guy in vr talks about their ptsd 

Right? When he said women and children.. Thats some darrrrk humour.

Didn't know that until now, but I thought his voice fit the vr model really well.

@@lexiconwrites2188 Who’s to say whether it’s supposed to be humorous?

@@mrrec0very956 no one knows but him tbh. The military breeds dark humor though.

Yeah wouldnt be suprised if the anikin skin was deliberate

Exactly

Simulation upon simulation...

Moon... pies Seriously, though, this video was sweet as hell and I hope he has peace and stay in a good place.

Well worded. Yeah I think there's something about the feeling of being behind an avatar that helps people be more vulnerable and candid. Something about it lends a very (and somewhat ironically) human depth to the discussion. It's like it gives us all the most intangible raw emotional aspects of a person while stripping away all other distractions and biases.

Ehhhh. Not really a Children’s cartoon.

@M R same

Felt the same way, things affect people differently but can have a lasting affect for good when hearing someone else talk about their issues.

It's our ego that makes us feel that way. Even if someone try to make your trauma inferior, always remember that they don't have the power to make you feel anything, only you do.

I haven’t a clue where I heard it, but I remember hearing “Pain isn’t a pissing competition” one time and it’s never left me. I want Struggles to know that, everybody suffers from the cards their dealt, in different ways so theirs no need to compare wounds that are physical, mental, or emotional.

Air Assault!

Yep. I was diagnosed with PTSD at 10 years old. My mom was physically and verbally abusive. I'm in my mid-30s now, still dealing with it.

Yeah, this is night and day though, as the soldier murdered innocent people. Your partner is an actual victim. Trying to equate a soldier who invades a foreign country and kills innocents to victimhood is some next level hero worship and it's disturbing.

@@Petey0707 the solider who is ordered to kill people and listen to the sound of bullets of which any could kill them at any moment and watch their companions literally get their head blown off right next to them, and suffer nightmares for the rest of their life, is not the same person giving the orders who never has to be there. These men wake up screaming in the middle of the night for the rest of their lives. A lot of them commit suicide. People enlist in the army because someone has to, and then they're at the whim of the maniacs in power. You really have it all wrong.

@@grandolddrummer yea its the same thing. how are you not ashamed to tell that on this particular video il never understand. the men of your generation are an embarasment. man... y our grandchildren are gonna spit on your grave for the world you ppl leave behind

Yeah hearing him struggle for the words. I know that feeling. It's like the gears are sticking. I always just end up saying it's "weird" or something when I'm trying to describe the feeling I'm having. Feeling trapped is one way to put it, I agree with him on that. Like being trapped in existence. In an eternal prison that you'll never escape forever. Some days I feel normal, and then other days I fall apart. My partner is pretty understanding and listens to me sometimes for hours trying to explain. Like if I could just put it into words then it would stop. But I can't find the words, if they even exist.

Imma keep the likes on this at 💯.

I mean i guess he is a person

Was thinking the same

his youtube channel is called BadOmen Edit: He has changed his channel name to Struggle

Because he's in a good mood we don't know how often that happens

I would disagree. I think the irony and juxtaposition is funny. The facts are tragic still and I wish we would choose to evolve sooner. too much pain in the world.

Got to have a sense of humor about shit or it will eat you

Well comedy is Tragedy + Time so.

Better to find it funny than to find it tragic am i right? Cause laughing is fun but feeling sad is not, so why not laugh when ever possible, i say

@@spartanwar1185 cuz sometimes, laughing at everything bad prevents you from facing the issues in your life and solving them, leading to a your life gradually worsening over time as existing issues get bigger and invite new ones to appear I would know, self-deprecation and escapism are my main defense mechanisms

I know right...it was very surprising.

I think that's the power of body language being expressed clearly through VR movement, which for me is super impressive from a technological aspect.

I mean, you can do that from just his voice, that's not oarticularly weird lol

Damn bro. I'm sorry

I'm So Sorry For Your Loss I Know Your Words Will Have An Impact For The Positive

I am genuinely sorry for your loss. My deepest condolences

@@SolarPodcast The ignorance of that statement is astounding. That aside, to come here and insult someone in such a way when you could have easily kept scrolling and ignored it is just spreading misery for no reason. If you're depressed, get help and/or talk to someone. Don't drag others down with you. Atheists like you make the rest of us look bad.

The problem is, when I talk, no one listens.

Accurate

Yeah as a child I was a very angry person if you look at my comment you will understand a lot I'm a civilian with it I've never killed people not say that I haven't thought about it because I absolutely hate people until this day I still have those thoughts I can hate people and still see the good in people how I look over my shoulder all the time because I was I hated person because I was weird I was always beating up on I have a lot of trust issues

@@AliceHoftell what in the fuck are you going on about my duderino?

@chill ass turtle That wounded animal feeling is really the most accurate description for it. It gets a lot better if you work on it though.

