Finding Myself Again 

Hey Guys,
Sorry this one was so delayed - it was a video that meant a lot to me so I wanted to get it just right.
I spent a long time romanticising being unwell. And this has been for at least the last decade, or almost half of my time on this planet.
I saw glorified b&w montages of #sadgirls on tumblr. Effy, Cassie, that girl from red band society. I wanted to be them. I wanted to be seen as tragically beautiful. I wanted to be the sad girl who couldn't be saved.
I'm sick of glorifying an illness. When you strip away the dark quotes, the love interest movie scenes, the not-at-all grounded portrayal of mental illness in TV shows and in media, that's all it is. It's an illness. We would never romanticise physical illness this way.
So, I'm letting go.
I'm allowing myself to be well. I'm going to discover a Milly who is well.
I deserve it. I deserve to let myself be happy.
Mills x
DISCLAIMER: not every morsel of food i ate this week was shown. some very obvious meals are missing. i do this to prevent unnecessary comparisons. what my body needs and what your body needs might be vastly different. listen and trust your own body :)
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Instagram: Millyrecovers
Tiktok: Millyrecovers or Millyrecovers2
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Music by Andres Jacque - Fall Skies - thmatc.co/?l=C4C8F2CA
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-------------- ED RECOVERY RESOURCES --------------
- BEAT National Eating Disorder charity - www.beateatingdisorders.org.uk/
- NHS self-help guides - web.ntw.nhs.uk/selfhelp/
- Disordered eating self-help worksheets - www.cci.health.wa.gov.au/Reso...
RU-vidRS:
Tabitha Farrar: / tabithafarrar
Hat DID Beat this: / @hatdidbeatthis7379
Abbey Sharp: / abbeysharpabbeyskitchen
Linda Sun: / @lindasunyt
Ro Recovery: / romitchell
INSTAGRAMMERS:
Surina: @gainswithsurina3768
Millie: @MillieisRecovering
Healing Ki: @healing.ki
Elena: @elena.recovering
Han: @hannahfightsthis
Imee: @im_powering
TIKTOKERS:
Lila: @fullyrecovering
Sena: @senarecovering7
Cressie: @recoverwithcressie
Bobby: @bobbykazz
@_youve_got_this_
GUIDES/SELF-HELP RESOURCES:
Tabitha Farrar's book - Rehabilitate, Rewire, Recover!
CCI Self-Help Guides - www.cci.health.wa.gov.au/Reso...