JesusmyKing, I'm sorry you're hurting. I hope you're feeling better now, and have rediscovered that the best way to feel loved, is to find someone to give love to. Plant those seeds of love, my friend, and God promised you'll get a harvest larger than what you plant. You'll get the love you give, like flour in a cup, 'shaken, pressed down, and overflowing" ... I send you love right now.