@@LucTaylor She's awesome! Btw I remember we were having conversations in comments of your videos, although it became just a conversation in one of your videos. I'm sorry for not replying back to you. I didn't mean to be rude or uncaring or any other similar thing. Overall I've been very non-social for a long time now and in general it's been hard for me to interact with others much.
I feel this and Poison on a personal level, coming from a household with abusive parents. While Poison stings a little, there's comfort in it too. Makes me feel understood and validated for having left that place. This song feels like a continuation to that, still a bit sad but way more hopeful. Your lyrics really struck hard with me! The amount of emotional weight you put in your songs is truly special! Amazing work, keep it up and stay safe and healthy! Hope your friend feels better soon too!
@@user-mx3qn7wh5j that really sucks. :/ I hope things get better for you soon! People passing you by in life is natural, you'll know you've found the ones that are truly worthwhile when they stay with you longer! Just know that you're appreciated and not alone!
You can tell Jayn put some serious work into this song. The many different parts of the song really come together as one, to put us on an emotional roller coaster along with what the lyrics convey. There are also some clever sound effects or change of pitch that you may not catch first time listening. So glad you decided to release this wonderful song. Much love to our talented and dedicated artist Jayn!
Something about the melody of your songs and the way you sing it with your emotions, the way it echoes and the cute visuals always steal my heart. I read your desc. Exactly how I feel right now, locked up alone away from my family. I sleep a lot to pass the time and wake up empty watching the rising deaths every day. Thank you. You're just in time.
I've been subscribed to this channel for god knows how long, so you could say I've been here since the early stages of your channel. and from an old wrinkly LittleJayneyCakes veteran, I wish you, your friends and family luck and good health. I also hope you and everyone you hold dear an amazing rest of the year. I look forward to your future videos and this one as well.
I feel this on a personal level, in my own way. I was groomed by my senior boyfriend (now ex). He was manipulating, a liar, and overall just toxic. We went out for 4 months and over time his true colors began to show. He was taking advantage of me sexually. He only cared about getting what he wanted, which was sexual action. He tried to turn my friends against with a lie he told, he made my parents hate me to the point where my mom was on the verge of kicking me out, and he made degrade my sense of self worth. I was mentally exhausted with him to the point where I struggled (and still am) with suicidal ideation. I was so done and over him when I found out everything. His ex girlfriend, she’s a junior, told me he went out with her when she was 15. And he abused her sexually and harassed her friends. He did the same with me, and tried asking one of my friends for sexual favors after we broke up. But this guy, made me feel responsible for his feelings of worthlessness and loneliness. He pressured me to keep him happy. He pressured me to do things I wasn’t ready to do. He lied to me. He coerced me to give in to his sick desires. Afterwards I felt so much guilt, regret, bitterness and anger. I felt so stupid. But the problem wasn’t me, it was him. And it was for the better that he’s out of my life. I’m 15 and he asked me out when I was 14. I’m permanently scarred from his actions and abuse. And I’m not telling this to get attention or have a pity party, I’m telling this to the people out there who have this type of toxic and unhealthy relationship. Speak out, cut them off and remove yourself. FAST. Because you have a lot to lose and you deserve better. Don’t settle, don’t tolerate it, rise above it and keep your head up. You deserve so much happiness and love. Srry this is long, beautiful and outstanding song Jayney!
Jayn seems to write a lot of songs that I relate to far too closely, this song especially hits the nail on the head ;-; This line especially, "I think something inside tore apart long ago." Except, I can't remember a time when I had that 'something'. I had a moment of clarity some time back that high school wasn't as good as I thought it was. In fact, it was hell. But not because the school itself was bad, but because my home life had been bad. I mean, high school wasn't that great either but it would've been much better if I didn't have a shitty home life. I think my brain had subconsciously denied the bad to me. Because if I realized that I didn't have a great time with high school, I would've thought over all the evidence of my shitty home life and realize that my life was genuinely terrible. I just thought that I didn't have it 'that' bad. What's worse is that I knew, on some level at least, that it was bad. My brain just refused to connect the dots and realize that my home life was terrible. But that's what it's like growing up in terrible environments, you develop a warped perception of what's good and bad; right and wrong.
Just yesterday I was worrying "Damn she hasn't posted in a month, I hope she didn't quit or something", So this is a welcomed surprise. Amazing song! Such a beautiful voice.
