First Drink After a Year of Sobriety ( Relapsed )... What I Learned now 3 months sober 

I'm 15 moths sober and don't want to have a drink because I don't want to deal with the mind games that will come along with drinking. When I drink I feel like drinking until I am drunk, so there's no safe limit for me, I just have to stay clean, I'm really not missing anything!

I relapsed after 6yrs. Many self work. Bit I was still lost. 1 drank for 3yrs. Next sober again 6yrs again. Life was great. So i drank. Because i thoughts drink would make life better That was 2007. I drNk strong till 2022. Now 2023 I have mamy health damage. Im sober 70 days My advice is dont drink. Dont drug. I am alergic and addictive. So now best i dont try alcohol again. Please God. Peace. Sober.

Hey bro, I just got passed my 3 months. I really felt like having a drink but this helped me fight the demon. I always think I have it under control when I get this far and end up going on a couple month bender. I really appreciate your honesty. Keep fighting this fucking cancer on society.

Relapsed after 5 months. God I enjoyed that first drink but now back sober for 3 weeks. I’ve known for years now Me and alcohol just don’t get on but to anyone out there who is currently Sober you better off staying that way. Stay safe everyone.

This story is so real. I've stopped in the past, dumping a bottles of beer, bottles of vodka. I drink 8 drinks every 3~4 days. I got tired of waking up tired and hating myself. I am in my 3rd week sober and I feel much better. I have a case of beer, 1.7ltr of vodka in my closet. Just staring at them and testing myself... Today was hard but instead I worked out with pushups and squats. God help me.

One of my best sober friends took one drink 1 1/2 years ago. He is now drinking round the clock, suicidal, and walks out of hospitals and detoxes again and again to drink more more more. Lost his house, lost his State Job, his car, he was still alive yesterday, I’m not sure about today. Drinking for the alcoholic is a death sentence after a drag through hell. Ive not drank for 26 years, I never want that torture again, easier to stay sober than to get sober.

What a story. Scary. I recently reread the Doctor's Opinion in the Big Book so that I could read about the "phenomenon of craving" and how true it is--once alcohol gets into my system, I cannot control my behavior. I'm 32 years sober and to stay there, I go to 5 or 6 meetings a week, do several regular commitments in AA, sponsor several ladies, have a sponsor (that I use), and I pray every day. I never, ever want to go back to that kind of hopelessness.

I'm honest.. day 10 for the first time in 33 years having 12-18 beers a day...Feel like crap but going to 100. Thank you young man, I needed to hear this.

I had a glass of wine at a corporate event after 2years sober and felt extreme guilt. I almost had a second glass- this video helped. Thank you!

It is so weird how we alcoholics are wired. We can go 30 days or 30 years sober but once we have that first sip, it will inevitably lead to a bender.

I will be 4 years sober on 6-20-21, I hated lying about it all the time. I never will drink again, I know I would react the same way you did! Thank you!

A honest and valuable account into the mentality of a person who is caught in the grips of demon alcohol. I hope this video strengthens your resolve as it does mine. Be strong. Brilliant video!!

That takes major courage to say. Thank you sir.

I’ve been there twice after five years sober each time , I’m now 50 and on day two. I find your and other videos very helpful thanks n good luck to you

Oh man I can relate, disposing of the bottle, lying about it, the disgust with the amount of drinking etc etc. I’m on day 29 (with one v small slip on day 22). Please send prayers/energy etc.

I love hearing honest stories like this! I’m 3 years sober and remember the hours of energy I spent trying to hide my addiction and come up with ways to throw away beer cans in secret or have more hidden. It was exhausting! Life is easy now when I left the poison and focused on myself ...keep it up

Hiding empty bottles & cans under my hanging clothes at the back of my wardrobe. Collecting empty botts/cans tying them up neatly into a bag and driving to my favourite dustbin (that was infested with flies) around the corner of my house. Waking up in the morning, remembering I have a little wine left in a bottle and chugging that down for breakfast. Serious gut & liver probs, headaches, sleep all the time, no energy, irritable, anxious. This is what my life has come to...I mean what the hell am I doing. 3 days sober. So desperately want to stop. Pls pray for me to have the will to carry on🙏

I'm 11 months sober, I'm glad I made this decision. A much more clearer mind, and more money and time to work on self-improvement. Way to go! Good luck to all of you and remember - you are the master of your inner demons, so don't act upon these bad thoughts, just go cold turkey.

