I'm sitting here eating carrots, tapping my feet to a bop, and sitting in front of a test I don't know any of the answers to. I'm pretty frickn pleased
That's interesting because it does the complete opposite for me, it calms the voices in my head down and stops me from feeling the need to scream. Great alternative to alcohol, because I was planning on having that to make it stop since it works as well, but listening to her and then having the songs stuck in my head afterwards instead is much better.
'did you listen to her heartbeat like you did with me' Ahww this (listening to someone's heartbeat) sounds so precious as something to do with someone you love❤️
This song reminds me of my ex who cheated on me 2 years ago. She broke me down, I was a fucking mess! But it made me stronger and I’m in a better place now. Never forget things will get better eventually! ❤️
this song hurts because my ex gf cheated on me several times without me knowing and i was desperate to make things work between me n her, three times, she suddenly without warning dropped me and came back into my life before I'm assuming dropping me for good? I'm honestly glad because she genuinely hurt me time n time again with the shit she did, im glad i found this song
Well I'm lovesick and they are probably never going to read this; I hope you don't because this is embarrassing and I'd die if you do. Anyways to get things off my chest... (bc why not put it in a RU-vid comment section) dear elliott (the person i will always and forever love dearly), There are no words that exist that can describe how I feel about you. Words to describe how my face lights up when I get a text message from you. Words to describe the amount of butterflies I get from just reading a couple words you texted me and just hearing your voice. Words to describe how happy I get when I see your smile and the cringe pickup lines and tiktok videos that you send me, saying "this could be us". Words to describe how empty I feel without talking to you. (so far 5 days and counting): it literally feels like the world is going to end. I just feel so empty right now. My brain isn't functioning and I literally can't concentrate on anything. All I'm thinking about is you, you, you and I can't get you out of my head. Now that you're gone, I'm realizing now how important you were/are to me (wow I'm such an idiot, I know). I could go on and on and write a whole entire 10000 page essay (which still wouldn't be enough pages to describe how I feel about you) but I'm going to try and make this as short as possible. I've only known you for like two weeks (I know, I know) and I've never fallen for anyone this fast or hard (I don't know why, kind of sus tbh) But, there has not been a single day that goes by where you weren't my first thought when I wake up and my last when I fall asleep. Wondering what you're doing, what you're thinking of, how you've been, if you're doing okay, and well you know the rest. I was at my lowest point and you helped me through (without knowing). I wish we could be together, but you're with someone else now and you've lost feelings for me; completely understandable because I'm such a bitch (in general), broken, volatile, inconsistent, selfish, negative, stubborn, clingy person and well a whole list of negative traits. I knew from the start when I met you that you were the one, but it just wouldn't work out because of circumstances. It's not fair, but it's life. Hopefully in another life time I can call you mine. In another life time, where we meet one day, and I suddenly get these strange flashbacks, feelings, and deja vu. In another life time, where I can dance with you in the kitchen at 3 in the morning while attempting to make food and not set the entire house on fire (because I literally can't cook if my life depended on it) and sing Two Birds by Regina Spektor using spatulas as a microphone. In another life time where I could watch the sunset and sunrise with you on a hammock tied to palm trees with you in my arms watching the crimson sky. Cringe pickup line (bare with me): I would call you the sun but you ShInE EvEn WhEn It'S DaRk (rip). In another life, where we could just drive across the country with the windows rolled down, and the summer breeze blowing into our faces, screaming on the top of our lungs the entire "If I could make it go quiet" album. In another life, where we could travel the world together. Where we would be at the top of the London Eye and I would wrap a blanket around you so you wouldn't get cold from the chilly breeze while I stare deeply into your soul wondering how I got so lucky (umm creepy, I know). In another life, where I would kiss you on the Eiffel Tower (because EiFfEl fOr YoU; rip again) with the beautiful scenery or maybe in front of the cinderella castle in disney world with the fireworks in the background (because disney is a magical place after all). In another life, where we would slowly dance in the rain while blasting dark academia music. In another life, where we would adopt a bunch of cats and have snapdragons littered all over our apartment (number 402 of course). In another life, where we could just cuddle and watch how to train your dragon all day (butternut squash and your dogs can join). In another life, where you could teach me how to cook so I could finally cook something else then cereal and milk. I think I'm going to make you an album because I'm t h a t person. I'm crying while writing this- because I love you so much, and I suck at expressing my emotions directly and you have no idea how much I love you and the chances of you seeing this is literally well- my chances with being with you. I promise you that no one will ever love you as much as I do (toxic alert). Anyways, I hope you're doing well and hopefully someday I can call you mine. Thank you for reading my long ass paragraph or letter; I don't know at this point. Well that was longer than I anticipated; whoops my bad. I fucking love you elliott. From Yours Truly, anna
(its 1pm in my country) SO I WAS UP AT 4 AM WAITING FOR THIS AND THEN I FELL ASLEEP AND WOKE UP NOW SO IM LATE😭 okay tho i can atleast apreacciate this masterpeace ! ❤️