@@ChillAssTurtle he made another comment and he has civillian ptsd

Thank you, Kyle. That means a lot. I hope you have a good night, and a great New Year!

@@StruggleGun Happy New Year, I have a question kyle, what was the size and girth of the male genitals in the military, and was there two people in the VR chat game? Or is it just you and Symour

@@StruggleGun Hey man, I'm glad you exist. Hope you have a good year too.

@@meehh2439 what the fuck was this question-

@@antoka5375 Im just wondering how the video was made, before i realized that there is actually three people in the lobby in total

@@SolarPodcast Sorry, but that kind of advice doesn't work, Sir. It's not always black and white.

Hope you are doing ok brother The rain claquety is soothing I tell myself

@strikermodel We hear you brother. Hope you're coping better these days.

I ended up in a mental ward due to stress at some point, and there were people there that had lost jobs, families, saw shit, could barely function, and I felt like garbage because of how much worse they had it

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@@davidpadilla1354 please take your savior complex out of this serious discussion

@@davidpadilla1354 What kind of word soup did I just get waterboarded with lmao

I’ve had this problem before with my illness, thinking myself inferior to others with it, because their experiences were so much more traumatizing than mine.

I 2nd this.

I got Star Lord vibes, for real.

his voice is amazing.

He's definitely got that "dashing rogue" type of voice

Probably because hes replayed thosr experiences countless times in his head.

Different people react different ways. It’s ok for those that experience PTSD to cry also. Sometimes that’s what they need at the moment to acknowledge their feelings. I deployed twice to Iraq and keep telling myself that I’m incredibly glad I never experienced PTSD like many others I know do. I was very judgmental about those that took their own life before I deployed. I may not agree with it, but I at least understand why those service members consider it now, as much as I wish they wouldn’t.

he seems like a real fun and cool guy but when he started talking about the helman river valley mission you can tell it still hurts. And thats something hes never going to be able to forgive himself for. I realy respect him for being able to be so authentic and vulnerable.

You're describing how most men deal with hard/traumatizing situations

I know you meant well with this comment, but just when other people read this, its completely ok to bawl you eyes out and make yourself vulnerable. If that's the only way you can express something then dont worry about being uncool while doing it

Yeah DV survivor here. I noticed that also.

Same here

Me too. Holy shit...

When I was in inpatient it was really common to do that with other people who have gone through similar or different things. It feels fucking awful yet reassuring in a way

Meet my friend, Shit, and my cousin, Fuck.

Hajaha

@@VTXHobbies they both smell weird

Richard, and Dick.

In my country at some regions there are parents that name their kids after medicines or give them famous actors names. I don't find it weird at all, just parents that don't think at all about it. And even sometimes the staff registering the name of the child ends up giving them the name because they often wrote it wrong because they don't know how the name is written. Even can be out of a whim, get confused, writing it on paper for them sometimes means nothing to them. Is not as common in these days, but it certainly still happening, and I can see him possibly having relatives named that way.

as much as I'm happy for you it's really sad you had to get that from here. best of luck mate.

Is it? I get out soon and it's not so much PTSD from deployments/etc, it's more so just being around 'those' kind of people. I know it's different on the outside, and I am seriously going to miss these people and the way we interact. I just can't take it anymore

Idk you but I appreciate you

thank you for your service. i hope things start going your way soon

Next to shrooms and lsd and weed ya lmao

Wish you and your family all the best

@@decode9160 same

Thank you for sharing. I'm from Östergötland as well. Wishing you all the best.

Good story and thanks for sharing.

Damn, I catched tears in my darn eyes from that one.

If you can afford a therapist, it legitimately helps so much

@Elementrider69 Trauma is like a credit card bill. As time goes by without dealing with it, the high interest fees add up to a very heavy bill....

@@duxdawg That's a good way to put it

If only VR wasn’t *relatively* expensive

I heard someone talk about it, ik some people were doing it with fortnite

Always gonna be them trolls though

I commented on the first video about all the props of applying VR to actual therapy, and I for sure will try to bring this option to the table once I graduate psychology (even if it means acquiring the VR stuff more than once). Some people could really benefit from a safe place detached from the "real world", and the ability to use a character has the same kind of effect, it would make it easier for some people to talk about hard stuff they couldn't on an actual eye-to-eye talk.

Fricken great idea. Hopefully the cost barrier can be brought down 😞

Glad for you bro

@@Vuohipukki thanks man. Two weeks in hell takes on a whole new meaning when you’re detoxing lol

@@alhassirakhdugani5813 Someone told you it was going to suck and you said and you just fuckin.. "hmm, not hard enough" *starts shooting up*

@@davidpadilla1354 God bless you, sir

@@davidpadilla1354 Bruh, what’s wrong with Avatar the Last Airbender?

If you found this interesting. There’s a few videos on the VetTv RU-vid channel where Donny sits down with a psychologist who specializes on working with veterans and people with PTSD. Honestly some of the best videos I’ve seen. Very insightful. Really helpful to me personally actually.

