Heroin Addict interview-Caroline (9 year follow up) 

Yes, drugs have taken a toll on Caroline, but she is still the same kind and beautiful person she always has been. Caroline is one of the very few people on Skid Row who actually shows me some me kindness by giving me little gifts, like a box of yogurt she got from a feeding on the street the other day. Velanta has done this as well. Really sweet ladies, both of them. Caroline even gave me $1.50 in change a few weeks ago. This sounds like nothing, but to me it’s a big gesture of thoughtfulness. Caroline is still there mentally. I love that girl. There are a bunch of really beautiful people I’ve met. In addition to Caroline and Velanta, C Note, Reilly, Tiamat, Richard and Jerry are some of my favorite people I’ve met there. Honest, kind and dependable individuals all living in the snake pit called Skid Row. Thanks for watching. ML

When he says “maybe I should try it” and she says “don’t” it shows so much that she wants better for others. This poor woman.

Dude you need to be very careful with this work. I mean mentally and emotionally. I hope you are aware of this and are actively taking care of your own mental and emotional health.

Can’t believe this is the same person as her first interview. Omg.

This is the saddest decline I have ever seen. My heart breaks for this women.

They need to show this video in every middle and high school in the world.

We lost our son to herion overdose mixed fentanyl last May at home. We fought for 10 year's to get him help. RIP TREVOR.

I've been addicdet to Heroin for 8 years and im been clean for 13 years now. Its a living hell and i dont wish my worst enemy to get hooked on it! Life is beautiful, keep fighting yall ♥️

There is a very prominent difference in who she was 10 years ago vs now. People need to watch both videos to see exactly what happens to the brain over many years of drug use.

so grateful I found this channel, i’m only 16 years old but so grateful for these interviews it really opens my eyes and shows me all these peoples struggles and not only makes me appreciate what i have but really makes me wanna do something with my life and be somebody and enjoy all the little precious moments and really love my life to the fullest without over indulging

I wish this was a series on tv. More people need to see this

This must be so tuff for mark ( interviewer ) he gets to know these people , and sees them decline and I'm sure he gets attached to people on skid row , must be horrible experiencing what he does

I'm a recovering addict and what she's trying to tell us is what these demons are doing to her. She is in psychosis but also in hell!! I'm praying for her soul. This is a spiritual disease and she's in deep. I would love to see her clean and free of this torment. I'm so grateful for recovery because I have peace and once you've experienced this kind of hell there's nothing more valuable than your peace.

I wish this wasn’t real.... my heart breaks

She‘s the best example of drug users getting psychosis

OMG!!! She looked so different in the last interview. That's terrible how drugs treat the human body.

"I always wake up. I wonder why i wake up. I don't die. Or do i?" omfg

Mark you are so respectful with these tragic lost souls. You are not here to make money on YT and just to show we are all human and that sometimes we can take a direction that is not always healthy.

It’s so interesting how the drug addicts start talking about God, the government, and conspiracy theories.

I would've never known this was the same person, really mind blowing. I'm rooting for something positive to happen for her.

Whoa. Thank you God for saving me from this....24 years sober.

Speed psychosis is incredible. Jesus christ. Thank you for this eye opening publication....

Can we keep Mark lifted in prayer as well? It's a wonder he's still able to do what he does. This is a form of ministry work and I pray over his own mental and emotional health, as he tries to help others and tell the stories of the lost and forgotten.

Holy fuck, her fall from a totally sentient human, albeit addicted, to this, is absolutely mindblowing. She used to be so incredibly beautiful with a sound mind for what it was, she is totally gone into complete psychosis and body breakdown. Holy fuck... this is so gnarly

Omg. I can’t believe this is Caroline

I found the Arlington Cemetary Webpage dedicated to her brother. She wrote a message there in 2001; her kindness and sweetness still remains.

I’m continually in awe at how intelligent so many of these people are. Their vocabulary is more impressive than most of the “normal” population. I’m heart broken over their lost potential.

