And imagine being complicit in that! Going in to work monitoring the hallusinating 11 year old. Even if they don't know why the prisoners are there I just can't imagine how you would be okay witnessing this
I can't help thinking the demons he saw were like literal psychic echos of the people there. Probably was hearing them laughing while watching him on the video. And then to have them all be the people that help him back out of that mental space..... literally brainwashing and torture tactics...so fucked up
we're going in a far worse direction then that my friend , far FAR worse in a couple decades when you accidently farted in a store , you will be put to death on the spot , THAT's where we're going !!
Anything beyond 15 days in solitary confinement is considered "cruel and unusual punishment" and is considered a WAR CRIME. He could easily sue the state for a shit ton. and win.
"easily..." except for the cost of good lawyers, inadequacy of state-provided lawyers, the state's legal defense that will always find a way to sway the judge, and the stigma on mental health that might make the judge think it's perfectly fine anyways. there is no "easily" in our country when somebody in power has something to lose
The American justice system does. It is a socially unjust system for criminals and the fact that some silly school fight with elementary school kids ended up with someone being put into isolation is sickening.
@@hepbep_ It would be nice if the US focused more on their police and healthcare rather then spending $800 Billion on the military, just to end up using that money to do awful things like bombing large groups of civillians in Syria on multiple different occasions.
Jesus Christ. After this horrific system put this kid through *5 months of solitary* he then wasn't able to afford the medication he needed because of another awful system? My heart just broke for this guy, I'm so glad he has a loving wife and a son he so fiercely loves
But it won't change because Americans are shown the most propaganda and they think that Medicare is bad and the economy will collapse because they are told that private health care is the only way for the country to continue. It's the same with working hours and wages, everyone is just told that if the minimum wage went up then everything will collapse. The only way for this to be fixed is to go to the roots of the problem which is the companies that run the country, they have the money to bribe officials (Lobbying) to lean with the policy that will give that company the most money as soon as they are dealt with and their ability to bribe officials is when things will change.
Hahahahaha, in my country venezuela the police sistem doesn't work, so that means that you can punch a kid and nothing happens you yust go to jail by a week
@@Cool-Cat1 uh, are you American? The thing is this happens everywhere. Scandinavia is an ULTRA capitalist society even more so then people think, Corporations had little competition there and funded many welfare programs and lobbying campaigns. Compare that to China or the Soviet Union that become privatized and basic forms of healthcare is more expensive then the United States itself. I despise America but this ain't it, Military bases everywhere, interventionism, etc... that's what I criticize them more about. Unless there is a government/political faction that is not guilty of lobbying, (which every group in existence is guilty of, Unions themselves run HUGE lobbying scams), I think you need to recode the human thought process entirely, or at least think realistically.
@@asscheeks3212 You bring up Scandinavia when talking about healthcare but did you do any research on the countries within Scandinavia (Sweden, Norway, Denmark) the healthcare for each is completely different that the American healthcare system. For example Sweden has paid healthcare but for a basic checkup at the doctors it cost 110 - 220 SEK or around 10 - 20 USD. In Norway healthcare is very expensive at around 6,000 USD per person however Norway has universal healthcare coverage which means that you pay towards it by the government taking a small % of your pay from both employees and employers meaning it is still cheaper than the American healthcare cost at around 10,000 USD per person which is 4,000 more than Norway. Finally onto Denmark, Denmark's cost of health insurance per year is 1,560 DKK or 230 USD and it covers most injuries with a few having to be paid for by a private healthcare insurance company. There is more with Scandinavian countries though Norway, like most other countries has a war on drugs, however the Norwegian government dealt with their heroin problem differently, it wasn't with jail time and extremely high fines they instead gave out free heroin to addicts which was clean and not laced with anything, they had clean needles to reduce the spread of diseases such as HIV, they had doctors on the ready in case of an overdose and they had people there to help you get back on track with your life and break the addiction. The way America deals with drugs is violence which doesn't stop the drugs, they may stop one big producer but that just makes 10 smaller producers pop-up selling the drugs that could be laced with anything. What's more is that the majority of drug offences are by black people in the USA however take the same amount of drugs and put it on a white person then they get less jail time or none what so ever only a fine. I agree the human thought process has to be changed but it won't with the way things are heading as I said in my last comment the people in America are thrown and fed propaganda on a daily basis about how if they change their ways the economy will collapse and that you have to keep paying anywhere from 10,000 USD to 150,000 USD to keep living the "American dream" but it won't change anytime soon the first step is to give the working people a voice and it starting to happen with more and more people quitting their jobs because of how they're treated and because of how much they're paid but that is only the start once the working class have a voice then the American government will have to listen or else the economy will collapse. Sorry for another wall of text I just feel quite strongly on this subject as it has affected me and people that I've known.
Solitary confinement should be recognized as the HUGE 8th amendment violation that it is. Anyone who would put anybody into solitary confinment deserves ZERO respect as a human
Well yes, but also if you see someone absolutely pounding someone defenseless they should have some kind of solitary, but God, never for more than an hour or 2.
I mean if some 30yo methhead kills his cellmate with a some makeshift weapon and is still aggresive then put him there for a while until he calmes down, but anything more than a couple hours longer than prisoner calming down should be an actual crime punished by some real shit fine and maybe even jailtime if it's obviously malicious
I used to work for the Department of Mental Health in my homestate, I found out that people are committed to a prison ward for any kind of behavior that can be considered violent and those who are committed are likely to NEVER be released. I worked at a prison as a therapist and the things I heard from co-workers made my blood run cold. "Don't treat them as people", "Don't trust any of them", "Lie about your identity if you have to, never talk about yourself", "Leave your emotions at the gate and be ready to work". We had something like isolation but it wasn't this severe thank goodness. I still remember this, one resident slashed his leg to the point that his cell's floor was COVERED in his blood and I saw the inside of the wound, it was that deep. His reason for doing that? "I just wanted to go outside", that fucked me up for a long time. That program I worked in was thankfully discontinued, working there made me question my morals a lot. I became a mental health advocate because of that job, no one should ever be treated that poorly because there was a lack of proper mental health care.
