Heroin Addict-Ronnie 

That's the thing about heroin. No matter the upbringing, no matter the situation, it can get you. Because if your brain enjoys opiates (some don't), I will tell you with confidence, there is nothing better in the entire world. Nothing at all. Imagine the thing you want most in the world is right there in a little pill. Nobody plans to get addicted, before it happens it seems like it would never happen to you; you can just decide to stop. It sneaks up on you but it is so hard to resist when the greatest possible feeling in life is so easily achievable by swallowing a pill. Once you're hooked, heroin is the next logical step for many. You want to embrace that euphoric apathy for the rest of your life. The warm embrace of opiates is the easiest place to exist. If there's anything you don't like in your life, it all washes away with that rush. None of it matters. Nothing matters and it's bliss. Soon enough the bliss fades and you can't reach that point anymore, but you try and try. Now you need the opiates in order to exist in the world without complete suffering. You're a junkie and there's no more euphoria. There's nothing but thinking about your next score in order to avoid the utter agony of sobriety. Don't even start because once you've lived on opiates, if you end up liking them, life will never be the same without them. It will ruin your life and change you in ways that were previously inconceivable.

These videos should be watched in schools this is so raw and real .

All she was looking for was a friend. One friend could’ve changed the course of her life. Teach your children to be kind, always.

She was a victim of rape. Did you hear what my girl said. She said “ l already didn’t have much and he took the last ounce of self worth” that’s what led to her drug use. She was clearly trying to forget. I hate that sick ass pervert who did this to her.

Her story is so heartbreaking, she doesn't deserve any of that bad things. Mad respect for her for overcoming everything that had happened. She is beautiful, and she obviously has beautiful soul too. The way she talks, she's self-aware and you can say she's smart. She has the potential. She really is lucky too to have such support system like her family, despite everything. I hope she win her life battle, find peace and happiness with her son.

"sorry, I don't know why I'm crying" That hurts. She doesn't realize it's okay to cry and feel emotions.

She seems like a genuinely kind person, i hope she gets better

Ronnie’s parents flew her home to Houston shortly after this interview. As she mentions in this video, she has been through rehab a dozen times, but I still have hope for her and her son.

All this started from bullying. That's why when children complain about going to school everyday because of bullies as adults we have to listen and correct kids from hurting other kids everyday.

If you see this comment. Know. I had the same things happen to me. Heroin. Child born addicted. Lost custody. Lost everything. I’m 7 years clean and I’m a nurse now. I know it feels so far out of reach but it is SO possible. I was doing exactly what you were doing and worse. I hope you find recovery

She is a beautiful soul. It radiates in how softly she speaks, her body language, etc… and while I can’t relate to being addicted to opiates, I can relate to not thinking I’m good enough (to a very extreme level) like Ronnie described. Wishing her the absolute best. Bless her. You are wonderful, Ronnie.

Mental health should be a required class in school

People saying “I was bullied and never decided to do heroin” okay you and her are not the same people and have completely different mindsets stop comparing yourself to people you don’t know

My friend went to rehab 27 times and he’s sober now ....20yrs!😇 So never give up on yourself you’re stronger than you think.🙏

My mother died of a heroin overdose and I grew up understanding how hard it is to quit this addiction. I’m really proud of you for having the will to want to stop for the betterment of you and your son. We are rooting for you and are here for you always.

I met Ronnie when she was admitted to one of these "looney bins" here near fort worth, at the time I was struggling with my own horrific struggle that made it exceedingly hard to accept myself. When I met Ronnie, she was the shinning light at the end of the tunnel. I felt alone, I was sent there, I was told I was loved but it felt like a void, I felt unwanted but lied to as well. Every day we were there together we spoke & she always made me laugh, she one night was telling me stories about her father, and I regret immensely losing contact with her when I left the facility. But I had so many things affecting me that not many other things were able to continue happening for my life & I felt like she (and the others) were "to important" to hear what I had to say. How Ironic is it that if I would have just kept contact I could have given her the friend she needed & had at that time, but with my own problems I was unable to help even myself at the time. We mutually needed each other & I will forever regret not being able to still know how she is today. Ronnie, if you are reading this- you improved my confidence as a young male who was not accepted by most of my family & friends. At that point, I had given up & your generocity changed my perception of how you can still meet friends & meet people in a mutual situation where you feel isolated completely. I have thought of you each of these years, thinking to myself when we talked to the guy in the Courtyard about using mushrooms & in the "living room" talking about your parents- hoping that things got better. I miss you so much even if we didnt not know each other for very long- with everything in my heart I hope that we can speak again, or that you are able to rebuild your life with your son- its never to late. You have decades to come, NEVER give up- people you would never think of (me) are still thinking about you. Thank you so much Ronnie

