I am so so sorry hun. I know hospital is very hard for you because of PTSD. I'm the same. Having an NG tube feed 24/7 is extremely difficult. Sending you so so much love ❤
I can't believe this 😢I have know you are scared, just take it one hour at a time sweetie. I'm praying for you. You will get through this this, I know it's REALLY hard but you are so strong. Try to think of your daughter and you the things you want to accomplish when you get home. All my love and prayers come your way ❤❤❤❤❤❤
So sorry you had to go to hospital 😢 my heart goes out to you. Praying for you. I know it seems really scary being there and having the tube, but you will start to feel so much better physically and won't be feeling light headed anymore. I hope your recovery is smooth and you are able to see a psychologist ❤
Thank you for your recording, my daughter is going thru this with ng tube now, 2nd time in hosp this month, and watching your struggle helped me be more understanding of the awful grip she is in. Praying that God gives you strength wisdom, full recovery and takes your fears away. Please pray for my daughter , thanks in advance ❤
Sweethart you can do this. I am sending you love and prayers. I had an ED from age 11 until my mid 20s. Im 40 now and I was were you are now. I was in the hospital for 4 months. I am here to tell you that you are not alone. You take care of yourself because you are loved and you are a child of God. I made it from where you are now and I know you can too. I am praying for you sweet lady.
I am over 15 years in recovery. God and my husband of 16 years is why I am here. I have health issues and 7 mental health disorders that I deal with and the ED is in my head everyday but God wanted me to recover to tell my story and let others know you can recover. You sweetie are not alone. I am here and I will be watching all the videos you post. I wish that I could be with you in person because I would take care of you because I know that fear you are having. I am sending all the love and prayers I have to u. You are a sweet lady and I have love in my heart for you.
You can do it too. It was the hardest thing to recover from but it can be done. Please remember that you can recover and think that Kristy (that is my name) was where you are for so long but she recovered. I just want you to know that you are not alone.
@KristyThomas-px3xu I'm not really convinced it can happen for me, but it would be nice, but I can't stand my body with any unnecessary weight on it, and a higher weight is terrifying for me. I can't do it I don't think. 😞
really sorry dear :( i know ow ard it is to be in hosptial how trauamtic it was always for me...but i hope at least they ll help you little bit aroudn your health anfd youll feel bettter..remmmber yur needy here♥in this world especially for your daugther...use your time there for rest and for art....i also hated having feeding tube i know how unplasant and discomofort it is...ive had it 2se against my will and was really fdiffuclt fr me me but dont worry it will not lost long hold on please, sending prayers♥
I was shocked to see this and am so sorry this is happening. Hopefully you will be physically more stable soon , the intervention must have been necessary and you are more physically unwell than you realised . I have had anorexia most of my life , with fluctuating bmi , sometimes low ( once or twice needin intervention ) but I have managed mostly to accept n live with this . The mental anguish , I feel for you and the fear also but know this will pass and persevere into love for yourself and feel the love around you , it will heal you . I was so hysterically scared on a psych ward at 18 and recieved cruelty from doctors and nurses ( 1 exception ) who seemed to think I was an indulgent attention seeker , as you say , this causes trauma , I will neva forget but now ( age 56 !) I am still here , had a child (28!) And lived to tell tale , neva fully ' recovered ' and I don't expect to but I am ok and you will b to , believe x ❤
@@stareye1643Wow to you both! My daughter is only 8 and I want to be here for her so very much too. Maybe we can all collaborate. I'm 41 but happy to talk about doing a collaborative thing on RU-vid if either or both of you would be. ❤❤
I would love a support group . I recently finished ' the ,mantra ' work series at eating disorder unit ( outpatient ) ans sad as it sounds , I miss the people to talk to who understand . I am not working, since May, I don't feel well enuf , I have a few friends , lovely partner daughter n dog but feel lonely for understanding of my daily strain of Ed voice n life x 😢
I'm so sorry.....but, this is saving your life. Without this time in hospital you wouldnt be able to go home, ever. Just bear each day, one at a time, and your reward will be to be back home. Sending you so much love, xx or is it bare?? haha
I'm so sorry you are doing poorly, and that you are in the hospital where you've got the tube with your trauma about it. And so sorry about your brother too. I pray the lord to take your fear. I wish I knew something to say that would be helpful but I just don't know. You will be out of there soon, and you will be OK. Maybe you can do some more art work while you're there, or read a book to take your mind off it.
Just your very kind thoughts and hopes for peace and healing are helping me, I can't say how much. I'm doing a little drawing and reading, but it's hard to keep my mind off how much I hate this situation. Thank you ❤❤
I was anorexic when I was 18. I know how hard it is. I know the emotional and physical pain. I have been in therapy most of my adult life. I now have to battle depression and anxiety, but I am stable and doing well now. I still have moments of darkness in my life, but I think back how God delivered me through them all. He will do the same for you. There is nothing too difficult for Him. Remember how much He loves you and wants you healthy and happy. He doesn't wish any of us to be ill. Jesus was His sacrifice to save the world from sin and death and have eternal life. All we must do is believe it and accept him into our hearts. He has a healing for you. I am going to keep you close in prayer because I know He will help you. He loves you, and so do I. Close your eyes every night and think of how you wish to be. Pray to Him to begin to work in your life. Open your heart and mind. I pray the peace that passes all understanding will fill you, and you will feel stronger and more stable as the days pass. I know how devastating those hospital stays can be. Take the time there to come closer to God and ask for His will be done in your life. Remember fear is the opposite of peace. I pray for peace for you. I pray for your healing, strength, and complete recovery. If you would ever like to get in touch, my name is Lisa. I am a recovered anorexic, and a child of God. I'm sure many are praying for you, love you, and support you. I am glad I saw your video. Tonight, I lift you up in prayer.❤ Listen to Evanescence--"Hello." I relate so much to this song in my dark hours.
@TheOriginalBeautty Hi, I'm still alive unbelievably! I'm tired, have had a few serious refeeding syndrome symptoms like hypophosphatemia, hypoglycaemia etc, but I'm hoping bloods stay very stable over this weekend so I can go home Monday or Tuesday
YOU are love and loved. Remember your fears are feelings, NOT FACTS. It's OK to be in hospital AGAIN. Anorexia is a genetic disease, not a choice. Allow others to help you while you still have a choice. They won't get it all right but hopefully, will succeed in helping to you to stay alive. It's the disease that tells you you're not worthy. YOU ARE WORTH IT! Allow others to love and care for you as you relearn to love and care for yourself. Allow yourself to be fed like ABABY, (pun intended) like you would a newborn preemie. All you need to do is... One bite, one sip, drip and breath at a time. Holding you in the light.
I was really hoping that you would try to explain what you are afraid of. Is it dying, or gaining weight etc. it would help people understand this disorder a bit more. Good luck to you.
@starraustin9363 I have nothing to repent about, my eating disorder is not my fault and I don't want anyone here who thinks I should repent for anything. Please leave.