Put these VR chats on TED talks lol

I can listen to these stories all day. I have heard many, I’ve known many vets. I understand almost every aspect of war and hardship without living it myself. The question that people need to be asking is “Is this necessary?” I guarantee the people at the top sold their empathy and soul for power, money, and whatever else. No one person is “disposable” and everyone thrown into war faces something mentally destabilizing or physically debilitating. This kid served and still felt a moment where his own humanity was brought into question. I believe no one deserves to question their humanity if they are decent people. The United States hasn’t been in a real war since WW2 because none of the others were “necessary”. The survival of the country was not brought into question. Struggle paid his dues, suffered, and is rising from the ashes and will move forward in his life with a stronger understanding of “what it means to be human”. I’m proud and grateful for his service to both us during service and himself post service. Really think the leaders of the “free” world need to face a serious reflection on what is important because today we really only need special forces to remove undesirables and not create hate in countries already suffering. A smile, a tear, and a laugh are the true universal languages and we need more empathy for everyone to bring peace and care back to the world. Using women and children as human shields is what happens when an entire people hates an invader that has “rules and regulations”.

Talking to strangers isn't therapy

It isn't, but as the speaker had illustrated, it was easier to talk to people he didn't know than those he was close to. And talking truthfully about issues is part of accepting and understanding complex emotions.

Good, Lord.. Coming from wealth does NOT mean you were born with a superhuman mental-fortitude. Both Struggle and your story seem like too much to take on personally. I couldn't do what you've both done, let alone millions of other innocent lives. I hope you can both keep your heads held high and be proud of what you've both had to do with the situations you've been presented. I hope the both of you have long and beautiful lives.

That's not true anyone can join the military the only obstacle is passing a series of tests that are very basic I don't exactly know what makes us different because we signed a contract they made a call for people to come raise their hand to volunteer why we answered that call? I dont know, after that your life is on autopilot A to B to C then again and again, until you're injured no longer could do the job get in trouble and get kicked out or you reenlist the longer the mindset of a b c everything that goes in between that is what you'll be fighting for the rest of your life internally and physically military service makes you the person you are, instead of the person you thought you would be weather being successful or homeless, it will Define how your life is shaped after but whether success or failure after service there's always a piece that is missing from you that you'll never get back and you don't understand what it is because it can't be that Define

@@swaimdil wealth in non-western countries often comes with a metric shit ton of baggage, especially when it comes to maintaining tradition and honor. Not even a race thing, rich westerners are the only ones that afaik don't universally defy their kids desires in exchange for the honor they have cultivated for their family and the traditions that define what your family truly is. That means even if you are privileged, you still get saddled with shit sometimes. Granted less than poor people in the same place, but still to the level where it can seriously fuck you up, like PTSD through military service

Joe The Amazing Camel this was loving and moving to read, thank you.

Praise God. Jesus, who reigns, my Husband and Son of God, comes soon. USA(Babylon) will be invaded by Russia to the east and China to the west and will lose. NYC will be destroyed. Repent and focus on Jesus. Plead the blood of Jesus. Rapture is soon and the kingdom of God is near, so be holy. Obama is the antichrist and will use the rfid chip as mark of the beast with the False Prophet named Francis from Catholicism. There will be three days of darkness so please prepare as that will be when Jesus shall visit people. There will be fallen angels and giants and zombies and cyborgs and dinosaurs and persecution and many millions of deaths and disease like boils and tsunami to USA California and New Jersey and Florida and famine and fireball. Nuclear bombs shall strike. Canada and Europe and South America and asia shall also be affected with judgements. Time is short and Jesus is coming to collect a people without spot or blemish. Waters will turn to poison, The tribulation will be bad so enter rapture to escape. EMP coming to USA.All lives matter not just black lives. If you suffer from depression, anxiety, racing thoughts, mood swings, anorexia, suicide thoughts, loneliness, or have a disease, seek Jesus. Jesus can cure any disease. Husbands are head of the wives, husbands love wives and wives obey husband. Aliens are demons dont trust them. Osas is not always true. There will be a locust army that will wage war on humanity. Believe in faith to receive in prayer or you will not receive, those who exalt themselves shall be humbled but those who humble themselves shall be exalted first shall be last but last shall be first, seek Jesus and pray without ceasing, Keep 10 commandments even Sabbath, bless and not curse, repent of all sin, do unto others what you would want them to do unto you, harp music with praises to Jesus is biblical, read bible daily, cleanliness, no yoga or yoga pants, dont get COVID vaccine, love God, love others, avoid homosexuality, high heels, strife, sinful incest, guiding people into prostitution or lusting over nudity not married to you, Jehovah's Witness, witchcraft, sinful media like tv shows, unholy anime like death note and avatar last airbender and naruto and one piece and bleach, love of money, sex outside of biblical marriage, adultery, masturbation, porno/hentai, anal and oral sex and hand jobs, plastic surgery, football and idolizing football, merchants of the faith, addiction to facebook, sleeveless shirts and sinful shorts, sinful earrings and piercings, drunkenness, pride, smoking, gossip, lying,lacking faith, materialism, fictional books, dolls like dolls from Disney, no disney shows or movies, sinful movies like marvel, joking around, not loving God, unforgiveness, rap/music that doesn't glorify Jesus or God, cursing even parents, hate, suicide, videos games, trusting in self or humans over trusting in God and His Word, having any idol than Jesus, bikini and inappropriate clothing, sex with animals, arrogance, rebellion, Santa Claus, catholicism, 7th day adventist, lukewarmness, martial arts, freemasonry, energy drinks, skirts/dresses above the knee, tattoos, dying hair, star wars and the figures and movies and games, idolising sports and muscles and fitness and humans, abortion, islam, atheism, secularism, smoking cigarettes or marijuana or e cig, supporting or being a furry, orgies, swallowing semen, seeking the praises of men over God, burning government property sinfully, idolizing kpop stars or celebrities, hating God, dora the explora, cheating on your spouse with another person, bad thoughts like sexual thoughts and murdering thoughts, condoms, black goo, being rich in this life, loving this life, seeking popularity/ having favoritism/partiality,sex or lusting after animals or even children, racism, jehovah witness, mormonism, transgender, lies of evolution and big bang, flat earth, gambling, cheating or not paying on taxes when biblical required, mistreating orphans, bribes and taking bribes, leading at interest sinfully, murmuring, heresies, merciless, wrath, defamation, owing and being in debt, no affection, prosperity gospel, necromancy and mediums and astrology, hair extensions, God hates divorce, drinking human or animal blood, twilight book series, not helping the poor and needy and widows, not giving tithe (10% of income) and offerings, not being thankful to Jesus, not listening to parents, Halloween, 5g, avoid following other religion other than following Jesus Son of God. I am an unprofitable servant and least of everything by infinity. Best blessings to everyone every second forever by infinity God willing. Shalom aleichem.

