Every Guy is a Little Gay... 

this man can be happy, sad, mad, and terrified but still have the same calm manner he has lol. he's just so relaxing to hear 😂😭

First thing I was told when I entered my first army unit. Everybody gets a boyfriend on deployment.😂

I'm from a very small town too, and I was surprised by how many "straight" guys from there that have done stuff with other males. I've been with a few myself that I never would've imagined I would back in high school. Thanks for the stories ❤✌

Spaghetti is straight until you heat it up.

After nearly 40 years of no contact an old school friend just told me he had a crush on me at school. I’m excited to meet up and exchange notes. Lovely stories Richie. They are so well told and real.

In high school there was a guy on the football team who lived on my street. He looked like the all-American jock kid. We used to talk if we happened to be hanging outside at the same time. I think he sensed I was gay and one day told me I should come by at night into his house through the basement door where he worked out. I started going over a few times a week and watching him lift and then I would blow him. He never would even say hi to me if he saw me in school. Made me realize no guy is completely straight. He’s married with kids now.

I love his eyes and his sincere manner

I remember around the time I graduated HS a bunch of us were out at a pizza place. This real cute jocky str8 guy I was sort of friends with reached out to shake my hand so of course I grabbed his hand. Anyway I sort of went to pull away after a time and he would not let go. He just wanted to hold hands and he was not shy about it. I thought this was the sweetest thing ever.

Your title for this is so very fitting, and true. I grew up back in MO. Small town, farming area, so yeah lots of str8 country boys. Quote, unquote....... LOL So many memories, and stories................... Unfortunately not RU-vid friendly. LOL I'll just say those hay barns was used for more than just storing hay............

I agree with you that there is a spectrum of sexual preferences in guys and gals. Great chat Richie!

It's all true. I've lost count on 'married men' who only told me they would have done things with me, had I asked ... but now that they're married ... Makes me crazy. And it's kinda cruel, because they KNEW who I was and I would have been down, but being respectful of them being 'straight', I never made the moves, they were obviously expecting me to make. Straight Boy Games.

Hey Richie. I’m new here,I’ve watched a couple of videos of yours and I loved the way you show yourself and the way you tell your story with sobriety,calming and self esteem.It’s a beautiful example to youngsters gay people,mainly in this century when everything is so out there because of internet and social media.I became a huge fan of yours and I got to thank you in behalf of the 🏳️‍🌈 community.Love you from Brazil.

I think people gets confused because there are more bi guys that we actually let known, they just call themselves straight because of social circumstances.

Further evidence that everyone's sexuality is on a spectrum. I'm glad Richie made this video! 👍

My best friend is straight and we have fooled around.

I think there is so much repressed sexuality for so many straight men. I can't count anymore the str8 body-count. It make me feel some kind of way thinking back on it.

Richie is some kind of hero to those other guys, as well as to us here... enjoy your new Richie Report format... it was good.... xoxo from NY.

My story was all about My college dorm house, freshman and sophomore years. A lot of guys flirted with me and in some cases closer relationships happened. Like you, I was confused. Years later I still don't understand what these guys wanted. They all got married. Homophobia kept all of us from being honest.

You are incredible and this video was amazing. Totally different from the other segments you use to do. Thanks for sharing I appreciate you so much.

I'm ex military. The men i was sexually attracted to were numerous. I get it .

I use to think straight guys were teasing me too until I look back and think about it a little. I've missed out on a lot of really hot straight guys 😂

You've got the coolest demeanor. Don't let the industry take that from you.

So many guys are just interested in the sex and seemingly refuse to see the rest of the person. I'll confess to being one of those guys when I was very young. You seem to be a person that seeks much more than that. I've found that finding real, lasting love is incredibly difficult. I've never found it myself, but I sure hope you do one day.

Richie, one of my best friends is one of those straight guys who isn't really straight but is too scared to try it... I try to encourage him because I know he wants to, but I also know he will do it in his own time... if ever, lol. Thank you for sharing. I have been a fan for a long time. 😘

Feelings can change depending how honest one is with one's personal development from childhood thru puberty to adulthood.

