How BPD impacts employment and your BPD severity 

I think this is one of the biggest impacts of bpd. I cannot seem to keep a job for longer than a year. I always start out so well but eventually the pressure and negative self talk build up so much that I end up quitting from the intense build up of stress. I’m 35 and my resume looks crazy because I’ve had so many jobs!

You can work but it's going to be fucking HARD. The more I'm learning about BPD, the more I don't want to exist. I've been working on my BPD for 2 years and I'm ready to swallow a bullet at this point. Shit's never ending. Not only that, but people don't want nothing to do with us. So, we're bound to walk alone forever. There's no point to that.

For me, relationships fuck up everything. I can be on such a good streak with work and life in general, but as soon as I get a partner, I want to spend all my time with them and can’t stand to be away from them for 8 hours every day. I just quit my job a couple days ago for this exact reason. I really liked the job too. Part of me regrets it, but the other part is glad to have more time to spend with my partner. It’s so unhealthy.

I survived in my job for 11 years by being detached. I never made real friends. Im healing and recovering slowly. ❤

This is probably one of the most challenging impacts with my BPD. I can’t seem to hold down a job for more than 3 months. I find it difficult to regulate myself when I’m at work and thus my emotional extremes come out and are hard to manage. It’s like the slightest bit of stress can make me completely shut down and give up. Then the emptiness/depression kicks in and I just don’t feel like I have the energy for anything. I want to have and keep a job. I want to have more stability and a good source of income. I just don’t know how to have those things with my BPD. It does help to know that I’m not alone.

I've never been fired but I always end up quitting because I just feel so overwhelmed. The longest I've worked since 2016/2017 is about 1 year or up to about 6-8 months. Typically at the 4 month mark things start to get a lot harder and I start to feel overwhelmed. I often don't have time for appointments. I feel like I have less time for therapy so I'll often end up stopping therapy or I won't even start it again. I also feel like there’s too much to do at home. For me having clean space does help me feel calm and more able to do other tasks. But I keep pushing myself with out giving much time to myself. So I'll end up getting burnt out. I typically quit when I'm crying every morning before work and when my mood there isn't up to "standard".

The one thing that makes it hard is i feel like a literal child, no self esteem so anyone can put me down and i wont be able to stick up for myself. I almost feel as though everyone is an authority figure and im like the child.

The fantastic Dr Fox strikes again 😊 Self sabotage, self deprication, negative talk, over working to prove ones worth, paranoia, spidey senses on over-drive, sensitivity to criticism turned to the max, supporting and rescuing others your main mission, feeling of not fitting in, I don't belong feelings, self-isolating, eager to impress yet modest and deflective to praise, but crushed if efforts not valued. Thoughts of leaving begin to build, convince yourself its the right thing to do in order to survive, leave then feel like a loser, quitter, never gonna reach your full potential hopeless case - sigh

I wish I could just not care about how people feel about me or how I affect others, not feel in the way and taking up space and a burden and annoyance. Not worry whether I am doing or saying things wrong or projecting negative energy or hurting people. I want to be a ray of sunshine instead of a dark cloud. I feel like a child begging to feel accepted when interacting with anyone. I wish I could try it all over again.

This is the most challenging part of my BPD. I have very spotty employment. I will be a job for two or three months and then get in an argument with someone at work. I often feel that my bounderies have been violated get triggered and feel that I have to defend myself. I wish I could have job stability.

I have never been employed for longer than five months as someone with severe bpd. I don’t qualify for disability and I don’t have a means to go to work now without a vehicle even if I could find a job. I am so exhausted from consistently trying to make something of myself only to never make anything except a gigantic, expensive mess I can’t afford.

It's exhausting. I'm 58 and have suffered my intire life with these issues. Throw in pms and being sick 2 weeks out of the month.....I'm on a really good cocktail of meds now, it's really helped. But I did just quit my job yesterday. Lol. I can't deal with people at all! I've walked out of more jobs than I can count! Thank you for you're content. You nail it!