Such agony, she's trapped in her mind like a prisoner with no way out

My respect level for you just tripled. These ppl are lost souls.....yeah some are slimy jerks but most are lost. It’s a disease. I’m glad I’m clean and that my family cared when I didn’t. Hoping for good things for all of those in your videos

A lot of addicts are intelligent in a brainy way. They are like children emotionally and many can't handle stress! Some are dual diagnosis and some experienced unresolved childhood trauma!

She didn’t mention her son Charlie. Poor woman. I’m thinking of her today.

She is my absolute favorite person you have interviewed. It breaks my heart that in both interviews, 9 years apart, anytime her kids are mentioned she instantly starts crying. You can feel her pain. And the love of her kids, but she is so chained to the enslavement of her addiction. I hope she finds a way out. She doesn’t belong there.

Ok, so I just watched the Caroline interview from 2010, and now I'm at 1:46 in this video... and this totally f-ed up my day... I truly hope Caroline will find peace one day.. And as for Soft White Underbelly.. You better believe I'm gonna let my kids watch these interviews to show 'em what can happen with drugs, gangs and bad choices. So thank you for all this educational material.

As a recovering person myself, showing kindness IS what brought me back around. I'm eternally grateful for the kindness of actual stranger's. My whole family is a mess, but I'm here, paying thing's forward because, it's really all we have. I'm full of love. Be kind, you could change a person's life for the better. You'll never feel better than that.

It breaks my heart to think that her parents lost their son and now a daughter. 😓

She aged about 20 years in 10 years, so sad 😞

Her fate was sealed when she was molested and then nobody believed her about it. Devastating story...

After watching about 25 or more interviews, I get a distinct impression that you're one of the very few, if not the only one, who sits and actually has a conversation and really listens to them (the people with addictions). You show them respect and kindness without asking for anything in return. I know that makes a deep impression on their hearts.

Addicts are only trying to cope with a pain deep inside them. When asked what does the addiction give they usually say a feeling of happiness, love, belonging with other addicts, quietness etc etc. these things in themselves are good things achieved in a very unhealthy way. Addicts usually faced terrible childhood trauma teaching them that they are unworthy of love and learn to cope in destructive ways.

I'm a new subby also a ex heroin addict I've been clean over 20 years now.i just wanna say God bless you and what you do for these people may God bless you 10 fourth!👍💯❤

I feel like the matrix has just been explained

No matter what you think of this woman or any other person that Mark interviews, please remember they are still human and their soul is still in there. Love is the answer and kindness and hugs are free. ❤

She is completely gone mentally, but she appreciates someone being kind to her and expecting nothing in return. Thank you Mark. It’s truly heartbreaking when she says “I service” as if she’s just cleaning someone’s car.

I’m so sad I really thought she would make it out.

The photo of her from 2010......my gosh, she looked like a model! So beautiful.

Wow how 9 years can change you mentally and physically! It seems like the the last video she was at a crossroad She took the wrong turn

Man this is crazy. I just watched her first interview. after seeing this second one a few days ago....wow.....she is TOTALLY different . didnt even realize

I’ve noticed a lot of the crack addicts speak about the same things: controllers, transponders, ppl and things in their bodies....wow. What is in these drugs?!

that picture from 2010 of carolina she is so beautiful... so very sad.