Prisons should be places of rehabilitation, help people answer for their crimes and become a functioning member of society. Most people use them as places of torture, to get cheap kicks
I cant count how many times a guard got too trusting of a prisoner and paid the ultimate price for it, they were right to give you the warning, You dont know what some of the people in prisons are in there for, it can actually be worse than murder and assume they are in there for a reason, and one guard getting captured can put more than themselves at risk.
@@scorpionhdkid8972 In Norway they have a very different mindset than say the US. It wouldnt work here. If prison were like norwegian prisons youd see alot of people reoffending on purpose so that they dont ever have to worry about bills or working again.
This guy: -Didnt fight back. -Was on probation for a little kid fight. - Literally went insane. -Started hallucinating and tasting different things. Other kid: -Fought him. -Probably just got a spanking. -Didnt go insane. -Didnt hallucinate.
I kinda scared because that this will happen to me because of some dumbass starting some shit there is idiots who are so stupid that trigger me on purpose
@@HelpIdkAGoodUser301 A kid on the bus choked me in elementary school because I touched his origami and all they did was have him sit at the front of the bus. The vice principal made it seem like I was overexaggerating it. My teacher called my mom because she knew I needed to go home after that.
@@quixotix9540 it is but it's a torture of sensory deprivation and colour. But I can take that easily I don't know about others though. As far as it concerns me the opposite would be far worse. Sensory overload kills many people everyday much more than deprivation ever has even though they're both torture methods that's been used.
Over the years, as I learn more about human and animal biology I'm really beginning to understand that isolated cells are a pretty terrible form of cruel and unusual punishment, that should, under the law, be banned. I don't understand how the people who enstate forms of torture are able to continue on with giving people mental trauma, I guess that's what becoming morally numb does to you.
He seems like a sweetheart. He didn’t deserve what he went through, and I hope that he can continue to get better because he truly deserves good things and to have a sense of peace. I also extend that to anyone reading this. I love you all 💕
I think you're true...some people went wrong sometimes... We have to help them coming back Some people want went wrong, cause a great lack of character, like TRUMP or Putin as my examples.... They need also need help in another matter.... His story here is bad and very sad....
Man. Torturing a child on purpose to the point of hallucinations for 153 days leaving them with lasting problems differentiating between what's real and what's not. To the point that they sometimes feel like there's no way out. Messing up a brain that bad.. and for what?
@@pizzapixel9148 Honestly that's probably the long and short of it. I've dealt with a handful of corrections officers and people in positions of authority in the criminal justice system, and none of them were able to leave their egos at the door when they put on the suit. Seems quite the opposite. When you go to jail and ask for advice, they don't say, "Don't break the rules." They say, "Don't upset the guards."
Honestly, it's a rule. If you talk like a "bad person," they treat you like one. They treat you like a monster that deserves nothing. The belief they have is, "you committed a crime, it involved assault, and you talked badly to an officer. You deserve the worst reality ever because you wanted it." The moral of the story is: Don't break any laws because you risk your mind breaking if you do. If you do break laws, don't ever be rude. If you're aggressive or even assertive, you risk making it worse. Passiveness is the key to survival in a world made solely of criminals and police officers. Long edit for clarification: People seem to believe I am victim blaming, when I am simply saying the consequences of a justice system that focuses on punishing people, rather than reforming, and helping others. What it does is punish others, by treating them worse than they are, if they don't follow orders. He was put in a prison, an environment that dehumanizes the people there. Then the rule of "listen to the officer, even if your needs are disrespected, or else," was put in place. Putting the officers in power, and further dehumanizing the prisoners. This rule also meant to never be aggressive, or even fully assertive. One has to be passive-assertive, or fully passive, and never asking questions. You follow orders, or have a bad time. He was dehumanized to the point where the officers believed treating him like a monster, and breaking him was the best option, so they did, because it would get him to follow orders out of fear, rather than respect. The officers don't care which reason it is, they just want people to follow their orders. Nowhere did I say it was fair treatment, nor do I believe this was fair at all. I only said that this treatment was a result of the belief of the police officers, and the dehumanizing process of an environment like this. The best tactics to survive in a situation like this is passiveness, as you follow orders, and thus are safe from further harm. I understand if you thought this as it seemed to imply I was siding with the people who broke him, my words should be more clear, and I am sorry for any misunderstandings I may have caused.
I absolutely agree Solitary confinement is so fucked up. Absolutely inhumane, torture. I’ve heard so many horrifying stories from people in solitary confinement, it really needs to end
This is very traumatizing for a child, how did they not notice? This broke my cry point at the sentence, "You don't know how much that hug meant." sometimes, the little things can be the best things. I want to come over and give this man hugs, gifts, affection, anything that will help that I could do. I wouldn't want to imagine being in a imaginary world knowing you don't belong there, that's not where you are. The best feeling you could ever experience is fading back into your world, knowing this is your reality. -c
The prison system i abusive and they eiher were too numb and didnt care and werent encouraged to go againt that that want to just abuse power. And if seeing, ike why would they care?
I'm beyond disturbed knowing that the prison system does this to people, nevertheless a child. How heartless must you be? Poor guy. I hope he's doing better now.
I’m even more amazed by the fact the second they got out they had to stop therapy because their government would help pay the huge mess they caused for this person.
Holy shit I just want to cry... hearing about this sounds absolutely horrifying, but the realisation that he was a child? They did this to a child? I can't believe our world.