These days have been tough, and your song hits right home. Its hard to feel happy, genuinely, when you've been trying to be a people pleaser and make people happy at the cost of your own. To the point, its hard to go on and you lost your ownself. Like you question your existence and all. I feel like just giving up, but at the same time, I have this hope.. but Im not sure of what? It's hard to explain. But like what you said, "If I give it time, I'll be fine". I believe in that many times, but just wished the thoughts would stop and all? Seriously, your song just summarises everything and I--- Just wow. No words could describe what I wanna say because it's just-- wow.
This is a song I can relate to on a personal level and probably many others who have listened to it. It has a very deep meaning behind it that hits hard even if you can't personally relate to it. The instrumental is beautiful and you put so much emotion into it. This is a really good piece!
Thank you for sharing this lovely work of beauty with us, Jayn! And with that... good night, until sunlight. (Even though it's almost 11:30 AM over here LOL)
The art and animation is so sweet, it goes so well with the amazing song. They always seem to connect to my own problems, which is bittersweet because I know it means you deal with similar things and that's not something I'd wish for anyone. I'm sure everything will work out, but sending the best wishes to you and your family. Your friend too, hopefully this all goes away quietly without any more problems.
I don’t know why or how, but the melody just does it for me, and the lyrics, too, are beautiful. This song is very Jayn-ish with your very unique style - and I love it! Can’t wait to share it with my friends tomorrow. Good night!
This is song makes me feel calm down...I really like your song! Also, I have a bad night because anxiety, depressions, & insomnia..(i guess)...I hope you're get well soon and stay safe!..💜
Won't lie the validation these kind of songs give me on the more complicated feelings I got from leaving a bad home kept me together over the past couple years.
I remember breaking down and crying when I first heard your song about being yourself, but it also helped me work on bettering myself to a point where I was finally happy with who I am. When I first heard this song I was again in a bad place, it seems like every time I hit a bad point in my live your songs pop up in my recommendations and pull me out of the darkness I find myself in, so from the depths of my soul thank you for your music and I hope that if you ever find yourself in the same darkness I found myself in I only hope that this comments and others like it help to shine a guiding light to bring you out of the darkness.
Amazing song, oddly relevant now after all of those years! Also I saw this was premiered, and although it's an awesome feature, I've heard of many other channels having issues with getting very few views on premiered content, so I'd maybe recommend making a community post mentioning it if it seems like nobody is seeing it pop up in their recommended. Keep up the awesome music and stay safe Jayn!
I think this is one of your most impressive songs to date! It's really amazing, Jayn! The mix of tempo, melodies, harmonies, all come together in a way that perfectly encompases the meaning of the song
I really love the song Jayn, It's really something that people can relate to and find comfort in which is something I really adore about your songs. I also read the description, my best wishes for good health to you, your family and friends 😘😘😘
Awesome song, Cakes! It sounds very beautiful. I love the intensity of how passionately you express your thoughts and feelings in it. You need lots of hugs! Here is one. 🤗
I really needed to hear this song especially when I thought that all my problems went away, there all back now and I don't know what to do. This song is pretty much explaining what I'm going through right now, at least I know that I'm not the only one and that I do have something and someone to relate to💖💖, loved the song almost made me cry😭😭💖
I’m sorry you relate so closely. :( It’s kinda funny (well not really lol) because sometime after I finished writing the song I felt like things were getting better myself. But here we are again. I wish I had something more helpful to offer, like a solution. But you’re definitely not alone, and if I ever find a way to better cope with the noise I’ll definitely share it. 😭💜 Hang in there!!
@@joshuagibson1204 You're welcome so much! It's a great idea to self reflect! Everyone should do more of that. It's good to keep the offer in mind! I wish you success in figuring things out and I hope you'll be able to become happier. 💖😊
I've been a fan of yours for years, but I somehow only just discovered this song last night. I love this so much, how the beat is so upbeat despite the serious nature of the lyrics. I can't relate to it on a personal level like many other commenters, but it still manages to resonate with me. Thank you for all your hard work on this and all your other songs! Also, something about the melody gives me Sailor Moon vibes. So that just makes me love this even more!
You know those plays, etc when after it's over you hear a slow clap followed by a thunderous applause? That's how great this song is. The melody itself was hopeful and full of life. And the lyrics were deep and meaningful. It's true, there's so much expectations and everyone puts everything on your shoulders and sometimes it can be too much and sometimes, you do just wanna go to sleep. But still, we hold hope deep in our hearts. And that hope is expressed by your wonderful soul and voice. I wish your friend all the best, and I wish you the best and I wish all of us the best. Hopefully this all passes us through and we can think of this as one really bad awful dream to wake up from.
