FEAR-Blue October (✝️PastorReacts!) Hit Me Hard And 💧Emotional... 

I'm going down a rabbit hole of watching reactions to this particular song. Blue October IS a transformative experience. All of his stuff is from his own personal experience. People love the band because they can relate so profoundly to him. His music is his own personal truth. He is the most genuine musician out there. Real. You can follow his own journey of mental illness and wellness throughout his albums. You can see the progression. I understand your fear of intimacy. The walls go up a lot faster than they come down.

hey this was amazing....the lead singer is my best friend of 25 years and i still feel the exact same as you to this day...he is an amazing, inspirational and talented person and we are so lucky to have him in this world (and i will add that i truly feel this is one of the BEST songs ever written...by anyone...ever and ps...at the end when he says if you're bitter still ask HIM to help you carry on...he is indeed a Christian and talking about praying to God for help

Blue October's a band est. 1995 in Houston TX. They tour as a band plus since Justin got clean around 9 yrs ago he also does a solo show called Open Book Tour where he tells his story. Shares his experience, strength and hope. He was addicted to alcohol and meth. This song Fear was the first song he wrote after rehab. During the lockdown he had tues night online AA/hang out with Justin nights. I hadn't listened to any music for approx 10 yrs while battling my own addictions and depression and GRIEF. Then one night as i s rolled thru youtube looking for a band for my step son I clicked on their video for a song called HOME AND BOOM I'M A TRUE BLUE FAN. I just got to see them in Oct 2021 live and it was a great experience. Their fans are a great close community. Im also a part of hangovergang too. Anyway I'm babbling but i enjoyed your reaction.

This song helped me walk again

Search for "Justin and the bee". It's one of the greatest testimonies I've ever heard. Then listen to the acoustic version of "I hope you're happy" (where he wears the green sweater), and "home", and "Worry list" and... Ah, just everything. They're awesome. He doesn't sing through his vocal chords, he sings through his soul. Then, I wanted to mention that I live in pretty much 95% isolation. I walked away from all "friends" because everyone just takes advantage and then leaves. I have a colleague who is trying to be my friend, but I don't trust it. Glad to know I'm not the only person feeling like that

I've been wanting to go back to my faith for so long, but I feel like i'm on the outside looking in. I know the people there would be happy to see me, but it's still so hard. I will do it soon ;/

When I'm down Blue October always lifts me up. ❤

Been catching up on your videos and I hear you. I see you. I understand that fear entirely. I'm a quirky person, very open and honest, and accidentally speak out of turn all the time (I like to phrase it my foot is in my mouth more than it's on the floor) and because of this I'm rejected and avoided all the time. It along with my peacemaker soul has created the same fear and a need to please people or run away from those around me. I've also had people take advantage of my motherly healing spirit and use it against me. It makes me afraid to speak to people about Christ and God even though I can't help being an open book. So I feel you brother and hearing you talk about going out and holding signs, speaking to people makes me feel like I'm failing my duty. But we are proud of what you have done. Continue your fight and I'll continue mine. Praying for you. ❤️ I'm a talker 😂 comment if you want a fellow Christian to talk to and I'll talk back... Warning maybe too much...

I live in Florida as well. A group of 4 of us play disc golf every week. Join us, don't talk, just walk and play the course.

Justin Furstenfeld is the name of the singer. As another comment said, he was a drug addict but that wasn't the whole story. He has struggled from a young age with severe bipolar disorder. This man has been through the ringer. in rehab he did become a Christian and I think if you listen to that last line "breathe, ask for more, if you're bitter still ask him to help you carry on" that's the hint toward God. For me the way I view fear is this. If fear has you in its grip enough that you cannot make any decisions let alone a wise one, that's when its breaking you down. That's when its not helping. Fear is absolutely an asset but much like anger it must be controlled and used wisely.

Hey man you're not boring and certainly not a "stupid idiot". Show confidence and people will follow suit. You're great!