Been in the same company since 2015, got promoted a few times, too. It's still extremely difficult to even get up in the morning, let alone do your job.

One thing I struggle with personally, is that I barely manage my own stuff on my own recovery journey. Then, in dealing with the public, other people (who likely aren't putting the effort into their behavior) make their problems mine by being awful. Like, no dude, get your problems away from me. I have enough for at least two people, if not more... Not cool. It's super frustrating to be working towards healing when "normal" people just get to be jerks and not do a thing to fix their abhorrent behavioral patterns.

Iv been forced to overnight shifts as the only way I can remain employed with the level of severity of my Complex BPD. Even then I’m still struggling even with limited coworker interactions and the fear of not being able to support myself while being declined for disability despite 8 hospitalizations, intermittent homelessness, and much more …. The fear is real but I’m trying and your workbook and videos are part of the support network/resources I have built up for myself. Thank you Dr. Fox!

I am in my 50,s now and have held onto a part time job for almost 10 years, this is in my opinion has been one of my biggest achievements as in my younger years I lost count of how many jobs I walked out of or got sacked.

Having a job solves 75% of my mental anguish. With a job comes financial stability, routine, and confidence. I also have joy in my hobbies because I feel financially secure.

I quit my last job as a receptionist suddenly because of poor boundaries on both our part, between me and my boss, who treated me like a BFF and told me all her confessions and secrets and problems as if I was some kind of indentured servant, meanwhile flattering me unreasonably and inviting me to personal outings. Histrionic? I had to listen to her because she controlled my hours and my salary. And because of my naturally helpful nature and difficulty telling her that that's really not an appropriate topic to discuss with me. I mean your employee is not your therapist! I liked the job though and I miss it sometimes, just not her. She was weird from the get-go though, far too familiar and casual. One day I couldn't take it anymore and my anger escalated and I quit without notice. Couldn't stand to see her one more time. I now have a job where I work alone, just getting a task completed and done well (a janitrix), and I like that, but it's only seasonal. Don't make as much money, and I won't be able to claim unemployment insurance when it finishes because I won't have enough hours. So back onto looking for a new job come September. And it's a small place, there aren't many businesses. Gives me added anxiety. Sucks.

I’m currently working at my current job longer than any other. Because this is my first work from home job.

I lost my job two months ago (some would say voluntarily) because of BPD. I got so mad, but couldn't express my feelings in a way that wouldn't get me fired, so I left, and I couldn't continue working without expressing my thoughts. Thanks for this, I'm still looking for a job that will keep me for more than a year

That's one of the issues with BPD I am having, I never had a job longer than 11 months, and the one before that was 8 months, I only pulled 11 last time because I liked the job I was at, but after around 9 months my mental health started declining, and 2 months of forcing myself to keep working made my mental health so bad that I had to isolate myself completely for 8 months, I quit it when I couldn't physically go anymore.

Severe BPD, told by family and therapists that I'm far away from being employed because I'm still very unstable. Unfortunately, they've been saying that for 25 years now. The lack of earning an income to feel accomplished and rewarding is extremely depressing.

I’ve had the same job for 15 years. For most of that time (until recently) I have felt detached from my career and my personal life. I could never explain this but I’d come home and not feeling like I was that person that just worked. Recently however, I have felt more of a connection with all aspects of my life and life experiences. I am seeing a therapist so I think that might be why I am beginning to feel that connection.

BPD has the MOST functional impairment across the life course of any mental illness. BPD has one of the highest mortality rates of any mental disorder ( anorexia nerovosa taking first place). I believe the lack of academic research & government resources into BPD is a reflection of medical misogyny ( historically, BPD has been associated with females). I recently completed a Master's in Criminology. My dissertation was a qualitative thematic analysis, comparing men/women in the mental health courts. Psychiatrists' explanations of women's offending, who have a diagnosis of BPD ( frequently with other comborbidities) label their symptoms as " pseudo hallucinations " & do NOT produce exculpatory narratives regarding the impact of their symptoms on their offending. Much work is urgently needed to support those with a BPD diagnosis. Thank you for your work, Dr. Fox. You are a rare 💎.

