gender dysphoria (a playlist) 

timestamps: 0:00 - number - temporex 2:02 - swing lynn - harmless 7:16 - this is home - cavetown 10:59 - summer depression - girl in red 13:31 - bad idea! - girl in red 17:08 - winter solstice - phoenix 21:01 - 4 morant - doja cat 23:52 - juilet - cavetown

Dysphoria feels like being uncomfortable taking a shower, or just feeling like you are trapped in a skin that is not yours. It feels like you are trapped in your own mind and can’t snap back into reality, it isn’t a fun or a fantastic feeling. Which makes it almost impossible to overcome.. dysphoria makes you feel empty, it makes you feel like you are being controlled and manipulated by a puppeteer. It is like staying up on a school night trying to make the tears come out but you just can’t seem to cry. It makes things even worse when you don’t have a supportive family. It makes you feel like you just want to die.

I wish I were a girl so bad I want to dye my hair and get earrings and get cool girl clothing I wanna be myself I wish I didn't have dysphoria but my parents are so transphobic I don't know what to do; they don't let me do anything. I haven't come out to them yet and I'm so scared to because I know they'll stop loving me and I think they'll restrict me even more. - - - I'm glad I can just be online cos hearing all y'all's experiences and listening to stuff like this helps a lot. I admire y'all for making it through

On my period so I’m experiencing ALOT of gender dysphoria right now (I’m non-binary they/them) and Honestly this helps lol, knowing I’m not alone I’m this experience

uh- you are making some of the most relatable playlists ever- i mean on Friday i was getting my hair done and my mum was like "why couldnt you have been born a boy? your hair wouldve been so much easier to do" and im just standing there like "you WANTED me to be a boy?- then why dont you like the fact i want my name changed? or i want to be a boy myself? huh?" of course not out loud but as soon as i got to school i told my friend and she agreed with me-

It's so hard being gay in Brazil, i can't talk with people about it, i would proably get kicked out of my family and lose all my friends, keep fighting for your rights, i know it's hard to keep hiding yourself, but it's the only way to keep your mind and body safe until financial independence!! Hope the best for every LGBTQIA+ in comments❤

When I was younger I was classified as a "tomboy" by my friends and family. Now that I'm older I realise it has never been that I was a "tomboy" it's the fact that I never felt comfortable in the female body specifically so that's now why I go by all pronouns(he/she/they but mainly they/them).

love the playlist dude. in all honesty, gender dysphoria is kinda uncomfortable when it goes for me. it was all better when i found myself trans. thanks for the playlist dude

I wish that my mom understood. I wish people saw my body how I want them to. I wish everyone including my family would call me Toby instead of Momo... I wish people would ask me my pronouns everyday so that I'm comfortable. I wish that I could dress how I want without people calling me names. I wish people didn't joke about dysphoria. I wish I could get a binder. I wish that I could wear makeup and suit without people saying "You cant be both". I wish I could dress casual without people saying "You cant be nothing you have to have a gender" I wish people would just understand....That im Bisexual and Gender fluid and My pronouns are He/She/They!!! AND IM FUCKING PROUD TO BE!!!!!!

I’m trans/nonbinary (He/They) and this really helps my gender dysphoria at school, especially when almost nobody respects what I want to be, they just see me for what I look like, a girl with short hair

I don't really know what I am at this point. I don't like being labelled or under a specific term. I like being known as being under the non-binary umbrella, and I like They/Them pronouns. But sometimes I feel like being called a girl and using She/Her and He/Him doesn't sound bad either, now that I think about it. It's difficult because I don't know what gender I really am. My family supports me, as I have already come out as bisexual to them, and I have a girlfriend. But when it comes to gender identity and what to be referred as it's a different decision. My girlfriend said I might be gender fluid but that doesn't sit right with me still. I'm just confused but for now I will probably use just any pronouns and be under the non-binary umbrella. Anyway I love this playlist thank you for making it!!