my thoughts also

The thing that really sucks is that this self-awareness is almost exclusively hindsight.

Getting good therapy does that.

@@VTorb 💯

@@danceswithdirt7197 I agree.

lol

My buddy SHIT

Might as well be called that after what he said

Can't forget the creepy clown cam!

*looking a tad scarred joker!* (yes persona 5 reference)

He's the last thing you see before you die.

Therapy Cat. 🐱🐈😸😻

Then you also see Anakin Skywalker and a massive iron giant

Idk if this is funny or not, but, his cousin: you killed women and children!” And... he has... Anakin Skywalker... as his avatar...

@@donalds4506 broo I get your point. I didnt think of it like that...wow...what are the odds

@@stunningmean987technogamin6 I don’t know wether or not my joke is funny... every time I think of it I start to laugh, and then the realization hits me, and then I start to laugh... and then the realization hits me...

@@donalds4506 Really fucked up jokes are my favourite. Everybody hates us for laughing, but they can suck a mountain through a crack pipe and call me Billy.

@@tander101 oh crap thats funny

What happened?

I read this comment as he was talking about it lol

And then his talks about his cousin telling him "Well you killed women and children" and I'm now wondering if that anakin skin was intentional

Definitely intentional. Wouldn't be surprised if he identifies a lot with Anakin, because Anakin's story is pretty similar to his...

oh

@@MissPoplarLeaf wait does struggle become a cyborg with asthma too?

It nearly stopped me from seeking help, feeling like I don't deserve the help, like there is someone out there who needs it more than me, took me a long time to realise that what I have gone through in the last 7 months is reasons for people to end up pretty messed up, and it's not even scratching the surface of the things I have lived through, you don't need to be military to end up in life threatening fucked up situations, the kind that stick with you for a long time. Even so, I still can't bring myself to believe that I am worth the help I need

@@CanuckBacon I was the same way, and then I became horrible with either oversharing or not saying anything when I should have because I just couldn't navigate it and I still go through a lot of that dysfunctionality that now I overthink it and get very stressed out whenever I talk about what happened so talking about it isn't that helpful for me (It doesn't help when you also have trust issues)

Its messed up that people see it that way. Reminds me of how addiction is measured, you don't need to be a homeless, prostitute crackhead to deserve rehabilitation. We all have varying degrees of problems. Just because someone may be "worse off" doesn't mean others suffering less don't deserve treatment and that applies to everything, mental health, family counseling, etc.

Can relate. Got ex military friends with ptsd that has messed them up pretty good. Hell, myself I was a hard opiate addict for years and suffered from some ptsd from events surrounding that are even hard for me to talk about and messed me up pretty good, but I definitely understand feeling like someone else deserves such help more sometimes. I'm sure I'm not alone on that either tho. Just goes to show reading other ppl's posts in here that we're all fuckin human and everyone deals with hard times in their lives.