@Soft White Underbelly A poem I wrote for, and dedicate, to Caroline: “Skid Row” Raised in darkness, forged in hate, Our cards unfairly stacked, Here we've come to pay it down For Black and Crack, To heal our hurts, boosting, roosting On San Julian for a fence, Chasing highs - $150 a day. Frail and broken souls surround me, I am one. Dirty, meager clothes enwrap These weathered frames, Old before our time, Daylight zombies, midnight loners - Sickness, fear our common fund. My children, please forgive me, I love you still. But where is Jesus on the street? Across the way the yuppies know him well Who go to church and spend their days on yachts and in cafes, But I have never seen him here. Meanness, want, and strife is my reality. No God above, God’s the Drug in me, The Devil on the Street, The living liquid in my veins, To dull the memories, pain, regret, From abuse, neglect, and hate. To rise again, be clean We reach - for resurrection from this living death, Always, ever beyond our reach. Waking trips into astral space I have known, And back to filthy sidewalks, Nights in urban tents. Shivering, aching, cold. Sickness needs its medicine 'til the end To escape unfeeling - to be insensate, still, at peace. The philosopher said it well: “Death is nothing to us.” I thank the stars every day for this cancer That eats my insides to end my pain In this my home, my family, and my life - The soft white underbelly of the world.

Wow crazy how she’s completely losing her mind in the first clip but then is so calm and collected for the interview 😭 She seems so nice

It’s hard to leave when you can’t find the door

As a kid In the 1980s i watched some cocaine documentaries on addiction that scared me off ever trying anything. This video makes me glad I got the message. Super sad for this once lovely woman.

If you really paid attention to what she said and stitched the pieces together you can see what she is saying and it all relates back to her brother toms death. Man i wish she could of been saved 10 years ago

A completely different person from 8 yrs ago! This poor woman, I feel like she needs to be in inpatient treatment so her brain can heal. I hope she can find her way out. She had a really lovely way about her in the last video. Bless you, Caroline. ❤

Listening to this lady talking made me anxious cause, I wanted to understand what she was talking about, but it was too sad and confusing.. God I wish her peace of mind with all my heart and soul..🙏😔☮️💙

I can’t believe that’s her. Despite being a addict on the first interview she still had an upper class about her. I just would never recognize her at all now

So sad. I've been sober 6 months now,never go back

OMG I just watched her 1st interview I cannot believe this is the same person so very sad

Wow. Just watched the 2 interviews with Caroline. My name is also Caroline (Cara is my nickname). I smoked my last bowl of coke 33 years ago and had my last drink 17 years ago. All I could think whilst watching Caroline's interviews is "But for the grace of God, there go I" . My story could have easily turned out like Caroline's had I not got clean & sober. Drug addiction makes me so sad. It's baffling to me how some people get clean/stay clean and some never do. I feel that unconditional love & support from loved ones (family & friends) has a lot to do with it, at least in my case it made all the difference in the world. All my best to Caroline, I hope some day she finds peace in her life. If possible, Mark, please keep us updated on her life, I'm curious how her son, Charlie, is doing? Thanks again for sharing these people's stories with us.

I still think she’s beautiful but her state of mind is no longer what it once was.

My auntie was a heroin user (smoked it) from the age of 17 to when she died at 64. She also later in life started doing crack cocaine. She had the same decline. Went from relatively sane, coherent to somewhat functioning. To full on psychosis. Same hallucinations, thinking and behaviour.

I am not a psychiatrist or doctor, but I am guessing she has comorbid diagnosis of szchizophrenia and substance abuse disorders.. I would be interested to see her completely sober. She is very delusional. So sad.

Please keep up with Caroline, Mark. Maybe she needs a friend who doesn't facilitate her drug use. I think there's still hope for her.

Poor thing, wish there were more facilities, focused on addiction. Who truly understand this disease, treat people without judgement

Ugh this is heartbreaking

Thank you for giving her some money too bad she's still addicted

Through her psychosis it seems as though the only way she knows how to explain her mental state & reality is through metaphors (it seems like when she speak it all blends together so it may not entirely make sense to some people). In the end when she was talking about being murdered multiple times especially dying every time she fell asleep that really hit home. My anxiety disorder often makes me feel like I'm about to die in my sleep, I know it's not true, I know I'm safe at home with my spouse. But seeing Caroline in this 9 year follow up it breaks my heart, because with long term drug addiction + mental disorders it can definitely make things worse & takes its toll, I see how much she suffers. Disclaimer: I'm a recovering addict myself, I'm currently taking anti anxiety medication for the first time in my life & it's like waking up from a nightmare, I'm so happy to be free, I don't want to be on it forever (unless I need to), but so far it's been helping me clear my head & not be stuck on all the negativity. Message to everyone: Stay safe, stay healthy. Sending lots of love.

