(FREE) - Suei acoustic guitartype beat "Love U" ( 

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why did i ever call you "friend" when i knew that it would end my love for you was not pretend i feel hurt in my head and in my heart and i get that its all my fault i knew i loved you right from the start but i was scared to show up so i threw away your trust i knew i didn't want to lust you make me feel and think so much about a future with us i know it sounds stupid but i think we shot cupid i spoke about you to the stars and the moon felt the fire in my viens all your energy that stays even if your away cos in the beginning i didn't think about living but i thought about fighting for you but i'm a failure because i failed you when i should have fought for you back in december had a vision of you i remember was walking on my own i saw your face in the snow and it still hurts me so cos you couldn't take me home even though i wanted you to but its still my fault cos you would have never been so stuck if i wasn't such a peice of shit to you and its not okay no your love i never outgrew cos i swear i still think about you and all of the things we could of had to do like dancing under the lights on your night but now its passed and i don't feel fine cos i couldn't give you the love and the light that you deserve from this entire universe cos thats what i was supposed to do dance with you i wanted to see you smile real and true but now i can't and its taking every peice of you i once knew had a few dreams about you i know i don't deserve to be with you cos your my saviour and your the only one i'd choose but after all i only lose so i feel big sad for me too and its pathetic cos i didn't take responsibilty for my actions and left you here to bleed so now you left me on the pavement here to see that i'm the only chaos you don't need but i still wish you was right here with me i wonder how you sleep i wonder how you breathe and how you feel when you wake up in your skin do you take pride in your reflection cos i think you should cos to me your already enough you don't have to be "good enough" or "perfect" to be loved i wish somebody taught me how to become familar with that stuff and when i was trying to apologise for saying "harsh things" i meant for saying that i thought being friends would break the bench ("the strength") which really was the stupidest thing i said to you but i didn't mean to be confusing cos i didn't speak bad on you even before then not even now at least i know i'm not that insane cos saying shit to make people start hating its degrading so when my family questioned us i defended your name in the making and i swear i wanted you to rest your head on my shoulder a few months ago maybe back in october and i thought about posting you for being the best boyfriend that i could ever ask for cos i never really was the type to be romantic but somehow you switch on a light in me and i know i said i wasn't happy for a long time which for the most part it was true i don't know why i told you that just to cry i should have apologised soon instead of telling you "we should just be friends" when i knew that i should have fought my friends cos they all crept in and soon did regret i should have deleted that breakup text cos you didn't deserve that at all not you i wanted to see you face to face during the half term holiday but i agreed to keep the peace by just talking to you through a screen and it was so stupid of me cos you deserve so much more than i could ever be or give you oh my honey i'm sorry i made you cry that time and its disgusting that i couldn't be there by your side even though i wanted to i really should of tried to make the time but myself i tried to hide i didn't understand that you'd love me through the sand even if i was blind and it made me fold inside i tend to overanalyse the universe in sight through the blur and all the signs and it gives me hope we could try cos maybe if i was more understanding for you then we wouldn't of crashed this landing ooh i'm sorry i still put this all on you