GRWM: CRYING EDITION 😅 

As an older woman I’m so very sad to hear any woman define her success or failure as a woman by her ability to have a successful pregnancy. What does that mean for all the women you know who choose not to have children or women who can never have children? They are not failures and neither are you. I know how much you want to be a mother, and I hope that your journey gets easier. But know this, there are so many ways to become a mother. Whatever your path turns out to be, you will never be a failure as a woman. I hope one day, younger women will know all of their worth whatever challenges they face.

I am so sorry, India! I had multiple miscarriages and then lost a baby at 5 months because a fibroid tumor grew across where the umbilical cord was. To say it was devastating is an understatement! I only have one functioning fallopian tube, so that cut my chances of getting pregnant in half. I eventually was able to carry two babies to full term and I am so lucky to have two amazing, wonderful sons!! Keep trying and don't loose hope, please!

I can't imagine how empty someone's life must be for them to care so much about a neighbor's fence. I hope this is the last you hear about this ridiculous topic.

That’s unbelievable about the neighbors. Jealousy over your beauty perhaps?? 😅 I’m so glad you had a friend to advocate for you. Also that you’re allowing yourself to feel all the feelings - sadness, disappointment, joy and gratefulness. You are so incredibly beautiful inside and out ❤

You’re so inspiring! I love your videos❤

You are healing. Focusing on worship and thankfulness takes your focus off the problem and puts it on the Problemsolver. Not always easy when there’s pain and grief. Definitely a perspective changer. Keep sharing with others. You are helping

I love your chatty videos!!! 🫶🏻 Sending you lots of love!

You are so beautiful and gorgeous eyes! My gut feeling says you’re going to be a mother someday, love the mascara makes your lashes so long, fur babies are so adorable, Wednesdays face is so cute! I always enjoy your videos! Much love, Holly!

Girl! I have been there. I can empathize with you. I was told I had a less than 10% chance of ever getting pregnant and carrying to term. I think the more I stressed about it, the worse it got. Once I went through therapy and stopped stressing, my body relaxed, and I got pregnant! I was on bed rest after 6 months, but I carried to term and had a healthy baby boy. I'm praying for you and your hubs. God will bless you with exactly what you need, when you need it.

Just love how real you are hugs.

YOU ARE NOT A FAILURE. You are so not a failure at all. You are a amazing, wonderful, thoughtful, caring, loving & strong person. You are still young and just enjoy life and let it be in g-ds hands.

I am so sorry. You are a beautiful, inspiring woman and i pray y’all will find peace one day. I can’t imagine what you are feeling but you are in my heart and prayers

India, I promise you this will work for you and , also do everything you can to relax and to provide comfort for yourself this is key

love you and and your channel!! I hope you are doing well! you are amazing and you got this🩷🩷

India, I'm so proud of you. You are so brave for sharing your story and being real in the videos you make, like this one. You have handled all these trials with such maturity and really allowed the Lord to strengthen your faith through it. Choosing joy can be SO HARD, but you are doing it and that is incredible. Choosing to say, "this is hard, but I'm choosing joy, I am blessed, and God is good," is truly a testament to your faith, your trust in God, and your character. I love the perspective you are choosing to take. It's so beautiful that you are looking at answered prayers that you remember praying for and are trusting God to answer the prayers you are bringing to Him now. That is so brave and so admirable. You are a beautiful soul! Thank you for making these videos. Love you, girl! :)

I’m so sorry you’re struggling! It feels like your body is betraying you, and it is profoundly disappointing to go through all of this, but this is a marathon, not a sprint. Whatever this journey holds for you, I want you to know your success as a woman isn’t based upon child baring, it’s about who you are and who you choose to be. Your inner beauty shines through in your videos and that is who you are as a woman and as a person.

If the neighborhood is so concerned about how your fence looks, they (everyone who has a problem with it) should pitch in and offer to either paint it or replace it. Of course you wouldn't have to change your fence if you love it, and you certainly shouldn't pay to have it taken down/redone if you did nothing wrong when you put it up! Love you India, and I'll continue praying for your fertility journey!