I just came into terms that I am actually transmasc after burying my feelings for so long, thanks to my mother who made a transphobic comment about a trans celebrity and made me feel wrong for wanting to be the real me. Even just remembering that moment, I can feel my body shifting and moving as if there's something protruding from inside my skin. I don't get gender dysphoria often since I don't really care about the fact I'm biologically female and I feel comfortable with both of my masculinity. But when it hits, it hits hard. I still feel wrong with hearing my dead name leave people's mouths. I'm close to finishing high school (junior at least, there's still senior high which is, unfortunately, not optional) and I have a auntie who's also trans and is willing to take me under her wing in exchange for good grades. The asian stereotype somehow had sewn its way into my family too :'] Hopefully I'll be able to legally change my name and if financially possible, get top surgery. As much as I think they're cool, I'd prefer getting rid of weight off my chest.

I just wanna tell everyone here that even if you don't look cis, your valid. Your looks don't invalidate you in any way. Im so proud of all of you. Thanks for just being yourself

I'm actually having a hard time with gender dysphoria rn, I was tired of no one seeing me as a guy so I just thought "well maybe if I just go back to she/her people will respect me and not harass me" but it just caused more rumors to spread and it just hurts and I'm afraid to go back to school after Christmas break bc of all the rumors, but this playlist rlly helps thank you

*Me peacfully playing online games and suddetly becoming friends with someone* Someone: So what gender you are? Me: Uhh..

I love this playlist mostly cause I’m going though some gender dysphoria myself

i'm in a new friend group right now and i haven't come out to them (genderqueer it/any). The second language we speak in has gendered verbs and my new friends often correct me when i refer to myself in male verbs. It makes me feel uncomfortable to say the least, i wish i could tell them asap but with the new homophobic law i'm afraid i'd get reported ;( thank you sm for this playlist, they help me to cope a lot 😭🫶

I hate dysphoria but all this music made me comfortable tyy

I'm having what I call a "soft day" because of this playlist. Its essentially where I feel an ungodly amount of gender euphoria, and I feel all soft and warm and fuzzy

i barely even feel dysphoric, but when i do i cry my eyeballs out and it kinda makes me wanna relapse 🥰- this playlist really helps, ty

I love Cavetown and Girl in Red so much TwT

This playlist helps. A lot. Unlike my family. Whenever I talk about how I feel about my body, myself, or my thoughts, my family always say that it's just me growing and that I shouldn't worry about it because I'm a growing teenager... The only people I can truly talk to are my friends, people online, and my SS teacher. (She's amazing.)

Im in a bit of a confusing situation, ive known for around four years now that im non binary, but i still havent come out (despite believing that i am in quite a safe situation to do so) and with every day that passes its like ive started forgetting to even think about coming out. Somedays it feels like i forget who i am. Its not bad but i feel like if i dont come out ill go through my whole life as someone im not, and people misgendering me doesnt effect me as much anymore, its like im used to it, until one time someone says something and it gets in my head. I guess im just scared. I used to be so worried when i realized, what would people think? Would the people i care about even accept me? I dont even think about that anymore, i know they would… eventually. But ill never get eventually unless i make a change now

i just wanna run away and stop worrying about what other ppl think of me, i just wanna be who i wanna be lol

Gender Dysphoria sucks, but we all have it. I wish I wasn’t trans a lot though.

i cried to cave town- there was a karaoke event today and some one started singing this is home and most every one was happy listening to it but me and my friend almost burst into tears aaaaaaaaaaa it happens 5/10 of listening to this song -

I have been having gender dysphoria ever since I was a young teen. Maybe if I wasn't a woman, I could be more accepted by society. I'm nothing like a woman at all and I don't seem to fit in with any of the guys either. This is really hard for me to explain, but I hope you know what I mean. You guy are fantastic, keep being you

ey now this is what i have needed lmao- are you alright though? apologies for asking- other than that the songs you choose for these are amazing, and i love the thumbnail :D

I haven't really ever had too much trouble with gender dysphoria but the playlist is really good :)