I started crying so hard, I relate to this dude about dealing with his phychosis, my’ns very similar to how he described his and I wasn’t even put in isolation for more then a week, my heart really goes out to him and anyone else struggling with trauma, hallucinations, depression or anything
When and where did this fucking happen? I worked in a jail for about three years and we didn't even treat murderers who actively fought us like this. I am so sorry they did this to you. It was completely undeserved.
@@soapchan6016 I work at a county government now and have known people who work in the juvenile facility. I don't know what it was like back then but now the biggest danger to the kids is the other kids because there is next to no disciplinary action for ambushing and beating one another. There's always an investigation whenever staff have to use the slightest amount of force and isolation isn't something they do over there. They mostly just lose ipad privilege for a time for knocking out Timmy's teeth.
probably in the 90s. i recently came out of 2 years juvenile detention and it wasn't like this at all. i heard from some of the COs that the 2000s and 2010s was rougher, but far from that sort of punishment. the biggest danger was each other.
The fact that they could see through the camera that he was losing his mind and still left him in there...how could you care so little about another human and a kid at that. What they did to him is unforgivable.
That made me remember old wounds from when I was a child. My father always locked me in a room of probably 1.5m x 2m without windows for hours and even days, depending on his mood. And my mother couldn't do anything because my father was part of the police, so if she tried to do something like run away with me, they would probably "disappear" her, as we say here in Mexico. Anyway, after many things, I no longer live with my father, so I no longer have to worry about his blows and above all, that damn room. Now I'm thinking about leaving this country and going to live in Canada because I'm already artful of hearing every day on television of people being killed to the point that people are no longer surprised and take it as something normal, including me. Anyway, I think I got a little out of the topic, I just wanted to share this experience that I don't wish on anyone else
I hope your doing alright now man that sucks my cousin had a similar kidnapping story in india by these gangsters very small rom and was stuck in their for 2 days
I don't care what anyone has done as a kid, NOBODY at such a young age should have to experience this, I hardly think an adult should have to. This should be severely illegal. Who would dare put a child through this?? These adults, trying to discipline a child, have now created so many issues that can surely continue into adulthood. Not just for this beautiful soul, but for many others. Stay strong man, I hope things continue to get better
The saddest thing is, this is classed as a banned form of torture in many countries, And he was placed in there as a child willingly, as were many others. Unbelievable
@@ComradeCorvus and yet people say the captiol riots were the worst thing to happen to America yeah right maby they were our last hope to end crap like this.
@@ComradeCorvus Improve it then. Not sarcastic. Nothing will happen if you just cry about it. Do protests or become a leader or member of Congress. Moving to another country will just hide the problem from you not solve it.
This entire thing is fucked up. Imprisoning a young child for getting into fights at school, pushing them around and treating them with ABSOLUTELY no respect, locking the kid in solitary confinement for 153 DAYS for talking back to the officer. What the absolute fuck. I hope this guy or someone else who experienced this sues the state for cruel and unusual punishment.
Yeah the US system is absolutely fucked up. All this happened for practically no reason. It was a fight between ten year olds and it probably wasn’t even bad. I really hate this shitty world.
Not sue the state. Sue the fucking US. Tell me a bigger violation of human rights. If the US wasn’t a superpower, it would recieve such a big backlash from almost literally every country that’s not under a dictatorship.
I've dealt with psychosis for a really long time and the hallucinations where your world is different around you are weird but typically the mindset / feeling / reaction you have in that moment is the more jarring thing to look back on- at least for me There was one year, December 2017, where I got horribly sick and it just wouldnt go away and my parents are neurotic as hell, so they isolated me in my room, didnt let me come out at all other than to get food or use the br, wasnt allowed to see family for the holidays or new years, etc, spent them completely alone as they went out. It got to this point where i didnt even feel like at times that there was a world or universe outside of my room? Like I was trapped in a box, and to make it worse, ig my door around the time was breaking so every time i opened it, it became harder and harder to open, it got to this point where id have to use as much strength as possible just to tear it open with a pop and that made me feel trapped even more. anyways there was this one instance i was in my computer chair just catatonic asf, i dont think i was even really doing anything, i was just sitting there, and both the floor and ceiling became an endless black void- I dont remember watching it transform into that, i just suddenly noticed thats how it was, and its not cos it was too dark- i had my mini lamp on, and it was snowing. I think I may have thought of it as falling ash but it basically looked like calm, slow snowfall and i had no reaction to it at all, i just kinda like acknowledged it was happening now compare that to experiencing psychosis when you're not catatonic- itll be things like me seeing thousands of bubbles just appear and not pop and i can move them with the wind by slashing at them, that would sometimes freak me out just based on the fact i knew it wasnt real, but having a void in my room? nothing. Also just noticed this guys name is Shane, i too am a Shane
I cannot stop thinking about this, picturing the kid.... He was so helpless. I don't think I'll ever forget his story, I'm so glad that he has a loving family now. I hope that his baby knows how much he means to his daddy, and I hope that they make tons of beautiful memories together. This guy deserves a to have beautiful life.
How disgusting that they did this to a child. The abuse of authority and excessive punishment for just getting in a kiddie fight and mouthing off is just appalling. These police today are so corrupt to do this to a small child. You got in an argument with your friend? Why don’t we resort to war crimes? That totally won’t give them lasting trauma and hallucinations. Disgusting
Not to mention those solitary confinement tactics were the ones being used before being banned at the Geneva Convention for ww2 inhumane torture towards prisoners of war. Sickens me to my core that this happened to a kid for a petty felony.
@@SuperPewdiepieLover it’s simple. Authorities want a mentally unstable dependent person so they can house them as a slave to the prison industrial complex.