I think you're right. It's never 0 - 100, it's always 1 - 99. Of course many guys would never try it but the thought has rolled around their brain. I had a good friend that I tried to get with for over 8 years and he finally said he was secretly bisexual, I was his first, so he said, but it def. went on to be more frequent. Haha, he was so hot and even better, he was genuinely nice to everyone. Miss those days for sure.

I can relate. In high School I thought I was the only gay person but come to find out there was a lot of class mates that I was seeing/meeting up in the gay bars.

enjoy yourself, life is too short,and to tell you the truth you are very nice looking guy.

Some people are closeted, but we're not all gay.

I made a friend in high school who was bullied almost every day. It ok up for him and they started to accusing me of being gay… his name was Robert and his nick name was Buzzy… when we got to his hose he invited me in. We drank those glass bottle cokes, he put on a Led Zeplin record. And asked if he could thank me properly. in1972 I was already getting edged. This guy knew how to suck an Zuchinni. And didn’t lease a drop of evidence… 15 minute later round 2…. This went on for three years. No nerd to choke my Chicken, Buzzy kept me maintained… never had head as good ad hid again in my life. And believe me when I tell you I tried. And the girls in High School had good intentions. But pale in comparison to Buzzy. Never got an STD and he was definitely into produce big time

Hi Richie, I just discovered your channel and this video jumped off the screen because this is a subject in which I am very informed. First, I owned a psychiatric hospital for 12 years, at the ripe age of only 22. It's a complicated story but the deal literally fell in my lap. Four doctors came to me and asked if I could put the deal together. Long story short, I had the permits, building and working capital financing committed in three weeks. The doctors gave me 51% to staff it and operate it. There were some patients on the verge of nervous breakdowns because they had a wife and kids, then realized they were gay in the military. The question was to stay married and miserable or negotiate joint custody of the kids and divorce. I told my board and psychiatrists I was gay. Here's why. I came from an affluent family which gave me the funds to visit cities with gay culture. By the time I was 20, I sincerely, thought I was born lucky. Decades later, I still feel that way. The doctors at our hospital asked me to meet with some of our patients who were having a difficult time dealing with their wife, parents and what to tell kids. I tried to determine what the patient's worst demons were before the first and only meeting. Sometimes I saw a lift in their spirits, other times not. The doctors made all decisions about therapy. Psychiatrists are not in the business of giving patients advice. I think the point I want to make here is how fortunate those of us are who knew our sensuality at an early age. I can't imagine making this kind of mistake, trying to reverse course after marriage and children. I want to tell everyone what my board of psychiatrists said to my query, "should I tell my parents." The answer was unanimous. They said only if you think they can handle the information. That was easy. A resounding no is what I told all of them. In the 1980s the American Psychiatric Association told all of its member psychiatrists what my board had told me. Tell the patient to make a list of family and close friends. Then write yes or no as to each person's ability to deal with the news. If parents or close family can't keep this kind of information quiet, then it's probably no across the board. As to the statement that most men are a little bit gay, I have to agree. However, some work overtime to hide that. Others play that role with select friends and lovers. Others, very unfortunately live tortured lives, hating themselves for whom they are. Most of this group never seek professional therapy for the simple fact they can't make the admission, not to themselves, not even to a therapist, for fear, paranoia in reality, that the therapist will reveal their secret. Throughout my life I have told this explanation to both men and women with open minds. In nature, the male is the most beautiful of every species. This is how I feel about good looking men and men with exceptional personalities and character. Most people have never considered this concept. This has been omnipresent in my mind since about age twelve.

Please start a podcast! Your voice is amazing. I’d love to hear more of your stories

Overall, in my experience, whether in school or the workplace, it seems like no one is gay. It's all very subtle as you get to know people. In my life I truly can't think of someone who was openly gay and spoke openly about it! We are still in a time where it's a subject to feel scared and shameful about.