I relate to so much of this. I often think people dislike me and think I'm lazy or unreliable, even though I've had feedback to the contrary. I get pangs of guilt when I believe I've said the wrong thing and I tend to believe what I've said or done is unforgivable. Sometimes the guilt subsides. I was also misdiagnosed with asperger's, in part because I get anxious and shut down in unstructured, unpredictable environments. For a while I couldn't make sense of why I seemed to require so much external structure while also having restless, wayward tendencies. I was later diagnosed with BPD and learning about the nuances of it and the trauma that often precedes it has opened my eyes. Thank you for making this content.

I would like to share my experience. I am 34 year old female and I struggle to keep a job for longer than a year. My recent job was as a cashier and it started off really well. It brought me lots of satisfaction in self and helped bring me a positive outlook on myself- however there was about 3 different times I couldn’t regulate my emotions and I ended up bursting into tears. It was always around how the customers behaved. If I faced any conflict it made me feel so overwhelmed. I also will read into how my colleagues act (not with just this job but others too) where I’ll start to think people don’t like me from some subtle things like if they seem to distant themselves from me. One of the times I was on a shift and I walked out half way through and went home because I felt so overwhelmed by how a customer spoke meanly to me.

I've realized like I love working with kids and thr youth. Those were the jobs where I could long. Also a job working with plants was really nice. I got to take care of them and arrange them for displays so it was relaxing at times.

Dr fox been reading my diary again

the in-between of having a job and losing is panic attacks, anxiety, interpersonal issues, tears and either overperformaing or underperforming under constant scrutiny until you break under the pressure and either get fired or storm out

I have BPD, ADD, and possible autism. I am fixing to retire at 41. I have never had a job. Retirement doesn't stop me from having a job, but having it will make my life easier. I will never be able to have a full time job, but with retirement benefits, due to illness, I will be able to have a part time job without fear of losing everything if I fail.

I can't hold down a job the stress of one brings on psychosis I'm 56 now and just diagnosed as no one could tell me what was happening to me finally got a diagnosis but feel my life is over at 56. Thank you for your insight.

Thanks Dr Fox. You always know exactly how I/we feel. I wish there were more people like you in the world

The longest time I had a job was at Target cafe for two years, it was oretty relaxing. I just lost my job today after four months, first time I've ever been in so much trouble at work. I'm quiet BPD, so I usually repress everything.. but as the years go by its only gotten worse. I am very lucky I make great first impressions and was hired on the spot at another place on my only day off last week. I just wish I could get out of food/retail. At least I'll be making more than minimum wage.

9 months to a year is all I have ever managed before quitting. Sometimes I’ll even have a meltdown and get fired. My solution to this has been taking only contract short terms jobs that have a clear defined end date so I can “hold on” til the end date.

I have 20 hours a week working from home. I have a lovely boss. I can get very overwhelmed as it’s intense work and you have to know your stuff. I avoided learning within my field because it was triggering of memories in which I nearly died so I have to use almost a different part of my brain to get through. On a plus side I learn do quickly, can assimilate knowledge and deliver it in s simple way that is understood. I can have loads of compassion until it is just too much and I think 15 hours wd suit better to be more regulated. I have time to work on myself. I have pressure and resentment from my husband who can be quite the narcissist. Thought I would share 😊

My goodness thank you so much for explaining the lack of boundaries so well in the workplace. I always wondered when I was unsure of my job title, I constantly felt uneasy and something bad was going to happen. My current job has a strong structure and work ethic set in place since it's a corporation. Having hard working coworkers and an understanding manager is also a major help.