The fact that he's able to tell this story within virtual reality, which literally creates a space that doesn't exist, and able to differentiate it actively, shows how he has indeed improved leaps and bounds. Glad he's doing ok and getting better every day.
idk about him, but when it comes to my own personal experiences, the fact that VR exists how it does actually makes it easier for me to deal with. the fact that there are other worlds that aren't real but can be interacted with makes it a bit easier for me, especially when i can just take the mask off when it comes to vr.
I have an eerily similar experience to his and the only comfort I can share is that I'm much, much better now. I have severe chronic illness and pain that started at age 11, at age 12 I had to drop out of school. My parents were cruel to me and would sometimes go out of their way to pretend I didn't exist. From age 12-13 I did not leave the house, and from age 13-19 I got to leave the house a total of 4-8 hours a week if I was lucky. If I tried asking to leave more they would threaten to not let me see my therapist (one of my weekly hours) or tell me I was a burden to them. I already had poor mental health due to suspected sexual abuse before the age of 2(I have no memories but have shown symptoms as a child of this happening). Due to my isolation and my parents berating me I started going insane. I started developing DiD and at one point had around 15+ alters, I had near constant delusions (being not real, being a god, being a fictional character), I would have panic attacks every night because I was terrified of the monsters I hallucinated in my room killing me in my sleep. I was never really there. I dealt with more abuse in that time as well, having some relationships my parents would sometimes allow me to have, which ended up in me being raped at 14. I just generally had no grip on reality and started thinking that my plushies of my favourite characters were real and would speak to me. At one point I developed a dark spot on the wall in my closet because I would sit in there with the lights off and gently hit my head against the wall. I was having hallucinations frequently as well, of all kinds. But: at 16 I met someone online, we started talking, and started dating. She would pay for flights for me to go visit her and because she was able bodied and could drive she would take me places and I started very slowly improving. At 19 we moved in together and I started being able to sleep at night without hallucinating because I felt safe. And I slowly stopped having delusions or visual hallucinations. I now only have much more mild tactical hallucinations and rarely some auditory hallucinations. I'm 21 now, we're married, and it feels like a fog was lifted from me. I don't think I'll ever be 100% but just feeling safe and having someone to spend time with all the time has brought back a lot of my mental clarity
I can relate to this so very much. Jesus this takes me back. Granted it was 2 weeks straight only. Mine was a padded room, he’s right, not very well padded. Numerous times I found myself in multiple totally different places, I tried explaining all this to my girlfriend at the time who I was very much in love with at the time. She’s never spoken to me again. This guys story is the only thing close to what I also experienced. The only way out was to go somewhere else. I can only assume that’s what my mind was doing to me at the time. My heart truly goes out to this guy, solitaire is no joke, though the guards sure that it was awfully humorous. Best I can tell I’ve recovered just fine but it certainly took a few years. It was the wildest experience of my life no question and maybe only 3-5 people have ever heard me speak of it. I’m some ways I don’t want to post this comment but I want this guy to know he’s not alone. By the way to be clear, I volunteered to serve my time for a D.U.I and was place in solitary after defending myself in a fight just so there’s no wonder why I was arrested in the first place. I’m sure some may be curious, I would be.
His main symptom he is trying to voice is not psychopathy, but rather psychosis. Psychosis is having auditory or visual hallucinations with a general disconnect from reality, and is common in disorders such as schizophrenia. Solitary confinement is a punishment reserved for the worst of the worst criminal offenders such as murders, rapists, and traitors, so to stick a kid in it for as little of a reason as mouthing off, thats beyond horrible. To the subject of this video, I'm so sorry you had to go through this, and the cruelty one human can inflict upon another seems to know no bounds. If there's any justice in this world I hope those people that subjected you to this hell pay in accordance to your beliefs. However, please seek help. As you undoubtably understand you have long term adverse mental side effects from what you've been subjected to. Don't "be a man" and try to suck it up, it'll only make it worse. Seek professional help or at very least fully confide in your wife. Having the support of another does wonders to alleviate our burdens, but you already know that. Your account of your experience brought me to tears, please be well, friend.
The fact a child was treated this way by grown ass adults is utterly disgusting. The despicable abuse of authority and excessive cruelty of it. This poor human being. What monsters. Solitary confinement is evil.
@@marissahero6085 Solitary is inhuman even for the worst monsters out there as it is mental torture that you have to stoop as low to the filth they put in there to fathom. Solitary does not teach, it destroys you and refuses to rebuild you to be better. Your personality and every detail about you is stripped into nothing but a monkey in a tight concrete box. Once you're released you are never the same, not in a way that is beneficial, but you become a husk, a lifeless corpse that once released will cling to trusted relatives so they can heal what is left of their annihilated mental health.
@@Cheznbiz I work in a jail. I didn’t say prolonged solitary confinement, I do agree that’s cruel. But every piece of shit woman beater, child molester or murderer that wants to not cooperate on purpose just to be a dick needs a nice time out every now and again.
@@Cheznbiz Then what do you propose be done when someone is irate, having a mental breakdown, a danger to others and themself? Do we just give them a finger wag and keep them in gen pop? Solitary confinement is necessary in certain instances, but should not last an excessive amount of time, only until the individual is calm, safe and evaluated by mental health immediately after. That’s protocol at my facility.
5 months in isolation as a child….. that is severely messed up. I can’t fathom how bad that must’ve been for you. Stay strong and know there are people who do care and support you no matter what!
Up until about 8:30, I had a similar experience (due to severe childhood paranoia), and it already felt like hell to me. I couldn't imagine going any farther than that. I feel so great that you managed to make it through that.
I feel that over a week in solitary confinement is too cruel a punishment for a full grown real criminal let alone a child who got into a little fight. I’m surprised that these people can do something like this and go to sleep at night knowing they are traumatizing possibly ruin a kids life.
