I lost my 19yo sweet son to depression. Thank you for telling your story. I can't imagine your pain. It's a nightmare. Depression is like heart disease or cancer. They need and deserve help. I'm so sorry.
Nobody wants to commit suicide. It is the emotional pain anger body pain and exhaustion from fear anxiety depression trauma it gets to be too much for some they just want all of it to stop😢
The other thing that I want ANYONE who calls suicide "selfish" to know is that a person in this place truly believes that the world/family/group will be better without them. They cannot in any way see their own value. My heart breaks for this momma - I can't fathom this level of pain. One of mine (both adults now) has mental health issues that have to be constantly monitored. When she was in college out of state, I lived in fear of this every day. I'm lucky - she got good help at the right time. My heart goes out to the brave woman.
Although one doesn't accept or believe, there is a spiritual warfare going on and the spirit of Satan is roaming like a roaring lion seeking the empty souls of hopeless people with no protection from God..if you think this isn't possible then you're not educated about the spiritual realm at all and may want to consider a relationship with the Lord. Society and social media is controlled by the devil and its twisting the minds of young people from the time they're 5 years old now along with the television.. If you have a daily relationship with God the devil has no weapons against Him and he flees, if you don't have a relationship with Jesus, the devil takes up occupancy in you and will drive you to take your own life or find an alternative to numb the pain..
Im so sorry for your losses. I lost my daughter this last Oct. I found her. My life is shattered. Its the most horrible thing a mother can go through through.
Omg, just reading that you found her, is so heartbreaking 💔 I’m so sorry you and this Mom on here have been through that. May God cont to give you strength and hold your dear child in his hands forever more
I am so sorry for your loss. You’re in my prayers. I lost my mother at 18 to suicide. Sometimes sadly it’s also the other way around. It comes for anyone… I miss my mother, and you miss your child. May they both rest in peace.
I am so sorry about what you have to go through. I lost my 16 year old daughter (Aleia) in May 2022 from suicide. Almost 2 years, and I am just lost. I really do not want to be here anymore. I just work, and go home to sleep. Life is pretty pointless now (she was my only kiddo). Good luck on your process of grief. Rob
Life may seem pointless but perhaps you could help this lady further her cause to help others. Helping someone else is always therapeutic. Most importantly, make sure you know Jesus Christ as your Savior bc life here can end instantly and I want you to go to Heaven. I do understand your pain. I lost a son to suicide 8 mos ago 😢
As a mother who lost a child the same way she is def still in shock & denial she has not accepted the loss, once grief hits her it will be hard. Lady I dont know you but our support group SOS meets at the woodlands , im personally here if you want to reach out. Hugs & prayers.
No I feel like her but I do pray to God and I feel it's God and my son sustaining me , yes I have gone through horrible days that feel like hell , but I feel like God created our brains so incredibly that it protects some of us when the pain is to much, she is definitely different than other moms in my mothers grieving suicide groups ,
The fact that her kid's friends are still in touch with her is so beautiful. Knowing someone still remembers your loved one frequently means the world. I'm happy that she not only gives support now, but that she also receives some type of support. I wish I could give her a hug, her kid's have such an admirable mother 💙
Unfortunately my nephew did this I remember getting the call and had a vision of my sister's face and the pain in her face has never left it changed our whole family His name was Joseph absolutely beautiful kid . Loved playing the guitar and was brilliant. My nephew was a organ donor. From Australia
I know someone else who lost two children to suicide a year apart on the anniversary of the first death. I can't imagine the pain this has caused in their family.
Losing 2 child is so devastating I can't even imagine The pain this woman is going through.. I'm also suicidal, I wanna end my life too and just came across this video, it making me think bout my mom afterwards
Your life is a gift. There are others dying who WISH they had more time to live. Everyone has problems but none are worth making that type of decision over. The problems will pass and are temporary. Value each day you have. Praying for God's peace in your mind 🙂🤍
I honestly would throw in the towel if I didn’t have my two kids. Without them, I’d already be gone. They are the only two things that I’m living for, I’m not living at this point, I’m existing more than anything.
My daughter has had suicidal ideations since she was 11 years old. She has her good and bad days. I watch videos like these to first feel blessed she is still alive and to remind me this could be us one day. Bless you and the rest of your family. 😢
I don't pretend to know what you are going through, but I encourage her to chart her roughest of days for a few months. If it is cyclical, you might be dealing with a hormonal disorder similar to PMDD that causes depression and anxiety. I only mention it because of her age. I suffered for 20 years before they figured out mine was hormonally based. Just a thought because that cause is often overlooked. No matter what it is, I wish you both the best!