I can honestly say that from middle to high school, I never had a straight friend that I haven't fooled around with, both giving and receiving. I considered myself straight until I was 33, lol.

My never ending story is develloping a crush on somewhat younger guys who act straight, but come out of the closet a few years after I have seen them for the last time or on guys who actually are straight. Something that might be (part of) the cause for this is that I'm on the autism spectrum (I'm not picking up social cues very fast) and it's in my character to never make the first move. The result of all this: I've been single my whole life, except for one girl I was "dating" in primary school. There were actually two girls I was friends with and one day my whole class made me choose between the two. Because I didn't know who to pick, or actually I didn't want to pick and because of peer pressure I ended up making both girls cry... How? I picked the girl who I liked the most first, the other started to cry (obviously). I felt sad because she cried and other kids said I should have picked her. So I did, the girl I chose first now started crying too. (what did I expect?) Now that they were both crying there was balance again and I was able to decide to go with my first choice after all. It was pretty much my worst day in primary school. 😅 In secondary school (at the age of 13) I started to realise I liked guys more than I liked girls. But it took me 5 more years to be confident enough to try to secretly date a guy. After that first date I knew for sure that I was gay (although this date didn't get a sequel), but I didn't dare to come out until I was 19. Not that I had much of a choice, because a gay classmate of my younger brother had seen my profile on a gay youth dating website. He literally told me this at the dinner table with my parents there. I had told my mom a few months before that I had these feelings, but I wasn't sure and I didn't want to tell anyone else yet. Luckily everyone in my family accepted it.

I am single and happy..

Everyone is on a spectrum somewhere. We can't expect immature boys to fully understand themselves, so how they behave in high school may not be a reflection of who they really are. One of my best friends recently told me that he loves me after hanging out weekly for 14 years. I assumed he meant like a brother, until he told me that he would rather have a sexual relationship with me than risk losing me from his life. All this after I told him that I'd met someone I had a crush on. Maybe the pandemic is making people crazy.....lol.

Great vid. Had a friend in college who said he only hooked up with str8 boys. Which I thought was ridiculous at the time. But my last one night stand was with a "str8." And I friended a str8 boy on a cruise who started sending me eggplant pix. After the cruise was over. He did not want any eggplants back though! lol

Interesting. This "pretty privilege" concept proves itself reality, daily. I hadn't the clichéd teenager life. Got drunk and smoke occasionally, at best. I'm introverted, never found anyone interesting enough to form a bond, never was invited to a classy party - or any party, never had any real friends (still a reality), etc. I value my dogs more than most of mankind. Sometimes, I watch movies like Call Me By Your Name, Lost and Delirious, and wonder if I'll ever live anything closer to the life I truly desire. Currently, I'm surviving, not living. Everything seems to be increasingly more pathetic, the more time spent alone doing the hobbies once appreciated. I'm in love with someone, my second degree cousin. He doesn't know, of course, but, he corresponds my feelings. So, he has an idea. His father noticed my "odd" behavior with him and is attempting to separate us. Something I will not allow. When the time comes, he will be mine, despite his worthless attempts, if he chooses to. I may not the best in the looks, but, I'm not the worst, and he accepted me, being the angel that he is. A solid relationship isn't based on appearances only, but, they do matter. He's a prince, behaves as one, smells accordingly, is intelligent, has a delicate personality and a delicate voice, I love him. How can I allow anyone to interfere? Impossible. After so many years of solitude, The Creator has sent one of his angels to rescue me from my own darkness. I cannot refuse to live, at last. I'm ready to unlive any obstacle in our path. His father tried to run over him with their car, he doesn't love him.

OMG "Str8 to the bone" I'm gonna adopt that phrase 🤣. My suggestion is to keep these to 15 min

.. saw the thumbnail and soo agree..... its our shit*y society that labels ppl and scares "str8" guys from being 'fluid', as and when, if unattached, the mood takes them... the 'gay panic' and peer pressure from their mates if they could be themselves overwhelms any 'str8' guy from acting on his feelings in the moment.... the labels we put on ourselves and others just facks everything up.

great stories richie :) Hope you are having a good summer!

