( Finding the Will to Live ) A Transparent look Inside my Mental Health 

Therapy had definitely helped me understand myself , thoughts and actions better. I feel like I would be further along if I we’re consistent. I don’t think it’s the "end all be all" of solutions out there, but I do think it is very valuable to have a person who can help you get to the root of your problems. I hope you find the clarity you need. Thank you for being here 🧡

😊🥰 Thank you so much! It is greatly appreciated and no I don’t think it’s weird at all lol . It’s nice to be reminded positive things because I definitely don’t always see it in myself. I would love to meet another kindred spirit as well but I’m assuming you live in a whole other country or something. At least we have the internet. Thank you again for your sweet comment!

also if u have any questions u would like me to answer or if u want me to elaborate on something let me know :)

Thank you for sharing! It’s always comforting to know that i’m not alone. That is an interesting perspective that I have never thought of…I suppose it wouldn’t hurt to be tested but it does sound like a difficult reality to accept in addition to the current one I’m trying to accept. I literally just got out of my first therapy session in over a year and it just reaffirmed what seems to be the root of all my problems is that I don’t feel like I’m enough. So currently I’m going to try an figure that out …it all feels very complicated. But I am glad you go some answers and are able to adjust accordingly. I hope that I will find that same clarity. I’m curious as to how or what made you think to get tested for autism and not adhd or some other disorder?

thats very fair, the timing is very important. to answer your question first id like to say i am also diagnosed with adhd so i guess u could say i also searched for that and my doctor also told me that if you have autism it is statistically more likely to also have adhd than just adhd alone. but i suggest fact checking that. but specifically with the autism diagnosis: when i booked the appointment i was already 90% sure that i was autistic at that time, because i think it was a whole process. i started to relate a lot to the experiences that autistic people shared, then i started to learn more what autism is and how it modified the way the brain thinks and processes information and how the autistic person (and body) experiences and processes the world. then i started implementing some autistic accommodations into my life like using earplugs to block excessive noise, wearing sunglasses to block too much brightness, using coping mechanisms that some autistic people use and sugested to deal with extreme anxiety and discomfort etc... (which most i wasnt even aware that they were bothering me until it was brought to my attention by other people talking about it) because i thought even if im not autistic if these things help me feel calmer and more comfortable why not do them. and yeah then i just kept thinking and analysing "am i autistic?" and the more i was familiar with autism and recognised that in myself i was like "yeah definitely lol" and then got a doctor appointment to close the deal. also i tried bringing it up to a past therapist and they dismissed it but i felt like it was something that was really impacting my life so i kept my search and found a place specialised on diagnosing autism in adults which i think is key. sorry if i was wayyy to in depth i thought it was clearer to explain that way also there is this book which was used in my diagnostic process called autism and aspergers syndrome in adults by luke beardon. that really explained everything that was going on

@@IPLCF I appreciate your openness and willingness to share. I’m also glad you found the help and comfort you needed. I’ve thought about getting tested for adhd at the very least ..hmm I guess I’ll go where the wind blows lol but you have given me something to think about. Thank you 😊

😊 I would definitely recommend it. It’s been a great way to get out of my comfort zone. It’s definitely been challenging. But I think it pushes you in the best ways , mostly by getting real weird and playful. Plus it’s all about support. I’ve met a great group of people and had a lot of fun. I say go for it !

Thank you for the comment ! I never know how to respond to these but I really appreciate the support. I’m working through it and I’m sure with support like this I’ll get there a little faster. I hope the same for you. 🧡✨

It’s sucks that we are both dealing with .. suckiness but I do appreciate you telling me about you! I fear clinging on to someone for the wrong reasons also which is why I stay away. But now I fear I will be an old spinster if I don’t gather myself in time lol. Looks like we are in this together and I’m wishing you and everyone else nothing but the best ! Thank you for being here 🧡

Hey thanks for checking in on me ! :) I really appreciate it. It’s nice knowing people care. I’m doing ok. I hope you are doing well also. I will be posting a vid tomorrow talking about what’s been going on in my life. Check it out if you can! Thanks again!

The goal was San Diego and all the opportunities there…but I couldn’t afford it. Mexico gives me access without the financial worries. But there is always give and take.