i'm a recovering heroin and fentanyl addict. 7 months 23 days. you got this girl.

This story should honestly be shown in schools to kids, to show them how they treat people MATTERS. Kids can be such assholes and during such a crucial period in the developing years of a child’s life... really has lifelong impacts. It’s heartbreaking to see.

When you hear the step by step of what led someone to their addiction, you realize how it could happen to any one of us and I think that scares a lot of people. I was bullied relentlessly in school too, struggled with starving myself and very very easily could have become an addict. Her story really touched me and I hope she stays sober and happy.

How beautiful she is, inside and out, and she doesn’t even know it.

the scars on her arm…..this girl has been through so much and i really do hope she find happiness in life because i know how much she deserves it❤

Yo, a lot of people go to rehab 11 times. I've been to rehab more than 11 times, and now I'm a year and 4 months clean. Just wanted to say, it is possible to finally change.

she just seems like a genuinely nice person, her life did her so wrong

..."and that was the first time I tried to commit suicide... Sorry, I don’t know why I’m crying"... I’m not sure I’ve heard a more tragic statement in my life.

She speaks so eloquently, she remembers everything so clearly. I could not help but cry so much with everything she’s gone through, its heartbreaking. I hope she’s doing ok x

When she said that all she wanted was a friend I just really wished I could give her a hug.

She said heroin "feels like heaven but always turns into hell". Damn

Jesuuus, her voice is so broken that hurts me, she just needs a big hug and tons of love.

Always listen to your children, they have a voice and an intuition probably stronger than ours. Even my 2 year old daughter kept crying out of nowhere about going to nursery.. her body language was very clear.. she was very uncomfortable. I took her out straight away. If we don’t honour the voice and needs of our children how will they honour themselves and their own needs?

I got clean at 22 and I didn’t know it then but it has been the best decision I’ve ever made. I have over 7 years clean, I have a college degree, my own car, apartment and work as a licensed substance abuse counselor. But most importantly, I have freedom and my family has me back. Please Ronnie please get help! You are worth it and your son needs you!

She is not sick she was just born into the sick society. Beautiful nice girl. I hope God gives her strength to recover.

she has such a high level of self awareness, if she allows herself the time get sober then process and heal she will go on to be such an amazing power of example. she will help so many people with her experience and perspectives. She is so awake she just needs recover from her past. stay strong Ronnie we are all routing for you!!

I had a very similar childhood and teenage story and was addicted. I am now 51, sober, recieving proper mental health treatment and a have a successful career as a licensed clinical social worker. It's possible to get better 🧡

“You hear how the streets are dangerous but when you live in them it’s a whole different story” that’s the realest thing ever .

“Who goes to rehab 11 times?” Someone who is desperate to get clean. You can do it! You never know which time will finally be the one that sticks.

This video is 46 minutes long. There are parts of this video where a scene phases out or cuts to the next one, which means u sat and let her talk for longer than that. Kudos to you for listening to her. Sometimes it’s the best you can do!

I could remember several years ago, heroin addiction actually destroyed my life. I suffered severe depression and mental disorder. Got diagnosed with cptsd. Not until a friend recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment saved my life honestly. 8 years totally clean. Never thought I would be saying this about mushrooms.

She’s completely beautiful has such a pretty face and voice

Started at 23 got clean at 30. It was a long hard journey. It's not easy getting clean and it takes faith, hope, and love. Now 3 years clean off oxy and 6 months off methadone. W 2 beautiful kids

I literally wanna just hug her and be her friend... she seems like a beautiful loving person.

