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Welcome to hating yourself. I live with everyday and struggle to find a reason to keep going. I hope find a reason. I don't feel worthy for living. @@OctaniumYT
@@OctaniumYT thanks bro. I hear you on finding the reason and fight the fight. Idk man lately I have been finding myself going to dark places in my head and struggling knowing I have many people who count on me. I just hope you find happiness. No matter what I do and how much I break my back. It will never be good enough and I will never be good enough. Anyways I already brought itbdoen. I hope you have good rest of your life dude.
This song is actually song one of a Trilogy off the album, Torn in Two and Tourniquet complete it and the end up telling an amazingly haunting story - Thank you for the reaction! 💔🖤💔
Personally I feel never again would go with these as well. In never again you see the tree and the blue liquid it produces that extends life and the greed of one that destroys it. In torn in two you have the tree again and the blue liquid i feel like the person who is at the tree feeding off someone is the greedy person who has been corrupted into the monster he now is.
This song just eats me alive!!! The demon I have buried in me.... You mess with anybody I love..... Just don't please!! That thing needs to stay there!!
As a father this song shook me to the core. If someone hurt my children I would crawl back out of Hell just to drag the person responsible back down with me 💀
Wow. I had no idea this was going to hit you as hard as it did. Your timing on this is ironic; today is my twin daughters' birthday; they turn 13 today. Only I'm not like most people in the world. Again, not to sound like a broken record but not going into specifics into the why, but most people get to see their kids in some capacity. I, do not. I haven't seen them since 2018, and it's possible I may never see them again depending on how they react when they find out what happened that led to termination of custody. That's why this song, and especially the video, resonates so strongly with me. And I live with this pain. Sober. Every day. I lose sleep. I don't eat much. It's not a question many people ask themselves cause they never have to- that terrifying question of "what if this happened one day?" Even knowing I did what I did to keep the kids safe; it is of no comfort to me at all. ("I don't feel anything at all." ) - I guess I don't really have a point here. Just sharing a piece of my story. Thank you for listening, Amanda. And everyone else that stops by.
I wish there was a heart button for this. This is my first time here and I greatly appreciate that you are able to talk about the emotions you feel from music and lyrics. People don’t do that enough. So thank you ❤️❤️
I’m so sorry for your loss of your child, can’t even imagine! You seems to be a very strong beautiful woman. 💖 I lost my father 2 years ago, his house burnt down and he was in it.. then a year ago I lost my cat at 12 y/o who was like my baby and my greatest comfort after my dad.. been through a lot but we stay strong, you are strong never forget that!! Hope you’ll get a lovely weekend ❤️
I saw breaking benjamin in 2020 with Korn in reno...seeing them live is so emotionally provoking aside from listening to their cds..they are truly amazing. So sorry for your loss hun.
This is a beautiful song and trilogy of songs the first chorus is about the father flipping out about the police not doing their job. Second chorus is a search party which finds his daughter not alive. Then he goes to a shaman to find the killer. Then beats him up to death
Holy shit this whole video was a gut punch. I clicked on the video because I love this song, with its intensity and rawness. Then I heard, 'I lost a daughter.' My god I'm so sorry. Truly. There's nothing harder to lose than a child. To see you relive that on a reaction was difficult for ME, I couldn't imagine what that was like for you. Metal music has always had a tendency to have these heavy-handed topics. While they can be hard to face at times, I also believe they can be very helpful too because they force us to face our pain head-on. I hope you're well (as well as can be expected). Thank you for being so vulnerable and showing the genuine reaction!
Thank you for the empathy and well wishes. You're right, while difficult, these sorts of things can be immensely cathartic in helping to face and process challenging feelings. Thanks for holding space for me!
You truly are an amazing woman, amazing so very sorry to hear you have lost a child. Nothing will ever fill that void I'm sure. I appreciate you and your honesty and vulnerability. Stay strong beautiful xx
This is one of the most unique and real reaction videos I've ever seen. I love this song and never really thought about viewing it through a prospective like yours. This must have been very hard to put out there but I'm glad you shared and wish you all the best.
Just over three minutes and you said just what your face was saying without words. I've found that music that hits the hardest part of us is usually the best thing for us.
Amanda, I stumbled upon this video as a breathing benjamin fan. Your reaction was so honest, heartfelt, and pure that i am crying for you. Thank you for letting us in and being true to who you are. Sub clicked!!