As a mother of a 35 yr old addict, I so appreciate these interviews. Personalizes the illnesses...thank you

I feel sorry for her. She is just a human being.

Oh poor poor woman 😔 I cant believe how much she changed. How heartbreaking.

This woman is talking about soul Fragmentation and entity attachments . Actually very aware of what is going on.

i can’t tell whether she’s always been schizophrenic and is self-medicating with the drugs (a common theme among addicts), or whether the drugs have caused self-deteriorating paranoia and other symptoms that would traditionally point toward schizophrenia.

These interviews are some of the saddest and most interesting stories I've ever heard. By allowing them to tell their story you are validating people who have been brainwashed to believe that they are invalid. These people matter, they have experienced so much trauma, so much injustice their entire lives. As a childhood trauma survivor I empathize with parts of each story shared. I was on my way to prison or homelessness but God intervened and I got jail and drug court and because of being saved while in jail my life did a 180 and the trajectory changed. That was almost 8 years ago. I now have a church, a home, a husband and a daughter and most recently a dog. I want to live and I feel joy most of the time instead of waiting to die. I have a healthy family and have severed all contact with unhealthy family, including my own mother. My daughter's life is the complete opposite of what I experienced in childhood and I thank God for that every single day. We can break the chains of trauma for the next generation by confronting our own and saying that it stops here. It's easy to point at addicts, prostitutes or homeless people and say that we are the problem. To prove that someone is a pedophile, rapist, emotional abuser, neglectful or violent person is incredibly difficult because it's easy to hide those sins in the dark. Thank you for shining the light of truth and allowing these resilient souls to educate us.

A mind shattered over 9 short years, the change is shocking... interesting to hear Caroline was your first interview that started this trajectory for you. In so many ways you play an important role in documenting the human condition. A part of us in everyone and everyone in us. I can only imagine some of the challenges emotionally/physically you have had to face while following this path you have chosen to take on. A labor of love.

This is absolutely heartbreaking! I cried for her. She's so beautiful. I watched her first interview and instantly liked her. She kept me so intrigued and was really funny. Here you can see how upset she gets when speaking about her daughter moving away. The moments of lucidity in between rambling nonsense is the stark contrast that is drug abuse and its effect on human beings. Her two interviews should be viewed worldwide so everyone can see what long-term drug abuse, homelessness, prostitution, emotional abuse, and physical abuse does to a person.

Mark, would love to know what happened to Caroline

As a former addict myself. One thing for sure no single one person can help. Unless your ready to help yourself. Some people are so far gone not even their family want to. That's the tell, tell sign for me. I lived on skid row-LA for about 5 years. This for the most part the norm for people there.

She sounds like Aileen wuornos in her police interviews, complete psychosis. Very sad.

For all the people who try to wright her off as psychotic From a sane fully functioning non dependent human: She really not talking complete jibberish. She may be slightly off but what she is saying really pertains to a real subject. She is talking about energy being trapped or taken from the body. This really does happen through emotional trauma and emotional healing (energetic) release. People who do drugs aren’t just crazy, they mostly likely can actually tap in to these layers of our world that we cannot easily see or go to. It takes being at a different frequency and an alteration in brain chemistry to actually see in to these hidden worlds around us. Most people are happy with just believing in only this reality and taking things only for face value without delving deeper into the inner workings of our world and our human machine. She is deemed to be out of her mind by you because you are trying to listen to something for which you have no previous input. Its hard to explain things about our energetic selves, omnipresence, and the things we cant always see. Just because we don’t understand completely does not mean we are superior or have a superior understanding of this world we all live in. We are all one and if you don’t see yourself in this woman you should work on raising your consciousnesses and dropping the ego.