Very true. I've had very traumatic things happen in my childhood, including abuse, and I've always been very reluctant to even refer to negative aftereffects as PTSD because I hear things like horrific war stories, or people that went through abuse twice as bad as I did and I think to myself "those are the people with 'real' PTSD, if what I have can be classified as PTSD it must be on the mildest possible end of the spectrum". I get wrapped up in those thoughts and it causes me to downplay what I really went through and just feel weak.

Why hasn't he? Did he quit?

Still here

This may not be the best place but sweet profile pic

@@FantasticExplorers thanks 👉😉👉

@@eileenisshadow5853 thanks. she is pretty awful but I sincerely hope whatever damage caused her to do it gets fixed, so this doesn't happen to anyone else

Sexual assault is sexual assault. No matter who it happens to. I hope you're working through it okay

@@thegrayowl1557 thanks for the concern. treatment is helping alot and after months, im finally able to get restful sleep. I agree with what you said too. There is a stigma against male victims (example: how did it happen if your stronger/bigger? aren't you in the military, you could've beat her up. stuff like that) that people don't seem to realize, it can happen to anyone. To reply to that guy who deleted his comment, no. she was actually a very good looking girl. it had nothing to do with how she looks. im a happily married man to a stunningly beautiful and compassionate woman. It happened because of something commonly called date rape drugs. word of advice, you can be the biggest and strongest guy around, but drugs will still knock your ass down.

@@jamesfaulkner9403 Have you thought about reporting her to the police? Maybe then you'd be able to save some other men from going through the same experience

@@kaiwilson5218 I have thought about it. but I didnt want the legal strain when I'm about to get out of the military following me to wherever I go next. I get out in a couple months, and was told by the investigators from NCIS that it could take much longer than that. I didnt want to burden my wife anymore than this already has

Yeah, I've stopped opening up to people about what's happened to me because it tends to blow up in my face. Can only think of one person I told that was actually supportive. People don't believe me, they mock me or they use it against me. Even counsellors are guilty as well so I do not open up to anyone anymore.

one my friends did that with nearly everything I told him, and yet I still told him more every time. feel like a dumbass about it now

@@TheMadQueen96 Yeah I remember when I had something really shitty happen and broke down multiple times a day about it. Finally went to a counselor after being encouraged by tons of people and required too by my job and she just looked at me, literally crying in her chair, and said "well it can't be that bad". My dad's done shit like that too. Either they don't understand or they don't care, but those kind of people aren't ones you should care about either. I have an easier time now because I can tell everything to my girlfriend and she's always been supportive, but it's really hard to talk about certain shit with certain people. One of my best friends didn't believe something I told him before and stopped talking to me over it, so I know the feeling. I can say from experience that it hurts you more to keep it bottled inside though. You just have to find the right people

I was abused as a child, and would vent to my old friend group (who eventually conspired against me) and they, once they decided to berate and go against me, threw the trauma into my face as well as other trauma I experienced throughout my life. They boiled them down to: "You tell us dumb fucking sad stories that are nothing but your fault." Like yes, it is my fault that I was getting my head slammed off a sink by a 40 year old alcoholic when I was 13.

​@@Pundae It's been this way for almost a decade now. I've given up on finding the "right people" It was the same with childhood stuff too. To this day nobody believes me about what happened, even people who were present for some of the stuff that went down.

Yep, wasn't there a game where you could talk with people, weird that it didn't blow up more

"The shit people have to go through because of some arbitrary chain of command" If you have buddies wondering what the military is like just tell them it's exactly like their current jobs - office politics, bullshit rules, policies and/or regulations, but instead now you have guns and you and your buddies' lives are on the line.

Me too

@curtis allen being self aware makes for a good person all-around.

He is legit likeable af and brave

Right??

his voice is perfect for it

Hope this doesn’t offend anybody I really respect this guy for being open about his struggles and I pray for him. Just thought this might be funny.

@@calvin1559 your good man

@curtis allen we don't want the obi wan's turning into darth Vader's, but I get your point

@curtis allen Just cuz it’s joking about a serious situation 🤷🏻‍♂️

@@UCABrSfFxOw_91MsYSwPABqQ Theres no reason not be just he polite about things

Same.. if people even knew. Thank god they are oblivious.

@@sevnesioran6193 that feeling of "someone is going to find out" either that my experiences are too awful for me to be a good person or not awful enough to qualify as PTSD...yeah that's something that happens but Struggle is the first one I've seen talk about that part of it

@@azoe6764 Perhaps the first is the case.. if you were diagnosed and it affects your life then, unfortunately, you qualify as having PTSD. Don't worry.. the lesser the better, don't ever think what you are going through isn't important. It always is, for you and the ones you love the most.

I want to kick his cousin's rear so much. I don't care if he's related.

@@azoe6764 It's a thing. I was going to post my own experience in support, but then I thought, "My situation doesn't even compare. I'd get laughed at." The fact that I'm not suffering anymore seems proof enough of that. Realizing that circumstances were beyond my control helped me put it to rest quickly.