Your opinions are a breath of fresh air 😢 !

Hey Richie, I just subbed to your channel. My entire adult career has been teaching high school young people. Thank you for your honesty and openness. I agree that every guy is a little bit gay but would probably die before admitting it. Denial can be a powerful psychological force. We need society to change and be non-homophobic. I have been teaching since before you were born......thanks, bro...........Ray

They react so positively because of the decent, kind, caring person YOU ARE so don't be surprised. So many don't have the self confidence and decency to be so. Someday you will find or be found by another for long term happiness together,

You have an amazing spirit and calming voice and personality

I didn’t realise how cute Richie is

Really fascinating video, Richie! I love that many guys are actually not 100% straight ;-).

The title of your video is right, because men know how the brains of a man work.

Good video.I believe your title sums it all up.Just some more into it than others i would think.See You in the next podcast.Thanks.Willard

the title of this video is already true enough

I've been teased during high school by straight guys too. But, I was everyone's cupid, a wingman if you will. I do have a pretty good gaydar. I wasn't the best looking guy. I was a good listener

You never know what to expect from a guy. I've found that being in the right place at the right can be very rewarding. There's a saying that a straight guy is just a 6 pack away from his first Gat experience. There is some truth to that. I've also found that if you don't stand out in a Gay way, curious guys are more likely to come to you.

Cool story. If I had been comfortable with myself and out, I wonder if I’d have had similar experiences. I guess I’ll never know.

I have never experienced any of what you are talking about but i had a friend of a friend who was gay and he went after only straight guys. He seems to score more often then not so there are straight guys out there that want to experiment and some are deep deep closet cases.

First off I'm going to borrow a phrase from one of your other viewers, "sexuality is on a spectrum". There are few people who are 100% Gay. You might also admit to yourself that you're handsome and in GREAT shape. You are also pretty accepting about your sexuality. It could be that your friends want some of the things you've got and in particular your self confidence and acceptance.

Watch out, small towns can be deadly. The hate has not stopped. It has gone underground.

So great to see you always and hear your experiences

It's called Sexual Continuum or Spectrum where all boundaries are blurred.🌈💕

Could you be any sweeter! I like listening to your stories. It's very calming. 💚

I need to get to that point not letting wat people think about me I used to be that way I am gay and where I live no one know , so when I get into my frist gay relationship I will come out

"Every Guy is a Little Gay"-so true. That concept is part of my "Wish List"!

i don't agree that 'every guy is a little gay' at all - fully straight guys do exist and we shouldn't disrespect that or try to 'convert them'. That said i think especially now more guys are open to experimenting and trying some thing out - also guys these days are much more open to commenting to a guy and saying things like 'great body' or 'see you're packing' but it doesn't mean they are looking to hook up, they're just a lot more open (and sometimes just out to tease the gay man ;-) ) As for the older married guy looking for something- for those of us of a certain age there was a lot of us who had a lot of pressure on us to confirm and marry, i didn't marry but i can understand why it happened, and after having kids, marriages etc these guys get to a point when they can't hide their feelings/needs any more - so i think a lot of those older guys may have been gay all along just finding outlets for it now? And with much younger guys, even though in the western world things are more open and free, there are a lot of guys who are still scared to come out and be openly gay for lots of reasons - ive seen that in my own family where a young nephew who knew i was gay had met partners of mine and seen i was completely accepted by the family struggled still to come out - and i've met guys on the various apps who are like that too, just a bit scared even in this day and age to accept who they are and who struggled with that. All i'm saying is that there are many reasons why people you may feel are 'straight' may not be and just wanting to experiment.

I absolutely love your Channel, and I am a big fan, I appreciate all of your education, so much, thx ✌️& 🤟

When I moved down to the Atlanta, GA area, so many "straight" guys hit on me! If I had a NICKLE for every guy who did, I'd have about $2.50! That's a lot of nickles!!! LOL

This reminds me of the Kinsey Report!