This interview really resonates with me. “I think that I was a lot stronger than I thought I was but because of everyone whispering in my ear I didn’t allow myself to try” it’s easy to say fuck what everyone thinks but in reality we all care to a certain degree. We’re rooting for you Ronnie. You deserve better for yourself, I hope you get there.

She kinda reminds me of Rue from Euphoria... A kind hearted, misunderstood, broken girl, who just needs some love. She tries to forget all of the negativity by taking drugs, but just feels worse the more she takes..

I’m listening to Ronnie talk...this is an intelligent woman. I can tell by her vocabulary. I’m not saying she is a genius...but you can tell she is well read and well spoken. I really hope she makes it. And she is NOT evil. She’s made mistakes. Are you saying you haven’t? It Must be lonely for Mr. Edwards in his perfect world, up on his pedestal.

School was also very traumatizing for me . Worst part is that the school doesn’t understand and most parents don’t understand how horrible schools are

As a recent mom of a 3m old, I feel so much for this poor woman. I’ve never had a drug addiction, but I can’t imagine having all these hormones and mood changes on top of the heroin addiction and guilt she looks like she’s feeling. I wish I could hug her and tell her she deserves pure, respectful, sweet love

This lady could literally be anything she wanted to be. She's beautiful, wonderfully spoken and clearly intelligent. Just listen to the way she speaks. Every word pronounced perfectly. Everything to make a good start in life. It's not too late for her.

If someone would’ve supported her when she was younger then shit would’ve been a lot different. Your entire world gets shaped as a kid, that’s the most critical part of life.

Heartbreaking. When she said “and I just let it happen” no babygirl you were forced. Not your fault at all period! Prayers for this young lady

I hope she’s doing okay. I’m a recovering heroin/fentanyl addict and would never wish it on my worst enemy. I truly hope she has found her way.

Crazy how she told her entire life story without interruption. Correct me if I'm wrong but the only question the interviewer asked was "how was your childhood?"

Her story is so centered in lonliness and its heartbreaking

“I was a lot stronger that I thought I was but because of everybody whispering in my ear, I didn’t allow myself to try. I didn’t allow my self to be someone or what to be someone because I was afraid of what everyone else said.”

I'm 15, I also started cutting when I was 13 and I still do. I relate to Ronnies story so much and watching this interview has made me want to at least try to get better. it's now 2022 and so much has changed but I hope that Ronnie is doing better and has managed to escape the infinate loop that is addiction.

Oh my dear god. What has this girl been through. That's just so sad. She is so sweet and beautiful.

I hope everyone from her school watches this and feels deeply ashamed of themselves.

No Ronnie, you didn't "let" anything happen. Trying to survive while someone is mercilessly beating you isn't giving permission and there's no shame in wanting to live. No one should ever be put in the position where they have to choose between living or having someone take what should only be given.

she’s such a gorgeous woman and has so much charisma. i wish someone would’ve been there for her when she was younger and needed a friend. i hope she can turn her life around and find something to keep her on track. the way she speaks and tells her story is so compelling and she has such a pleasant energy and i really hope that she can get out of this life before things get worse for her. she’s only been here for 3 weeks and that’s already too many. i really hope she can get help ASAP

I love how you let them talk without interrupting. A lot of people have so much bottled up and need an outlet.

she is stunning. Are y’all looking at this baby’s face? She is STUNNING. Shes intelligent. Intellectual. She has critical thinking skills. She is expressive. Compassionate. Empathetic. A beauty voice. And tells her story very very well. This sweet baby can make it!

It's scary because this could've easily been me. I was bullied from Elementary to High School. My self-esteem was sooooo low. Thankfully I was able to get myself out of the situation.

Mark you probably know this but you are helping those who struggle with addiction. Your interviews help with the number one problem about drugs and addiction and that is BREAKING THE STIGMA. I have read many a comment saying that this woman has a beautiful soul and seems kind, smart and many other nice things to say about her. Many people who have commented empathize with her whether they are addicts or not and my friend that is a BEAUTIFUL thing

Folks, teach your kids not to be bullies and racist.