Not in North America, it’s a pretty quick trip all things considered

it's really not that bad lol

los Angeles al Paso is 12 hours; el Paso to Houston is another 12. Generally if it's under 24 hours we push through it to make it in a day.

@@elijahaitaok8624 8 hours is 8 hours. Unless u got a time machine.

Idk what you guys are doing where on your off days you can make an 8 hr trip to talk to someone and call it quick

I already isolated myself prior to the lockdowns. There’s been a long ongoing struggle with ptsd and suicide but I’m lucky enough to have been through years of therapy to help cope with recent events and manage myself and any dark thoughts pretty effectively. I know if I was ever in any danger alone that I’d be able to reach out to my support system and they’d come without any second thought. I can only hope other veterans and people with traumatic experiences have a strong system in place as well. I’ve lost five friends already, all of which might have been avoidable if someone had reached out and asked if they were okay. Keep a look out for your homies. Utilize the resources if you’re struggling. It’s okay to ask for help, it doesn’t make you weak. 1-800-273-8255 suicide prevention hotline

@@takanti Wish you the best bud.

@@takanti yup, nail on the head. Most people I know, myself included, just retreated further into themselves before getting help. I tried to bury my problems under a mountain of drugs and alcohol and it just triggered more episodes. I'd get overly aggressive and violent and didn't want to be around friends and family when I was like that, so I dug a hole and hid in it. It sounds cliche, but it really is just like dumping gasoline on a fire trying to self-medicate. If you're struggling, don't go it alone. Everyone needs a little help sometimes and you're no less of a person for asking. It takes a lot of courage to admit something's broken and you need help fixing it.

Yeah, accurate as hell, only problem is I internalize and over analyze instead of lashing out because I'm scared of hurting people, I am more afraid of hurting people around me than I am of the nightmares and sometimes my day is the nightmare, but it's not scary it's just mind numbingly long and empty and I just can't let it go, and it doesn't end, that's what's scary, and every little thing causing my body to react and use up my empty adrenaline reserves just leaves me feeling worse and more tired, but when I'm not using up what little adrenaline reserves i have, i feel wrong, weird, something isn't right and I end up scaring myself back into that state of adrenal fatigue.

i've been doing somewhat alright, since most of my friendships and support system were already online, but i can't deny that it's been rough even so. best wishes and best of luck to everyone going through the same thing 💙💙💙

Same here brother

Honestly that’s the part that broke me. Had a good cry sesh haha. Much needed.

I’ve had that exact thought before... *gigantic sigh*

I'm there right now my guy. Debating just taking a medical discharge because I hate what I'm fucking doing so much. BH offered one to me when I started hospital treatment

@@Pundae I feel ya man , medical discharge is the way to go in some cases just depends on how your unit is , mine is alright but they could be better

@@HazedVision Well it just sucks cuz I don't really have much else planned out. Like I could survive, and my fiance is military too so we'd still get benefits, and it'd be even easier to be with her if I wasn't in the military, but like I just still don't know if it's the right move

@@Pundae In the end its all up to you, 6 years is good enough for me man, got 2 left and then im off to live a somewhat normal life hahah

the man killed 30 civilians with his actions, he should be charged with war crimes in Geneva, not talking about his problems on VR chat.

It really didnt

it really did 😐 highly doubt you knew what you were talking about and just wanted to disagree lol but no this was incredibly accurate.

@@andrewstephens5885 I highly doubt you’re regarded as a man despite having male body parts

There's a second kind of PTSD. And tho they all deep down are about trauma. It's never going to be the same for everyone But i can definitely relate to this. Even though my trauma was a to long child hood

@@davidhatch40 If you're just gonna talk shit why bother replying?

I mean, it’s really Luke that turns Anakin/Darth Vader away from from the dark side, and one of the things that turned Anakin to the dark side in the first place was that he felt not only Obi-wan, but the entire Jedi Council didn’t trust him, as well as feeling that they were holding him back. So I guess I would say we all need a Luke, but idk.

@@donalds4506 Honestly if qui gon jin had trained anakin I doubt he would have turned. Obi won was not ready to take a padawan and they only formed a decent bond around the start of the second movie, when he was already much older. Anakin was constantly bullied and ostracized by other padawans and the council did nothing about it, and Obi won had no clue how to talk to him except to lecture him that his feelings were bad.

@@Pundae yeah I've heard this a lot, and I also agree. So maybe everyone needs a Qui-Gon?

We also need an Ahsoka.

Blessed be your soul.