I don’t understand why this amazing Dr Fox doesn’t have more subs

Have worked in corporate recruiting for over 20 years and got my dream job with Amazon last year. Of course once I got the job, I immediately focused on self sabotage and destroying it and myself. In the end, got caught up in the mass layoffs that happened in January and losing it sent me into a total tailspin. Haven't been able to find another spot since and my BPD Depression is at an all time high. I think what's best for me moving forward will be working for myself which is something I did for a long time before taking the Amazon job. Never have to worry about the days when I can't get out of bed and after so many years of being misdiagnosed, finally got the right diagnose of my BPD which falls under quiet so now able to put a support system in place so i can focus on the parts of my job I am best at and what interests me so i can avoid blowing it up again.

I wish you and your expert knowledge of BPD in the workplace had been around to help me all those years ago. Everything you say is how I experienced it, serial jobs, lack of structure, triggering of trauma, overwhelm (this, especially). I didn't know what the hell was wrong with me. But it was so painful. I wish you had been around then, Dr Fox! Thank you

Such an extremely important topic. I feel I was not meant to be in the trenches but am forced to just to live. Against my whole nature & being & infinite intelligence telling me this is all wrong.

I used work to distract myself from self-destructive thoughts, it proved quite effective. Of course, I didn't believe a word when I got complimented for my achievements, I chalked it up to working a lot, not being good at my job. I probably qualify for "high functioning", though I consider it more to be good at masking. It's exhausting.

WOW 😮😲😮 Awesome explanation. I could definitely write a book about my employment history. A lot of paranoia and social anxiety at work. Thankfully after years of DBT able to have steady employment, but always on the edge it can be gone in a second. Winning the lottery would be beneficial. 😅😊

It’s a fear of the connection with my co workers as I progress and when I try to set my own boundaries with awareness I end up with a split. I attack myself and snowball. I spiral into self hate and fear because of how I interact with people and how I’m viewed. It’s ridiculous but true.

I feel really blessed to have a found a job that my boss gets that I struggle and is lenient with me.

I've had few jobs for longer than a year but usually I end up getting fired or walking out because I can't handle my shit. It's funny I was getting the sense that I was going to get fired today but it didn't happen. Yet.

I'm 32, diagnosed with BPD, unemployed and I debt. I got out of psych ward six months ago and because of my anxiety I can't find a job. At this point I don't see hope anymore.

WOW!! My CEO (Who was great) was fired yesterday by a conglomerate and my team and I are facing uncertainty. I had to not go into a tailspin, which I did okay but now I have to embrace changes and "prove" myself to this new group of people. I don't know if this is a BPD thing, but I suffer from Impostor Syndrome badly!!!! I always say I am of average intelligence, but I don't think I am even that smart. But, I have been able to trick people when I need to...But it's exhausting. When do we get to the point of comfort, and not wait for the other shoe to fall (IT ALWAYS FALLS)

Sadly has has impacted my employment. Being Severe BPD is the hardest diagnosis too accept on the spectrum. Thankyou Dr Fox .

I dislike ppl sm. Idk hw to work, graduated a yr ago n PETRIFIED of getting a job. Hw can i do my hobbies n have time to myself when i have to see ppl everyday. Suicidal n depresses af

this comment section is so reassuring

If my mom wasn't a narcissist and my sister hadn't died, maybe. I'm on SSDI. I have a problem with people of a higher title thinking they're better than others, treating them poorly or unjustly. So I would probably "go off" on one of them because of something they did to me or something I saw them say or do to someone else. Well, I would go off on pretty much any employee I see messing with others. I'm good. I have free insurance. I hate capitalism. I don't want to be a slave to the wage. The only thing that bothers me is people looking down on me for not working, but I get to be with my kids full time, so screw other people.

I was going around asking my coworkers if they were interested in our company hosting a festival. Kinda like a country festival we could have a live band and games. Someone said "wow that sounds like a great idea. A lot of work though that's gonna be tough". I heard my stepdad's voice telling me that I was a loser and that I would never do anything and that I always fail. I quit my job that day and got a train ticket back to my hometown as soon as I could. Never went back. I have never been diagnosed with BPD and I am too nervous to talk to a therapist. But I see some symptoms in myself that I am sure I have something. My mother forced me to talk to a counselor when I was a child. The counselor told my mom that her and her boyfriends alcoholism and abuse were causing me to have issues. My mom would then stop taking me to them and send me to someone else. This happened a total of 4 times. My mom gave up and said she refused to believe she was responsible for my depression and that all these people were wrong. So I guess I just never went back because I hated opening up to people. I can't even open up to my husband who knows I have issues too that I need deal with.

