Homosexuality Was My Identity 

I am literally sitting here in my bed, crying. I had just recently pulled myself out of the homosexual lifestyle, and it has been so hard. It's not hard because I want to go back because I don't. It's hard because I had made friends completely with gay and transgender people and one by one I can just feel them slipping away from me. Even if it really hurts me, I know it is God's plan to give me new friends that are going to be there to help guide me all the way back onto the right path.

I am crying right now...my pillow is wet by tears. Pls God deliver me from that life style. I want to born again and testify ur powerful name.

Beautiful testimony. Love how it’s centered on our identity. Even us heterosexuals we often center our identity on a significant other (whether we realize it or not) or even in a job or social role. Our true identity is indeed in Christ, and when you realize it and accept it, that’s when you experience true freedom. One of CS Lewis quotes say: “Don’t let your happiness depend on something you may lose”. I associate that quote so much with our identity. When we anchor our identity in Christ, nothing can take that away. Not even death. Like Romans 8:38-39 says ❤️

The best testimony ever ! I’m gay. I don’t know why or how it happened. I struggle with the feelings every day as I try to obey God’s teaching. Eventually, I will win with the love of Jesus Christ.

A beautiful story. I am just now going through the same thing with repenting my homosexuality. It's a very overwhelming revelation.

Do not let this one issue, keep you from spending an eternity with God. I Love this powerful statement, because it applys to any SIN that holds us captive.

What a great testimony. I'm going through a deep time of rejection. His testimony has helped to lift me.

I don’t understand how someone can dislike these types of testimonies. This is beautiful and shows Gods power and how he can remove any sin from our lives and change us completely to be “born again” in Christ.

I used to be Transgender female to male but God has made me new.

I am an African teenager where homosexuality is really hated and I felt so isolated when I couldn't say anything. I knew it is a sin but I just couldn't help myself. Thank you for this video it has helped me see that I am not alone and that there is hope for me in Christ

Thank you for sharing your story. Same thing happened to me from a very young age and eventually I accepted it as my identity for several years. During that time God was pursuing me, although I didn't know it. One day out of no where I said, "God if you are real, show me." A little bit of time went by and then God did just what I had asked Him to do. He revealed Himself to me in a vision and told me I was not living to be what He created me to be, but what the world had shaped me to be. (psalm 51:5 Behold, I was shapen in iniquity; and in sin did my mother conceive me.) I began to hear God speaking to me from that day forward and developed a real relationship with the Creator. He delivered me from meth addiction and supernaturally healed my body of an incurable disease called HIV. Today I am so on fire for God and going forward in ministry to fullfill my true God given purpose and destiny in the earth. He has taught the way of healing and deliverance from strongholds. Be blessed in this year of complete victory brother and dont be moved by what people say. Keep speaking the truth.

Ugh I’m dealing with homosexuality and I can’t seem to get out of it... my body wants more but my heart says to run from it.... I still so confused... I need help....

im crying deep, deep tears of connection and joy. thank you

I just want to say that I am so inspired by how Jesus transformed your life Beckett Cook. Watching your testimony also led me to testify publicly that I am no longer gay and that my identity is in Christ. Your testimony had such a profound impact in people struggling with same sex attraction.

It was hard to leave my homosexual identity. A part of me died. But oh what I have gained through living a life surrendered to the Will of God! Thank you Jesus.

Amen. The most loving thing to do is speak truth that sets people free IN Christ.

I want eternity with God!

"Do you want this temporary pleasure right now? Or do you want eternity with God?" - A question everyone is asked. A choice everyone has to choose. No other options. Nothing else in between. And of course, Id say, I want eternity with God. It's something that will never ever deplete unlike the temporary happiness in this world.

When he said"we wanted two things in life 1) success in life 2) finding true love Was very true!

The bible says every knee shall bow and every tongue will confess that Jesus is Lord! You will too one day! God bless you my brother. Welcome to the Kingdom, You are in my prayers. Let God continue to use you for his glory. You have much work to do in the kingdom.

I recently heard this brother on a podcast interview. He has such an incredible testimony. He is a trophy of grace.

This testimony is awesome! Jesus Christ has won the victory over sin for us! Amen!

Thank you Becket for your honesty. It has blessed so many people. May God continue to use you for His kingdom.

Excellent testimony. I have to say the person who made this film is super talented, very professional high level work, from the camera shots the lighting the music the way this person's story was told its top level stuff.

Thats the Holy Ghost!

I was set free now; m a mother of two wonderful young adults, I'm a WOMAN of God, not a SINFUL bathing; n that sin

Thank you, Becket for standing up for God’s truth and love. You are an inspiration to others to follow Jesus. Blessings.

Death anxiety, failing in finding a suitable partner, and unable to find meaning outside of Christianity (or in it whilst still being able to accept being gay) are points that he should consider.