I really resonate with your response here. having PTSD is like a ticking time bomb in your nervous system. Like one day all is cool and you feel completely whole and then something happens even slightly related to your trauma even in some abstract way, and all of a sudden you are back to square 1 for a moment, or a day. even a week. and it can come so out of the blue too. to the point where you get so mad at your brain like It's MY brain where is the off switch? and for some people that is where it gets super scary. Some people hyper focus on that shit, thinking "Well I really feel like I'm going to Die tonight. I have somehow convinced myself in a matter of 2 seconds that I am not going to wake up. Because I'm broken, my head hurts, my heart keeps changing beats and I can't focus on anything. yes this means death." and let me say, that shit is a nightmare. Then to have people be so open about their ptsd or trauma, and so readily available makes things feel a lot better that hey, you aren't on your own in this. well done. it's nice.

I appreciate your story, thanks

My dad is a Vietnam War Vet. He was in the Korean Army "White Horse Division". The only story he told me when he was in the greens in Vietnam was a piece of his ear got cut off from the grenade shrapnel. But the good news is he had the piece of his ear kept safe and the medic was able to sew it back on. My dad was a reporter (I think). He had recorded the war on camera. So either was a reporter or just recording the happenings in Vietnam for some purpose. I remember he told one of a Vietnamese restaurant owner some stupid shit about him killing NVAs. Like beheading them and sticking it on top wood stake in a jokingly fashion. But that is rude and stupid to say it to a Vietnamese refugee. But other than that he never ever talks about the war, to me or to my brother and my mom. He keeps everything to himself. Either he is scared of talking about what he went through, or he is very selective on what subjects he wants to talk about. And oh yea, seems like my dad never gets PTSD. He gets very emotional at times, but he never acted out on anger and anxiety. It seems like he is mentally intact at times. But I am no expert on mental health.

na fuck him, he got into that by his own account, now he must carry the burden. killing people is not acceptable.

@@arielulloa4146 Wanna know what's also unacceptable, those terrorists at the building setting up the army folks and making those innocent bystanders hostage, if anything, the ones to blame are the terrorists, you clearly didn't watch the first part, watch it all before you judge his character. EDIT: Also he didn't know about the bystanders, before you say anything. That's pretty scummy to attack him with knowledge he didn't know at the time.

@@arielulloa4146 it's easy to say that when you haven't been in his place

@@arielulloa4146 shut your mouth if you don't know what you're talking about

@@arielulloa4146 Successful countries have wars unfortunately. Be happy your country don't require to serve. People don't want to kill unless they have to.

while you are right that everybody deserves some compassion and understanding, i think its fair if for personal reasons a member of their family doesnt want to support a person who killed innocent women and children, even if they feel bad about it now

@@mejorge420 it depends man, life ain’t black and white... there’s multiple things that can occur.

@@mejorge420 I looked at your comment history and you're biased against the military in general. Like the other person said, it's not black and white

@@MischieviousJirachi biased against a group of racists who want to attack my people and brainwash the youth of america to do the same? how couldnt i be. you dont know what we go through. i dont know how you could watch this video and still support the military, look at what theyve done to this person!! they manipulate the young men who dont know what to do with their lives into killing innocent women and children.

@@mejorge420 You might be right. But that still doesn't justify disregarding his feelings and experiences

Oy sassy mate

I feel the same way. Just found this channel in my recommended and it really puts things into perspective sometimes.

Whaddyatalkinabeet

To stumble across something as wonderful and compassionat as this channel is something that I will never take for granted. This man is doing something so simple,he let's these people speak their stories because sometimes all you need someone who is there to listen. Someone who you can express to in fullest extent what happened and what you were feeling in that moment or before that moment or even years after that moment

hehey sas mate

Are they wrong? If I had been in a tech behemoth showering down ordnance on civilian positions I might feel a little like I was on the Death Star

They are though

Or he just likes anakin from the clone wars

@@Vaposer you really have no clue what your talking about

@@kylerf2076 *you're

I guess there is some humor or irony in that but that’s some real trauma he’s got so I don’t really find anything like humorous about that

@@xXoverrageXx Not humor, but as someone else noted in the comments, his choice to depict himself as Anakin likely was an intentional one as he may identify with the character

@@xChemistryFTWx beat me to it.

“And not just the men! But the women, and the children too!” -Anakin

This comment made me cry, I don't know who you are but I needed to hear that, Thank-you, you just saved a life ❤

Thank you so much, kind stranger

Thank you, happy late 2021 :))

@@bassboostwoof6123 yea I did that

It is common for them to use civilians as shield to protect themselves against attack like this, it is common tactic. Even if you knew civilians are there you would probably do same thing that is war.