"How come I'm 5 years old and I don't really like my self". Gosh that's really heart breaking for her to start feeling like that from such a young age.

She is absolutely gorgeous. She is a product of loneliness and low self esteem. Bullies do not realize the psychological damage they do to someone and how it not only ruins their life now but, for years and years to come. She has never felt worthy of anything. I could just hug her and cry with her. I would gladly take her and help her realize her worth. She is still a little child in her heart that wants to be loved! God bless this child.

People think being bullied is a joke and not critical trauma inducing, but it is real and will drive someone to completely lose themselves. This happened to me n school and I went through a very deep depression and it changed me in many ways. I was able to find myself and regain my confidence thank God. I hope she’s been able to do the same.

She is so insightful. Regardless of what she's been through, there is still a light in her eyes. I hope she is doing okay

My oldest brother is a heroin addict I don’t think I have ever had a conversation with him in my life I’ve only ever seen him in hospital or very high & unable to talk properly, he has been addicted since I was a child so I try watch videos like this to understand why & how they live, & it has helped me have a lot more compassion & understanding.

The love that Ronnies parents have for her in unreal. They have never left her side.

I always find myself coming back to this video. There’s so many of her struggles I’ve always related to. Ronnie, I’m wishing you the best. I hope you’re doing well ♥️

This is someone I would want an update on. She has so much potential, she is such a beautiful being.

You can see even now, and hear in her voice, that she's still so traumatized. It's heartbreaking.

She’s such a pretty woman and she doesn’t even know it. I hate that people treat others in horrible ways and use and avoids them Im praying for her recovery 💯

46 minutes,, and I could listen for hours! Praying babygirl is doing better for herself and her family🙏🏾💜

During a person's childhood abuse of any kind can ruin a person's whole life.

I went to school with Ronnie & she’s right the bullying in Granbury is horrible it gets swept under the rug & parents aren’t involved because the schools want to keep things hush hush & then it continues & more times then not gets worse because nothing is done about it I pray she gets through this & is reunited with her son & recovers from what she’s gone through stay strong Ron❤️ UPDATE: I Recently got ahold of Ronnie via sc & she is in LA (I’m not quite sure she ever left I didn’t ask the conversation was kept short as we aren’t really close & haven’t talked in years) she said she’s getting her life on track & trying to be a better mom to her son praying for her strength to succeed & recover fully ❤️

I feel so bad for this sweet, baby. My son has been bullied since kindergarten and is now in 6th grade. Hes at the point where he fights me every morning about going to school. I can't stress it enough....teach your children kindness!!! Teach your children to be compassionate and to have empathy for other people. Being bullied is more serious than some people think.

Girl, listening to your story really hit me a lot closer than any of the other interviews mark has done. You’ve come from a nice home, nice family, basically your environment wasn’t your downfall. It was that little voice telling you you’re not good enough, you never will be, and I myself am blessed to have a supportive family, and I don’t know how, but I’m so blessed. But I am a fentanyl addict so yep. There’s that. Thank you for your story tho it was amazing and it really was great.

She is a sweet soul that is just hurting real bad. Hope life gives her the energetic hugs and support she needs to mend.

I’ve been sober since 11/1/14. My heroin addiction sent me to prison, and almost killed me 6 times. I have buried too many friends. I feel for this girl. I was once her.

You can tell by the reaction she has to crying, after trying to kill herself the first time , is from bullying..She say's she doesn't know why she's crying?....after trying to kill herself?..cmon..I'm damn near crying..That's her first gauged instinct to NOT get made fun of.."i don't know why, please don't think I'm a baby"..So terrified of not being accepted, which is normal among teen's, but throw in a tirade of insult's...it's devastating to some

is there an update on Ronnie? I hope she's doing all right, and home again with her family and precious son. So many times through this I wanted to hug her and help her. My heart hurts for what she went through with the loneliness and bullying, just needing a friend. I wasn't bullied, but I was extremely lonely and made fun of some. Kids are cruel. Praying for Ronnie.

this is so touching, because when we see homeless people or addicts in the streets, we just see them as this one mass blanket of people, but to hear each of their personal stories in such an intimate way really changes your perspective. Im so moved!