The words in your song speak to me. Sometimes all I want to do is sleep. Days feel too short and they all feel the same. I'm trying to chase this ideal happiness that so many people claim to have, but is that happiness really real, and if it really is, would it feel happy to me? I don't know, but what I do know is I hope for a day when just existing is enough to feel worthy of love and joy... maybe I'm completely off base with the meaning of your song, but that's what I get out of it and its comforting to know that other's have this feeling. In the end, all I can really say is thank you and goodnight.
I noticed that some parts of this song use the anapestic tetrameter, meaning every line has 4 stressed syllables. "All this RESTlessness FEEDS on the FEAR in my HEART But if I TRIED to diSECT it all I'd JUST fall aPART I'm not SURE who I AM, I don't KNOW what I WANT It USED to be LOVE but that's STILL not eNOUGH" It's usually used in poems and rap.
We can all relate to this song on some level, just like missy wanna die. I’ve been through so much trauma but I can relate to these songs and they make me wanna keep fighting.
Wow... I've always been a fan of this channel, but this song is something else. Maybe it's the fact that I've been feeling this broken for over a year now, but... This was legitimately amazing. One day we might be fine, Jayn. We'll get there. I hope.
I love your music - I find myself listening to them every day. Your singing voice, your songs and even you - yourself - are filled with such beauty. Each one of your songs pierce right in through the numbness in my heart
Usually I'm not a fan of original songs by cover artists, but yours are always top tier. My favorite parts about your songs are your lyrics. They always seem eloquent, well though out, and full of meaning. The feelings in your songs seem deeply relatable and personal, always giving off a tender feeling because of their genuine vibe. I feel like I can understand at least a part of your true thoughts and feelings through your music. I can relate to the family problems. It hurts to stay but it hurts to let go too- the feelings aren't easy to express in words without sounding shallow. I do have a suggestion. I think that if the instrumental parts of your songs matched the intensity of your lyrics, it would really take your songs to the next level. Your voice has gotten so good, and your rhymes and timing are awesome. I find myself humming your originals all the time. Keep at it please! And thanks for all the wonderful music you share with us peasants.
Goodnight(晚安) I'm on the path to happiness, 在通往幸福的道路上 I know I'll reach it at the end. 我知道我最终会到达 But on this path to happiness, 但在通往幸福的道路上 I've lost some time, I've lost some friends. 我失去了些时间，失去了些朋友 Can I fill up this emptiness? 我能填满的空落落的心吗? Replace what's lost along the way, hey 代替一路损失掉的一切 So many thoughts are crowding my head, 太多想法塞满了我的脑子 And I just really want to go to bed. 我真的很想去睡觉 All this restlessness feeds on the fear in my heart, 内心的恐惧引发这些焦虑不安 but if I tried to dissect it all I'd just fall apart, 但如果我试图分析它们，我只会崩溃 I'm not sure who I am, I don't know what I want. 我不确定我是谁，我不知道我想要什么 It used to be love, but that's still not enough. 曾经想要爱，然而还不足够 I think something inside tore apart long ago, 我觉得很久以前就有什么坏掉了 disconnected and electric I got caught in the flow, 断电之后我也卷入其中 Someday I will be fine, if I just give it time 只要给我时间，有一天我就会好起来 But I'll go crazy if I CAN'T QUIET my mind 但若不能让我的头脑平静下来，我会疯掉 So good night. 所以晚安了 I don't know when I lost myself, 我不知道我什么时候迷失了自我 And life became a blurry haze. 生活变得一片模糊 The sudden noise it blocked out my voice, 突如其来的噪音盖住了我的声音 closed up my throat and I could barely breathe. 封闭我的喉咙，让我几乎无法呼吸 Can I shut out this anxiety? 我能把这种焦虑拒之门外吗？ The fear I'll fail myself again, again, again! 害怕我会再一次，再一次，再一次地让自己失望 So many thoughts are crowding my head, 太多想法塞满了我的脑子 And I just really want to go to bed. 我真的很想去睡觉 Good night, sleep tight, sleep well, sweet dreams 晚安，睡个好觉，做个好梦 In the sunlight, maybe things won't look as bad as they seem … 早上起来，也许事情看起来不会像看起来那么糟糕 All this restlessness feeds on the fear in my heart, 内心的恐惧引发着焦虑不安 but if I tried to dissect it all I'd just fall apart, 但如果我试图分析它们，我只会崩溃 I'm not sure who I am, I don't know what I want. 