Is homophobia actually a phobia? What do you think? Do you believe that guys that are homophobic are afraid of gay guys? Are they fearful of turning gay themselves? I suspect that the curiosity of their feelings makes them fearful. A lot of men struggle with what they think homosexuality is. We have all been lied to and programmed to think that being gay is wrong and a sin. It is not wrong and it is not a sin.

I don't know why you are still single , you're a good looking guy, nice hair, nice teeth, slim . Guys around you must be blind. Good stories too, I think we can all relate to them as gay guys . I do always say there are no real straight guys out there

The color from the sun looks good on you. It takes me five seconds and I’m burnt 🥵 like blistering burnt.

If you look on the Internet, you will see young straight heartthrobs engaging in relationships with other young straight heartthobs!

Love you little brother. Nick from the Republic of Mauritius.

I really like your vids; you have a lot of great anecdotes. I've had similar contacts; a lot of straight guys want to experiment.

Since you enjoy stories from older guys, I have one for you, along these lines: This is ancient history! This happened many, many decades ago, when I was in junior high school, when I was age 12. It took place so long ago, pre-Stonewall Riot, that I did not dare to admit even to myself that I was gay. So persecuted were we...we never came out to anybody, even to ourselves, lest we risk the consequences of being sent to a mental hospital, or jail...and this was in NYC, if you can believe it! Now that I've set the scene... I was bullied in JHS, mostly by jock types, who would call me a queer and a faggot. They would often beat me up, and wipe the school yard with me. They had me pegged before I could admit to myself who I was. There was one jock in particular, a very handsome Italian American boy...think Fonzie from "Happy Days", if you know that show...and he always had a pretty girl on his arm. One day, in art class, we had to share a table. (These was very big tables, on which could be spread canvases. Only 2 people could share a table, and they were well-spaced throughout the large classroom.) Anyway, he said to me, "Come here, I want to show you something". So I got up, walked around the table, and there was his gigantic eggplant, in all its glory! I started to shake, and was probably turning purple. He grabbed my wrist, and said, "Shut up, don't say anything!", so I obeyed. Then he asked me if I liked it. I could only nod my head. Then he said, "Next time in gym, come find me in the locker room. I'll be happy to show it to you anytime." I could only nod again, and slinked back to my seat. Needless to say, I never took him up on his offer. P.S. I came out in 1971at age 20, which was a very bold thing to do in the early '70s, and I've been true to myself ever since then.

0:23 Multipie first-Hand experiences... No pun intended

In the most recent national census in England and in Wales around 3% of people aged 16+ recorded themselves as LGB or Other sexual orientation. Some cities it was 5-11%, some rural areas less than 2%. But we are everywhere whether visible or not!

I was friends with a pair of lesbians but one got very jealous when her partner liked me too much!!!

In Ireland there's a saying that goes: Q: What's the difference between a straight guy and a gay guy? A: About 6 pints! 🤣🤣🤣🤣

It would be impossible to confirm without some sort of study of a cross-section of "straight" guys (there probably are some studies), but my guess is the spectrum of gay-bi-straight, and while being curious they are not comfortable crossing a line that they don't need to cross. If you can be in a straight relationship it's a lot easier than being with someone you might only be curious about. I also think it's not as simple as a single line between gay and straight, but more multi-dimensional. My experience as a gay man stems from how I feel about who I'm attracted to, vs the ability to actually be with a woman (which I have). The equipment works with a woman but it just doesn't feel right, where as I know gay guys who can't even get it up with a woman. That's probably also why you hear about guys who can have gay sex but have no inclination toward being in a relationship with a guy. All that to say, I think you are right in a way, that most guys may have at least a little attraction to other guys, but would likely never act on it - probably mostly due to social taboos.

Where you this peaceful and restrained just out of high school or did you still have some of the typical teen energy and aggression? You are so beautifully mellow and sweet in your personality. I can not imagine you as a teen even.