Hi I just happend across your video an hearing you speak about your loss an how strong you truly are to speak about it to others is truly a blessing, I've been dealing with my loss since 2015 not really dealing with it just angry an hurt an dont really like to open up or talk about it to anyone bc I cant handle all that emotion, I'd like to thank you for being real an raw even when it hurts emotionally. Keep trying an I'll be praying for you hun ❤

Yes! You have the spirit and mindset that will carry you through. I was diagnosed with a rare ovarian cancer at fifteen, and will never have my own children. Obviously a horrible thing to go through. Just awful for a million reasons, but I've learned how many blessings I wouldn't have had if not for my struggles and journey along the way. Every road you travel takes you to where you need to be... And even though you won't always see each step along the way, just keep moving and looking for those silver linings. I have faith, and clearly you do, too.

Thank you for sharing your story. I am so glad that other women can look to you for encouragement, and know that they are not alone. ❤

your skin looks incredible like it’s filtered!! Love the makeup

My goodness, India, thank you for your vulnerability and faith! I have followed your channel for years and years and I feel like you hit all the life milestones around the same time I do. Marriage, pets, house, kids we're on the exact same track with each step. I cannot express to you how many times your faith and positivity have brightened my days. My husband and I have been trying for kids for over a year now with no luck. Your experiences speak to me. They fill my heart in a way that I can't quite describe. We recently had to make a huge change in our lives, sold our home, and moved across the country. As I was packing some of the last boxes, it occurred to me how perfectly God had answered my prayer to be in that house and how he was again answering prayers with the big change that lay in front of us. He is faithful. He is love. Thank you for reminding me of that again today.

So grateful for you 💗

My first thought when you showed the picture of your backyard was wow how nice and the fence is beautiful. You are amazing!!! Praying for you ❤

Thanks for the update, India! Don't give up hope on the baby dream. Hope it all works out, but trust in Gods timing. Looking beautiful!

I am so sorry for your loss and the ongoing challenges you and your husband are facing. I know from my own experience how hard it is and whatever happens I wish you strength and comfort through this difficult time.

It so nice that your insides match your outside. You are lovely

As a young married woman with her own unique ups and downs, it’s so wonderful and refreshing to see such a beloved RU-vidr that I’ve watched for years be so open and real about the fact her life isn’t perfect either and she’s still trying so hard to be grateful when it’s not happening naturally. Thank you because even if I can’t perfectly relate to your struggles, they still make me feel less alone in mine.

That mascara did some extra magic one your eyes! Wow and the lip stain is a perfect "your lips but better" color. Biggest of hugs for you.

Thank you for this today. I’m so sorry your going through this, but God has a plan and reason. Prayers for you India! Focus on heaven!♥️

Love you India. I wish I had words to make it all better. Sending you a hug, from my heart to yours.

It’s so easy to get lost in thought over what we don’t have yet and to forget about what we do have that at one point we wanted as well. Despite how things are right now I’m glad you can enjoy your home with your dogs regardless of the neighborhood Karens. And your makeup looked gorgeous ❤️❤️❤️

Your reliance on the Lord is such a witness! Praying for you guys ❤

Hey India ❤ thanks for always being open with us

Loved this video 🩷

Keeping you in my thoughts….sending you good vibes

Hey girl , we always have a timing for everything. Give it all to God on the timing is ready. I think there’s a repetitive message here and sometimes. Surrendering to the idea of not now is wanting to proof we can do what we “want”. Yes, it sucks not having what you’ve always dreamed about. I think God is using you as a vessel to spread. Strength and love for the other moms that have lost their babies as well. Such powerful and also painful task. You are so strong. And so wise. We are human and it’s just not now. It’s also okay to be upset with God. He’s our father we can be upset. I am always so proud of you ! Definitely look up to you ! Love you and big hugs girly !

It absolutely breaks my heart hearing you say you feel you're a failure as a woman India... Please know you aren't!! If anything, being so raw and open about these topics, giving visibility to the dark side of motherhood makes you a BRAVE woman. Don't forget that

I don't understand the problem with the fence. Do the neighbors want a different kind of fence or no fence at all?? I am glad you did what's right for your pups. They need a fence so they can can run and play without danger.

