this community and im so thankful that you found solace here

Your English is so good that I honestly thought that you're native British or American who studied Russian, ha! I said this before I'll say it again - you are an amazing, beautiful lady.

wow what a life..

Can we start like a go fund me for you or something? Cuz that debt is some bs

I was crying so hard by the end of this.

Мария, это так несправедливо, весь ужас, который вы пережили, столько страшных моментов. Вы такая чудесная, вы всего это не заслужили. Я так счастлива, что сейчас вас любят столько людей, что у вас есть замечательная семья. Надеюсь, у вас в жизни все будет хорошо в дальнейшем! Мы вас очень любим❤️

This is the most heartbreakin ASMR draw my life video :( I admired you for a long time, but knowing all these things you had to put up with, made me realise just how much strength does it take to overcome and change things for the better. You are truly amazing Maria and I'm glad this video came up in my recommended section. Best wishes, dear!

I've been watching maria for a long time and only found this video recently but....Has there been a kiskstarter or an indie gogo to pay off her debt? I feel like the ASMR community owes her so so much amd If we could even help a little toward her debt it should be the least we could do?

This video really lifted my spirits. I've been feeling down and depressed lately because I'm not very happy with who I am right now. I also just broke up with my boyfriend which is NOT helping. But after watching this, it really made me realize that life at some point always gets better and it just simply goes up and down. Finding peace and inner happiness is key and living with positivity is extremely important. Thank you, Maria :)

Maria I’ve been a subscriber of yours for a couple of years now. Thank you for all you’ve done for me and helping me to relax and de-stress and just giving me a boost of confidence when I need it most. School has been so stressful for me lately and when I have a moment of peace I watch your videos. Thank you for all you’ve done for me and this community and introducing me to the world of asmr, not realizing this was something other people had. I’m so sorry all of these hardships you’ve mentioned happened to you. I can’t imagine going through what you have. You’re a very strong and beautiful person. Watching this story, even though it’s been posted a while, has given me even more inspiration to keep pressing on when we go through tough times. Thanks for sharing this. Love you❤️😊

Maria you are so special and strong, thank you for sharing your story, you have a face of an angel and a heart of a saint. ♥ no one will ever have better relaxation videos.

My brother died in September - your videos offer me so much peace. Thank you.

I know this video is from years ago now, but it still makes me cry. Maria, I hope you can somehow know how much the people who follow your work and life love you. You touch and help so many people. Because of the painful times you endured, you now bring a gift to those of us who are going through painful times too. What a lucky lady to have over a million caring friends!

It’s all this experience that makes Maria so wise and kind. She’s a great Mum!!

Maria, you made me cry. You`re such a kind person, it`s easy to see how much you suffered but the way you see things is admirable. My whole respect for you!

Holy shit. That's all I can say. Most of us have it so good here in America, as Americans, that we forget how hard it can be for other people. Thank you for sharing your story. It was very humbling to watch.

This has really given me some perspective. Thanks for being so honest.

I am so sorry Maria. You bring such joy to everyone despite having to deal with such horrible and difficult things. 🥺❤️

Im pissed that those 3 guys got away after beating you and the 1st guy got away with slapping and stoning you. You should take me to Russia with you and point them out for me lol And a side note about your appearance, you're absolutely gorgeous and i can't begin to think of reasons why those ppl treated you so badly. You deserved better, but I'm glad that you're happy now and I'm also glad you make these videos. They've helped me in numerous ways, so thank you Maria :))

So sorry you had to go through all that. The fact that you have come out the other side of that a stronger and happier person, says so much about your character. You are so beautiful inside and out! I'm subscribing today! I have insomnia and your channel has been helping me shut off my mind and sleep at night! Thank you! Keep doing what you do!

oh my gosh this video is back!! i missed it so much i didn’t realize how much i watched it to fall asleep till it was gone but i’m so happy

You're so brave to share your story, and continue through everything. I've been going through a very difficult time in the last several years and just recently discovered ASMR and your videos. Thank you so much for making the art that you do. Genuinely, you have been a huge personal help to me and I love watching your videos to relax and separate myself from my issues. You are an amazing person. Thank you.

I would have never thought you have been through so much Maria. After all this time I have clicked on this video and this has made me admire you even more. You are such a kind and warm person and have changed the lives of many. Thanks and I am so happy you have come a long way from the lost girl that arrived to New York. I wish you the best and blessings.

