I have suicidal thoughts sometime because I’m like what’s the point but I always end up talking myself out of it because I feel like it would be kind of selfish to leave all of my family behind just because I don’t see the point
If this occurs in the summer remember it could be an reaction to pollen allergy! When I'm out and there's a lot of pollen that I breath in I get super suicidal in the evening because of the chemical reaction in the brain! Remember that you are worth so much and that you are given the obstacles you can handle in order to grow
Brianna Taylor talking to someone helps so much, you can tell them exactly what you feel. Keep telling yourself that you're a strong, beautiful person!
Brianna Taylor Please get professional help! I'm sure there are a lot of ppl who love and care about you very much. They'd be devastated!! Dying is final, there's no turning back! Please please get some help ♥️ Praying for you 🙏
Your bed is so cute! .. now I’m starved lol that looks so good I want frito nachos 😋 gunna try and make this vegan 👅 btw you’re not boring at all love listening to what you have to say always look forward to watching your videos 💗
I just came back to this video and saw this comment I made. I’m now 451 days sober and while yes it’s been hard as heck, I did it. I chose life instead. Thank you for for the lovely and kind words.
For some reason i like seeing u eat chips with cheese sauce...u manage to get good portion with ur hands and big bites....no nibling around. I sound weird i know..... xD anyways love u!! 💕💕
A can of beans...😂😂 literally says "No Beans" on the can haha I knew what you meant though, can of chili 😜😜☺️☺️ love you Lexi!! This looks so bomb I have to try it!! 😋😋😋😋😆😆😆
Always love watching your mukbangs and love your personality! Really glad I watched this one - love the insight you shared about your experiences and spreading awareness about suicidal thoughts and such which seem to be such a hush-hush topic these days, but is literally surrounding all of us. Also, I really enjoyed the cooking part in the beginning - would love to see more of that 😊
I've attempted suicide 3 times in my life the last time being 3 years ago which I was on life support. My boyfriend saved my life & I can't thank him enough for that. I still struggle a lot with mental illness but no longer have suicidal thoughts. Near death experience made me realize that I do really want to live & seeing what I put loved ones through I would never do that again.
So happy you are still alive and have amazing support from your boyfriend. Thank you for sharing your story and keep fighting those negative thoughts ❤️.
Thank you Lexi. My boyfriend has been a life saver. That's how you know you've found someone that truly loves you; through my alcoholism, mental illness & suicide attempts he has stood by me through everything & continues to do so. I could cry just thinking about it. Hoping the best for you, stay strong.
Millions of people go through constant hard ship in their life but they battle on for the loved ones around them... life isn’t supposed to be as easy as a fairy tale story!... do you know the story about the two mice which fell into the bucket of cream?
Lexi, I really appreciate all the topics that you choose to talk about in your vids. I come from a family that has a stigma around mental illness and it’s been so hard to push myself to seek help. I’m very worried that I have borderline personality disorder that was triggered by severe abuse I suffered from as a child, not to mention my father has it. Relationships are the hardest thing to keep up with in my life and I’ve been alone with one extremely distant friend for years. I get very lonely and struggle with leaving the house. Sometimes I scare myself with my thoughts and actions and then decide that I need to seek therapy, but something always talks me out of it. Your input really does mean a lot (even if others are too ignorant to take it) and I take a lot of your advice to heart. You’ve helped reassure me and I thank you. Maybe one day in the near future I’ll muster up the courage to get the help I deserve x
I'm sorry to hear you struggle with leaving the house and getting help can be even harder. I always talked myself out of going to therapy and honestly the hardest part is making an appointment and actually going but once you find the strength to go it gets sooooo much easier to make it a routine. You don't even have to share with your family you are in therapy but honestly doing it for yourself is important. You can talk to your therapist about your borderline personality and they can give you ways to cope with it.
Be BRAVE. Make that appointment and keep it. Put on whatever is on the floor and go. Don't think about it. Just get there. There's no telling that you'll like your Dr. But, as long as you can talk about how you came to be in their CARE, there's HOPE. DONT GIVE UP..
I hate the stigma around getting help! My parents didn’t believe in trying to get me help when I was younger. My mom would say “you got yourself into this depression, you can get yourself out”. Well it’s not that easy. I believe I have struggled with mental health issues most of my life. it wasn’t until 4 years ago when I met my boyfriend that he convinced me it was ok to seek help. Best thing I’ve ever done for myself.