@IAm Nana I would argue that the guards can inflict far worse punishment upon you than the criminals can, the worst they can do is violence. The cops have the whole list of the worst possible ways to torture someone without even needing to touch them, along with violence
@IAm Nana im sure the inmates cant do anything worse than beating you a little and then the guards come and stop the fight if it gets too out of hand Guards can change your enitre life without even needing to do much
those who had the power to help prevent this from happening, to a fucking child, and did nothing or even perpetuated in purpose, deserve to feel what its like themselves. all 153 days of it.
I can *MAYBE* see a couple days or even a week for a full grown adult, but honestly 2 days is traumatizing enough for a kid. If they committed a very serious crime such as murdering multiple people then maybe 2 weeks to rattle them up. 21 weeks, especially for a kid, is just fucked up.
Seeing his vr character shake and his voice crack during parts of his story was devastating. Especially when saying he hopes his wife doesn't think less of him. Words can't express how sorry I feel he was forced to go through something so inhumain. Shane, I want you to know you are honestly an amazing human being. Your compassion and empathy are incredible and I hope things will continue to improve for you. I'm so glad you found someone that you love and that can offer you support, and I hope that you'll be able to share more of this with her, without fearing she will think less of you. I am certain you mean to her just as much as she does to you, and that she is there for you 100%. I wish you the best, you deserve to feel loved and happy.
I had pangs of actual pain course through my body as I was watching this, and yet I couldn't stop listening. This story is horrible beyond what any word or expression can describe. I hope, this man doesn't end up being scarred to the point of hampering his life, and I wish the worst of luck to those who inflicted this on him. This has kind of jolted me back into reality in the sense that it makes me realize how, even though I have my own theories and stuff based on stories I've heard to try and imagine the horrors, I will never truly understand what these people go through. In fact I learned how severe hallucinations can actually be, in contrast to what I thought I knew, I didn't know that your mind can completely change your reality and what you call the world.
Oh my god, I thought my time at the mental hospital was traumatizing. I didn't realize how much it helped just to have other people around you. I wish I knew this guy in real life, he deserves a big hug :(
the fact that the guard smiled shows he was getting sick kicks out of this shit. that monster deserves the fucking death sentence, or to experience that exact same hell he put him through.
@@CherryBotV2 shouldn't there have been a higher authority that that guard had to go through to authorize this I mean solitary is the worst of the worst and he put him in there under just talking back to him I don't know how American prisons work but I think even normal prison has more tolerance than this 🤬
@@zackfp0 in a REAL prison, yes, that is usually how it would work, even in the U.S, but the legality of juvenile prisons in the US is a very gray area to say the least =\
I feel physically dizzy with horror. How do you DO this to a person? To a CHILD?? Even if you think he's a """bad kid""" this is just... incomprehensibly cruel.
@@iheartcats6245 i went to juvie once for stealing and then resisting punishment and the power they abuse the those fucking walls turns innocence into criminals
God bless this man. He seems like he was just like any other angry kid and shouldn't have gone through any of it. I hope you understand how lovely you are. I hope you're blessed with love and support and healing. Thank you for your advice.
due to some extremely severe trauma I experienced throughout my first few years of living, I have CPTSD, and for a long time I did experience visual and auditory hallucinations, between ages 11-14. I would frequently hear two voices who would often wake me up, I’d named them Kate and Oliver due to the frequency. During the deepest parts of my depression, I would hallucinate extreme visual static all around me, and I would be convinced I didn’t exist and that I had died as a child and that the world around me was fake. I now know that my experiences were extreme derealization. I couldn’t look in the mirror a lot of the time because my face didn’t look like me, I didn’t recognize myself. Thank god I went on medication when I did and received the help I needed, because I know I wouldn’t be alive today if I hadn’t gotten help. Occasionally the visual static will return when I’m off my medication and falling into a depressive episode, and when I’m having a PTSD episode I will hear the voices again, but for the most part, I feel mostly normal now.
Not just the local man, this is a lot bigger than just one prison, the whole system needs a big change For example literal torture is allowed, solitary confinement is a literal torture method, noone noone should be put through torture, not even Hitler
@@az678910 I don't think so, if torturing Hitler would revive even a single Jew then fine, but no matter what Hitler was still capable of feeling, and doing torture on people just is not acceptable, we must not fall to the levels of nazi, and completely dehumanize people even if they are nazis
@@az678910 even then while locking him away forever in solitary if he was still here today would be something many would call for, they don’t think of that it wouldn’t help him or anyone else, what he has done to humans and all the lives he took are gone and they won’t come back, solitary and torture solve nothing, only create more problems
honestly hes made so much progress mentally getting married and having a kid, knowing his own grounding techniques. Not many people can do that without the help of a therapist. I'm so proud of him, he's not broken, if anything he's proof that it is possible to heal.
It doesn’t matter if it was over the worst crime in history. The fact that man thinks passing cruelty onto man is a solution is despicable. No one should be forced to go through this. Ever.
@@Thunderous333 No worries man :) this story really hit home for me. I hope you’ve been blessed with less pain than our friend in this video, and that you have a wonderful New Year
He's old enough to have a wife and child but still experiences the hallucinations today??? What??? How cruel were the guards to think that over 150 days in solitary for a child would ever be okay??? The fact he's still going through it and it's still effecting him after all this time makes me so angry that people who work with 'troubled kids' don't understand that what happens as a kid, especially stuff that extreme, really do stay with people. I wish him the best and I'm happy to hear that he's doing better now but my god....
Thank you, this allowed me to understand my symptoms and source of symptoms. I now know I was in solitary confinement in early childhood, but in an orphanage. I behave as if I’m still in solitary confinement, and I still have the shadow beings, but they devolved into just a feeling of “someone there”. Thank you seriously, I am going to talk to my therapist and push how serious my intuition was, and that I really need a whole lot more help.