A draw my life has never touched me like it just has. I smiled very much when you told your story about finding asmr and finding your love ❤️ Im very proud you chose happiness and not to stay in a sad hole, there were many moments when you could have stayed stuck and made the wrong decision you are so strong!

Wow I never knew you had been through so much. You are so strong and such a positive person in spite of it all. I’ve been watching your videos for years and I feel like I know you as a friend. You are really inspiring and help me to relax when I’m stressed.

And now you and Darryl are married with a child on the way! I’m so proud of you, Maria, you’re such an amazing person.

The illustrations were SO AWESOME. I loved this.

Thank you so much Maria, you saved my life too, I was in a dark moment of my life and watching your videos made a miracle in my emotional state, you're the most gentle person I've ever seen and to me you're the personification of ASMR! >.

I’ve been watching your channel for a few months now and haven’t watched this video until today. I can’t believe how much hardship you’ve been through, and yet you have come out of it such an amazing and sweet and caring individual. I don’t know you at all and yet I’m so proud of you. I’m so happy you’re in a better place in life. And also- you are absolutely beautiful inside and out

I’ve watched this multiple times throughout the years and I’m still so incredibly moved by your story. You have been knocked down so many times by things out of your control, but you chose to get up every single time. Now, you live in a lovely house, with a loving husband, and a beautiful little girl. And you have a job that you love! You are your own boss! So so happy for you. I would be lost without you, Maria. You were the first ASMRtist I came across, and I am so thankful for you. You have payed everything forward❤️❤️

God. You are so strong and so brave. I am currently in a loveless relationship and your story has given me hope. I have been watching you for a couple of months (since I first found out about ASMR) and just from seeing you I thought you had this perfect life. You are one of the most beautiful people I have ever seen and you seem like the most genuine and caring people ever. Now I know why. Wow. You are incredible.

Maria, I know you fully believe in peace and love, it comes through in every one of your videos and I think that is wonderful, so please forgive me if this does not sound right but the guys who mistreated you should be pounded to dust. Emotional and/or physical abuse toward a woman is a cowardly act. No real man hurts or hits a woman.

I was in tears by the end of this; you've been through so much and I am so happy that you found your strength and overcame all the obstacles you faced. You deserve all of the love, happiness and support you receive and a 10000000x more, you are an absolute inspiration and a queen and we all appreciate you so so much. Thank you Maria for sharing this with us, love you 💗

As a man, I cant imagine, so happy for you and your beautiful family on how you are living now.

Life can be brutal, that's a fact. I have never met with all that hatred and violence that you've experienced. I can tell you one thing, I don't know you but after watching your videos, especially this one,I think you are a true winner in your life. Life can get you down at some points in your life but you have this spirit that only few people do! You are a dreamer! And you push the boundaries whenever you feel that's something is wrong. This is inspirational! If you wrote a book about how to stay motivated I would totally buy it! Keep up the good work cuz you are true and sincere in what you're doing! Much love, Maciej! (Your Polish neighbor:)

Oh Maria... I am tearful. I watched this video when you first made it 7 years ago and I just had to come back to it and watch it again after seeing how amazingly far you have come. Your RU-vid career is thriving, you’ve achieved so much and not only that but you now have the perfect, beautiful little family you always deserved. To see you grow so much in the last decade and to know how tough times once were for you and to see how your life is now, really is a beautiful thing. You truly are a fighter and I have and have always had so much admiration for you. You will always be my favourite person on the internet and I wish you all the love and happiness in the world 💕

I just came upon this video, although I've been watching Maria for awhile now, and this touched me so much, brought me tears, you are so special, so genuine, it makes your videos mean even more to me now that I've watched this.

Maria, you're such a brave and inspirational young woman. I'm so glad that I found you here, your videos help me get through really tough times. Bless your sweet, loving, kind and peaceful personality :-) We love you

I dont say this often but this touched me ... You are full of positivite energy its just amazing !

I’m going through a really rough time In life right now and I decided to watch this video and it brought me so much comfort because you suffered so much seeing that you went through all of that and I watch your current videos where you’re about to have a baby and you’re happy now. It makes me feel like there is a light at the end of every tunnel. Thank you❤️

I’m so glad you came here and are alive!! I’m so sorry that you’ve been through so much! Just know what happened to you those people got it bad from karma!! I’m so thankful for you!! Thank you for all the hard work you put in!! What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger!! Be blessed!!