Great video, Lexi....from start to finish. Really enjoyed the cooking segment too. Loved the set in your bedroom....it looked so pretty and much more comfortable for you. I thought the discussion was a welcome one and your words are powerful because they come from personal experience. You treated the subject with honesty and respect and your words are sure to resonate with people watching. The idea of creating a community of support is a worthy one.
I think you sharing your story and making this video a place to discuss mental health is amazing. You never know, you may have just saved a life doing this.
I like your commentary better than I would music. In fact, that is one of the things I love about your Mukbangs; THE ABSENCE OF MUSIC! YES! I HATE music in Mukbangs and I hope you NEVER USE IT!
It's so refreshing to hear someone talk so openly and truthfully about serious topics. It's so lovely that there is such a supportive community on YT, and a lot of it is on this channel!
I really enjoy being subscribed to a youtuber who doesn’t a “perfect life”. Personally, I feel that social media has only made depression and anxiety worse for people. I know it has for me.
I've never clicked so fast on a notification video let's do this everyone cx and enjoy the video send lots of love and support to lexi as her subscribers and fans and let's show her how much we love her videos and appreciate how much time and work she puts into these videos for us this is going to be a tasty video
Love the new set up and you did a great job on your cooking introduction as well I also love how you speak your mind and bring up issues especially where depression and suicide are involved ❤️
This video saved me!!! You're right, living on your own is so hard and lonely.... Some days (weeks) i block everyone out because I'm stuck in a dark cycle; but there's always people willing to listen and help us out of the rut..
emily cromwell So many people want to help you just have to be willing to talk about hard subjects ❤️. It's hard opening up and baring it all up it's so freeing.
I love this set up and the green bulbs! Are they the custom color changing bulbs, or are they strictly green? Either way, they're super nice! I've seen your Insta stories and I feel ya girl. I know what you mean with the depression, it sucks and literally happens at any given moment. You're so beautiful and so soulful inside and out, Lexi. Your videos are so inspirational and I promise you that your videos are helping many people. Thank you for being you, providing your own insight and helpful tips, and for making RU-vid videos.
when people don't eat for long periods of time (like intermittent fasting) improves cognitive brain function and helps you think clearer. when i'm depressed i completely lose my appetite too, and I think its our bodies telling us that they need a break, our brains need to sort out the emotions for mental clarity first, food second.
I get worse when I don't eat. Blurry vision, headaches, chest pain,stomach and abdominal pains/cramps, dizziness,weak. I don't believe in fasting. I also get nauseated too and my sides will hurt.
I really look forward to your mukbangs . I enjoyed hearing your take on this topic. I was wondering if you would feel comfortable talking about something you mentioned in another mukbang. You said that you always felt that you were going to die at age 30. I was wondering if you can talk more about that. Is something you still think will happen/ do you want that to happen (silly question). Sorry, you don't have to discuss this if you don't feel comfortable, I was just curious. That food looks amazing btw.
Wow, that’s a story. I’m glad you feel better now. I guess talking and videos are good therapy. Thx for your videos, all positive feedback and energy from Zaragoza, Spain 😊
Another thing I love about your Mukbangs is you never fast-forward. I hate that! I feel cheated. I find getting to see the whole process to be much better, like you do yours.
Sincerely I don't get why people keep asking about a room tour/your age/your job/your life when the show is about eating and nothing more. She said that she doesn't want to share her personal informations here so what the hell stop asking stupid questions and enjoy what she's eating. I mean, mukbangs are helpful to know better other people but there's a fucking limit.
You’ll appreciate this I saw a meme recently that said it doesn’t matter whether the glass is half full or half empty just fill the fucking glass I personally am a pessimist but I don’t think we were actually pessimist I think that we are realists but either title Works for me Optimists are naive af
I love you so much ! You by far the best RU-vidr I know ❤ I'm so glad you made a RU-vid , it feels good knowing there are people like you in the world that understand 😽💋 .