@@user-fq2wy2fk5rwow, I have PMDD. I’ve always had horrible cycles that started when I was 8. I’m on medicine that somewhat helps, but I now know antidepressants don’t help all the way. I use maca root powder that you can get from any store that helps a ton with balancing my moods. I also have borderline personality disorder that I’ve yet found a good therapist for. Thanks for spreading awareness for PMDD.
This! I have this as well after research thank you for shining a light on this it’s took me into my 30’s to figure it out. I wish my parents had known Sooner. I know now to look out for my daughter and what this looks like
I’m so sorry. I lost my son this way too 3 months ago. I still don’t believe, even as type these words. Every day it’s the hardest thing to just keep going. Sending love and strength Timmy s mom forever loved 💙♾🕯🕊🙏🏽 Love is forever
It never goes away. I lost my older sister to suicide in 2023. We spent the day together. I found her. I live with it day to day. I am always pushing it down because I don't want to deal with it.
It does go away. It's spiritual.. I was r*ped when I was 8 .. I was suicidal and depressed.. I called out to Jesus to reveal himself to me . I wanted to know what was wrong with me and he came to me and healed me 😭😭🙌🏿 I'm free now. The grass looks so much more greener. I love everyone now .. the demons tricked her. They tell u how worthless u are and its all lies. U have to be spiritually protected.
I lost my 8 year old son to cancer. This year will be 9 years that he’s been gone and although we lost our children under much different circumstances, we’ve both lost children nonetheless. And unfortunately, I remember how hard it was those first few years. Knowing what I know now, I call them the ‘adjustment’ years. It’s simply a period of time you spend adjusting to your new life without them… just surviving everyday. Then comes the acceptance of their absence and with that… the profound grief. There’s no way around it, only through it. My heart goes out to her… I couldn’t imagine the pain of losing 2.
I wish there was more context, i.e., did they suffer from mental illness, any drug use, life stressors/circumstances…. I lost my daughter in 2021 and am absolutely devastated but having 2 children go this way in such a short amount of time is so terrifying to me, I can’t even wrap my head around it. Sending virtual hugs to this mother
Unfortunately, it's different for each person. The story of how it went for one individual could be nothing like another. Even with the details, it wouldn't make sense to someone whose brain isn't in that state. I was suicidal for years. My family didn't know until I decided to tell my family. They had no idea anything was wrong. I'm so very sorry for the loss of your daughter.
Thank you for speaking this truth, so right, it's not weakness or selfishness, It's persons who have lost the ability to see a way out of their pain. May this sweet mama find peace & healing 🙏
My aunt died from suicide before I was born. I’m 34 now. I want to know more about who she was a person since I was never able to meet her, but my family NEVER talks about her. I remember trying to ask my dad and grandparents about her when I was younger and I could tell it was just too painful for them to even speak about. That’s just so sad, it’s like she was completely forgotten as a person, but I also know they must still think about her all the time. All I really know about her was that she was 18 when she died and she used a shotgun. Nothing about her life and who she was, just basic facts about her death. RIP Joyce, I wish I could have gotten the chance to meet you.
My heart goes out to this beautiful woman. I believe God will use her pain to help other people. My sister died by suicide in 2021 and it is hard as a sibling. I cannot imagine losing 2 children. May she continue to be loved and supported by her friends and community.
My daughter Alyssa died 8/23/20 to Fentanyl poisoning she was 26. I lost my baby boy Logan 9/2/22 to suicide. His sister was his joy and protector. My journey is long and hard but I hear you
Crying ..Christ is what saved me from suicide else I wouldn’t be here. Depression is the devil I hurt for others that are still struggling. Prayers you overcome 😢❤️❤️❤️
Christ also saved me 2yrs ago when I was battling bad depression. I just wanted to go to sleep and not wake up. In desperation I cried out to the Lord to help me and He did just that. I am so much better now.🙏
God bless you. I lost my 12 year old granddaughter Caitlyn who we were raising and had custody of. We had no idea she was depressed. She hid it well. It happened at home and I found her. I understand how you have ptsd. I'm so sorry you have gone through this tragedy 2 times. I know how you feel. I will pray for you and know we both know how the other feels. God bless you. Colleen Caitlyns grandma Forever 12 .
Oh my gosh....12 yrs old?!?! I can't imagine feeling that amount of hopelessness when I was that age. She was just a baby!!! I just pray that someone reading your story or hearing this Moms story does what she intended it to and help someone to think twice before you make this decision. It will get better. It could be a long ride but it will!!!! Prayers to you and your beautiful granddaughter, Caitlyn.