I’m at the point where I’ve just given up on trying to figure it out, 3 years of constant back and forth. I’ve tried to not think about it but my friend figuring out what they are so easily has made me gone back to thinking it. Idk I’ve seen it always fluctuate but it’s weird, whoever I’m dating really changes it. Let’s say I’m dating a lesbian, I tend to want to be more fem and stay to feminine genders, maybe I’m dating a bi/pan/Omni/ etc girl, I tend to be more masc or fem and stay toward more masc and fem genders, a straight guy I tend to be more fem and stick to more feminine genders, bi/pan/Omni/etc guy I tend to be a little of everything and my gender is the same. But I’m dating a guy who really doesn’t know his sexuality, he likes women he knows that but he’s not so sure about men. It’s caused me to be more gender neutral and a little of everything. When I’m with no one I’m everything or fluctuate a lot. Idk I’ve tried to stop thinking about it and give it a break but it’s hard when you just want to know everything Also- my partner (cis guy) helps people with gender and shit, he’s really good with helping people. As much as I want help from him I thought it would be weird, not wanting to hurt our relationship

This playlist helps me, now i know I'm not alone, am gender fluid and my dysphoria just don't help me

LISTEN UP AND IDC HOW LONG YOU THINK THIS COMMENT IS BECAUSE IT’S HERE TO HELP: Idk what you identify as and the pronouns but know you’re valid af. Know that body parts and appearance don’t make you less of what you identify as. If you feel a certain gender at heart than you are that as you say you are. I knew of a guy who didn’t have top surgery and it was obvious even with his tight shirt and no binder but that doesn’t stop him vibing as a guy and people use he/him pronouns even then. It didn’t make him less of a guy. So whatever you identify as, you are that and you’re valid. Biological stuff, body parts, and appearance won’t make you less of what gender you are.

I’ve listened to this so many times- I love this playlist 😭❤️

Ive been rlly dysphoric lately so this playlist fits, also it slaps so thats a bonus. I started my transition almost three years ago but it honestly feels like ive made no progress. Im too scared to get a binder even tho i know all the rules and know my mom would probably be ok with it. Im not in a situation where i can get t rn, idk just feels like im not manly enough. Just bc im fem doesnt mean im not a guy tho! Its just hard.

oh boy, kinda needed this rn, its midnight and im kind of wanting to wear my binder... i was ment to be sleeping but the dysphoria sucks... i wish i didnt have any boobs... and sometimes i dont understand why is it so hard for some people to understand...i dont really wanna be a boy, im deffinetly not a girl...im a demiboy... and i dont know how to explain that to teachers, to classmates, to older siblings, to parents, to friends... i just want to be completely out of this closet but my anxiety about how to explain is keeping me half out, letting people deadname and misgender me even after i say my name and my gender...i just feel aaaaghhgh- I want to cry... Why is it so hard? im an adult soon so why is it so tough for me. why do i always result to either hiding, shutting down or age regression why cant i just stand up for myself. why cant i correct them without feeling like im a spoiled brat, an ungrateful karen, an entitled bench Am I just too scared i would loose the only people I know and not be able to find anymore people? maybe...Im scared of being alone..abandoned...but the longer i stay in this closet i feel like im going insane the more my mom calls me a girl and introduce me as her daughter when she KNOWS im her son, her child, kills me every day... and im scared of crying cuz she will know im too weak... I just needed to get that out tonight...

The fact earlier I was complaining about being dysphoric after taking a shower and RU-vid recommend this to me-

what is gender dysphoria??? gender dysphoria is a sense of unease that a person may have because of a mismatch between their biological sex and their gender identity. You're not alone. i have gender dysphoria too :) if you want to discuss you can with me I'll always have time to share with other people, and painting :)

All of these songs are so nice. I remember watching this 5 hours after it came out so TECNICALLY I was early at some point-- I love the bad idea! cover, she sounds like she's having a breakdown and I love the sound of it!

awe this is so cool!!! Comes out the day after I came out to my friends as trans :) amazing playlist though, temporex is a great artist to start with

Damn How did you know I felt dysphoric???