I've been on SSI Disability for 20 years now. I suck at trying to hold down a job. I get overwhelmed and lose the plot. I feel incredibly stupid.

I really enjoy your videos Dr. Fox, but I am a Middle-Aged Black Lesbian in America, there is no way in hell any company no matter what experience, achievements, and credentials I have will allow me to continue to work at their company if they knew I had BPD too. I'd be an HR nightmare HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA............ I laugh, but that's the truth. Companies say they want to embrace the disabled, Neurodivergent, and Mentally Ill, but they still struggle with racism (This shit is en-vogue), gender bias, sexual- orientation, and sexual identity....I got enough strikes, I'm good.

I have had over 25 jobs and I'm 27. I threw in the towel at least for now and am living with my parents who support me financially; state medicaid covers my treatments

I have/had 8 out of the 9 traits. I'm working 30 years, I've never been fired from a job. Spraying cars for 26 years with 10 of them running my own business.

I've been working alone for the longest time. Now I have a good new job with others. If I mess this up like I used to I'm going to die.

I suffer with severe bpd all my adult life and never ever been able to hold down a job for longer than several months. I'm 52 and haven't worked for the last 6 years.

Thank you, I really struggle at work. Your insights are really helpful

I’m 24 and I really struggle with work, I have governmental assistance in Switzerland and im trying to do an apprenticeship in IT. I did almost 2 years and then I was on health certificate and then I swapped to an other apprenticeship in IT too but I feel like I don’t want to do anything I don’t even make money I make 3$ an hour and I hate waking up for something I don’t care about, it seems like life is already very hard for myself but then I have to give my time to some dumb shit and I very often hope that a truck would hit my car and kill me on the road to work or school. I’ve talked about saying I just can’t do this anymore and ask for definite financial compensation but I keep trying to find a way to work and to have some kind of autonomy in the future I hope I will get to this. But your videos helps lot, they seem to comfort my heart a little when I feel like I’m bleeding out so thanks a lot ❤

38 jobs in 24 years of working. 26 moves in 20 years.

It was brutal. Had to retire early.

I always feel like I have to defend myself at work. And I cause tension. And doubt my abilities to be competent. I feel often unsafe like I will have a panic attack in front of these people. And embarrass myself

Between this and social anxiety, I feel so screwed. ive had over 20 jobs the past decade, and I wouldn't go back to a single one of them. I'm grateful I tried different things but if anything I feel more lost, erratic and fragile. I think the unstable sense of self also affects employment. It's so hard to find a career I remotely like or feel safe in--it's a constant battle to manage my symptoms, and not enough time spent to see if the job even matches my interests or values in the first place

Absolutely! Because the workforce is ran by narcissists. You can codependent, or trauma bond or become the scapegoat. Remind the narc boss how amazing they are, let them take credit for your work, act desperate and fearful of being fired...you can do this! And when you get fired anyway, allow your unbridled emotions to created a scene that requires a 911 call.

You're a lifesaver, doc! My first and longest lasting psychologist happened to specialize in career advice/orientation, and I still to this day years later have not been able to get my footing that well. Although detrimental for men and women both, I imagine this to be one of the topmost difficult aspects of having borderline disorder for males. Career success is crucial to our image, which is shaky enough as it is under this disorder, and the cause for a lot of angst. I've managed to get by well enough doing mostly gig work up until now, but my longterm goal is entrepreneurship. Hopefully, when I reach that goal, it'll inspire others who deal with mental health problems as well as healthy individuals.

I get excruciatingly bored at work. I absolutely hate working. Also, my social life in the workplace almost always ends in social catastrophe, and vitriolic arguments.