I can’t imagine going through this with a child this young. I’m so sorry. I wish I could know what parameters to put in place to help a child or teen when you feel they may be capable of this? I have a son who I fear this for. I’ve put a camera in his room but we’re not watching it 24/7 I don’t know what other measures I can take 😓
@@yessy102110 I feel like a camera isn’t going to do any good. god forbid it ever happens, you’re either going to watch your child take their last breath which sounds like a nightmare or encourage them to do it elsewhere. and if it doesn’t ever happen, you’re simply invading his privacy.
Growing up with depression & anxiety (suicidal thoughts included) it made me feel crazy, like I was no better than the people in movies bound in straight jackets and cushioned rooms. The doctors/ therapists made me feel like my brain was wired wrong, and that medication was the only solution. As I got older, I wished someone had just told me that it's normal to feel this way, that a lot of people feel this way. But the problem was that it wasnt talked about enough. Thankyou for talking about it without hesitation. Thankyou for lending an ear to others. Thankyou for talking about it the way it should be talked about. ❤
My biggest accomplishment has been staying alive for my friends and family. At times I thought they'd be better off without me but I was wrong. Most of life is solitary but I know it's worth it
To OP: it's easy to stage one's death and make it look like an accident. Just give it some thought and I'm certain that'll you'll one day free of the bullshit that is existence.
Just like she said, suicide can happen and you can go into shock and not deal with the trauma for years even. Then one day it hits you like a train wreck. It changes so many facets of your life, your entire trajectory. Everything around you implodes. Please. Don’t ever put your family through this. In my younger years I had multiple serious attempts, one was a 50/50 chance to come out. The pain on my father’s face. The trauma my mother experienced for YEARS after. I ruined their dream of the future. I crushed it. Even though I still struggle sometimes, the pain I was in was nothing compared to the pain I caused my family.
My son recently took his life and I know exactly what you mean screaming and in shock I’m literally in the same spot he left this earth in Feb 27 2024 he had just turned 21 he was a daddy and just had a babygirl
MY BROTHER WAS RULED A SUICIDE BY HANGING…I WAS HIS SISTER…I WISH HE HAD CALLED ME BUT WE FOUND OUT YEARS LATER FROM AN INVESTIGATOR THAT HE WAS REALLY MURDERED…MEXICAN MAFIA… NOT ENOUGH EVIDENCE TO PRESS CHARGES…I KNEW IT WASNT SUICIDE!!! I WAS SO ANGRY AT THEM RULING IT AS SUICIDE!!!😢😢😢😢😢 IVE LOST 2 BROTHERS AND MY THIRD BROTHER IS DYING FROM CIRRHOSIS AND CONGESTIVE HEART FAILURE AT 49…😢😢😢
I lost my 16 yrs old and only child. The pain in my heart is unberable. Is going to be 2yrs. It seems like today. Imagine two. My prayers goes to her. Is not easy dealing with the emotions is like a roller coaster. 🙏🤗
She’s such a strong mom and really opened my mindset on having talks with my children about suicide prevention and being proactive than reactive. That’s an excellent strategy and overall attitude and moral to ask not only about my kid’s days but about their classmates as well and to be extra kind to them and everyone in general. Kind words are always welcome and appreciated. ❤
Thank you for sharing your story. I am so sorry for the loss of your precious children Mitchell and Megan. Losing a child is the worst pain that no parent should have to go through. We lost our 24-year-old son by suicide on 09-11-21. It was the worst day of our lives, and his suicide forever changed us. The person I used to be is no longer. That person died when my son died.
My daughter has been suffering for yrs. 100s if prescriptions and all. Hispital stays dozens and dozens. Therapy still Every day you dont know what will happen. We talk about it often for years now. As a Christian, she believes it's wrong. However, she wants the pain to STOP. No one knows the suffering they go through. My daughter says it's a living hell. She just wants peace. The intrusive thoughts all day long. Dark clouds ☁️ She gives everyone my name and contact so I can speak on her behalf. Your right at 18 it became difficult from when she was a minor.
Thank you for sharing, makes me feel less alone, My daughter was 20 and just died by suicide last month. I also laid with her for 9 days while she was on life support. This ache in my heart is nothing I thought could even happen. Unlike your story, my daughter WAS on the medication but it was too much. Way too much and i couldnt stop it. It stole any light she had left to the point she couldnt be happy if she wanted too. So i see we're on different spectrums of the situation yet we had same results.