India, I've been your follower since the p@ndemic hit and at this point seeing your face pop up in my recommendations feels like seeing a message from a close friend. I know, that you don't know me personally & I do not claim to know you personally but from what I've seen in these past 4 years, you're such a gem of a person! I see how strong your faith in God is (and honestly, I myself had quiet a journey with faith in the past four years) and it inspires me to be kinder to myself, to my surroundings and be more grateful for what I have! Your love story with Daniel gives me so much hope about my non-existent love life and seeing how you go through life's challenges with accepting yourself and self-improvement just makes me relate to you so much! When I heard you say that you feel like a failure as a woman I audibly said "OMG, girl don't say that!", as if you could hear me. I wish you can read this, that's why I'm writing this, dear India. Don't say that, because it is not true, you inspire and help so many people just by putting your life out here on the internet, you bring us joy and for some of us, you're our virtual big sister! Life can get so tough it feels unbearable sometimes, ofc you may feel like a total failure bc of some circumstances that you can't fully affect but even in the darkest moments, please be kinder to yourself! That's what you taught me and I just want to let you know about it 🩵

Love you so much India 🩷happy Friday to everyone!!

India! I can relate to a lot of your struggles and I’m so grateful every time we hear from you. You’re an inspiration! Keep focusing on your hubby, and on God, and don’t lose hope India! Just keep moving forward and keep the faith! Conceiving my 2 children wasn’t easy and it brought challenging times for my hubby and me, but we stayed focused on each other and on God, and eventually those painful memories became a thing of the past. The whole process took many years, but we got through it together and now we’re stronger together, as we take on the challenges of life with 2 children. Thank God for His guidance and mercy! His plan is always perfect! He will lead you to a place of Joy and Peace, just like he did that evening on your back porch. 🫶🏻 🐕 🐕 📖 🏠 💗 🙏🏻

Grateful for you India! Sending you love and hugs! P.S. the lip stain is beautiful on you 🩷

God is good! Thanks for the update, India. My brother had an experience lately that he should have in no way been privileged to happen. It was a bittersweet moment. As he was sharing, I told him God's timing is always perfect It may never be our vision or understanding, but so often He protects us. God is using you. Love that you were enjoying your backyard and realizing God's blessing for you and Daniel. Blessings to you, India.

I am truly sorry for what you have been through in your trying to conceive journey. We all appreciate your honesty and your strength to share this with everyone. You have created a welcoming, warm, and loving community- we will treat you the EXACT same way, India. Also, prayers that #fencegate is over! Your reason for installing a privacy fence is reasonable and considerate. Your neighbors should be taking notes from you on how to be poise😂❤

I hear you, sister. The heartbreak and the struggle that comes with a loss (or multiple losses) is awful. I've told my husband many times that I feel like a failure and like I've let him down. But I'm lucky that he has such a strong faith. After our first loss, we took up Philippians 4:11-13 as our family verses and a sort of motto. "‭Not that I am speaking of being in need, for I have learned in whatever situation I am to be content. I know how to be brought low, and I know how to abound. In any and every circumstance, I have learned the secret of facing plenty and hunger, abundance and need. I can do all things through him who strengthens me." Sorry for the long message. Just know that my heart goes out to you and I'm praying for you.

I’ve been watching you for quite a while and I’ve never heard your southern accent as much as I did today. I’m southern (if you count Texas), so I love it. I want to share that I got married in 1989 and had my first child in 1997. Infertility is not fun at all, but I pray your dreams come true. At 61, I now have a son who is almost 27 and a daughter who is 23. Hang in there. On a lighter note I love the less-harsh dark brown mascara!

Literally my comfort creator right now💙💙 thank you for sharing. We just had a failed pregnancy. Thought for 10 weeks I was pregnant, but my body only developed a sack with no baby.