Cuando le dije a mi mamá me dijo "estas bombardeada de información, no eres hombre, no eres trans, no eres lesbiana. Eres una niña" me mando a terapia, y desde Junio del año pasado que no voy. Siempre que hago algo, me saca el sermón de "No eres hombre, aceptalo" En mi escuela me dicen que son "mamadas". Eso me lástima, me hace sentir tan mal. Mi hermana, diciendo que "me acepta" y luego luego me trata de "ella". Mi vida se resume en Disforia, y es horrible :( Tengo una amiga, ella me trata como quiero. Me dice "lindo","amigo","Chris" y es muy bello. Y su familia también me trata así, a veces solo quiero estar con ella para siempre, ella me hace sentir cómodo, y amo que me vea como un hombre.

A absolutely love your playlists, you are making me smile as soon as i see the notify that you posted

this playlist actually helps to calm me cuz in my case, i just had to put my pet down, and it hurt a lot. but somehow, this playlist makes me feel more calm and happy. especially the gender dysphoria. love the playlist dear!

!SLIGHT VENT! I told some people i want to be called kyle or Lyle instead of my real name because it doesn't feel like me, i have been teased about it and they been using my wrong pronouns. but i just act like i don't care but it really makes me uncomfortable people ain't respecting me, i haven't told my parents but they already call me kyle since it is my nickname to others.

mruh the 2nd song is what made me bawl my eyes out earlier istg :,)

I am currently questioning my gender right now but I'm glad I'm not alone during this

I think its kinda wonderful that your playlist arrived just as I was having a gender dysphoric moment over my voice, thanks for the playlist man!

Omg tyzm yer liek my fave playlizt creator and thiz playlizt honeztly feelz like a rlly comfy zweater with hot coco, tyzm ^w^

I honestly don't know what my gender is. Sometimes I feel like a girl. Sometimes I feel like a boy. Sometimes I feel like both. Sometimes I feel like none. Sometimes I feel like I'm all of it. It's always frustrating when I'm on my period. But, sometimes I'm glad I'm on my period. I just don't know how to think. I always go with non binary or all gender(?) Because I feel comfortable with it. But, being a girl wouldn't be so bad. I couldn't really fit in the the boys thing but meh. So now I think I'm polygender? It's the closest thing that I can relate to. Thanks for reading this. Ily

love your pfp :)

love this sm, helps me with my dysphoria

Thanks for making this playlist, I feel like this all the time as I go by They/he, I generally feel dysphoria most of the time

Relatable playlist title. And nice playlist as always! Being pretty early this time ^^

thanks for the cool playlist, dude 👍

this BOPS Really really good on this one!!!

first song and i'm already in love

Xir videos are so awesome. Totally helped with my gender dysphoria! ( :

Ah! I love this playlist sooo much! Thank you so much for making this! I recently came out to my mum a few nights ago and this has helped me a lot. So thank you so much ill be listening to your other playlists that you put out there! You might see me around other playlists i really like.. Stay safe out there everyone and have fun...♡

I love this playlist sm

Thanks for this playlist, it's really helping me :)

Not tryna vent but thanks for the playlist, I always listen to your playlist when I’m at school, weather is be I’m walking in the corridors or taking a tests they always help. I have social anxiety so yea. sorry if none of this makes sense, your prolly not gonna see this but anyways thanks again❤️

It matches so well I might cry

This is Home is on of my "safe songs" meaning that to much is happening its to loud I can't function or I'm stressed out its a song that helps me breath in a way it helps me come back to the actual world and drift away from the noise other than the song I love This is Home

It's like you read my mind, I recently got my hair cut and it fixed a little bit of dysphoria lmao :^

some weeks i'm feeling the dysphoria and it's so strange for me because i didn't ask myself about my gender and so comfortable this playlist because i remember i'm not just asking about gender and it's new for me before i thought i was a cis girl seeing now i have I want to see things slowly and I hope no one finds out Mainly my mother because the last time I told her that I was lgbt it went wrong and she put me in a conversion camp.... I hope she doesn't find out...

