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I come to this song whenever I want sorrow to take over. It feels like giving up, closing my eyes and shutting down any light in my room. It brings me comfort and stops me from struggling and fighting.
Don’t let the poison tree grow inside you. It’s a short relief of comfort but in the end you’re life will still be one that you hate ever so deeply, so you gave up and bonded with your despair. Change is the key. I’m not one to talk tho…I’m still dealing with my problems.
I have 14 years. I have NEVER talked in class from when I was 9 years old. Not even a word, only answer the teacher questions. I feel dead inside… I also lost everyone and everything. But I hope for a better future and I keep going, I do it for my mum ❤
You have 14 years left to live? Or your 14 years old, if it's the second option, bro I'm 14 myself, get on to self improvement it will significantly improve your life and remove all your depression, anxiety trauma and hatred, I used to be severely depressed as well but it's all gone now so don't give up life is worth living you just need to find the correct path. If it's the 1st option I'm sorry bro, I feel really sorry for you and it's unfortunate that you're in that situation. Keep enduring keep moving forward and appreciate the good things in life and never let them go.
Throwing poison seeds into the wind Make the poison tree to grow in me begin Let your branches fork my veins Let your honey tide in me Blood loving, poison whispering Oh, beautiful poison tree Let your power grow in me Let your sorrow pour in me Take away my blood and bones Make your flowers deep inside of me Least I'll still have company In my insides, tiny poison tree I seal my love in me Tiny beautiful poison tree Oh, beautiful poison tree Let your power grow in me Let your sorrows flow in me Turn me into a poison tree Turn me into a poison tree Make my shadow go away Make my branches strong and hard Make my leaves flower and spread Make me feel like something powerful Is growing deep inside of me Turn me into a poison tree
A song symbolic of depression the dark seemingly endless foggy forest symbolises dark trapping surroundings and a road that never ends symbolising the feeling of no way out or no way worth sticking around for even if there was..
Born 1993, when I was around 5/6 me and my family had to move to Germany, Osnabruck because my Dad was stationed there for being in the British Army. We stayed there until 2001. I can honestly say from what memories are still there in my head, are the best years of my life. If I could just relive those days, just for a few hours, I would be so happy. I spend hours crying happy/sad tears on Google Earth Pro with the time machine of the maps. Seeing my old Primary School before it was demolished. Seeing the Army barracks my dad was at before that too was sadly demolished. Seeing my old childhood home which I haven't seen since we left 22 years ago. It's even more saddening with how Germanys privacy laws are. Google Street view is practically none existent. So the buildings and the streets I fondly remember are mainly just these pixelated resemblances of buildings that I still vividly remember from my childhood but i can't see how are now or was a few years ago. I only have what I remember, and the odd remnants of videos here on RU-vid which is extremely lacking and rare to find. The walks we went on, the Warner Brothers Movie Theme Park down south near Dorsten. Pony rides in the woods and picking the oldest one there who was called Boris. I picked him all the time because he liked to eat the grass a lot which made the ride last longer so I could spend more time with him. The little & big lake walk just behind the Nettebad. The traditional Christmas Markets in the town centre. Playing video games when my Dad finally came home on my Playstation 1, we would try and beat the games in one day but never could because I didn't have a memory card. Getting excited whenever Pokemon was on the TV. Friends round mine to share the big swimming pool I had. Watching Halloween Town before going out trick or treating. Finding our first ever pet, a kitten abandoned behind a grit bin while we were on a bike ride and taking her home, we named her Millie. So many memories. All lost to time. With only old VHS tapes & photographs to try and relive those memories at least just a tiny bit. Oh what Id do just to go back to those days. Nostalgia is such a beautiful but cruel mistress. I hate to love it and love to hate it. I Miss you Osnabruck. I miss you childhood. But. I have a baby daughter now. And I honestly can not wait to be the best father I can possibly be. And to make everlasting memories with her that she can look back on and smile just as much as I do looking back at the ones I made with my Mum & Dad. Oh Germany. Oh Osnabruck. Oh childhood. You were the best of days. I'll revisit you one day. With the whole family hopefully.
i don’t understand how leaving me was so easy am i that easy to give up? even after all those months we spent together our laughter, smiles, late night talks how could you leave me like i was a burden to you? when all i wanted was for you to stay. you had my whole heart and still do. even after leaving, i miss you. my keyboard still remembers your name. i wish i could use it.
i completely understand tbh. i struggle with self image but i dont even want it to stop bc im addicted to the pain it gives me, and could be the same for you, maybe if youre struggling w anorexia and you think that youre fat or something, which youre not since youre struggling with that but babe thats so unhealthy. i hope u feel better.
Everything that's tragic that has happened, that I've buried, bleeds out deeply when this song plays. It's saddening but also comforting at the same time.