The dead live only through us as long as WE keep them alive. Otherwise they just become stories. I have 3 bands on my arm, and I will NEVER stop telling their stories of how awesome they were and I will never stop remembering them. One of them was just 19, and I still can't stop dreaming about them, the things he wanted to do, but never got to to do. His smiley happy 'ya mamma' jokes and face haunts me. Even so many years later, I wish I could have taken his place. And I cry about them in silinces, for myself at least 2 or 3 times a week. Because men have to be be strong right?!? But feeling are what makes us humans, crying now just writing this. Thank you Amanda for helping me letting some of it out out. It helps alot
There’s no greater love than a parent has for their child and no greater pain or agony than a parent losing a child. My most humble condolences from a parent to a parent. I often think I could not go on if I lost one of my daughters or my son in the Marines. But seeing you and hearing you share about your loss gives me hope that I could pull through if the unthinkable happens. Thank you for this reaction and sharing part of yourself with us. ❤️
Breaking Benjamin especially Ben (Lead Singer & Band Founder) are beautiful human beings. They partnered with St Jude years ago and donate a lot of money and time to their organization. They even played an acoustic show at the hospital for some of the children. You can watch it on RU-vid. Also, I went to their concert 3 years ago and had staff walking around the crowd with their new album for $20 but 100% of the proceeds went to St Jude’s. Amazing musicians and even better humans!!
Hi Amanda, thank you for sharing your raw reaction to this video :) Ben Burnley the lead singer actually has Wernicke-Korsakoff syndrome which stemmed from his heavy alcohol use in life. You can read about it but it is amazing he can actually perform, as he is under immense pain (among other ailments) every show he does and in his daily life. I have seen them perform from their inception to today, and he talks at his shows about the struggles and pain he endures, yet still wanting to play music under this pain. The band did break up for a little bit but they are amazing live and I highly suggest you see them, as they tour all over. The "cd" your friend had might of had was "Phobia" which had Diary of Jane, Breath and was their biggest success imo. You could do numerous reactions on that album but it's awesome to see Ben didn't give upn and they are still making kick ass music/touring in 2024🤘
I'm so glad you reacted to Breaking Benjamin. They've been my favorite band since I was a kid. I hope you react to more of their music in the future. I'd suggest checking out their Phobia, Dear Agony & Dark Before Dawn albums as I feel the tracks on those would fit perfectly with the mental health theme
"Phobia" is an AMAZING album. My favorite from them, but I like all of them; they've never disappointed me and I can't say that about too many artists.
I was touched by your loss ,to lose a child I don't have any helpful words but this your child's soul and spirit is in good hands and I swear on my soul and spirit u will see her again again ,please have faith in that for comfort ,keep your golden heart and do good so u can b reunited with your child
The lack of control we sometimes experience wanting to fix something that we feel we have to in order to keep on living can sometimes manifest itself into rage when we realize there's nothing we can do to get back what we had.. Not for all, but for some. In Breaking Benjamin's "dark before dawn" album's first song "dark", a man says that "rage is a stimulus response to something interfering with our behavior, our actions." In this case it's death. We're not being able to take back something we dearly love in death because the reality we live in won't allow us.
just paused after you said that about her, i have issue myself, but since i think of others above me, i share stories, songs, that can help others out... i can only do so much, but the message for help needs to get out there and the more that others hear about it, the lives can be saved...Brent from Shinedown, has said it best, music, is our friend, and help us deal with the shit in our life, and it has helped me for well over 20 years..... before he said it about his own self..
Im so sorry for your loss i could tell by your expression that it effected you deeply and you did your best to hold back i respect how you handled everything someone once told me many many years ago metal is the otherside of a situation no one wants to talk about the other part of the truth no one wants to hear its hard sometimes be its very cathartic for some fans like myself you should react to Lowest In Me by Staind love to get your opinion on that one.
You should definitely watch the continuation of this story, which is reproduced in the next two Breaking Benjamin clips. "Torn in Two" and the third music video "Tourniquet". The story told and told in their music videos and songs by Breaking Benjamin is, in my opinion, one of the most tragic stories I have seen in the music industry. Be sure to watch the next two clips. First "Torn in Two" and at the end "Tourniquet".
To me the fight with folded hands part is about praying cus u fold ur hands to pray, that's just how I interpreted it, everyone has their own interpretation that's the beauty of music
Great reaction. I wanted u to do Imminence and song “Continuum”. It’s all about life and death and how to survive in all of that. This band also uses a violin in their songs to give it more of an eerie feeling. Please check them out I would really for you to appreciate and I think you would get the song.
Amanda, there will be a resurrection and those who have been lost will live again, it’s been promised and will come true. Jehovah is near to the broken hearted