Have you heard of the Kinsey scale? The 0-6 scale rates the degree of same and opposite sex attraction. So there are the two extremes of exclusive types of attraction and all the possibilities in between

I also think that so many guys are also looking for someone who is or can be submissive, and sometimes they find them in the gay guys, sometimes more than their gf. Not all the time but sometimes. Alpha men, if they allow themselves to, can find great solace and release with some of the more submissive gay guys. Some do some don’t though.

You are beautiful and cute 💙💙💙💙💙 We love you Richie 💙💙💙💙💙💙

as a straight guy, yes, I can confirm I'm a little bit gay. But I do know for sure I would much prefer to date women. I find almost all women at least pretty, and very very few men.

Hi Richie…. Nobody is 100% one way . Probably 99% . Been there, done that

Being gay, unfortunately, opposed to popular knowledge not all of gay life is about SEX. THAT IS THE WAY IT IS TODAY. That is not the way it was before (pre-Stonewall). We were all extremely isolated from each other. Every-body needs love and affection male and/or female but not necessarily sex. Most guys are scared and conditioned to think showing affection to a man (e.g. dad) is sort of a bad thing or sick. Remember it is nature not nurture, no you are not weird, but you need to appreciate and understand your unaffected condition. So go on give him a hug and kiss he wants it needs it, and there it is, evidence of a sick society. Be careful, do it honestly, and be real! Good luck! Yes, that story about a guy being curious is standard, ...can remember when, but at that time it was much more cruel and abusive. San-tech.

Guys are so shallow and ego driven that they likely got some thrill by being in a group with a "star" ...a "porn star" even. You were their Zach Efron!

Be careful of that sun exposure!! I am a ginger too and all I can say is ouch!!!!!!

I'm 51 now and still a virgin and I've always felt more comfortable around men. I do love a good hug when I see people I haven't seen for a while. Ps I think your awsome

Comming out of high school, I’ve met both lower class men and higher class men who was surprisingly gay who asked for steamy pics of me. I’m straight as a rail, mind you.

It’s called a prostate god gave it to us for a reason..

When it comes to str8 guys, I’ve gotten to know the ones that are definitely straight. Not everyone is fluid or anything. However, among them str8 are those who are just insecure about themselves they lash out over something that doesn’t affect them. Makes me wonder. Some of the meaner ones where on the level of homophobia and violent. I almost stabbed one classmate who really got on my nerves. Fortunately for me, not one of these guys that bullied me even tried to make a move on the DL especially the ones I thought were attractive. Never kept contact either because why would I! The guy I supposedly lost my virginity to at 15 was str8 and it’s one of my regrets. At 34 I might as well be a virgin still since I haven’t messed around with anyone since. Unfortunately I would never know if these guys even messed around, but it would explain a lot.

Many decades ago, _Playboy Magazine_ [I know, outdated today] had an article [to actually be READ, without the photos you associate with this magazine] that frankly stated that at the most base level of humanity, *everyone is a little bi-sexual to varying degrees.*

Yes, guy availability depends on what area they grew up in. You mentioned Prescott...that's where my parents retired to, from Chicago. No one knows where Prescott is, but u may know more ppl who do. I visited & I saw the cutest waiter in a Jerome restaurant, was shocked to see any cute poss gay guys in middle of nowhere. Gotta remember places like Roswell & farmstead won't have parents who permit their kids to "be" gay.

Sexuality starts raising its head as soon as we crawl out of the womb. Who we start sharing our toys with at daycare , the kids we select for that pickup game of basketball all falls back on that narrative of if that person is pretty enough and clicks off all items on your list falls into that “Yes, everyone’s a little gay”!!

I envy your generation like my daughter. Very accepting and non-judgmental. If only the world were more like you and your friends. I think it’s col you’re as open about sexuality and wish you the best

Richie, I totally agree with you. By the way, you are really beautiful and have a great heart.

I'm married, 2 adult kids, love women and all of their women parts, but still really enjoy the feeling of a nice "egg plant" in my mouth.