You Can legit feel the pain in her voice, it hurts tbh. She deserves better than that. It’s so disgusting that kids/people can be so mean. I don’t get it.

I’ve watched A LOT of these interviews. This one got me. I’m heartbroken for her. I really hope she finds the help and support she needs.

Do you do updates????? I could feel her energy through the screen … what a beautiful soul! Even through all the trauma she is still thankful for the kindness of those who have showed her an ounce of care 🙏🏼 ❤️

I need an update on this girl! She has so much potential and everything she has gone through is absolutely soul shattering. I could only imagine the pain this girl has endured and I honestly hope that she is in a better place and surrounded by those who love her.

This is probably the first time anyone has actually sat her down to hear her . Truly hear her . I hope she finds the love for herself, what a wonderful young woman . Theres no shame in being an addict, they usually come from deep pain within that they cannot get through. Thats where society should come in and give them our hand to pull them out and love them without enabling them . We need to teach our children simply by loving them, love and boosting them up every single day . Regardless of childhoods and weither there was trauma or not or cycles continuing . We have the power to break that and to build our kids up and give them nothing but love .

Addicts have the most tender of hearts. I wish her and her family many blessings. We do have a cold cruel society in the United States, with many hurt people hurting people.

I came across this channel tonight and watched a few videos. I saw Roniie's face and thought she was attractive and was interested in hearing about her story as a heroine addict. Her story mesmerized me and broke my heart. It made me cry to hear how much she suffered in her short life. She has an unbelievable and compelling story which unfortunately is much too common in this country and around the world. It was encouraging to hear how many time she tried to clean up, relapse and try again. I wish her the best and I'm sure her strength and story will encourage and inspire many people around the world.

If only she could see herself through our eyes, she'd love herself and see her self worth.

As someone who was heavily bullied and even dropped out because of it, this was rough to watch and relive similar experiences. She is sooo beautiful too.. God bless her.

Loneliness can really take a toll on someone’s mental state of mind and change the course of their life. If you ever read these comments, I’m sorry you were alone.

She is so smart and talented. All of the people you guys interview have potential, but for her, I see someone who is really crying out for help and isn't too far gone. I know she wants to change and I know how hard it is. My mom is addicted to cocaine and she is struggling so badly. I know she can get through it, and so can Ronnie. I believe in her.

She could be a model, absolutely stunning.

Shes giving me real life Rue from euphria vibes, like this is the actual character is she ever existed, beautiful and lost and almost makes drugs look fun but its a harsh reality, not a tv show

I’m more upset at the fact of all those students and faculty members who did nothing to stop the bullying, nothing to help her. Shame on everyone who was in her class, who taunted her, and those parents of children, now adults, SHAME, that you can’t raise decent human beings . Everyone is at fault for harming this girl at a young age, I hope the now adults who were in that school know they should be ashamed of themselves , my heart goes out to you , i wish to had met you ❤️as a young Mexican lady my heart goes out to you

I just found this channel and it’s really eye-opening. I normally find this type of content too heavy but having the ability to hear people tell their stories has really changed the way I view things. I hope she is ok & this life brings her all the peace and joy it’s deprived her. Also, I don’t know if it’s just me but she really reminds me of a real life version of “Rue” from Euphoria. An absolutely beautiful person inside and out just battling internal demons and struggling with addiction.

When she was talking about the first time she tried to kill herself and she said I don’t know why I’m crying, I just wanted to hug her and say I don’t know why you wouldn’t be. It’s okay. Cry. Let it out.

I'm appreciative of all of the positive comments I am seeing, but I am disturbed that so many mention her looks. Regardless of whether or not someone is attractive, we all are deserving of love, redemption, and care. Ronnie's recovery will take more than loving herself on the outside. True introspection and self-love are what we all should hope to attain, and I sincerely hope that she (and others like her) find what they need to push through.

She’s beautiful strung out, imagine a clean and healthy version. I hope she gets it together soon :(