@@MarkoLomovic Nah, I'm not in the military but I know that civilian lives take top priority. There is no chance that they would open fire on a building if they had info about civilians in the area. This was just unfortunate that the Taliban were willing to risk the lives of innocents to protect themselves

@bangythebrav Yeah, I've seen this disconnect between info available, viewpoints, and judgment work several ways. Publicly, some politicians/pundits use the "you haven't been there so you don't have a right to debate it" card to push for an agenda that perpetuates the conflict. I feel like all I can say is that I am critical of the political and policy decisions that created our messes, but I support the commanders and soldiers who do their professional best in hard/impossible non-ideal situations. When the military does find or reveal failures in judgment or behavior, I see and hear about a mix of visible (for PR reasons?) measures to address the problem, as well as cover-ups to make problems quietly go away without addressing their causes. So I default to wanting to believe in their professionalism b/c I'm just a civilian, but I also want to know that the military's own oversight departments/committees are sufficiently empowered to police itself. I know from business management that organizational cultures (corporate, in my experience, but definitely just as true of military depts as well) have a tendency to protect themselves from and ignore problems they don't want to deal with, creating systemic/institutional issues that sometimes blow up later down the road. On a more personal level, I have a friend (Marines) who acted like he was blowing off a similar incident by saying that it was a bad situation, but better them than him and some much less pleasant things (along the lines that it'd be better to turn the desert to glass). I'm pretty sure he's actually capable of empathy b/c I can hear and see how much his commanding officer's death affected him, and what he did to help his CO's family. I can only assume he was coping with some kind of "fake it till you make it" and/or tough guy thinking to avoid taking too much of the impact onboard at once. Another friend of mine (Marines, some kind of recon?) said yeah it sucks, it happens despite what you do to minimize collateral damage, it's not on you, but you have to stop short of passing it off as "well they deserved it" or similar to the glass desert comment. B/c if you get too used to thinking the latter, it further dehumanizes noncombatants who don't deserve it. Imperfectly, if that's what it takes to protect yourself, help you move on, then it works. But also have to be mindful of what that kind of negative coping can itself do to you. Sorry if that may have been a bit disjointed. I think the contradictions I heard in their conversations mean that there is a difficult tightrope balance between distancing yourself enough to minimize your own trauma, and overcompensating so much that you end up becoming a hate-filled person just b/c you were trying to protect yourself. And avoiding judgment (of the self, of hearing someone dealing with it, etc.) for lack of info or understanding is key.

@@dakaodo I think I get what you're trying to say. I'm not trying to say that the civilians deserved it or there was no mistake made. I'm trying to say that when presented with a situation and limited resources, you have to do what makes the most sense with what you have. I would value the certainty of saving the pinned down soldiers to the risk of potential civilian casualties. I think it is the people who prepare the field who are responsible for the risk of the civilians in the area. The mistake if any on the american side of things I think rests at the feet of those that created or allowed the situation to happen. They didn't have any middle ground or recourse to support the soldiers other than the gunship. Gunships I don't think can do anything less than significant damage to a whole building. They weren't given the tools needed to ideally address the situation that happened. At the same time, don't wipe out an entire village because a few guys set up in one building. If you know there are civilians in the building, it becomes a harder question in my mind. It is similar to the classic trolley problem. The difference is though that you don't know if anyone or how many would be hurt if you flip the switch to save the ones you can for sure see.

@@wumbosaurus9121 Dude you need reality check I can tell you as someone who got bombed by US first hand. in 1999 US bombed the shit out of many civilian targets here in Serbia and not even hospitals were of the limits. They pretty much dumped their expired armament because it was cheaper. If that doesn't tell you how much they care about civilian life I don't know what will. Now imagine what goes on in full on war like iraq where it is impossible to track war crimes.

I know the military does say they support soldiers getting help. But I can tell you. I had a crisis mid term, and I bought the bullshit then went and got help. Well it did help me...it bit me careerwise so yeah...the military breeds that.

@McGinnis 34 I lost my gun rights for seeking help a few years ago. Not to mention how expensive it is to seek professional help. The system is terrible and almost forces you to deal with things on your own. If you seek help it feels like you’re being punished for doing so. Locked in a mental ward, gun rights taken, treated like some psycho by people who find out. It’s awful

hey, thanks for staying alive, although ideally no one would want to die what you feel is a decent second, good luck with the therapy

You’re so brave and congratulations for going to therapy, I’ve recently started therapy as well, we got this, you’ll get through it, God bless🙏🏼

Hang in there, I was told to perpetually survive the next ten minutes and as desperate as that sounds, it helped. Please hang in there. Small pleasures. Whatever it takes. I am over 4 years since I was brought in for help. Life has gotten so much better and more tolerable. I know you posted this days ago, and I'm sorry for replying late.

That’s how it be. It’s really fucking hard to go through the motions and it’s even harder to get better for yourself. Something that helped me is try to do better for your loved ones. Because if you don’t want to do it for yourself you won’t. And keep working for them and eventually you WILL do it for your self. Life really fucking sucks but it can get better. You may or may not read this but STAY STRONG. It’s really fucking hard but savor those moments where it all feels alright, cause those moments are what makes living worth it. Keep moving, and take care. Have a good day sir :)

There’s nothing more painful than the feeling of shivering numbness in your bones. Set a goal Dylan. Force yourself to go outside and talk to strangers. Make memories. Be selfish about your life. Show kindness and let their smiles fuel yours. Hope you’re doing ok man