I can totally relate. I have no problem being alone, I feel 100% comfortable being on my own. But I feel like my ability to be (sorta) comfortable in social situations has deteriorated this year .. :/ I'm just not used to it anymore
Effie is so lucky to have you as a mom. Seriously, the love and dedication you have given her is paramount. I wish we could gather all the little pups like her and shower them with love and patience
I've often wondered if I sacrifice my mental health for my preferred lifestyle. I live in a city (for many great reasons), but like Effie, I feel so much calmer in nature. The pandemic has me questioning this choice, especially with working from home...
Hi Estee, when you talk about Effie needing a huge amount of support because of her anxious behaviour and how much you love her I almost felt like: two girls 'struggling' in a relateable way have found one another to get through this crazy roller coaster aka life together to grow individually and supporting each other with all their heart (..well, that sounds a bit melodramatic after reading these lines again, but hey.. maybe that's why you two have such a real up and down, yet very rewarding bond ❤)
I have a question, how do you currently feel about your book, Bloom? Do you still find that it's a relatively good representation of who you are/it still resonates with you or do you maybe think it's more of a memento of your past life and a pleasant reminder of how much really has changed over the course of 10 years? Would love to hear your thoughts on it!
Estee, when you said “I hope this video feels like a hug” that got me. My dog is in the ER right now after a lot of really bad BMs, and I’m trying so hard to distract myself while waiting. Videos like this are so helpful. I’m glad you’re doing okay, and I hope you continue to be well throughout the hard winter. Sending love to you and Effie
I feel like you would love the show, “Insecure.” Not because i think you’re insecure (lol), but it’s very relatable and some of the aspects of the show touch on experiences you’ve mentioned you had. Plus, Issa Rae is a universal treasure and everything she does is amazing!
I think Effie is the luckiest little dog for having you as her mommy, and you should remind it to yourself whenever things get a little difficult with her. xx
Estee, you have been through a lot and by being honest and brave enough to discuss certain things, has helped and supported so many people, including me 😘 I’ve really struggled with my mental health too and was alone this Christmas but one of my daughters works in Dubai and her two sisters went to spend Christmas with her (I wasn’t well enough) but that was a wonderful silver lining for me, to know they were all together 🥰 It’s also great to keep your private life to yourself ❤️
Glad to hear you are hanging in there, Estee! I hope you can make it home for Christmas, it really is so hard being away from your family, I know this to be true. Hopefully next year we will all be getting back to a more normal feeling life. Hugs from Vancouver Island! ❤️
I've gone through an immense amount of self-reflection, and, what feels like, a reset or regeneration and omg. I'm learning to love and enjoy things again after feeling some of my lowest lows and accepting the average highs and it seems you're doing the same and I am so happy about that!! We're thriving out here and I love to see it!
I really enjoyed listening to you. I have an anxious rescue dog. Luckily she loves people despite her bad start in life. It’s a head spin talking to behaviourists and I found accepting Rosie as she is has let her develop for herself. What I have learnt is dogs live in the moment and I was letting her past be her present and once I let go life was much easier for us both. Oh and her diet I had a good look at what I was feeding her and that really helped too. Thank you for sharing.
I’ve been doing SO much work on boundaries and assessing/preserving my personal boundaries in therapy recently, as I’ve realised it’s one of the things I’m worst at, and giiiiiirl, it’s hard! but so so important for our wellbeing and sense of self. props to you for knowing your limits and maintaining them. all love, it’s a crazy time out there right now ✨
I’ve seen a more honest and open to feeling human emotions version of Estée during this year and during this pandemic and since you lost Reggie. compared to before although the content has always been good, I feel like I’m seeing the most true to herself version ever and I love this Estée.