Stumbled across this and glad I did, thank you so much for the upload and indeed insight. All the best.

This is very raw and emotional, you can see it in the way you move and speak, takes balls to even go camera and do this and I thank you for it. Man takes a drink, the drink takes a drink, the drink takes the man.

I appreciate your honesty! Keep it up and God bless! 🙏🏻

46 days sober. been having obsessive thoughts for days now. it isn't easy. trying to get through just one day each time, but it takes a toll on you.

Keep being honest with yourself Sir, and thank you for your honesty in this video. Bless you x

Thanks a lot man, I'll be going back to this when I have another urge for that "one" beer "only" . I like myself fully sober, but there is always this one little thought, that getting drunk once a year won't be a problem, and I'm now more certain that most likely it ain't going to be "just one time" ,

The addict says "I've been sober for a while I deserve this drink or drug. " And the race to the bottom begins.

You are going to be Okay. Pick yourself up and carry on.

Thanksnfor this video. I quit drinking 10 months ago and then had some beer yesterday. Wondering if i am the only one...really helps to hear ur story. I want to.quit for.good.

Awesome video thanks. I am currently 3 1/2 years sober and loving sober life.

Well done mate👍🏻True honesty is (at least where I live)rare. I kept stopping and starting.Just fed up now and after listening to your post.Enough is enough.Best wishes to all who are stopping the poison🙏🏻.

in 14 days it'll be 2 years sober... I filled that void with road cycling (10,000km a year and increasing)... I don't want to drink again, and have no desire to. I know without even going there that if I did drink it would be to oblivion as it was before, can't undo that amount of decades of programming/damage. I think back to the hangovers, and really that was what became my biggest problem- never lost a job (came close before quitting), relationship, home,licence etc... I just could not deal with the crippling depression and anxiety (the "fear" we call it in Scotland), the hideous shakes, sweats, puking on an empty stomach... All that gone now....hopefully forever. I have a (poly-using)heroin addict brother, he now has morphed over into drink more than anything and it's frightening seeing him now with all that crap to deal with on top of the smack monkey I know he'll never get off his back either. He said to me (as he's not worked for 20+ years) he was stunned that I could still function, hold down a job etc realising now the states he's waking up in, and that trying to regulate and stop his drinking is way harder than coming off the smack.... I (just?) got away with it, but I knew I was at my rock bottom crossroads and hard decisions had to be made....

really honest video my friend brutal your a top guy, im only on one month but your an insperation keep going bro.

Ive been sober (besides a beer at chrissy) but before that about 4 years ago I was drinking as much as a bottle of vodka (straight, 750- 1 litre) every other night. I never really thought it was a problem, it took me ending up in hospital for 5 days with the worst migrane I've ever had and it wasn't just that everytime I moved i felt sharp pain shooting through my head. I then realised ok maybe I have a problem but I still continued to drink. But then shortly after my partner threatened if I didn't get my act together she would leave and take my kid with her. I was also at high risk of losing my.job ad I was constantly fucking up jobs (I was in construction) and I couldn't even level soil properly. Long story short I went cold Turkey it was hell and believe me its easy for people to say just stop well unless you been through it yourself you have no idea. Life is way better without alcohol. It also dawned on me afterwards how much money I was spending on alcohol. We were living on minimal just to barely get by and at the time im like well we are poor thats just how it is but now I realise we were never in poverty in the first place we had money I was just spending it all on that without realising how much I was spending.

I am two years and nine months sober today. If I drank one beer I would go get a case of beer and I would drink that case guaranteed. And I was a pothead that whole entire time to of drinking and I haven't smoked any pot in 2 years and 9 months. Best thing that I ever did for myself!

Relapsed after 9 months, I'm back now at 4 months.

I appreciate this video so much. Thank you for being so brutally honest. I know my situation would be absolutely similar, but of course there is the voice saying "don't worry, you'll be fine!". Thank you.

Brutal honesty. This is great, thank you for sharing.