I don't want to project but I really need to vent: I have 24/7 anxiety, fear and depression it literally never turns off unless I eat or sleep. But I also have an eating disorder that makes my anxiety far worse. I see myself as fat my metabolism is shot when i do eat it's just vegetables and one kind of berry. I really envy you that you get to enjoy life and food and maintain a pretty weight I haven't eating in 2 weeks and I'm just so depressed I'll never experience this freedom without feeling worthless. You make me feel some happiness you came through such a dark period
RandomIsMyLif3 I get exactly how you feel I honestly still deal with my demons of feeling worthless and some days I don't want to get out of bed. Try taking one step at a time and introducing more food into your diet and try talking to a therapist!
Lexi Babe I'm starving hoping that It will give me a heart attack to end it at this point. There's too much I can't fix in my life I turned 23 and it's been happening for 6 years now. My grandma has dementia and is 70 pounds my dad is abusive and controlling to me and my mom, I've lost friends, my twin developed binge eating disorder and instilled more fear in that's how my body is destined to be. I've been to therapists when I was 87 pounds and they offered no emotional help but refeeding (I wish I was there again) diagnosed with body dysmorphia, depression, anxiety and bipolar. They throw all these issues at me but don't send me advice or reprieve. I want to get my nose, face, lips and jaw redone and change my name to escape my life. I wish I could be a RU-vidr or have an outlet as you do ( everyone would hate me) I filmed myself once when I was fatter and just cried and deleted it. I wish I had your metabolism so I didn't have to starve and workout all the time and actually have a life
You need to eat!! Life is beautiful and you’d see that if you live it and experience all of the fun things! What makes you happy/smile? What are things that you love?
McKenzie Weyant I went to school for art, illustration and language but my skill and mind has degraded that it depresses me whenever I do it. I tried learning 4 languages (korean, french, Italian and Japanese ) but I guess I'm stupid and can't retain much but basic grammar and characters... No focus or joy. I love fashion and makeup but my body dysmorphia and inconsistent weight gives me fear to buy clothing that will not fit properly. I hate my face I want extensive surgery so I don't have to see myself again. Any hobby I had was weight related and was punishment so going to the gym for 3 hours or walking. I couldn't afford gym memberships and supplies anymore and lost that too... Yoga and stretching is a hobby I guess. Ever since graduating high school I wanted to do RU-vid and make art and makeup videos but I'm a has been nobody now. Hopefully I'll die by the 15th of July when I stop drinking water. I'm getting the fat gene of my family I barely tried in my younger days to get to 80 pounds and I fasted in may for a whole month and I'm still fat and currently now for 2+ weeks. No one helps me or cares I just get screamed at and ignored I give up
I srsly love watching you, i have been suffering from depression and social anxeity for a long time now, and it really calms be down to know that im not alone and someone out there is going through the same thing as i am and understands how hard it is at times. It sucks having depressiong and anxeity but its true, it’ll get better❤️ Love you from Iceland💕 hope you see this💕
I need to start seeing a therapist, I know it. I just don’t know where to start and what if I don’t like the therapist what if it takes forever to find the right one IDK!!
Megan Hammond look up on google therapist in your city that specializes in depression, anxiety, or whatever you are dealing with 😊. Read their bio and see if you think they are a good fit! You will know after about two sessions if they are right for you or not but don't get discouraged!
Thank you for reaching out regarding suicidal thoughts. I think it helps people who deal with that know that it’s ok to talk about it. It helps me know I’m not crazy. Thank you.
What a shame it would have been if you would have gone through with it 😢 now that you do youtube people have gotten to know you and like you. I bet 1000 people or more would love to sit and eat with you, I know I would 🙋🏼♀️ you’re a one of a kind individual. Glad you are in a better place love
I'm going through a rough patch in the road rn and it sucks. I just wish I can be happy again. Its been going on for over a month and I just want it to end. :/ I just don't wanna hurt anymore. I truly wanna die.
jillbeful funnily enough you just contradicted yourself, and this original comment “free country”? i can curse if i want, lexi can eat how she wants 😂 also i was saying it in a sassy way not an insulting way xo
Hi Lexi, this is my 1st time watching you! I love what you did with those fritos :) Looks delicious :D Please make a peruvian mukbang, i have recipes in my Channel... XOXO
hey girlie! I hope you know that you are absolutely beautiful, I love your lashes, I love how long ur legs are(from ur ig story), I love your lazy but cute fashion sense and u are just overall so pretty. ALSO, most of all, i love your videos. I would love it if you could talk about any scary stories you have had and eat anything you love. Looking forward to your future vids