bro- i heard this playlist on my recommended and i cried to the 2nd song :,) (my pronouns r (xe/xem/him/they/them/her) everyone calls me she/her which kinda ngets on my nerves bc i prefer the others and nobody ever calls me by the others-

Me who's demigirl and my pronouns are she/they:i understand the feeling..

idk what my gender is like ive been saying im agender for more than a year but now im not even sure cause my pronouns were they/them but now theyre they/he/she and ive been thinking that i might be trans because i like being labeled as a boy but i still like my title of being a lesbian and having a queer relationship and those little things that are not proving that im not trans and like i just dont fucking understand anything

I just wanna say I was in technology class and my sub ( as in a teacher) was walking around and I was sat next to my friend and we had to share this piece of wood and the sun said " once your done give it to them" and I'm so fucking hyped about it my pronouns are he / them btw

Fun fact : first time I got dysphoria I don't understand the fuck it was, i was just crying in front of my mirror, feeling uncomfortable... finally i found out I was non-binary...

I'm gender queer but like what makes me dysphoric changes alot sometimes it'll just hit like I'm wearing a skit then boom i feel weird or i notice my chest (my chest almost always like 98% of the time makes me feel dysphoric so i kinda just try to ignore it) Gender can be weird man

Essas tipos de playlist me faz pensar de que não preciso necessariamente ter disforia para ser trans, muito embora eu já tenha muitas! 🩷

Just in time for me!!

Any tips on how to come out to my parents as nonbinary? I’m scared my mom is going to take it personally or make it abt her.. But anytime I’ve tried to tell anyone or came out to any member of my family (aside from my parents) they’ve acted like it never happened.. Also for names I was thinking Rayne.. any tips or ideas? Or suggestions?

HELLO MY FAV PERSON 😁💕🙃

Dude that save me i really sad with my dysphorias and that video make me feel really better

Loving this playlist so far I don’t exactly know what gender dysphoria is but I do enjoy listening to this

I thought the dysphoria would go away if I started my hormone treatment... But when people start telling me or talking to me, that I don't look like a Man/Boy or questioning me about what I want to do with my body (like taking my breasts pdf,etc)... I feel bad about myself again... Perhaps these thoughts and feelings are eternal(?, but at least I understand that I was not the only one going through this

There could not have been a better time to find this. I'm staying with my grandparents and they don't know I'm trans (he/they) and i can't tell them cause they are EXTREMELY transphobic.

Man is it nice to know there are ppl who have experienced gender dysphoria as bad as me💗im so glad this playlist exists tho

Hey! That’s me!

i’m not rly feelin dysphoric rn, but these songs are awesome

i am female born female always have been came out as bisexual questioning being they/them “no i’m definitely she/her” “but what if?” “oh! being a demigirl exist! i think this is me!” “yeah i like she/they now” “can you use they more than she?” “actually…i think i am they/them” “i’m they/them now” “i wish i looked like him…” i want to be a skinny boy with dark black fluffy hair that covers my face and a flat chest “am i trans?” “no i couldn’t be, i can’t be trans” “what if i was called he/him?” “what about he/they?” “no…i’m they/them…but what if..?”

god it's been a while since i came here for playlists.... It must be getting bad again...i came out to my parents as bisexual and trans and they didn't support me and they've been trying to get me to see that i'm a girl but i don't feel like i am and everyone is misgendering me and i feel weird around everyone and idk how to feel and i'm not being myself, thank you i love this playlist ( i go by he/him they/them btw

Its not fair When I was a girl, I believed I was ugly and that nobody could ever love me and that I was just a disgusting waste of space But now that i'm trans, I see myself as a beautiful woman who could never be a man and would never be viewed that way Why is your brain so cruel, constantly finding reasons to not be happy