I just lost my uncle too suicide 2 weeks ago and our whole family is devastated. We never seen this coming from him. I don’t wish this grief on anyone. I have so much guilt it overwhelms me some days.😭
With love and compassion, a message of support from a friend in the UK.... There are no words but plenty of caring thoughts to comfort you... Love and Blessings Janice 👵 🇬🇧 xxx
I lost my son at 17 to suicide. It was horrific and I can’t imagine if I lost my other son. I almost did for he found his brother and he was 15. God held me together.
Thank you for sharing your story. You will help so many. Life can be so hard. Convid was horrific for most of us. It was even more so for teens and younger people. Stay strong. Prayers for you and Alex. 🙏❤️🙏❤️
My heart truly goes out to this mom. I am so glad she has turned her horrible losses into advocating for suicide prevention.We need so much advocating for this horrible pain. I am a sibling of suicide, I lost my brother to suicide when he was only 18. Much love and hugs.
Sometimes it runs in the family, genetically. My grandma, mom and myself have mental health issues. I am scared my future children will too so I will watch them closely. But for those who take their life, I truly think they are sensitive souls. This world sometimes can be too cruel and it’s very difficult to live in, especially with all the over whelming emotions
Im so glad you're talking about this, without fear, without hesitation. pure devotion in helping someone else is beaming from you. I'm sorry that you have to speak of this from your own pain. I lost two friends, one on his 19th birthday in 2020, and the other at age 25 a couple months ago. It's so hard as someone grieving their loss, losing someone to suicide is so much more heavy than any other loss. the grief you carry, the guilt you carry.. It should be spoken about more often. We shouldn't carry these feelings alone. I myself periodically feel soo suicidal, for years I've struggled and will probably always struggle. Hearing the pain it deflects onto others is what I need to be constantly reminded. The thought of the pain I would deflect onto others is stronger than my own. But this needs to be remembered; spoken. when our heads are cloudy we need that voice through the pain to ask us to stay.
My nephew did this. It gave me a feeling that I am infected with such a deep sadness, I don't want to be around ppl very much because I don't want to infect them. It destroyed my family. We never had holidays together again. I have nephews and nieces that I've never met. A ounce of prevention is worth a pound of cure. If talking to your kids helps to prevent it then do it!!
I don’t know how I came across this video. So sorry for your loss Robin. I understand, my only daughter Paige committed suicide too. I can’t cope, I cry all day every day. Me too, I sleep in her bed with her microfiber blanket. I have no friends, Paige was my only friend. We were called The Happy Mother Daughter Duo. It totally destroyed me. It hurts every second of every day. I just want to join my baby in the afterlife. I can’t live with this intense pain every second. I can’t go anywhere where we used to go, like the mall, or Starbuck’s, Target, Walmart. I failed my baby, that was my job as her mom to save her. I didn’t save her. I sat in ICU too. My daughter was beautiful inside and out. I just want to be with her. I can’t live without her love, Everything hurts. People don’t understand. Not at all. I’m like you Robin, I don’t go out. It just hurts too much. She was my purpose and the love of my life. Now I have no purpose or will to live. Sending lots of Aloha Honolulu. ❤🌺 Now I’m crying for my Paige and for you Robin and Mitchell and Megan.🌻
Bless you for sharing your family’s story with the world so that others can possibly understand the significance of discussing mental health and the importance of treatment for everyone involved!!! May god bless this beautiful lady and her surviving family
She speaks with a degree of separation, detachment, locking the pain away… whichever way to survive. I am not an expert, but I can feel and see in her eyes. So sorry for your losses. Took me nearly 18 years to suddenly and finally cried for my deceased father. Prayers for you and your family.
My aunt buried both of her children one in 85 at 11 months old and her 27-year-old son 12 years ago accidental drug overdose. She's the strongest woman I know God Bless all of you parents who have lost a child. A club NO ONE SHOULD BE A PART OF
God bless your aunt… Her pain must be unimaginable, she really is a strong person for going on despite the pain. No words I say can ever bring them back, so I’ll just say: I only bring love and hugs to y’all.