This sounds like when I went from being a great happy youthful highschool trampolinist to a fentanyl addict homeless in Indianapolis at age 18 went from the beautiful to barely being alive and the cycle of addiction it’s like a poisoned tree it’s still standing but dying. As well as the abandonment and betrayal I experienced was like no other the heartbreak from getting kicked out of house after house in the middle of the winter having to walk miles in snowstorms to make it to my friends house. Glad to say I’m almost a year and half sober from the fent. My advice don’t ever take opioids all they’ll do is make you sick
I always come to this song when I'm high it makes me feel the words more, I dont know what to do anymore I'm so numb and honestly i feel like this is all an illusion i feel like I'm in another dimension.
my ex broke up with me because i would have these crazy episodes and just absolutely freak out and take it all on her, once i got the help i needed i never knew what i had until it was gone. i loved her so much and it hurts to let her go. the last thing she said to me was that i wasn't ready for a relationship and when i was we would get back together, i'm no good for her. why does she make me feel this way? i've dated so many girls but felt nothing for any of them, yes i know im a horrible human being, but she was so special. she was one of a kind, a girl just for me. these emotional rollercoasters that i used to go through really started to kick in when i moved from my home dallas, i didn't care about leaving all my friends, all i cared about was leaving her. God why did you have to make life so complicated sometimes.
6/28/2024 i come back to this video every single time i think about her, still can't get over her. i never addressed the part but when she said that we would get back together when i learned to respect her and not take out all my anger on her like the horrible human being i am, i froze, we haven't spoke since and that was a week ago so not that long ago. i did not know what to say as i felt like i would continue making her feel bad. i dont know why i am the way i am, im getting better and therapy is helping a lot. i miss her so much ill get better for her, we will have a future together. every time i come back to this video ill jot some things down in here. i am losing my mind i dont know why im typing all of this out i dont make sense nothing i ever say makes any god damn sense
In the symphony of life's melancholic tapestry, there exists this perfect melody, a haunting refrain that resonates with the forlorn souls wandering through the corridors of solitude. It is a song that transcends the boundaries of time, a haunting lamentation that finds solace in the company of the lost, the lonely, and the somber-hearted. Within its mournful notes, the darkness does not wield its customary blade of blindness, but instead, it extends an ethereal embrace, wrapping itself around the weary spirits. There is an intimate communion, a sacred union between the desolate and the shadows, as if the nocturnal canopy and the lamenting tune unite to assuage the pain that dwells deep within. In these wistful strains, one may find solace, a refuge where the sorrows are understood and acknowledged. The song weaves its somber threads through the tapestry of existence, revealing the beauty that can be found within the depths of sadness. It echoes the sentiments of those burdened by the weight of longing, the yearning for connection in a world that often seems indifferent. And so, let this song be the balm for those lost in the labyrinthine corridors of isolation, their steps faltering amidst the echoes of solitude. May it remind them that in their shadows lie a kinship, an understanding that only the melancholy can truly comprehend.
After my father died. I started listening to this song. I feel his loss so much I just want to be by his side. I want to hug him. I feel like I want to give up....
Yk what hurts? When the person you love is practically embarrassed of you because you’re just a bit different from regular people man I wish I was just normal and the fact when people find out we’re dating and someone is like “omg you guys are so cute!” He says “shut up” and then gets quiet than an hour later he tells his friend that he’s rethinking the relationship all cause someone gave us a compliment.
been listening to it since 2019, always finding myself at the same state of mind over and over and over again... tomorrow going to psychiatrist once more
Why do i feel alone and depressed and sad and insecure like i feel nothing bad happened to me for me to feel this way like am i selfish for feeling this way or do i just torture myself omg i feel like peeling my skin off of my face
“When the darkness is all around you, then you are the light” none of you are bound by your circumstances, everyday is a god given chance to get up and make way for glory. Remember my friends, the hardest roads to follow in life are the bumpiest,most jagged and full of twists and turns for a reason. The easy path is the road many cross and still fail to achieve true purpose and fulfillment. Because true fulfillment is self respect, knowing you didn’t yield under adversity. Achilles the greatest warrior of all warriors once said “The Gods envy us. They envy us because we're mortal, because any moment might be our last. Everything is more beautiful because we are doomed” So live a little my brothers and sisters🖤you will never be more beautiful than you are now.
why did i let it go on for so long ? why couldn’t i just let go. why did i have to be so attached ? why did i have to care so much ? why couldn’t i just accept the fact that we weren’t meant for each other . i thought we were . did you see the way he talked to me ? he said he loved me and that he’d always love me , do you think he still thinks that ? idk why i care he’s caused me to not eat , cry , be in pain . one of my most depressing days this year was caused because of him but yet i still blamed myself . so all this pain and hurt and sorrow and sadness i know was caused by him , why was i so attached . i made a fool out of myself even though he kept coming back eveytime and stupid me believed he loved me but everything was a lie i guess .
