"Loneliness has followed me my whole life. Everywhere. In bars, in cars, sidewalks, stores, everywhere. There's no escape. I'm God's lonely man." - Travis Bickle
I love this song so much, it sort of tickles or strokes my heart in a way that doesnt make me too depressed (unless i focus on it) but enough to make me feel something i dont know how to explain 😭I listen to it whilst studying and its slow repetition helps me so much to concentrate
Listened to this song all throughout the last month of school. Studied for finals and wrote essays while this played in the background. Love the vibe it gives off, a little sad, a little happy, very nostalgic. Very fitting for the end of the school year. Really makes me think about things, and thats why I love it!
You won't get the true feeling of this song until you reach certain age. Maybe 22-23. Still young but with a bit of experience in life and being worried all the time about living a straight path into adulthood
The girl expressions are spot on how this song makes you feel (nostalgic, sad, relaxed, thinking about how your life has been changed since the past........)
It's stock anime girl with pokerface. Your weaboo brain is just projecting emotions onto her due to lack of context. en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Kuleshov_effect read this
It feels as if I have no friends. I once had a tribe when I was younger but it has broken up. My friends went their separate ways. Though I am happy for the memories we shared when we were kids. Now in my 20s I find myself lost., I find myself with mental issues, a heightened sense of Constant NErVousSnEsS, and with a doubt that persist. I try to be kind to myself, it is crucial. However in the end I know that I am not ALONE. I know there are people out there that feel what I feel and that calms me. (just wanted to write out thoughts.)
Tell me, is it really better to have loved and lost, than never to have loved at all, when you end up alone anyway, except now you're tortured by pleasant memories?
I listened to this laying on an embankment under a tree next to a river in the middle of nowhere. Across the river from me was a large hill with a few trees and I watched a big bird of prey just float around the tree tops majestically as this played
This song used to remind me of someone, and it used to be fond memories. Now all I feel is hate for them because of what they put me through and the scars they left me with.
it has been quite a while ever since i opened up to anyone. acutally been a year or so lmao. it has somehow became a safe place to keep things hidden. to just myself. it feels like gaining attention. which im not i promise.
I share this problem. I find a certain kind of pain in this kind of songs but its also comfort for my depression. I guess i feel this way because i’m not regretting and also not even trying to which is worse than regretting after trying. (bad english)
GCSE's really won't matter at the end of the day. Tell your parents this: "Mum/Dad, if you want to see me own a house before I am 25, loan me 3500 so that I can afford the best gaming PC there is to buy, plus a microsoft office 365 licence and remind me every Christmas that I will need to pay it back." Thats what you need to do. I am dead serious
Found this song a couple days ago it almost perfectly embodies how I feel. I’m an 18 year old now but the choices I have made have made it harder to do things. I feel helpless, or at least my motivation is down the drain. I’ve just been saying “im in a mood” but only recently I have to realized I need help and I try to help my self but of course it’s useless I just become hard on myself. That won’t work. People have been there to help me but I can’t take tue advice and I want I really do but nothing happens. I wish my mind was different. At least somewhat “normal”.
At some points I lay at night and enjoy the silence. Now this is all I do. It’s not healthy and I’m not healthy either cause of it. Not like I’m overweight I’m underweight. My mental health is slowly dropping everyday I sit in this room and I don’t know what to do I wish some miracle would just come my way but I know it’s a pipe dream. I’m constantly in this same loop of fucking exhaustion, irritation and self hate. I love to be the glow in the room why can’t I be that way for my self? I just don’t know
Don't force happiness mate. One day, happiness will come to you... but if it doesn't, it's not hard to not except. (I feel the same way as you. "Don't waste it" is what I learned from myself)
well ,my life is f*ck!ng miserable, i hate my f*ck!ng life, i hate it. Yea, i stream for rent money. i don’t like streaming. i don’t like any of the games i play. i play f*ck!ng depressed, and f*ck!ng miserable. i don’t SLEEP, i eat like SH!T, i have NO friends, NO social life, and i'm f*cking miserable.
How to understand yourself ? Your character ? What are you like? How are you different from others ? How to be alone and not need people? Why don't I have any friends? Why am I alone ? What's wrong with me?
I understand myself, my character, what I'm like, and how different I am. I have friends and family... but the more I know, the more I hate myself than all the world combined. (Good night fam... have a rest)
@@hanzhummel bro you literally make me shed a tear. Year gone , all things are the same. I I've reconsidered my opinion. All your happiness is family, and I follow this principle)) ( See ya homie , I like you. All of us will being happy )
Purpose of living is staying alive, purpose of dying is staying dead, and my purpose is to find what I've lost or forgotten... or just to stroll around in the dark finding a needle in a hay stack of memories... im lost, completely.
Its almost midnight. I have school in two days... I did so many fucked up thing just before summer break like dating my teacher, somehow getting addicted to Adderall, hell I think i even payed someone to act as if they're raping me just because of a sick fantasy of mine. But somehow, life still goes like as if nothing ever happened.
Go without me, or force me with you... but nothing changes my fate. I believe in God and the holy Christ. I do what they say sometimes and also respect them and their believers... but I don't live as a Christian and neither as an atheist nor a blasphemer of God. I just want to be different and be selfish to be selfless to others... I want to be no one but me... and only me. (Selfish aren't I? It's because I want humanity to survive far longer than God expects... even though it's a dream I can't even stupidly reach for myself and for humanity's survival.)