I am so sorry for her loss. Not sure why this happens and can’t get an answer from the one who committed suicide but it’s sad for the living they left behind. May God bless her and keep her and her family safe ❤
Thankyou so much mam ❤, your angels are keeping you strong,you dont see it but I feel it , I also lost my son to this horrible mental illness , and I feel alot of things you do ,I wish I had better words to express my gratitude for this video , but what I do want to say is that now I truly believe that the people that have suffered the most are the people with the most beautiful hearts , you are doing an amazing job and I know your kids are so proud, may God bless your son so much, I also stress and cry about my only surviving son , I dont want to loose him to suicide, and I also like to encourage other moms like me in my grieving groups , God bless momma bear , I pray that we all can continue to heal and find peace and joy in our pain , I want to heal because my son didn't die in vain and because I want to help spread suicide awareness in honor of my son ❤
This is SO sad. ❤ I am very sorry this happened to you guys. Be strong and you are very courageous to tell us about it. Thank you for sharing. I hope you have enough support. Dont ever give up. You are precious and your children all are too. ❤
I am bawling my eyes out, this is so hard to imagine happening yet it did, to you. May God bless you. You are a great mom and the two kids didn’t want to see the disappointment on your face if they were honest about what they were thinking/feeling. Idk you, but listening to this interview, it’s obvious how much you love and adore your kids. They’re all lucky to have and had a wonderful mother 🌹. I think they would want their mom to live in peace. They’re no longer in pain, so you should start trying to heal your pain. I will pray for you 🙏🏼.
My heart hurts so terribly for this mother! My heart hurts for all of you in the comments who have lost loved ones to suicide. For all of you in the comments who have and do struggle with anything be strong, reach out for help and know you are loved.
God bless this momma who has the courage to tell others her story. She has unbelievable strength. May she find peace and comfort in the days ahead. God bless all of you ❤️
I have the utmost compassion for this Mom. My deepest condolences for the loss of her children, and most heartfelt prayers for her emotional healing. May the peace and comfort at the Lord Jesus Christ surround her and restore her soul in these days ahead. Her doctors may have told her that she will always have PTSD and there's nothing else that they can do, but I know that Jesus Christ delivers, heals and restores! I am a living testimony of it.
This mom is so right, suicide folks can’t get out of their own way, asking for help is the hardest thing to do. And, Kids, Americans put your damned phone down and help someone in the process.
What a beautiful heart she has. To turn such deep grief and despair into a message of hope is amazing. I pray she finds the peace and love that she deserves
To all you depressed suicidal people there is hope for you. Please do not take your lives. 2 yrs ago I felt like this and in desperation I cried out to God for help and He heard me and He will hear you too. He rescued me from the depths of despair and He can do it for you too. Praying for you and sending love and hugs🙏🙏🙏
I lost my cousin Eric to suicide in 2002.he was 27 years old .I can't imagine what my aunt and uncle go through everyday without their baby son that took his life on May 23rd 2002!
I’m so sorry for your loss! I know how you feel I lost a two year-old granddaughter not to suicide but to murder but the pain of losing a child no matter what is something that is unbearable! God bless you!
I can't even imagine the pain a mother endures after loosing a child let alone two. My heart breaks for any parent who have lost their children. I pray God gives you the strength to get through each minute of every day ❤
Oh I'm so sorry for all of your loss hun , I have no words only to say u and your family it's lovely how u care for how ppl are feeling and speaking out x god bless xx💖are in my thgts and prayers ,
Mama I’m so sorry for your loss. No one can imagine what you’re going through. Thank you for sharing your story and your opinion on the age limit for making medical decisions at the age of 25 years old in stead of 18 years old I 100 % agree with you and I’m in the medical field my heart breaks when I speak to parents about there kids who need help and parents can’t do anything because of the age oh there 18 years old they are an adult NO NO there not I hope the government changes the age limit it can SAVE LIVES❤🙏🏻.
I am from a family of 14. In the 14 we had a set of identical twins. My brother was one of the twins in 2002 who took his own life he was 27. I also suffer from ptsd. To this day I haven't mourned his passing. It was 3 yrs ago his twin passed away not of suicide but it has destroyed me to this day I have not have went thru any of the acceptance stages. All 4 of my brother who past all together between 2002 n 2023.
She's Courageous and selfless in her efforts in outreach despite grieving her incredible loss of two children. I hope Alex (for the right reason) becomes a parent to give her grandchildren. I hope one day she can leave her house again without fear. 18-year-olds still need parental guidance, and laws should reflect that to ensure their children get the mental healthcare they need. I lived in the woodlands for a few years but didn't know how wonderful a community they are. I'm amazed at how she still looks at life with the cup half full. As a mental health nurse, suicide prevention is paramount to me, and I'm very inspired and proud of this wonderful mother. 💙💜💙💜 For someone who's not religious either, I hope she's getting the best treatment from a secular therapist, and if not, look into the Secular Therapy Project.