Beautiful as always ❤️

India, I’m so very sorry for everything you have been through and are still going through with your fertility journey. My husband and I suffered a miscarriage last year (a surprise pregnancy amidst 4 years of infertility & 2 years of IVF). I can relate to getting the pathology results and finding out that the baby was chromosomally normal. That was so hard for me too. We ended up doing further immunological testing on us both and did find out several issues with my immune system that could have caused the loss. Even knowing those things though it still hurts so much knowing the baby we lost was perfectly normal. Sending you and Daniel lots of love & strength as you continue down the incredibly difficult path of life after loss. ❤

I know you are not fishing for compliments and it's only human that you feel like a failure, but you know you are not! You are a very strong, kind and wonderful young lady.

you did your best and some time's that's all we can do God bless.

Love you so much❤❤❤😘

Praying for your family! Well said with God's timing. I hope He will send you a little Angel to earth sooner than expected though❤

So many around the world are praying for you. May your womb and the work of your hands be blessed

You are absolutely not a failure as a woman! I’m now 64 years old and have never been able to conceive despite medical intervention. I really feel for you to have conceived and have lost. I know the pain I felt trying months after month and it not happening. Like someone else said there are many ways to have children. We ended up adopting a beautiful baby girl who is now 37 years old and my pride and joy. I now have her and two wonderful stepsons due to a second marriage. Life takes strange twists and turns. Chin up, keep the faith!

Prayers for you and your husband, your household, I'm so glad to have you as my sister in Christ.💜✝️

Amen God is good!

The worst thing you can do is live in a neighborhood with bad neighbors.. it will take a toll on you…especially as a young couple you should be around a better community ..

Sending you hugs India and keeping you and your husband in my prayers 💖🙏

You are so brave India 💛💛💛 you are the first person I found after my ruptured ectopic pregnancy in January after losing my right fallopian tube and it helped me so much not to feel so alone 💛 I miscarried my second pregnancy at 7 weeks last month (after feeling sooooo happy that the baby made it where it supposed to be, funny how you see it from the other perspective now😁), so I know exactly how you feel. 🥺 Just want to say thank you for sharing, I think you helped more people that you will ever know 💛 keeping my fingers crossed for you 🤞 we will get there one day. You are amazing 🥹

This is exactly how I felt so I feel you. It took us two years to finally get pregnant. I always grew up thinking it would be easy for everyone to be pregnant. Your feelings are valid and yes you don’t need strangers telling you to stay positive but yes God knows the time and when it will happen ❤️ can’t wait for the day you do become pregnant. You deserve it ❤️

Hello dear India, You are such an inspiration always! Are you still on anti-anxiety medication? Could you please do a video on that as it really made an impact on me (positively) and I just want to know where you are at and what is going on at this aspect of your life. Lots of love, you beautiful soul!!!

Thank you for sharing the beautiful things God is doing in your heart! He is so faithful to us 💛

The lord knows our desires…be patient! God Bless you!

First! Happy weekend, India!❤

Sweet story at the end You are a true beauty❤

Love your vulnerability 💛

You are so NOT a failure! You are a Beautiful, kind, loving, funny and a Faith filled women. God doesn't make mistakes and when it's the right time it will happen. Continue to trust and have faith in God. The fence DRAMA, if you haven't done anything to anyone in your neighborhood, then girl pure jealousy!

No catamaran for me, seen the Jaws films too many times 😂 I'm grieving myself and I wish you all the best, neighbours can get hysterical over nothing 😊

You are human. You feel how you feel. There is still soooo much we don't know about how a woman's body works. God is a master artist. Keep trusting in Him.

I had a ruptured ectopic in December of 2022 and I’m still trying desperately to conceive. I just turned 34 and I’m so scared I may never have children.

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I needed to hear this today. Thank you. I'm choosing to hold on to God's timing.

All I'm going to say is thank you for your vulnerability thus far ❤

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Love you❤

LONG LIVE THE WOODEN FENCE

Weeping with those who weep….India and Daniel take care of

by the way India thanks for helping me figure out I have wavy hair n that's y it's so dry most of the time smile.

I wish I had enough time to care that much about a fence lmaoo

I just love you, and every time you post a video, no matter what it is about, I say a little prayer for you and your happiness. God is using you to reach other women going through your same situation and they see him shine through your life. As for your neighbors, just know that they are not shining the light of God which is really sad. They have got to be miserable and just trying to cause problems.