我不确定我是谁，我不知道我想要什么 It used to be love, but that's still not enough. 曾经想要爱，然而还不足够 I think something inside tore apart long ago, 我觉得很久以前就有什么坏掉了 disconnected and electric I got caught in the flow, 断电后我也卷入其中 Someday I will be fine, if I just give it time, 只要给我时间，有一天我就会好起来 But I'll go crazy if I CAN'T QUIET my mind 但若不能让我的头脑平静下来，我会疯掉 Go good night. 所以晚安了 Good night 晚安 Why?! 为什么 Do the days all feel the same, 每一天都没有变化 Like the sun has burned out and my soul's gone away and my heart's been cut open and drained, 就像太阳已经燃尽，我的灵魂消失了，我的心被切开被吸干了 Tell me why? 告诉我为什么？ Can't I float along like you? 我不能像你一样轻松吗？ I'm still chasing the hope that the world's not a mess 我仍在追逐希望，告诉自己这个世界不混乱 even though I know that's not the truth. 即使我知道那不是事实 But this restlessness feeds on the fear in my heart ... 但内心的恐惧引发着焦虑不安 And this fearfulness feeds on the pain that I've known, 我所知的痛苦增加我的恐惧 Even as the years pass, I just can't let it all go. 即使年复一年，我还是无法放手 I destroyed who I was, and I hoarded my love, 我毁了曾经的我，我囤积了我的爱， So tired of feeling like I'm not enough. 厌倦了'自己还不够好'的想法 Maybe if I just dance, 或许我跳舞 Maybe if I just write, 或许我写作 Maybe if I just sing, 或许我唱歌 then I'd feel something inside 我就能感觉到些什么 Someday I will be fine, if I just give it time, 只要给我时间，有一天我就会好起来 For now I just want to quiet my mind, so... 现在我只要让我的头脑安静下来，所以... Good night, Sleep tight, Until sunlight... 晚安，睡个好觉，直到天亮
I just recently refound your channel and thought I'd listen to a newer song and came across this one... And it really didn't have to hit me so hard. I just recently stepped away from my dream University to try and focus on my health and this song perfectly captures how I've been feeling. Thank you. And good luck in quarantine, I'm right in the belly of the beast near Seattle so I know how that full shutdown feels.
This is so amazing omg!!! Jayn it might sound weird coming from a random person but I’m so proud of you!!! Your music is absolutely amazing and never fails to blow me away!! I sincerely hope you keep going with being a singer!! You’re amazing!
This song is getting me through some though times. I only ever worry at night the one time I’m trying to sleep. Last school year was super hard. I was really depressed and I had no friends. I was teased a lot. I kept failing. I couldn’t even find a reason to get out of bed in the mornings. But this year has been so much better. I have friends, good grades. I’ve been taking medications, everything I wanted last year. So why am I still not happy? That’s where this song comes in. “I think something inside tore apart long ago” “ maybe if I just dance, maybe if I just write, maybe if I just sing then I’ll feel some thing inside“ something definitely tore last year, and I’m still healing. “Im still chasing the hope that the worlds not a mess” just so I can sleep at night. I know I’ll get better with time. Thank you so much Jayn I love all of your music. Sorry for this long thing 💀💀
This is going to sound wild, but I just found you through a very old (9 years ago!) comment on a video, and I got curious if the channel was still active and what the person was doing now. And it turns out you are doing music! You have such a professional set up and you seem fairly popular too! I am so sentimental so I hope this doesn't come off strange, but I feel so proud of you! It makes me so happy knowing that someone out there was progressing and growing. This is the first song of yours I've checked out so far, but I think it's beautiful, and while not everyone is the same, I think many could find themselves in this song, especially with how things have been lately. I've also found this super inspiring as someone who wants to create music one day. I started to tear up typing this comment, I just think people expressing themselves is super cool, and makes a heavy world feel brighter and worth it. That being said, since this was some months ago, I really hope your friend is alright. Be sure to take some time to relax if you need it- or if feeling hazy is a problem, try looking at at things or doing things you wouldn't normally do! I find changing it up helps with the repetitive feeling, and helps me feel clearer.