Being trans is amazing and I wouldn't ever trade jt for being a cis male because I realize how beautiful the trans journey is,the underlying bond I have with fellow trans folks, the moments of gender euphoria and getting gendered correctly, dysphoria sucks but its not always going to be this hard. Keep your head up trans friends and remember it can be hard but your identity is valid amazing and mesmerising

I came across this when I was trying to figure stuff out, I started going with she/they and a different name but it didn't feel right so I went with they/them (especially because everyone used she/her all the time and rarely they/them) and I feel so much like myself, I go by Ashe instead of my given name and finally came out to my families (dad/moms sides). They're trying and I recently bought a binder and it'll be arriving in a few weeks so that's really exciting! I'm happy with who I am now after years of struggling to find my identity and I can't wait for pride months so I can properly celebrate with friends as who I am

I just recently realised I’m genderfluid and wondered why I slowly started hating the feminine parts of my body more and more but only on certain days and also feeling uncomfortable being called a woman or girl on some of them aswell, BUT I FIGURED IT OUT AND IM HAPPY I UNDERSTAND WHY I FEEL LIKE THAT!

Спасибо, это очень крутой плейлист, который заставляет меня чувствовать себя лучше.

Thank you for making this :D i keep on getting misgenderd to :( my pronouns are he/they or they/them even though i came out as trans a few months ago :( but my friends use the correct pronouns :))

i wasnt looking for anything like this but somehow yt found out i had gender dysphoria but im glad for it

Sometimes I wish people would stop asking “Why’re you trans” like I dont freaking know *Sharon* it’s just not *me*

and somehow i thought i was the only one obsessed with summer depression (the song)

This playlist gives me euphoria tbh

Danke ^u^

I was reading this story of the MC who is a trans woman and the story is about several stuff including her identity and there’s a point where she experienced dysphoria. Is it cool if I ask questions on dysphoria and other trans stuff as I’m an outsider wanting to understand more? All I know is that everyone’s experiences may vary, I even knew of a trans dude who’s never experienced dysphoria and still hasn’t. And some people are cool with having certain body parts and wanting to keep it still whereas others want to get rid of parts. Experiences vary for everyone. As a heads-up, I’m blunt and have trouble putting things delicately in a way that shows or presents what it is I’m asking exactly so idk if people will understand me as well if I try to be less blunt. Know that whatever I ask, it’s from a place of wanting to know all kinds stuff (even if it’s weird and oddly specific and/or involves stuff on the nsfw and 18+ side so if you’re a minor, git away pls) and genuine curiosity. It’s me wanting to understand and learn about things. I swear there are no evil, malicious, disrespectful, or even creepy intentions (even if there’s a chance of me appearing or coming off as creepy with my words or questions, I swear I don’t mean any bad stuff behind it). Sometimes google is informative but sometimes they don’t cover the stuff that people reveal in their own stories and experiences. If you’re cool with it, even the stuff that may seem creepy (lots of people have different standards of weird or creepy while some people are genuinely fine with answering strange questions or talking about strange topics so I feel like it’ll vary with each person on what’s weird and creepy vs fine), reply to this letting me know and I appreciate you being up for it. This is a “what do you want to ask but daren’t” type of stuff btw.

10:00 makes me cry "take a load at this monster he doesnt know how to communicate his mind is in a different place will everyone pls give him a little bit of space" And so on-

i just want to evaporate i dont want feelings

I feel like dysphoria is different for everybody. For some it’s like taking a cold shower but they’re not 100% comfortable with another is just not feeling like you’re in the right body. For me it’s more like: I love my body. I have a great body and a great family a great life and I know I do and I feel guilty that I have it. I feel like my body should belong to somebody else. I’m not who I am. But sometimes my body feels like it’s too tight and pulling in on my skin and my bones. I have learned a lot of things over the years. And I still squeal when I get that giddy feeling of looking in the mirror and seeing who I am; a boy. If you want to share your story (or vent or something your proud of or anything) I am here to talk and if you don’t want me to talk then I’m here to listen. Stay safe❤❤ (Also pros are he/him + neos

I have "female issues" and I keep getting feminized so this helps:)