"I have descended from Brahman to the detestable pit that is the Abyss, withstood unspeakable suffering, all for the cause of understanding the Evil One's nature. There I was and so was He, at the Supreme Abode of God, piercing my Soul with that dreadful gaze as I had His with My Will; indomitable forces held captive in paralysis. I stood there, as the only mortal who braved the countless illusions of His Abyss, yet surely He knew of the *Mystery of YukariAdd,* for His next words followed: 'Curse be upon You, who wields Courage as His blade and harbors His sanity with the shield of Love! For the wheels have decreed against Me and acquitted You! Listen well, then, and guard the Final Word as you had your Soul!' There I was told the grim Truth of God, that Word which will conclude the cosmos and plunge us into Nothing." -Bhagavad Gita 18.75-78
I'm on a point in this game that i just farm for the specific item that i want instead of trying to get It by rgn, i got lucky with a +11 only one time, nowdays i buy all my amulets, as a f2p it is really tought, but i prefer that than relying on upgrading, i fell bad for you man ngl, gl.