Wow, powerful! Inspirational! I subscribed because of this guy testimony!

One of the most powerful testimonies I've ever heard.

Thank you for this deeply moving testimony. May the Lord continue to inspire and encourage you brother.

I’ve been battling homosexual desires since I was very young. I was molested by one of my uncles school friends...I didn’t know it was wrong, I asked him what he was doing and he stopped...I became obsessed with that moment from that point on...didn’t have a father growing up so when my body reached sexual maturity I confused the longing for a relationship with my dad and sexual desires together.....so I wanted the love of my dad but was looking for it in other men. I got fulfilled seeing guys lust over me and tell me how bad they wanted me to please their sexual hunger....I thought it was showing love. It wasn’t, I ended up in an abusive relationship and got heavy into drugs and contracted HIV.....so now I’m kindling the relationship and leaning on Jesus to be everything I need and want.

I love hearing about your joy and sorrow at the same time. Isn’t that how God is? Showing love and mercy at the same time as knowing how sinful you are. It is all of Him. Love your testimony. ❤️

I really enjoyed this because it's true that many of us feel that same-sex attraction is someone's identity. I believe we as humans have all kinds of temptations. whether it's lust, greed, idolatry or struggling with homosexual thoughts... the Lord can and will provide a way for us to conquer through Him! He won the victory... we just fight the battle (the good fight of faith) EVERYDAY until He ultimately conquers as the returning KING!!! Then all of our sinful struggles will come to an end! we love you Lord Jesus (Yeshua) May we work for your kingdom everyday as we await your return!

I am a gay christian woman. These things do not contradict, but merely coexist. If you would like to talk about this more, please contact me. Have a blessed day

I’m transgender, but it’s not who I am, it’s what I am. It does not define me as a person. I do not introduce myself as a transgender person. I am a woman, a veteran, a sister, a daughter, a friend. Being transgender is simply one of MANY things that defines me as a person.

Powerful testimony! Thank you so much

This is actually so sad he needs to understand that he is gay and that’s amazing.

Absolutely loved this!!

Is there someone by any chance who can pray and who can reach out to me about my struggle against homosexuality. God Bless

To summarise, he's afraid of hell ..

Awesome video. Thank you so much for sharing your story. I believe Jesus can do anything. I'm currently reading the Gospel of Matthew, which talks about all of Jesus's miracles. Jesus calmed a raging storm, fed 5000 with only a few loaves of bread, healed the sick, and raised a girl from the dead. If he can do such amazing things as that, than he can definitely help someone who identifies as homosexual. Christ knows change isn't easy, but he's here to help everyone of us with our own individual sins. He loves us all equally no matter what our sins are. I hope all homosexuals reading this comment know that the Gospel is for everyone, so please don't let anyone stop you from reading it! God bless everyone

This is truly beautiful. Thank you so much for sharing. God bless you

Thank you so much for your testimony!!!! Since I saw it a couple of days ago I have hope!!! Praise our immeasurable and wonderful Jesus. ✝️🙏❤️

Thank you, it gave me hope. God bless

That is what happened to me a lot when I was absent from church, I would involuntarily feel overwhelmed by bawling. I absolutely could not control it. I have a military background a crying seen as weakness . At the time I was still following military doctrines and so I felt very embarrassed and weak. I came to realize that this was the Holy Spirit and I was being cleansed. I too felt the cleansing and sorrow at the same time and I still feel this often times. I also since I began seeking deliverance heard an involuntary voice in my soul saying something like free me. Thank you for sharing your testimony it is very moving; it got me crying not out of sadness but your testimony is moving. I meet so many gay people and we seem to hit off as friends yet I feel I should somehow to tell them the gospel...but I try to figure out how to do it and help them receive it. Perhaps this video could help them. Testimonies can help reach them.

Thanks for sharing...I really needed to hear this to understand my loved one! Praise God that you were delivered and I pray that you're continually encouraged and encouraging! XoXo!

I'm a heterosexual, and the idea that a god exists that does not love homosexuals, is, and always has been ... an obnoxious idea. I'm now an Atheist, but when I was religious, I learned that scribes were paid big money to write that they were receiving messages from on "high" ... so, of course they would write "whatever came into their minds" ... and then scribble "down" their own hallucinations, as being truth from "God."

What a beautiful testimony, Becket! I first heard of you on Eric Metaxas' show and just watched it today. I rejoice with you that 1 Corinthians 6:11 describes your new life: "And such were some of you. But you were washed, you were sanctified, you were justified in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ and by the Spirit of our God."

Amazing. Thank you soo much. I needed to hear this from someone going through the same issues.

💗 love this! So powerful! Praise God! 💕

Thank you Becket for being so real and transparent with your story. The way you articulate this journey in words is helping so many Christians and non Christians alike understand the complexity and depth of this issue. See you in the Kingdom!