I told a friend i was not sure about sobriety anymore. He told me he just got a dui and blacked out drunk the next day. His dad died from alcohol. Worried about him..

I've lost count of how many times I have stopped and relapsed. It's been a running gun battle

I sincerely appreciate your ESH! Like you, there was never “a” drink. I drank TO GET DRUNK. I wanted to get drunk because I was unhappy, I didn’t like who I was. I was convinced everyone hated me. (Of course, I was full of shit, but, that was where my head was at). It took a LOT of time to get past my “stinkin thinkin”. It wasn’t easy. But, I will say this- I don’t think the way I used to, and I have NO desire to pick up a drink (and I know that can change, too, so I again THANK you for your message, you have helped another alcoholic!

So true...i got 3 months but no easy at all. All i know is if i drink again i will want more and more and more. Never have it beat. Never say i ll never drink again. I say ...i wont drink today....i can get through today....dont need to worry about tomorrow....this weekend....just today. I can get through today without drinking😁

I've been trying to quit for 2-3 years now. I go a few weeks to a month sober only to fall off the horse again. I've never been one to have to drink everyday but when I do drink I usually have enough to get a "good buzz" (drunk) Thanks for your honesty in this video, I've been hiding my drinking from my family who thinks I've been sober for a few months (although I think deep down they know Im hiding it) I guess what keeps me from being honest with them and admitting I'm drinking again is the work I know I'll have to put in to get beyond this, because last time they offered so much support and kept pushing me to AA which I just have so much hesitation about...anyone have any opinions on AA or something different? I know this will take effort to overcome I just have to stop procrastinating. Good luck to all of you and thanks again for sharing this video

I quit alcohol in 2012 for a whole year. Then in 2013 I thought, yeh I've go this under control, I can have a drink now and again. So I had one, then next week I had two then three and so on. In three months I was right back where I started. It took until 2017 until I tried again. It's true what you say about the lies, our addictions lie to us using our own voice. Once I truly believed there was no 'safe' level of drinking, once I accepted it, the quitting wasn't hard. At least not for me. Now coming up to four years free, and I couldn't be more proud of myself. Whatever else I've screwed up in life, quitting is one of the milestone decisions of my life ( at age 61 ). I've lost over 20kg and look and feel better than I have for many many years.

Thank my higher power ( God ) That I found this Thanks for posting it. I am around the corner from 5 years sober but today I am freaking close to getting some vodka. That doing it and getting away with it was my high before I even found alcohol. Thanks to this I think I'll make it tonight Get to a meeting tomorrow Thanks again

I love the fast lane of life. Every 5 years or so I detox from processed foods, alcohol and get fit. It takes about a year sometimes longer. I encourage anyone who cannot stop drinking once they start to stay sober. I am one of those that can take it or leave it, drink or not drink. MPOV? Better to not drink.

Honest and humble. Enjoy your reward and gift of pure clean living

I have always been too afraid to take that first drink. I sometimes dwell on situations were I was drinking.. Miss that sometimes. Good Luck!!!

I get a lot from the small channels on this subject in these communities. There are a couple in the UK that are cool and under the radar with no links to pay 4 courses etc and these are the ones i generally hit up

Im 2 months in . I cant just drink 1 beer. 1 turns in to 20

Almost at 12 years of sobriety myself. What I often tell people is the FIRST thing to go should I take a drink is my honesty because anyone who knows and cares about me knows that I have no business drinking again so I would need to start lying to people that I'm still sober. It just isn't worth it.

You know how to express it. Your really great

As far as I’m concerned it basically comes down to a persons Character Defects they have Because the Biggest Ones are Resentments that come from Fear or Anger and Complacency because that was one of the reasons why I couldn’t get sober back in 1992. I was able to get sober back in 2004 after many years of off and on sobriety and I’m still sober today with just a little over 20 years of sobriety and I owe it All to God and the people that I work with in and from the program I’m in. 🙏🙏🙏 If you are struggling with this please do not do this ALONE because It’s Not Easy for Most People who have this Addiction to Alcohol 🍺🍷🍹

Wish I wasn't so simple to work up a thirst and walk into a conveince store & end up on bender. Congratulations on being able to control your urges and not abuse yourself for such long periods of time. I wonder sometimes now if " chronic alcohol abuse " could possibly be related to certain types of CTE?

