Existential OCD Recovery 

That was me when I was legit 4

It was the most heartdropping feeling you could imagine

SAME TO THIS DAT also it’s scary to not be forever Like you don’t know how to fix these fears

​@@esraa3028 same here. Being or not being forever is scary as shit. I want to believe in God but this gives me fear

@@Lukedaniel805 same ocd been fucking with me since i was around that age as well

I’m right there with you it’s the thoughts that makes it so so hard to deal with….i hope you are doing better

@@Goatcasper Thankyou I am doing a lot better then I was. Slowly but surely. I hope you recover soon

That’s great to hear!! What were some things that has helped you?

@@Goatcasper Well for starters I got a proper diagnosis of existential OCD. (Turns out Iv had OCD my whole life and never knew) So it helped to learn the ins and outs of the disorder. And 100% stop ruminating in your head and engaging with these thoughts, stop trying to prove them wrong because that’s impossible to do- accepting the fact you’ll never have the answers, nobody does,has or ever will. This was step one for me and at first your anxiety will go up.. but that’s okay it’s learning to tell yourself anxiety sucks but it will not kill me- learning to sit with the fear/discomfort and continue on with your day instead of engaging with whatever thoughts are causing you fear and trying desperately to seek comfort or answers to get rid of the anxiety. It’s a dead end road and it’s gunna keep you in this cycle longer. You might find something that makes you feel better for 5 minutes but then your brain will come up with something else to counteract it “but what if this…” then your back in the fear loop. So learning not to engage with it at all no matter how shitty it feels for awhile. All of a sudden your anxiety fear will start to go down/these thoughts won’t take up so much space or bother you so much. Then you start to realize it was anxiety the whole time making things feel so “real” One thing that hasn’t gone away for me is the awakening I guess to how absurd everything is.. but now I just feel more spiritual and just like “wow” instead of fear. 😊 I also appreciate being in the moment a lot more. It definitely is hard to go through DPDR/Existential OCD will bring you to your knees I know, but you’ll be okay!

Yea man i miss my old life

Im currently stuck bad on this theme too! It’s fucking torture. Imo, it’s my worst theme. It fucks me so bad. I’m tryna figure out how to accept it too. Have you found anything?

​@@KaptainKash100 I don't really have any advice I just want to say that I am in the same boat and I feel the pain you're both experiencing. My worst theme as well.