How riveting! Thank you for your power, your testimony, and your faith in an amazing Jesus.💜

I sincerely thank you for making and posting this video. Your sensible truth really touched me. I have been struggling with being gay my entire life.

There is power in every testimony. Power to break every chain and shackles.👊🏿⭐️❤️🙏🏿

Becket mentions that he felt different at a very young age, which is what a lot of gay people say. He, eventually, grows up and makes friends as an adult and starts to date guys hoping to find that one guy he could fall in love with. Interestingly, he does what a lot of single people do: He dates guys hoping the guy would save him and give him a reason to live. A mistake on anyone's part, gay or straight. At this point, his story sounds like any gay person growing up. Becket then says that Christianity was not an option for him so he pushed God and the thought of God to the back of his mind. He said it as if God can only be found in Christianity. God is not limited to any one religion but some in humanity seem to think that God belongs to only Christianity. I can only assume that Becket was raised a Christian and had some level of Christian indoctrination, making him feel like Christianity was not the option for him while he identified as a gay man. If that's not the case, then he may have heard various Christian views on the homosexual issue here and there which caused him to associate it being unacceptable with the Christian faith. Christianity is, after all, the seemingly more predominant religion in the Western world. When a person like Becket thinks about something being a sin to God, they tend to gravitate, mentally, towards the Christian faith since it is the faith view that is most predominant. As such, they conclude it's unacceptable. My point is to say that Becket already had a mindset that viewed homosexuality as a sin. That view was, possibly, based on what he heard in Christianity (not being raised a Christian) or having been raised one. Whichever the case, that was his mindset even before he went to his friend's church. One day, Becket sees some bibles on a coffee shop table. Apparently, Becket was with some friends and one of them is a Christian. Here, again, Becket mentions his relationship with Christianity and how it's his enemy. Nonetheless, he is fascinated with it. I wonder when his fascination with Christianity took a hold of him. His friend invites Becket to church and, based on how Becket describes his day at the church, he is converted in a moment's time by the Holy Spirit. No mention of his accepting Jesus as his personal savior as is the usual modern day Christian process. Maybe he did but just didn't mention it? Not everyone has the same experience. As such, I am not one to conclude that homosexuailty is wrong because of one person's personal experience. Sure, there are several people who might be able to relate to Becket's journey but there are also just as many who have the opposite experience who are still gay without having any kind of conversion and they are happy and Christians. I am happy for Becket because he found his happiness. Just as I am for anyone who might identify as gay who has found their happiness. The world would be a much better place if someone like Becket and someone who is gay respected one another and treated each other in the way they would want to be treated. I think that is far more important to Christ than whatever faith or religion one identifies as. After all, Jesus did say that 'doing unto others as you would have them do unto you' is the Law (and the prophets)(Matthew 7:12). Meaning, it is the most important of all.

Thier is not a thing God cannot do. All things are possible through Christ.

There’s no arguing with people who believe in fairytales.

Not everyone who is plagued with same sex attraction gives into it and wants it. A motivated person can overcome those "feelings" or impressions and live a normal, healthy life with therapists who know what they are doing. Some just give in because they don't have an emotional support system around them or they simply don't realize that they have a choice. It isn't easy overcoming sexual urges but there is good help available for men who need it and want it. Most men do not want to have a same sex attraction.

Brilliant message, great production, thank you so much :)

Thank you for this video , it's encouraging! Do you know if a community for men who want to come through homosexuality or as you did, come to see one's identity as anything other than a child of God

Great video! You are brave and spoke the truth. Life here is temporary , we should invest at the next life that is forever.

Thank you for sharing your amazing testimony! I needed to hear this message of hope today!

Thank you for sharing. Our God is a mericle God🙏❤️

This story was very very beautiful!

You are the light & hope for many people over the world🙏🏻💫 much love & respect God bless you 🙏🏻🌸 keep shining ⭐️

This is so strong!!

One billion likes from me. Conversion is the result of God's apocalypse to the souls that, deeply and with honesty, are seeking for the truth. May God be with you brother.

I am just starting To find my way from everything he described. And I Felt so dead and empty for so long. Never being enough!

I'm gay and I know my Lord loves me.

So relate to your story. Thanks for your honesty.