This is terrifying. I didn't even know that such severe hallucinations were possible. This guy is so strong for being in such a situation at such a young age.
The weirdest thing is that it went on for so long, that despite him knowing it was not real, it did not stop. He was above average in his defense and control mechanisms, and still they were able to get him to that point.
That is the part that scares me the most. How far the mind can go, it's horrifying to know your brain can change everything you understand or perceive about reality.
fr tho, the roaches and shadows that i see in the corner of my eyes are already bad enough i seriously can't imagine how he can handle this. it must be really terrifying
You can hear the tone change and the constant shaking You can feel the genuine pain and suffering from the story This taught me that even in a game We go through it and this is a terrible place
@raychii.. One might assume that these videos could simply be fiction, much like many videos on this lost cause of a social media platform, but just looking at the avatar, simply realizing how long the video is, and that voice, christ all-bloody-mighty that voice... of pure trauma, of trying to still after years understand why, you can't act that. You simply can't.
@@klaud679 the hell is wrong with you?? Many people have been trauma similar to this and you call this acting??? Something is fr wrong with you or you are just stupid to think this is actually fake
I’m glad that he was able to share his story. I would love to know which state(s) go through with this and letting people go insane in facilities so that I can get a huge group of people (at the correct age since I am not financially or physically through age able to sue) to sue the state(s) that have this legalized. I feel terrible for the people that went through something similar or the exact same as him. I’m glad he’s doing better and he’s able to do these checks and keep himself safe.
The fact that it took the prison employees months to figure out that his mental situation was severely out of shape really shows that prison is a harsh place, and should not be underestimated. I hope this person can eventually make a full recovery.
They understood everything perfectly, they just didn't care, quite possibly they even enjoyed it. They are cops, they have no empathy, if you are a cop and you have empathy you either leave yourself or you get fired. ACAB
That “Please don’t think less of me” broke me. It’s basically what I said my best friend when I confided in them about my suicide attempt. The way trauma warps the mind into thinking there is something wrong with YOU and it’s somehow your fault is a fucking sad reality. Whoever you are, man, I hope you’re still hanging in there. I hope you’re gonna reach a point in your life where this all becomes a distant memory.
The courage this guys has is phenomenal. I have anxiety, ptsd due to my father. Even though I was only young, the things he did is still haunting me. I was even hallucinating too. It’s amazing what the mind can do, but incredibly scary, I would not even wish it on my worst enemy. I am proud of how far you have come. I wish I could off hugged him. he has a true heart, and a blessed soul. Sending love - from Australia.
Catching this a bit late, but had been in similar situations as a child to this man here. It was cathartic to hear how he dealt with it. Stay strong brother.
imagine being so heartless that you put a child that isnt even a teenager yet into a concrete box for so long that they start screaming at random, and then not even caring. that is horrible.
@Joseph Lim This is not a generalization, police work is literally to be soulless sadists in the service of the state. Yes, technically the guards at Auschwitz were also human, but the problem is to do this kind of work, you have to turn off your empathy and humanity. What is good about a "good cop" if he looks at such atrocities and does nothing. The police are the foundation on which the whole system rests, it is not because of the evil capitalists that the police are bad, it is because of the evil police that the capitalists and the state are so bad.
“You don’t know how much that hug ment” No, i don’t, but i can imagine. I’m so sorry that you had to go through that at such a young age! I’m glad that your condition is getting better ❤️🩹
him talking about his son and wife are so wholesome im so glad hes recovered the way he has and it is truly so messed up that these kinds of things happen.
the U.S does this to middle eastern teenagers. they throw em in guantanamo and torture them. I think a released captive is starting a lawsuit against the U.S over his treatment.
You can't put anyone in solitary for 2+ weeks without special permission, not to mention he went to a supermax at 11 and for what? for punching a kid? how do you believe this story as fact?
@@Republian Whilst a story like this can be made up, you can tell a lot about a person by the way they talk. Given the amount of jump-cuts, you can tell he's having to think and calm himself a lot. The quiver in his voice is one of sadness and fear. Not to mention that there is never too much detail. Liars tend to over-detail things, and this had none of that. This isn't even to mention how realistic this is to what has been seen of the american system. People have gone to jail for years, serving life sentences, only to be overturned after release many times. The number of confirmed innocents that have committed suicide over being there is more than what it should be. Then, depending on state, certain rules and regulations are completely ignored. "Fair" is what the system wants to be, but not what it is.
@@klaud679 Can you in any possible fucking way prove its fake? Just come to terms with the fact this shit happens, and its sometimes significantly longer than 150 days
@@shedflu Your pop or other Pops whats the matter ? Its a goddamn crime has ruins peoples life , solitary is not a solution , but positive reinforcement is . The top rule is understanding . Hitting with a hammer to a disoriented metal object helps to regain its shape , but what about the damage ? You have to heat , and stress it and hit with hammer and make it lose some parts of itself . Now replace the hammer with jail/wardens , heat with solitary cell , metal with the prisoner . The way it should be done is this ( excluding rapists , killers and other hi crime people ) Have a good day my friend .
im almost certain that if everyone in America was made aware of this as it was happening, it would have stopped immediately. the lack of transparency in prison is a massive part of why so many horror stories come out of those hellholes. nobody on any real scale was even made aware of it untill this video game out years and years later.
I want to hug him so bad 🥺💞 this was so heartbreaking to listen to... no one deserves this... what a disgusting system, doing this to a child especially... what a strong and amazing young man
This is actively the most disturbing thing ever. A few mistakes lead from a kid lead to 153 days of torture. I wanna say maybe its a part of older systems but I bet some are still like this.
Institutions are still a nightmare. The most fleeting whim of an authority figure can subject you to involuntary torture and confinement. I got locked up in a mental hospital last year and was forced to spend a week convulsing on antipsychotics and starving after my father tried to assault me. This sort of stuff still happens, it turns out.