In an AA class, i heard a man say that he was sober 30 YEARS and one day the thought that at 60 plus years old and with so much time removed, he felt he could handle drinking now. He said that 3 months later, he was DOING WORSE than when he quit 30 years prior. Be careful. Be careful. Be careful. When you put the drink or the drug down...your mind has to understand that it's forever.

Sober 5 and a half years and struggling with thoughts about relapse for the first time. Everyday I find myself wondering about what would happen. It's very annoying!

How are you getting on another 3 years later?

Nice video man. Honesty is key, i agree .

Thank you for this.

I’d absolutely love to have a drink or two, but I know myself well enough that I would do THIS EXACT THING, just like I did every other time I stopped, then started again.

4 years sober and have been thinking about trying casual/event drinking. I feel like I’m missing out on a lot of networking and social gatherings and friends. I’m between a rock and a hard place.

God bless and I wish you well.

I just feel bad after drinking especially when my two streaks were 187 days and 49 days, now I'm back to day 0 because I had 2 glasses of beer earlier in the family reunion. Wish me luck fellas

i was honest and told my friends and family i relapsed. lost a few friends but hey i was being honest. when i went to detox an alcoholic told me the thing about sobriety is you risk losing the ones that love and care about you if you relapse. he was right!

2 1/2 years sober , on vacation now all inclusive , had two drinks last night , so much guilt

Wow this is so real . 7 weeks sober here and I don’t want to go back to that shit .

My first drink after 13 years of sobriety was 15 years ago, and tons of alcohol in between. Dont do it, you never know how long you will continue to drink!

This has been helpful. To be honest, I was a particularly foul-mouthed, lying individual who had no interest in sober conduct.

I’m 30 days sober 🤷🏻‍♀️ let’s see what happens I have no craving or desire to drink! Dono if that’ll change! Never was a big drinker didn’t get drunk I’d have one or two with dinner a few nights a week! 🤷🏻‍♀️ So pretty simple to have a seltzer instead! But even tho I just had a couple here my mental clarity is insane! Feel a million times better

mm..day 2..got this vid..now hope i can carry on and not lie to myself anymore..

3 years sober. I need help. I’m sensing a relapse on the horizon. I’m going through some hard times at the moment and I could really use a drink to be able to cope. But I know I’d spiral again so I’m fighting hard. Every day is a struggle to Stay sober for me, unfortunately…

Everytime Ive been sober for months, all it took was one drink and I was gone buying a bottle that day. I end up drinking heavier then ever before too...

My husband quit drinking 2 and a half years ago. This week I found him unconscious in the sun ( he was painting), he was slurring. I called the ambulance thinking he had a stroke. Imagine my surprise when he told me he was intoxicated. While he was blacked out he swore to me that he hadn’t drank. I’ve been sober for a year and a half and can’t fathom why he would start. We do well, seem happy. I watched him pour out all the alcohol he bought for “the apocalypse “ I am at a loss.

If anyone strougle to quit drinking,i can give you my secret,ive quit drinking only 1 year now i do not miss it at all,here comes my secret,if you smoke get yourself a dry herb vaporizer and some marijuana its the best feeling ever,much better then alcohol and much healthier if you vaporize the weed,on the other hand if you smoke and dont care for the smoking part,get yourself some weed and rizla,weed is not addictive ive used weed on and of throughout my life and i know alot of people using weed and can also go days or weeks without it,best of luck to you all,regards Richard.

” Bad things happen when you are using and lying” This is very important, if you use or not.

Alcohol wouldnt be a big problem for me if i could keep it at a few glasses of wine, i always want more after that and the craving for cocaïne becomes unbearable . So im beter off with no drinking at all but sometime it gets boring and its tempting to let yourself go and lose yourself in these substances

Great video, sober for 10 years now . It was hard ,,,,,

Ones to many and thousand is not enough!