When any woman is going through a loss like this, there is something to remember .... We are not humans having a spiritual experience, we are spirits having a human experience. And that has good meaning from 2 points. The first is that God knows YOU are STRONG ENOUGH. You are strong enough to be able to tread through this grief. You are strong enough to know that there is a plan in this, and you are strong enough to wait to meet your babies in the hereafter. The other way to the the "spirits having a human experience" is to realize that your sweet babies only needed to be human for the briefest amount of time. Heavenly Father needed them to have just enough experience being human, and being yours, so that their spirits could move on to grow beyond this mortal realm. India, you are a mom. Your precious babies are lucky to have you and your sweetheart to love them the best way you know how.

🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾

Happy belated Mother's Day India 💐

Dude - your neighbors need to get a life. I absolutely love your positive attitude ❤

I'm praying for you! Praying for peace and joy and comfort in knowing God's got you. Also, I don't know how some neighbors can be so nosey and mean. Like do you not have anything better to do with your time🤷‍♀

I know it's hard and I'm sorry, but it will happen. When I had my miscarriage it took me another year to get pregnant. Then I had my son, and it took four years to get pregnant again with my second son. I never used birth control, but we just weren't very fertile (or something). Praying for peace for you and your hubby.

In Australia we all have fences like this! Don’t your neighbours want privacy?? Why would they want a see-through fence? It can be softened with trees and shrubs - they can do that from their side. Tell them to get a life!

Your neighbourhood sounds so intense. Yikes! Your fence looks totally normal!

I’m so sorry for all the issues y’all have been having. It’s really not easy. My husband and I accidentally got pregnant and after I got used to being pregnant and got super exited, we miscarried at 9 weeks 5 days. I really relate to what you said about feeling like you failed as a woman. A reminder that you are sooo far from having failed. The Lord provides and He literally created the female body to bare children. You will be blessed in His perfect timing.

Don't ya just hate it when you book an excursion for the wrong port? :) Glad you and Daniel were able to have a fabulous day anyway. Bless ya, darling.

I love your grateful attitude, you are an example of faith. May I suggest a book? It’s called Psalms For Trials by Lindsey Tollefson, it’s such an encouraging book to look to the Lord in our struggles and trust Him ❤

GIRL. I can’t with the fence gate still going😂😂 If it wouldn’t traumatize her, I’d be putting a dog line in the front yard and hooking Wednesday to it to obnoxiously bark at the men😂🤣 but of course we’d never subject her to that🤍 You are amazing. God’s faithfulness is never failing. Praying for you. Love you💛🌼🌸

Hey India, I am a little late but I watch the series Insatiable last weekend and I forgot you were an extra in that movie. I was like awweeee there's India! You did such a great job! That show cracked me up with all the ridiculous ness. Now you talking about a train wreck of a life Pattie (Debbie Ryan) . Things seem to just get worse and worse for her. Hugs and love to you🩷

I had a miscarriage in December at 14 weeks. I had a stomach bug in the beginning of April. Very sick for 5 days. This month my period was 5 days late, took two tests both navigate and than I finally got my period. I think the stomach bug delayed ovulation causing my period to be late. I would only have 4 weeks left until I would be meeting my baby and I'm struggling right now. Crying so much. Nothing was wrong with my baby as well. I fond out he was a boy. I had wanted a boy, I had plan to name a boy after my father and bother who are in heaven, and now my son is with them.

How funny that a fence could stir up non-existent drama! Hahahaha seriously, people are insane nowadays! 😂

Hello. I’m so sorry about your losses. Keep praying and ask God if it’s His will for you to adopt. There are so many kids out there needing great parents and you and your husband would be great. Ask God to give you signs. 🙏🏼 Also, don’t give up! God bless you! Ps I love your attitude and trust in God despite everything. 🙏🏼💚

It's a dang fence. If they hate it so much, they can put up their own fence to block the view on their side. But the petty in me, wants to convert it to chain link and let my dogs be a menace to the neighbors lol.

You are awesome, everything will be okey if you stand by God.