The ppl that did this to him can rot and burn and suffer and be tortured in hell for all eternity This lad did not deserve even 1% of the punishment he received It upsets me to bc my sister started to hallucinate and see her old teachers and her old friends and randomly say random stuff This sht hits hard
@Nuri Barn nah, wanting that guard to rot in hell is what he deserves, because of people like that guard is because there are a lot of people who would kill and not feel bad about it.
There was so many points in this video when I almost cried.. his broken sounding voice just breaks my heart. I hope your doing ok now and I’m so sorry you had to deal with such a horrific thing. I’m glad you have a happy loving family. Some people are monsters but remember there are people who are the complete opposite.
Oh my god I want to give him a hug. I would comfort him in any way I can, I feel so horrible that they did to him as a child- seeing this person breaking down even now. Isolation is fucked up, safe healings.
this system is entirely screwed up. like really, who calls cops on kids? who puts a kid in solitary for like, i don’t know, a little less than half a year? like, why is this happening? why do they put a child in a solitary cell? destroying someone’s mind for just a small fight in school? this is messed up. seriously, who puts a child in a cell for 153 days on end, 24/7? jesus. please help these people recover from this messed-up stuff. if you read this, thank you for hearing my opinion. bye.
Thats the problem, we’re corrupt from the top down. Its the little guys on the street that suffer, not the high income fuckhead thats on a power trip. Its the reason suburbs and low population areas are literally the best place to live anywhere.
People who are racist enought would call police in a black kid and if he has a gun toy they would assume it's real because of the kid being black and shoot him if he points it at them thinking they are playing too, then get killed by that shots then begin to scream "PUT THE GUN DOWN" or "GET ON THE GROUND"
@@user-wo2sb1hq5c you seriously asking that? If a cop it's like that no matter if the person is innocent or not if they see a gun toy or not they will immediately shoot at the black one.
@@OfficialZubakovaZestyAlpha as real as racism is, this not the place for that. This topic is completely different and u tryna inject sumn race shi takes away frm main point fr. This specific situation aint got nun to do wit racism whatsoever
20:11 "Please don't think less of me" As someone who grew up in abusive home, this hurts to hear on a level that is hard to explain. It shows that what you experienced has made you feel less than human and undeserving of that warm kindness everyone should be afforded. I wish I could give you an internal touch stone of that feeling you had when the guard hugged you. A rising summer sun coming through closed drapes, the smell of toasted Eggo waffles, and the inner peace of knowing you are unconditionally valued.
Grew up in an abusive household… abandonment issues is a bitch to deal with… In the most simple words to an outsider: “I don’t wanna be alone, but I cannot trust anyone, b/c I fear that they will not wanna deal with my mental baggage & psychological issues. “This is an irrational fear I have that has been imbedded in my subconscious. I’m working on getting over this… but I feel so alone… even when crowded by a loving group/family… these feelings… will never fully go away… as I get my bearings and slowly get on my feet through all these years… I can never forget my past… I can only move on and be grateful for what I have now…”
@@SuussyBakka bro, u feel like that too? I try to trust people but just can't i always think they would end up using me, dumping me etc wich causes me to sink into a loop of distancing from people i dont wanna loose or straight up can't form any kind of bond with them, wich then makes me depressed n shit, i feel u dude
I can't say that I grow up in a abusive home but I had over 1 year an abusive ex. Today, I almost know my boyfriend since one year. Hes helping me with panic attacks but I just feel so bad when I'm saying "I don't feel good" or "I don't want this" most of the time I just want to hug him and hide next to him and won't let him look at me. When I explain him something I have the feeling that sometimes he doesn't understand it and if I dissociate and think for a moment that he's my ex he just gets annoyed (only happened two times) and then I'm just really sorry for my behaviour which isn't my or his fault. And I'm talking about myself like that I'm just trash and then he gets angry because he doesn't like that I'm talking about myself like this. So rn I'm at a point where I'm feeling like I'm just talking to myself if I want to explain him something. Because yk it's hard for him too and I understand if he doesn't want to talk about this topic a lot and he's also supportive but it's just making me feel sorry for explaining him and it's hard that he's also the only one who knows (trying to get a therapist but that's very hard to find) and for me it's just important that he knows these things of why sometimes I'm different. So it makes me kind of dissapointed to see that he doesn't give me a reaction. Also I think that he thinks that every time I'm not with him, I only feel bad. Which isn't true, but because we don't live together for now, he thinks like this and from all of what I told him I always ask him if he still sees me like a human who is able to life and feel good because in my mind I always told people too much about me if I just say one sentence
@Whispers i hope you find the peace you need coming from someone who experienced 6 years of abuse i know how it feels, don't feel bad trying to explain yourself even if he doesn't understand everything, what matters is he cares. even if you have to take baby steps in achieving your goals of explanation you will get there may peace find you quickly
@@blaketorrance205 thank you very much, it's just we're at the beginning of our relationship so I think that's also a point to be more scared that he could leave because it could be too difficult for him, because I'm also at the start with changing a lot and to get okay again. But I hope for you too, that your life will get better and that you can enjoy it again^^
Thank you for sharing. I was isolated for 3 days or more had to sit facing a mirror and then outside on a bench. The mirror had a piece missing were it was sharp and the bench was outside on the third floor of a barracks. It was my punishment for having suicidal thoughts while in Marine Corp bootcamp. They did much more to intentionally stress me after I was invited back in with everyone else. I was already being sent home but they lied and convinced me I was not before they Isolated me. Thank you so much for telling your story... it's been 13 years since this happened to me and It still effects me. Keep on keeping on!