I think for most it won’t work. I however use to drink daily for years. I stopped for 6 months. Got sober and I do drink again but I keep it strict and never break my rules. I limit myself to 1-2 shots of vodka at a bar and or at home 3-5 beers max. I also only drink now on holidays and or events a few times a year. It takes a lot of discipline but if you have the understanding to stick to your rules you can still enjoy it. I say again though for most this will not work. I’m fortunate to have the discipline. If you can’t have 1-2 drinks and put it down you haven’t earned the right to enjoy it period.

Thank you for sharing.

One drink is too many and a thousand are not enough. Sober for 17 years.

STAY CLEAN. DONT FORGET WHAT ADDICTION BROUGHT YOU

I stopped 2 summers ago. About 15. 16 months, not a drink. Do i want a drink? Sometime i think. Yes. Im ok now. But im afraid ill go back to the way it was. A life of sneaking around. Lying. Pretending I'm OK. Etc. So..no. right now

It’s one day at a time, one hour at a time, one minute at a time. Drinking doesn’t start when a person has a drink. It starts in the mind when we begin to lie, living the lie, convincing ourselves that we are great, then telling ourselves and others that we are fine. That stands for f…..😮 up, insecure, neurotic, emotional. We don’t see it in ourselves. All our friends know, people around us know, family knows. We are the ones who don’t know. Not looking at ourselves closely, clearly, honestly. Many die living this lie. Call someone. Be responsible for your actions. There’s no blame, hate, excuses. We are all the same. Come back home. You will be welcomed back with open arms. Until then…..

as an alcohollic I'm not interested in one drink or two drinks.A whole bottle or more ,for that kick.Its when y take a drink then tomorrow y want two drinks etc.You can wait for that.With one drink the white stuff in yr brain gets solved an y can wait that within 3 weeks y start again.I'm 20 yrs sober now and thats a long time, just not starting helps me.I'm alloud to do everything what I want except that one thing.The same for hash(also 20 yrs) and a sigarett (18yrs).Sailers do it with water,haha.(sailed 35yrs).Also watch out with girls who drink!

"What we really have is a daily reprieve contingent on the MAINTENANCE of our spiritual condition." Big Book page 85. Definition of Reprieve: stay of execution.

We,re going streaking!

thank you

I broke at 84 days sober with a beer idk man life has too many hardships to be just completely sober

I’m over 1.5 years sober and just took one sip of wine in a plastic cup as well given by my gma. I felt like I immediately can feel the effects, but maybe it’s just in my mind. I swished my mouth with water and threw mine in her cup. I’m shaking and really really scared. Idk how to tell anybody.

lying to yourself becomes disturbing and scary, because , who can you then trust ?

Man I’d love to have you on our show. Thanks for sharing.

A liter and a half after one year off? Dude, I would be shit splattering drunk and you just got a buzz?! Damn..... The body and mind remembers the drug. Like smoking after a long time off. That first cigarette.....Ah!!! Now I remember why I started smoking in the first place!!! Can´t do it, bro.

Thank u 🙏 spot on

Your teeth are so good . Are you an actor or do you have a marketing background ?

I just started a RU-vid channel and my last uploaded video was on "slips" and "relapses." I am glad you are doing well. This thing is a bitch.

Thank you! 🙏

Great video, brother

YOU CANNOT EVER DRINK..IT IS WORSE CAUSE YOU HAVE STOPPED FOR SO LONG...the body freaks out JUST DON'T DO IT

7 months of no alcohol for me

Thank you for Sharing

I was sober for 4 years thought me and my girlfriend could have a few drinks we got bad for a while im trying to buy pints of wiskey and she would buy liters im an alcoholic and she would drink as much or more than me after a few months she quit drinking i had a problem i could cut down but couldn't stop im not a fall down drunk i would only try to buy enough that i got a good buzz but I was drinking every day girlfriend would get mad we both worked nights got her a job with me just to see each other but we drank at night she even hid wiskey from me i could always taste it on her mouth shes stopped drinking now im still trying to quit get weeks and months and relapsed again im not happy about it but don't know how to quit relapsing its been a bad year for both of us ive got colitis after gallbladder surgery and her friend is dieing of cancer shes been taking care of her woman is 71 and her family members are not helping her we don't think she is going to make it to Christmas it bothering me too kinda reminds me of my grandmother