I know my opinion does not matter, but I had to pause the video and just say - I've been watching you for over 6 years, and you're skin is stunning, Ive always admired how much you take care of it. So youthful at 30! xo
I love the giggles from off camera & glancing at your support system behind the scenes.. not sure who it is but I hope they make you feel supported & loved! Nothing better than good eggs by your side on your journey through life. Xx
Estee!! I've been a subscriber since high school... and now I am a grown ass almost-25 year old. It's kind of insane! I definitely feel like I've grown with you... especially watching videos like these where you talk honestly about your struggles and videos of you having a cry and being vulnerable. I really appreciate the vulnerability and it makes me feel like you are my friend who understands me. I've seen you mature and grow and I just want to say I'm really proud and happy for you!
God i love your honesty. I relocated to atlanta 10 years ago as well. It's really hard being away from family. I feel you!!! So proud of you for planting your roots and being independent.
Estee I love your vibe, your sense of humor, your style.... you are unique and I feel like you come out so much in vlogs and q&a! Love you ♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️
I had Botox done for the first time, having just turned 35. Of course, people around said it's not needed and vain but I do admit, I quite like how it's looking so far x
Thank you Estée! I've been so isolated lately and my anxiety has grown so much in a way that I haven't felt in years. It's been scary. Just listening to you talk and hearing how relatable your emotions and thoughts are made me feel a little lighter. And you made me laugh several times which was so stress relieving. Thank you for being you!
Thank you for always being so honest about how you've felt - it's honestly refreshing to hear something so real in the age of filters. So thank thank thank you Estée, sending you and Effie lots of love ❤️ In terms of self-development podcasts, I think you'll really enjoy The Right Feeling Podcast !
I‘ve been watching your videos back in the days, when I lived in the US in 2012 and following your journey all a long on insta, but haven’t watched a video for a very long time. It was good to see you. I love you! You are a soft and strong woman. I’m into tarot too these days. You are my empress. 🙏🏻 I wish you all the best.
You always hit the nail on the head whenever you talk openly about your mental health, I personally find it hard to put my anxieties into words a lot of the time (whether that be trying to understand them in my head or explaining to a close friend or relative) and so your videos always help put it into perspective. Thank you
I love you, Esteé. Been watching you since your essie button days. I remember the first video I watched of you showing us a lamb cake mold for your lamb cake with coconut 🥺💖
Hello Estee, i’ve been a long time subscriber to you since your channel was called Essiebutton. I just wanted to take this opportunity to thank you for all the virtual love and acting as a virtual friend throughout all these years. I truly appreciate it Estee for taking your time to edit and upload videos even in these tough times. I got to admit that watching you really makes my day as it’s somewhat like a comfort place to be. Thanks again and take care. ❤️
As a girl living alone in a different continent, away from family, this is so relatable. I feel seen/heard. ❤️ Also, OMG THATS MY FAVORITE PODCAST TOO!!
Everybody needs therapy! I’m a therapist, I go to therapy. Most ethical therapists do the same. 😊 Also- totally agree with you on the Mexican front. It’s so disappointing in the UK!
I enjoy being alone as well - except now the few social situations I do experience just exhaust me. I spent some time with family over the holidays and I needed like three days alone to recover whereas before the pandemic, I only needed a couple of hours or so. Sigh. Thank you for sharing, Estee - I appreciate your real talk!
Loved this q&a. Would you consider doing a video on tarot/crystals etc., sort of an intro to it all? As a fellow Cdn too who is also an ex-pat, I feel you. Haven't been back in years & I miss it soooo much!
I also got my dog from a shelter and she was extremely anxious. She did not like loud sounds, people (men were the worst) and she did not trust me outside and tried to escape a couple of times. But things changed after two years and she is doing better. What really helped was her castration and a lot of patience. My anxiety got worse at the beginning but I feel like she helped me to be more resilient.
Hi Estee! I always look forward to watching your videos 'cause I feel like it's just like talking to a friend or a friend talking to me. The things you talk about are just so relatable and natural. Keep being real!