Thing is Richie, There is Never just one gay in the village, for every one guy that is out (obvious) there is at least 12 more who keep it bottled up. And the same losers who want to hate/expose you have to: 1) be in that part of the cyber neighborhood 2) actively search your model name 3) watch, download and take screen shots of your material 4) if anything ,their exposing themselves as pathetic, jealous, attention starved, closeted brats/queens

I know it's been 2 years or more since you posted this video, but let me tell you a story. The first part of this story happened back in the 90s when I was 15 and in the 10th grade. I was over at a friends house watching a movie one night while her parents were out. Just to let you know, she had a certain reputation with all the boys in school, if you know what I mean. About midway through the movie, there is a knock at the door, and she lets in two of the football jocks from our school. Her and one of the guys, we'll call him CJ, go back to her room so she can "entertain" him. Leaving me, the little dork, to sit there in silence with his friend for about 10 minutes until CJ comes back out so his friend could head back to her room. Yeah, I said she had a reputation, I never said it was unfounded. CJ sits down to wait while his friend has his fun, takes a drink of Jack, makes small talk for 2 minutes, then asks me if he can, how should I put this, show me his impersonation of a bobblehead. Of course, I was in the closet at the time, and the fears that he was trying to get me to out myself come to mind, and I told him that I'm not gay. He was like, I'm not either. Apparently, he just likes to do that because it's kind of a kink of his. But before any more could be said, his friend comes back into the living room in less than 10 minutes after he left. They both had such great stamina back then, lol. And CJ invites me to a party he is having, and being dumb I agree to go, because even through the fears that this is a trap, I was hoping that it wasn't and that he wanted to sneak off latrr to get together. Shows you what being starved for sexual/romantic touch will do to a young horny guy. Anyway, we are cramed into the front seat of an old Ford truck. I've got the bottle of Jack Daniels between my legs, I know, smart right. And he reaches over and grabs my junk with his friend shoulder to shoulder with me. I grab his hand and force it to the bottle and say, I think that's what you're looking for, or something like that. And no, nothing happened between us at the party that night. But a week later, I get his phone number from my friend, the girl with the rep, and call him. Skip school the next day to meet up, and I'll just say that reality doesn't always live up to your expectations. But being starved for physical contact, I met up with him 2 more times before he stopped coming over after he tried to get with me a 3rd time. Let me explain. A friend of mine got kicked out of his house and was staying with us and sleeping in my room while things cooled down at home. My sister was 20 at the time and met up with CJ and his friends one night and brought them over while everyone is asleep to smoke down. He sneaks into my room after the bake session to wake me up. I'm half asleep, and I don't know who it is until he puts his hand under the blanket to feel me up. He is trying to whisper but is failing miserably while telling me he wants me to do him. I'm like, no, our friend is right over there, and he might wake up. He also knew the guy because they were both popular, and I was the sleeping guys dorky friend. He rips a condom open with his teeth, and as he is putting it on me, he is saying, he's out and probably won't wake up. I finally get his stoned ass to understand that this wasn't going to happen, so he gets up and walks out of the room. And as I am removing the condom my friend who was supposed to be asleep asks me who that was. I know that he sw him, that I'm a bad liar, and that all he needed to do was go downstairs and he would get his confirmation, so I told him it was CJ. A week later, my friend is living at home again, and CJ is no longer coming around, and my friend drops me. But I didn’t get outed because of this, so he at least respected me enough not to do that to me. Two years later, CJ bashed me because the two lesbians I was living with and told in confidence that I used to mess around with him told his friends what Ibhad said. In 2021, this guy, who to this day says he is straight, tried to hook up with my roommate. Saying that he is straight but has always been curious about guys. Asking if my roommate could help him with that. I nearly fell on the floor laughing when my roommate told me that. His response to CJ was the cherry on the cake. Honey, every queer in this town knows that when your pants come off, your legs go up like a damn jack in the box.

Most of the guys I’ve been with identify as straight.