I realise it's probably all just the past to you now and you've probably stopped caring about the events but I find it sickening that any man could ever hit a woman. Especially when there are a gang of men all attacking just the one on her own. It's brutal and horrific and I'm so sorry you ever had to endure that. Most guys never think about the mental and physical trauma they can cause. Also, don't ever look down upon yourself and your looks. You are a beautiful woman and if what you say is true and you looked better before the incident, I probably would have thought that I had died and gone to heaven. The reason I was first attracted to your videos was because you look so beautiful and when I watched some of your videos, I found I was able to sleep so much better. You've greatly improved my life as I have struggled to sleep for years. Don't stop doing what you do and thank you for being awesome and enduring.

I was scrolling through your videos (most of which I have watched) and I was shocked and surprised to find this one. I would never have guessed you had such a rough history. I feel very sad that you were handed so many tough cards in life, and I wish it had been easier for you to find genuine help and honest people sooner. You are a shining light in a dark world and I hope that all the happiness you have found can stay with you, so you can continue to share it and spread it with others the way that you do. Do you ever think that maybe it was all written in fate? Just imagine how many lives you are improving upon and impacting for the better. It's comforting to think that your hardships were all puzzle pieces that shaped a bigger and better story. Pieces that made you stronger and more able to appreciate your life now. Thanks for sharing this video with us. Also, it was a super cool vid idea. Loved your visuals!

Maria you are so beautiful inside and out. What a hard life to live. I’m so happy you found happiness and can live a normal life without any worries. This video literally had me in tears. You really don’t know what a person is going through in life. I would have never expected to hear this. Much love to you and your strength!

I just wanted to say thank you...You're such a beam of light, I don't think anyone could've guessed how much pain you went through before getting here. Thank you for being such an amazing person and honestly you're such an inspiration.

Thank you for pushing through your troubles to be the amazing, beautiful human you are now. I love you!

My heart actually HURTS after watching this. You are two years older than my youngest daughter. What your employer (I assume Sheraton) did to you is *ILLEGAL* Russian managers or no. They can NOT do this in the USA. They are responsible for fixing your injury and paying your wages while you can't work. You *MUST* report them, what if other young Russian girls are being exploited by these idiots? You should start a business helping young students and immigrants find what they need here, your English is perfect and it sounds like people take advantage of young Russian girls.

Wow. What a testimony! So inspiring! You have lived so much in so little time. I'm so glad things have now come full circle for you and that you are now living your best life. You are truly a blessing to the world. 💛💛💛

Maria, you're so strong to go through all that bs and still come out the other end with love and compassion. honestly you're one of my biggest role models and I'm so grateful that life lead you to this place, to the USA, to the ASMR community, to Darryl, to all of us!! you're genuinely a wonderful person and you help so many people. we will forever be grateful to you for bringing us so much joy. love, the ASMR community :)

The struggle that immigrants have to go through when entering a different country with nothing but a few dollars, the clothes on their back, and minimal language in English(in addition to leaving your entire friends and family behind), is something that Americans will never understand.

her nose is one of her best features.... just saying

Wow.... Thank you for your generosity, Maria! You are truly an inspiration! I think many ASMR artists have sad stories that led them to ASMR at some very dark point of their lives... and found hope and understanding within that community... Your sincerity and simplicity touch so many people! You are a little sunshine! xx

Why is it always the best of people who go through the worst of experiences? You're truly an amazing and resilient human being. Thank you for pushing through all that hardship and not giving up! We are all so blessed by you. I'm so glad you found the happiness that you deserve.

Maria I am so sorry you struggled so much. I appreciate the service you do for this community. What doesn't kill you makes you stronger & I admire you for overcoming your painful past. Best wishes to you always!

gosh you're such a beautiful person. i don't know why but this quote reminds me of you: "the deeper that sorrow carves into your being, the more joy you can contain" :) and you deserve only the best my dear! thank you, thank you so much. (love from italy)

This made me cry. I am so glad you have found your calling and are able to bring joy and relaxation to so many people the world over. Plenty of people love you and the work you do. You deserve it and I hope you keep your inner peace

You are such an inspiration for coming through everything you had to and still being such a wonderful and positive influence. You make the world a better place with your videos. You deserve to be blessed and have all of your positivity come full circle.

Oh my God I am so sorry you were assaulted :(