Don't know how I missed this one. Better late than never, I guess. 😊

If you would like to react to an recommended artist, I recommend Aesthetic Perfection with the song Gods & Gold

You should react to gabby callwood’s music

Since I don't know if you'll see this or not, and you have asked for help without getting it, I figured I would offer help without you asking for it. Yes, the bane of every human the world over, but I will do it anyway. 1) You have to find good sources of information that suit your own tastes. You have to wade through a lot of crap, because there are endless snake oil salesmen out there, but if nothing else works, that's what you gotta do. 2) If it's a money building problem, I recommend the free podcast called Side Hustle School. TL;DR it's a ton of entrepreneurs sharing their strategies, and stories of "learning things the hard way." The guy who runs it has been doing it for a long time, and it's informative and the podcasts aren't too long. There are others too, but that's the simplest one I've seen. The books the guy wrote include condensed versions of all the information. 3) If it's existential (can't find meaning in the world) I recommend 2 things: a) Looking at different religions. Not to change your religion, but to see how they create systems of meaning. b) Find a job where you're outside all the time. Sunlight and nature help more than you think, without you having to do anything at all. I hear that being around and going into natural bodies of water (lake / ocean) helps even more, but I have benefited multiple times from just seeing nature in general every day for long periods of time. 4) If it's dealing with a death, nature helps a lot with that too. In every form of nature story or cultural heritage, there's death in nature. Sometimes even the seasons themselves are given poetic license to mean death. Usually something like "The Winter Lady," or some other person+winter type of name means the death related to winter (coldness, starvation, being alone at the end because everything is staying out of the cold). Also, nature is always moving, and there's always something survival-related to do in nature (even if it's fishing for recreation, or just building a custom firepit to cook some BBQ). I'm telling you, there are endless things to witness and ponder in nature, including religion. And it gives the time alone that people need to reflect. 5) If it's social (you're bad with people or making friends) I recommend a book called The Like Switch by Jack Schafer and Marvin Karlins. He covers most social engagement types. 6) If it's physical pain, it depends on the type. But I found a book called Triggerpoint Therapy to be extremely helpful over the years if you're having aches and pains and can't figure out why you have them. That and visit a light-handed chiropractor. A lot of them, especially the men, over-do their adjustments, in my opinion. You want "the little engine that could," not "count crackula" when it comes to chiropractors. You want to say, "Awwww! They finally cracked my back! Good job, little person! It only took you two or three tries!" Trust me on this, I learned the hard way. 7) Trick to fix most issues, and a little bit of helpful information: People don't actually have coherent thoughts. They have "feeling blobs," and when you speak them out loud, or write them down, you are forced to articulate the problem. It might not seem like a big issue, but emotionally (something you cannot control), you never "feel" like a problem can be solved, because you haven't actually defined your problem. The problem is just a half-feeling blob of thoughts that were never conjugated to have actual meaning in the real world. Have you ever given someone obvious advice to an obvious problem, only to have them say something like, "It isn't that simple! You wouldn't understand!" That's because yes, it is that simple. Also, they aren't reacting to them telling you about the problem, they are putting out nonsensical "thought blob" thoughts "at" you, because they feel threatened by anything telling them what to do when they have this "insurmountable problem." What you have to do is think about what the problem is, with the idea that you HAVE to give the exact problem, knowing you have to give a solution to that problem. If it is still giving you trouble at that point, you have to write down the problem, you can't just think about it. Then you have to make some value judgements. Can the problem be shifted off of you? If it can, make a value judgement; is solving that problem something you have to do? Can you get someone else to solve it, and would you want to? Basically, get as much detail about the problem and your personal options regarding the problem as possible. You'll probably be able to solve your own issues at this point, but if not, you have an exact list of things to start researching, then you create a real schedule that you will follow, and you do it IF you choose to do it. If not, make peace with it, say "not my problem anymore," wash your hands of it and move on, knowing you took a good, hard look at the issue. Sometimes they are "your issues," and no one can help you with it, but sometimes those issues are problems you created for yourself and can dispose of by yourself. It's your judgement call, and even if you have a long road ahead of you, planning the solution gets you started, which makes you feel better after you're done (and usually before that). Fun fact: talk therapy (a legitimate form of therapy used in clinical psychology) solves over 80% of most people's problems, and all they do is talk about their problems to another person. They're forced to put the "feeling blobs" into words, and solve their own issues. You can do so as well. 8) If you have confidence issues, start actively doing things in the area you need to improve, and do them a lot until you're at the comfort and skill level you want to be at. It sucks. Keep the thought in mind, "learn to love the challenge," and just repeat that in your brain so you at least emotionally feel you're getting something out of it. Emotion precedes decision; if you feel bad, you will stop doing it. If you feel bad but rewarded, you'll keep doing it, and the rewards will be bigger. Often people with this mentality seek out new "sucky things" to get good at, because they don't get the same "high" as they do by picking stuff they're already good at, over and over. Confidence comes from expertise. Bravado doesn't, but people with only bravado and no experience eventually end up morons (because they don't learn). That's my basic advice. Anything I didn't cover, the 7th thing would be your best bet.