What makes this worse is that even after he learned his lesson, he was still put into juvenile jail despite him not causing any harm or defending himself, and what makes this even worse is that they just decided to throw punishments and not actually talk about what happened or resolve why the kids fought??? Then they proceeded to treating a 10/11 year old worse than a rapist??
It's really fucked up. I lost hope in the legal system once they let the guy who SA'd me for years go because they said there wasn't enough evidence. Maybe someday, the world can change for the better.
I can't believe they really do this to anyone let alone a kid, I'd heard of solitary but 5 months is longer than should ever be allowed, I thought it was like a week maybe two at most. What exactly is this supposed to achieve? It seems to me the US prison system (as is it's reputation) really doesn't care about making prisoners better people, ready to go back in to society. This is not how you deal with a kid starting fights anyway 'oh you started a fight, well best traumatise you for life and drive you insane'
5 months? I personally think it should be a month max. And for detenstion centeres that hold children solitary confinement shouldn't even be a thing. This breaks people, It breaks them beyond limits and bounds.
this is mostly true especially back then as i assume this is 90's at minimum as he refers to "wife and kids" but i dont know if this is still wide spread now
I feel so much love for this guy Been through many similar experiences myself And his son is only a month older than mine Really rooting for you brother 💜
This is literally inhumane it's not like he put anyone's life in serious danger or anything he was just a kid who did something stupid and they threw him in an isolation cell for half a year like he was a convict who nearly beat someone into a inch into their life he deserves justice for this this is wrong in every shape or form
Well, it was a somewhat harsh system putting a 11 year old into juvie, and then some literal sociopath chucklefuck put the small child into a torture chamber. Which, if I were to blame anybody, I'd blame that person.
@@rocketrelm1125 the issue is that if you just blame the person then you miss out on the systematic issues that created the possibility for someone like that to even appear It's a bit like saying now that trump isn't in office everything is fixed and not having done anything at all about the issue of facists trying to take over the government and even have the slightest possibility of being voted in Like Jan 6 ya know
This isn't right at all not even murderers get this so it's inhuman to make a kid who made a small mistake go 153 days In solitary confinement it's not right it is only corrupt and BS
This video brought me either to tears or, at least, to the verge of crying 3 or 4 times. Good thing I always bring a pack of tissues when I watch Azeal
This made me cry so much, you are so incredibly brave and strong. Thank you for sharing such an outstanding strong. Wishing you an abundance of healing, love, and hugs❤❤❤❤🫂🫂🫂🫂
An 11 year old should not be able to go to prison. Expel him from school, punish him, but going to prison is too far. Maybe a 15/16 year old, but not an 11 year old. And no matter what, nobody, should go to extreem isolation. It is dehumanizing, it is needlessly harmful, and it is inhumane.
It’s easy to write this off as the prison system being evil, and it is. But it also isn’t the prison systems fault. It’s the legal system’s fault that an eleven year old got arrested for having two fights. It’s the guards fault for not giving a child that was removed from his life a couple minutes to wrap his head around the situation. It’s on the guards for leaving this poor, defenseless child alone in a room. There are surely ways to remove them from that room. And they left him. It’s the systems fault, sure. But it’s also the fault of the people maintaining the system. Despicable.
The way that they described it in the video was clear enough; they weren’t just maintaining that system, they willingly enforced it and seemed to enjoy the power they got from doing such horrendous things The use of excessive force, deliberately refusing to acknowledge or even talk to him when they could clearly see on the cameras that something wasn’t right. I hope the guy continues to get help; he should never have gone through this
Maybe a few days at most for a very extreme case but months of time is absurd! It's a kid not a hardened criminal, and he mouthed off not robbed a liquor store at gunpoint for Christs sake that cop was evil.
@@booleah6357 that wasn’t a cop that put him there. That was a guard. A correctional officer. A mere employee of the system, meant to maintain the status quo. Not psychologically break a child.
just a fucking reminder that any time anybody is sent into isolation this is what they're facing. this is what they have to go through. this example and this person's experience is horrific and traumatic and deserves to be told to a large audience; with that in mind we need to remember that this is happening 24/7 around the world *without consequence* simply because it's a pre-established part of the prison/justice system. i think it's important to understand that something needs to be done to prevent experiences like this from being a normalcy anywhere, no matter what kind of action you choose to take, to protect each other.
What the hell is wrong with the justice system? This isn't justice. Isolation is nothing but a torture device for anyone of any age. But ESPECIALLY for children. I hope he is able to live a happy life from now on. He deserves it.
@@davidbakke9293 Everyone should be rehabilitated. Revenge based justice doesn't work, doesn't stop people from doing bad shit, and tortures children like the story. We of course should separate dangerous people, and there should be restitution for damages, but prisons shouldn't be recognizable to what ae have now.
@davidbakke9293 They may deserve it, but if they're not rehabilitated, it just puts everybody else at risk. Without rehabilitation, they just do it again.
Here in germany you are not criminal responsible under 14 and especially not for fighting. This is an absolut violation against human rights and disgusting to treat children that way.
I'm literally crying, this video is just so hard to listen too without putting yourself in his shoes, I couldn't imagine having to go through all that and I'm so sorry to anybody who has had to deal with this.
I really hope those who did this to him were held accountable. We shouldn't be treating kids like this, it's outright demonic and they genuinely deserve to go to hell for it.
The “please don’t think less of me..” is when I finally started crying- I could feel the tears coming but that- 😭 This man deserves so many hugs and so much support for being so god damn strong.
Stuck for 5 months in a blank concrete box that looks like nothing with no interactions at all *at the age of 12* is on 69420 different layers of messed up. What the hell. I'm so sorry for Shane. He deserves better and I hope his kid will have a good life.
I cried... Im so sorry you had to experience those horrible horrible days.. i hope youre doing better and happy now with your wife and your beautiful son.. im wishing the best for you..