Show this in schools so kids understand where drug use gets them

Now I see why Singapore has the death penalty for drugs. Once you start, it is a slippery slope

This is CAROLINE???? I just watched the video of her when she was pretty and coherent and talking about her children. This is her now?! My heart is breaking. I can’t believe this is the same beautiful woman. I CANT!!!!!

This woman most likely had potential when she was younger I can tell in how she speaks the words she uses which makes it more sad

Her original video was one of the firsts I ever watched on your channel, I cannot believe this is the same woman. Drugs rip you in half, tear you to shreds and you’re left trying to piece yourself back together and unfortunately by that time the only pieces that are left are the ones that aren’t you anymore. Sadly this is her case.

People will call her crazy but what she is describing is real, it’s a glimpse of hell. She is infested with demons, she is really tapped into the spiritual realm and is being tormented. My father was mentally ill hearing voices and very depressed, was on the couch for 10 years straight at one point, we had a family friend who was a pastor come see him once and he asked what would the voices say, I remember hiding in the hallway listening and my father said there constantly screaming at him negative stuff and sometimes speak in weird language, he said one of the words they would often say to the pastor, I remember him pausing and just started praying over my dad. After he prayed he told my mom that those words are from some sort of language demons speak in. My pops would later go on to commit suicide in the middle of nowhere only to have a police officer drive down a road to find his lifeless body with both wrists cut and artery in neck sliced. The officer said he never patrols this area but felt the urge to, he ended up saving my dads life. My father never believed in God throughout all of this, my mom always has and I wanted to believe. Sorry I’m rambling now but I say all to say this...my dad one day gave Jesus a chance and from there on things started getting better slowly, long story short he ended up being healed through Christ and becoming the best grandpa “poppy” that you could imagine. He had pure joy in him I mean the purest love you can think of when he had my and my siblings kids around. He ended up being snatched away from the Devil and blessed with peace, love and purpose for his final years of life! The devil and his demons are real but so is God and God is the answer for all these lost souls. Amen Something I forgot to tell is my father was terribly abused as a kid and resorted to drugs/alcohol just like most of these stories.

This video is heartbreaking 💔 her drug induced psychosis is getting worse with every video. 😢

I feel so bad for her but I feel even worse for her children who have probably watched this knowing that this it the present state of their mom. Soft White Underbelly please be safe out there.

I’m not a psychiatrist, but I’ve worked in mental health for 16 yrs. She is very mentally ill. This is heartbreaking to see & to know she is living on the streets without her illness being treated. So awful. 😔

Did some hard shit when my mom died... it's to kill the pain people...nothing else works..but then when your high is gone.. that's what happens...I stopped 20 years ago..I still get the itch

Everyone should watch the previous video with her. She looks so different :( she was a beautiful woman. Now she cant even have a normal conversation its sad

😔 a tormented soul.

Why don’t people see the spiritual personalities that have overtaken these poor souls. I call the spirits demons from hell; but people FEEL better calling it a mental disorder. Be Careful! Demons inhabit people. She is correct that personalities are inside of her.

She has been through so much. I see her kindness and love shining within in her soul. Drugs didn't take that away from her.

Holy eff, I would have never guessed she was the same woman from her first interview, OMG! Mark, I think you should market these interviews and sell them to schools as an anti-drug educational tool. I can't believe this, shocking!

Omg I just connected the two videos. I'm crying. I loved her personality and essence. This hurts my heart so bad. I have no more words.

She seems so so sweet! Her family must be so heartbroken over her. They can't live with her life this Im sure. On the right meds she b would be fine. She is darling. ❤

She was a beautiful woman once , and I can tell a good heart , terrible how drugs have such a hold on people.

This poor woman... I feel so bad. I feel like she hates being this way.