Gender Dysphoria and Phases | Identity Talk 

As a person who questions his(?) gender, it's refreshing to hear people talk about how many times they flip-flopped and backtracked and whatnot. It makes me feel less alone when I'm trying to figure out what I am.

Hi there. MTF here. I was also raised in the phobic-by-default '90s, and I also didn't have the vocabulary to describe what I was going through until later on. Like you, I didn't get the internet at home until I was, like, 12. Although, even after I did acquire the word "transgender" in my lexicon, it still took another fifteen+ years for me to work through my internalized transphobia. I'm 8 months on HRT now, and I've never been happier. I'm so happy for-and simultaneously so jealous of-the younger generations now who get to grow up with a much higher level of understanding, acceptance, and discussion. It's still far from universal, of course, but their generations (Gen Z and Gen A) experience those to a degree which is certainly higher than 0, which is what we millennials had. If I had even just ONE teacher to tell me, "Hey, so, this is a thing that exists and that some people experience and go through, and it's okay to have these feelings, and you're allowed to feel this way, and it doesn't make you a bad person, and it's perfectly normal and healthy", I would have had a completely different life. Instead, the only information I got, in my teen years when I learned that transhood was a thing, was a bunch of lies. Like, for example, that 99% of people who transition go on to describe it as the biggest mistake of their lives. It's not only patently untrue, but it's the exact opposite of true. But I didn't know that at the time. Like you said, you couldn't just google this stuff back then. There were no support groups, or informational resources, or youtubers (youtube didn't even exist, after all). Honestly, when I talk about it, it makes me feel like such a boomer: "Oh, back in my day, we didn't have all this fancy newfangled technogizmo stuff". lol

im new here and oh my goodness i love this!!! listening to you talk while drawing is so nice im loving the outfit btw

It takes a lot to share on such public forum. Thank you for giving us a window. I hope you feel valued and have a supportive friend or two

Like the new clothes (of the time of the video). The lower voice I believe is the chest voice. Also read the description so Happy birthday for your birthday in this video. Love that I can answer the question of the week in the comments. Okay. So my short(ish) journey Cisgender and heterosexual (also Christian but in no way against the LGBTQ+) > Bisexual > wanting to wear makeup > wearing makeup > questioning wanting to wear women's clothing (as well as males) > questioning my gender > doing some research > discovering many genders and trying to find out where I am if I'm still a cisgender male or not.

i feel you

I'm 5'1 and have a very skinny build, even though I go to the gym regularly. My voice is high pitched. Should I transition or will I look weird and ugly as a man?

You know dysphoria is greek and latin for bad mood? I havent looked up euphoria yet but im guessing its just the opposite.

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