There's this Australian girl who does Barre videos (and also some pilates/yoga), her channel name is Move With Nicole. She has such a soothing voice, I love her videos
My dad lived in London for 26 years (I'm half english). He had to move back to the middle east (Homeland) due to work at the beginning of 2020, I tried to get him British citizenship but didnt go forth with it because he has dyslexia. I moved with him since I didnt want him to be alone, I know he longs to go back. I know he considers London as home even though he wasnt born there. Yes home is where the heart is but anyone can find home in a different land. Everyone is suffering, wishing everyone good spirits :) x
Totally support your boundaries - not that you need my support but you have to do what is right for you and no one should take that personally. We all understand.
0:41 living situation 1:50 what have u learned about yourself in 2020 3:45 how r u 4:00 how is it living aloun with a pandemic n how it affects self love 5:49 is effie doing better 7:19 what do u miss more bout canada when are u goin back etc 7:46 love life 9:35 dating apps?
Hi Estee! I’ve been following you since yeeeears now. I’ve loved you from the beginning, and I will always do❤️I hope you are well and I wish you to be even better. Those times are hard... everywhere we look there is death and suffering and sometimes this is too much to carry. Being alone is not always easy, I feel you, especially when you are processing emotions and going through your own things. But there is always hope and gratitude for what we are and what we have. You are a powerful woman and such a beautiful human being, don’t ever forget it! Effie too is a little precious soul🦋I hug you Estee! From Italy🇮🇹
Totally agree with what you said around anxiety. I’ve learnt so much this year the importance of taking a break from social media. I found it really difficult in the beginning because you couldn’t escape covid, it was all over the TV, all over social media and then I’d go to work and it was all people talked about. And then George Floyd got killed and BLM kicked off again and it just seemed like there was so much hostility and negativity everywhere. I really struggled with it and just had to delete all social media from my phone for a while.
I’ve been watching you for many years now and I have to say, for awhile (maybe it was me) RU-vid seemed like a blurb and relatively uninteresting. But I somehow came across your channel again this year and I’ve got to say, watching you grow up and become the woman that you are has been so entertaining! I remember when you used to use the Rimmel Stay Matte Powder....yeah that long ago. Just bought my first Estee Daisy product too! Ready to support you through all that there is to come :) I find a lot of ease knowing that we’re both feeling the same way right now. Keep being honest and you!!
Thanks for sharing your experiences with mental health Estee - it definitely helps to know that everyone is in the same situation (this pandemic is the worst!) 💕
It's nice to see you branch out into alternative options for self help (like I have). I began reading tarot and astrology over 7 years ago as a way to get to know myself better and nothing has helped so much. I know that you and people in your age group are in the home stretch of your Saturn Return (hope that's not invasive of me to say), and as I am beginning mine, I can see the impact it's having on it closing out this chapter in the lives of those I know with Saturn in Capricorn. It's been a heavy time! New 30 year cycle, here we go! 💖
Yaaassss!!! Come to australia! There's so much to see and do. I've never been to New Zealand, but I've heard it is absolutely stunning and so beautiful
I remember the first Q&A video of yours that I watched... you were in Canda in your old bedroom and you were showing us the lamb birthday cake pan! Been here since the Essie Button days, we are on similar journeys and I always enjoy your content. ❤️
I too would love to hear something about your love life or how the situation has been with your last partner (also because he just has been a big part of your vlogs) but at the same time I can really understand why you want to keep this topic out of the public!
Loved this video, really loving all your content lately. I totally understand the need for boundaries as far as your personal life goes and I’m sure all your og subscribers do too. Loved the running answer the most, made me lol👌🏻🤣 💕
I am originally from Canada and spent several years overseas. I made a lot of (superficial) friends but realized my closest friends are the ones from college and my old neighbourhood. So I moved back (not to my original city but close) and I have never regretted it!
You're so relatable and that's why I love you (and have been watching your videos consistently since you started!) We are the same age so I really feel like we have grown together, even though we have never met. Take it easy :)
Estee, I've too been in the uk for 11 years and all my formative years have been spent here. Can 100% relate to how you're feeling, I get confused where home is. It's a complicated one I guess
I can't even imagine how one would not be anxious at this point given the year we've all had!😅 Hope you get to travel for Christmas, a good dose of family and snowy Canadian weather will no doubt help 😊