this means SO much, i know this was a year ago but it touched me then and it's taken me this long to be able to let you know without being overwhelmed with emotions ahhaha but i just wanted to say - thank you for writing this, thank you for listening and thank you for being here
@@LittleJayneyCakes oh my goodness you replied! and that's totally fair honestly I remember a year ago hesitating to hit comment, that maybe I would come off too dramatic or strange. But lately I've been working on letting myself tell people how great they are and expressing it with my whole heart, even if it's oddly worded or a bit of a mess. I honestly was just happy knowing I got the message out there and that maybe you saw it, but seeing a reply brings me so much joy! I am glad this comment stuck with you even after so long 💛🌻
I wish you and those you hold dear well in my heart Miss...now about this song: It's definitely hitting some heavy notes in my chest. As of March 10th, me and my gf went back to being friends again, due to a personal reason she had with long distance. I'm fine btw! We still talk like we have been &..well, some part of my heart is still in love with her and wants her back. But along with that, I've had a lot of downpour on myself over time and my mind's been plagued by nothing but doubt, loneliness and seeking..things have been very much turning up for the better, even during this crisis, so if you (and everyone reading this) are holding on, you can best believe I'm still keeping my head high too. Seriously thank you for being wonderful and creating music that helps me understand or connect my own feelings & I wish you all my best (you reading too)
I always love original songs from you. They have such depth and feeling to them that just resonates with something inside my heart! Not to mention beautiful melodies, wonderful instrumentals, and your powerful vocals.
This is literally the best song ever it perfectly captures things most of us have been feeling recently. I hope this and Jayn will someday get more and more recognization that she deserve ❤️
I know this is a bit late but ive been a fan of yours for a long time ever since a was young youre music helpt get me through times were i felt like there was no escape from all my pains and problems in my life.So i wanted to say thank you for helping getting through dark times even if you dont see this i still wanted to let you know youve helped a lot.
I feel the same as in this video many times, I've been feeling like this for years, but at that time I barely understood myself, much less to others. I met you years ago Jayne, and at that time I had no interest in you, I was romantically and sickly dependent in love with Haruhi Suzumiya, in an idealized way and far from reality to the purpose of sustaining my fragile psyche, your songs for me were messages of Haruhi for me, to help me, give me support and allow me to endure. This made you somehow a simple peon or instrument of a 'divinity' and I did not want . I know perfectly that you are not Haruhi, even if I play with that idea once: 3, you are you, I am, however, if I felt bad awareness of doing what I did, that's why I send you money for the Patreon for years, Simply to cover the bad conscience, until you decided to stop doing it that way and try a different one, so I began to get away from you, because the new songs ... neither were what I was looking for, and I did not want to feel so bad Being unfair with you and thinking bad things about the people because "nobody understands me" and all that fragile and injured egos tend to assume, but without taking care of anyone else, logically. I sincerely hope that you have found a greater and better balance and mental and emotional stability, and by physical extension too, but I also hope that it is not at the expense of giving up your dreams, the beautiful and beautiful things that you also say in this song and by the It is better to be alive, suffer and fight, but taking care of ourselves too. I have much more self -esteem, I do not have that sick dependence on the others before, but of course I do not want to be alone or feel alone, I want to be with people who understand me and accept me as I am, and that is nothing Easy, nobody wants to load with pain or "dark side" of others. But I do not comprise myself with less than that, and so it will always be while it vita, I would ask you the same, of course you can have false friendships to hang out and entertain you, but we both know that they are not really friends and we do not want to settle for that. I finish for now.
This song feels like magic--like---OMG it speaks to me! The arrangement, beat, and melody are hauntingly true of the beautiful chaos that is anxiety! Get out of my head!
OMG I really love your song. I am working on a start up radio show and I was wondering if I play your song this Thursday. It's called the Musical Liberator and I play on Spotify and Google podcasts.
Oh. My. God! I'm really trying to be a singer too, but I'm not good enough... I love your songs and when I saw this was 10 hours ago I got so exited!!! Your amazing and it really good to know that your still as good as ever, if not even better! I really hope (if it's not too hard on you of course😅) that you can make more wonderful songs in the future!
Amazing job Jayn, your work has always been great and this piece is no different. Hope all goes well with your friend and family (edit) I relistened to the song a few times bc I genuinely liked the song tho I didnt understand everything you sung, and when I did I realized I can relate to the entire song. The songs lyrics explain in words how I've been feeling for the past 4 to 5 years and I'm honestly surprised I didn't notice what the lyrics were sooner.