One time a thing occured to me... Why was it that the earliest attractions I had to women have shifted to change into what I see as a 'type' that I like today? Why do I not find Jessica Alba at all attractive when I once found her to be so breathtaking. I also suffered from an identity disorder, and I spent the better part of five years deeply confused and depressed. I spent time with myself even still, looking for a notable, definite answer to define who I really was. I had friends who were gay and bi who nudged me in their direction. I gained a special feeling about myself entertaining the idea that there was something special about me, even though deep down I WAS, and I knew it was so. It was were my confidence came. It was instilled in me through my upbringing as well as my devotion to something. To my art. There was another though: My sex drive was a part of me, but I am ME. My movement of my body, the use of my voice, these are what drives women toward me. What women do in those standard, universal terms when they apply their mind to the way they walk, the same way I apply mentality to my own stride, will draw the body others were born with. I spent so much of my life focused on the way I conducted and communicated in my daily life. Enhanced my own identity. One last thought. Men, women, we are made of shapes. We are all shaped a little differently. Designed for ourselves, and yet it is what we do with that when we use our minds that matters. Shapes are only attractive when we apply feeling to them. That's that. The entire process that goes on before that happens behind the mind has to do with other things entirely. You are always in control. You are not a slave to your own impulses and your own desires. Your lack of self-esteem, the way others see you. Trust me the only ones who are capable of speaking on the matters of true self, of destiny ARE the spiritual ones. Those who blast their opinions today...take away natural identity, nagging and wearing down morale...they correct language/create proper pronouns and titles for us all to use...or they break down what is sacred for the sake of being revolutionary...they tell people to completely ignore what I am saying and just ACCEPT! ACCEPT!...when people like me speak up to raise the idea that the human mind and the human spirit must be atested...we instantly run out of the debate... these folks care more about the way they are seen by others more than any selfless devotion to improve the lives of others. We are much more than pronouns. Much more than the clothes, class, priveleges and languages we abide by. We are carpenters, models, patrollers and policers. Entrepreneurs, teachers, drifters, guides, writers and actors. Choose God. He will show you the love you need and the life you were made to live, and that's truth

Now, i understand that it's a sin or sickness or whatever, but i just wanna say for people who may missunderstand. At the end of the day, he's still into male and is not into female, but no matter how painfull life of celebacy is, u should still do it for JESUS, cause at the end of the road there's eternal joy waiting for u, but if u give unto these things there's eternal pain and sorrow waiting for u, because u gave ur self into a life of half happiness, cause no lgbt person no matter how happy he is with his life he knows that if things were not the way they r, he would be happier. In other words, guve ur happiness to jesus and he'll returm it to u in multiple times that u can't even imagine. Amen💗💗

goosebumps @" joy over the fact that I had just met God, the King of the universe" :')

Thank you for sharing your story and giving hope to this generation that they can be set free in JESUS

Thank you for sharing your beautiful story!

Hearing your testimony puts me to tears. Thank you for your honesty!

Please pray for me, I love someone of my gender to the point that I go depressed sometimes.

Thank you, Becket, for the beautiful gift of your story and testimony. God is truly using you for His glory and kingdom. God bless you, my brother in Christ!

Amazing. God bless you sir, for sharing this touching testimony❤️

Scaring people into hating their sexuality. But with an acoustic guitar and light piano in the background, it sounds very great

Nice story. Thanks

Thank you for your bravery and sharing your testimony! :)

wow very very powerful testimony! Thank you for sharing

I learned so much from this glorious testimony. I would love to hug this young man because he gave me hope for my daughter who is in a same sex relationship. I pray for her every day and I know that the Lord God loves her and is bringing her out of that darkness. I love hearing the testimonies of Christians who have had encounters with Christ and they immediately say, "Yes, God, I am yours." But with some it takes a little longer. Thank you for sharing. You're spreading truth, light and hope. God bless you.

Some time ago I'd agree with this but now I know there's nothing wrong with being queer, it was just a prejudice and internalized homophobia within me. That goes without saying one doesn't choose to be queer as well as nobody chooses to be heterosexual but what you can decide is whether to be Christian or not. PS If you don't agree with me I hope you react like Christ and not like a Pharisee.

Amazing Testimony bro! Thank you for sharing with us.

Beautiful testimony💛.

What God has for us is so much better than any sin or pleasure of this world. #home

I love your story and I've witnessed amd experienced plenty of this false happiness. We need God more than man or any person.

Does Becket have his own RU-vid channel?

This was so beautifully said.

Thank you so much for sharing your story

God fearfuly and wonderfully created a man and a woman identified each of its purpose that compliments with each other.. He is delighted in His creation. Satan is rebellious and envious with God and want to mess with God's creation especially the human beings doing his best to destroy them one of those is to destroy and confuse their real identity to lose it's purpose and power. Pray, read your Bible and desire a personal relationship with God so that you can obey Him with all your heart! Sending you Hugs! God Bless!

Great vid ❤️

The music REALLY detracts from this man's very important testimony. I admire his bravery and telling the truth.

His story, not everyone’s. Don’t let someone’s experience erase your own. You might not change and you don’t have to want to. You can be a gay Christian. Being gay/calling yourself gay won’t set you apart from God. It won’t put you under his wrath. It’s definitely not a question of salvation. Be authentic and don’t forget to love yourself ❤️

this testimony is very moving to me even as a straight male.

His story is very interesting. Glad he shared it.

Thank you so much for sharing your story.