This was was xxxtentacions favourite song rest in peace bro all he wanted was a motobike he was changing and trying the help the younger people and trying to spred kindess for ever in my heart 💔💔
Please stop doing that... I know it's tough out here, but I promise you, doing that won't help. I don't know what you've been through, I don't know what you're going through, but I know that you're much stronger than you think. I used to sh too, and now I regret it so much. It did me no good if anything, it made me spiral even more. I woke up one day with scars all over my body, realizing that hurting myself wasn't the answer. I took a long look at my arms and legs, and it finally hit me these scars are embedded in me. I'm going to have to live with these exact scars for the rest of my life... I regret each and every single one of them. And I know it's easier said than done, but please try. I believe in you and I love you so much. Keep going you got this
My ex broke up with me like 3 months ago so I come to this song to cry to think about how she did me dirty and I think about how she gone try and come back to me when school starts back I don’t talk in class or nothing I feel dead inside u can never trust girls they will have u Heart broken so if u see this I wish u the best
I'm confused... Dad, I really am. Do you love me? You know Dad, I think deep down you do. At least I hope you do. I know you have unhealed wounds. I mean, you had a pretty rough childhood yourself-an abusive father, a neglecting mother. I used to hate you for quite some time. I used to feel nothing but hate and anger towards you, but then I woke up one day and realized my daddy won't be here forever. I don't want to lose you one day and regret those feelings. I won't deny that I sometimes feel loved by you. I just wish it was an always, not a sometimes. You hurt me a lot. Made me go around looking for male validation. You made me act a fool ending up in a toxic relationship, just to hear a man say he loved me, just to hear a man say everything was going to be okay, just to feel a man's arms around me. But that was your role Dad, wasn't it? One of my biggest fears is losing you because believe it or not, I really love you, though you've hurt me many times. I can't help but love you and deep down I know you do too. I hope one day you'll love me as much I do you...
I know how you feel. Sometimes it feels like everything's fading away and it kinda makes you realize that nothing lasts forever. Everything has an end. If you think of it in a slightly different perspective though, it might give you some comfort to know that some things are meant to happen and come to an end because that's just how life goes and it's not always bad necessarily. I mean, some people and things that have come and gone from your life were probably better as temporary things. Not everything is made to last long, let alone lasting forever. Everything is temporary because life is a constantly moving crazy complex thing that can feel painful, miserable, sad, hopeless, and lonely... but, the same constantly moving crazy complex thing we call life can be beautiful despite all of the sorrows and hard lessons that may be dealt to you on your journey through life. Sometimes it can be so easy to think of life as more of a punishment than the gift that it can be too. Life is about learning lessons, some being more hard and uncomfortable and others being a little more gentle and pleasant. The lessons are for our reflection and our reflection is for better understanding that will allow us to grow and flourish. It's a painful process without a doubt, but that growth and expansion in experience and knowledge along with other things will make life all the more enjoyable and worth living. Lessons can be reoccurring sometimes and growth is never immediate, but that knowledge is something that can be said and shared with anyone when truthfully, personal experience might make turn it into something you can genuinely understand. Eventually you'll be at a point where you have hope again and that's not something that will last if you search for it externally. My wishes for you are that you find a sense of clarity and peace and that it will all stem from the greatest bond you've ever had and will ever have... that bond should be with yourself. It's the internal bond that is the secret to hope in the moments that are seemingly hopeless. Self respect, comfort, care, and trust as well as prioritizing your needs over all other obligations and relations until you are in a stable and happy state of mind. Be kind and patient to yourself. Treat yourself like you'd treat someone you absolutely adore and look up to. I just want to end with this: It is true that nothing lasts forever and that everything fades away... but that means that today's, tomorrow's, and yesterday's moment of hopelessness won't last either.
@@baguette_omnom6776 Thank you for every letter you wrote to me and every word you said. I don't know how to thank you for this beautiful message. I hope it reaches a message not only for me but for people who fear the world and feel lonely and miserable. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. I also wish you a happy eternal life💞.
Throwing poison seeds into the wind Make the poison tree to grow in me begin Let your branches fork my veins Let your honey tide in me Blood loving, poison whispering Oh, beautiful poison tree Let your power grow in me Let your sorrow pour in me Take away my blood and bones Make your flowers deep inside of me Least I'll still have company In my insides, tiny poison tree I seal my love in me Tiny beautiful poison tree Oh, beautiful poison tree Let your power grow in me Let your sorrows flow in me Turn me into a poison tree Turn me into a poison tree Make my shadow go away Make my branches strong and hard Make my leaves flower and spread Make me feel like something powerful Is growing deep inside of me Turn me into a poison tree
Throwing poison seeds into the wind Make the poison tree to grow in me begin Let your branches fork my veins Let your honey tide in me Blood loving, poison whispering Oh, beautiful poison tree Let your power grow in me Let your sorrow pour in me Take away my blood and bones Make your flowers deep inside of me Least I'll still have company In my insides, tiny poison tree I seal my love in me Tiny beautiful poison tree Oh, beautiful poison tree Let your power grow in me Let your sorrows flow in me Turn me into a poison tree Turn me into a poison tree Make my shadow go away Make my branches strong and hard Make my leaves flower and spread Make me feel like something powerful Is growing deep inside of me Turn me into a poison tree