Yeah I had 12 jobs in 20yrs as a professional engineer, but lucky I work as a contractor 1-2yr term. My cv looks crazy but some employers like it because I have a massive skillset and willing to work on fix term contracts. Either way, i dont have the self image issue , but more that i dont deal with people and bad situations well. My tolerance is low. I also dont cope well with stress and every job has its low and peaks. The peaks is what kills me. Part of it is my anxiety also, and added angry boss...i might just quit.

I really struggle with work and not understood completely why, this video helped me understand some. I’m young and I’ve tried two jobs, one at a retail store that lasted three weeks and another one was several months cleaning. I could only see the job I’d be successful doing is if I didn’t have to interact with anyone. I feel completely lost in life but hope in time I can deal with my mental health and things will change. I don’t know why but I avoided having any kind of relationship with people I worked with because it felt unsafe. I think that’s another barrier I need to get though.

Thank you ❤ .... do you have any videos about constantly feeling scared or in trouble (every time you speak you are bad and wrong in trouble)

Thank you for sharing all you can with us stuck aimlessly in our own mess

Thank you Dr Daniel for this video. Everytime I watch your videos about a particular struggle due to my BPD I feel a bit better. Your channel and videos make me feel empowered and I understand myself more because of you. The information you share is very insightful and has made a profound impact on my life. So thank you once again! Keep up the amazing work that you do.

Thank you for making a video I wrote a comment a few weeks ago about wanting this and so when I saw this on my feed I got so happy!!! appreciate all your efforts doc.😊🙏🏻

Thank you very much for making these videos. They help me tremendously! I've been working hard at my job and I'm coming up on 2 years now which is a first for me with bpd, this video was perfect timing 💜

Thanks for the video. I don't really get fired, I quit! over 150 jobs in my life so far

This is totally true...this is why I abandoned 4 jobs...I also woud like to add that at least in my case.I feet better when working something and having a job, if I don't have a job, my mind/brain tends to produce 1000 thougths mostly negative ones...and those thoughts race.

cannot thank you enough for covering this topic!! ❤

I never had any problem keeping a fulfilling and lucrative job, but I keep getting fired from treatment no matter how hard I try. The world is upside down.

I've only been in my job for 11 years due to moving around alot. The last 3 years has put me back on sertraline as ive been based with the same 1 person and jeeeez its been a tough one. I'm working so hard on self awareness and stepping out of my comfort zone. It is exhausting but worth it ❤

I've been at my current job for over 2 years. This is the longest time that I've held onto a job for. I'm at a point where the biggest thing that's holding me back from moving up from Salon Assistant to Junior Stylist is my BPD flare-ups. It's something that I've had talks about with my manager, and the salon owners. The talent is there, but unfortunately, so are my demons, and those demons are screaming out loud. I'm on my final strike. I'm so scared of losing control, because I'll be out.

This totally explains why covid was so hard for employment. Every day was a shit show. It wasn't my failure, it was my BPD and being triggered by that an abusive boss.

I love your videos. I have bpd and have a really difficult time with finding a purpose on life. I don't know what I am supposed to do and I am 24 now. I dropped out of school, I was in a good university but I felt miserable. I got a job and then got fired. can you share a video about this? what do you recommend? I feel like I am too late and feel like I shouldn't be alive tbh. I have some dreams but there is also shtty economy in my country that makes everything almost impossible. idk how to get out of this

I've been trying to get on disability for a super long time now. Not just because of my toxic BPD tendencies but mainly my severe panic attacks that get so bad that I can be forced to use a wheelchair just to get out.

Some individuals may have learning disabilities as co occurring in employment that can also contribute to employment difficulties.

When I was younger I was able to hold jobs...since I became 40 I have not been able to work...I'm not sure why I became worse with age...I thought age would help me heal, especially since I've been in therapy since I was 20 years old

I suffer from three personality disorders. BPD impulsive type, asocial personality disorder and mixed personality disorder: addictive personality. I was unemployed for 17 years, got close to killing myself last year, realised I couldn't do that to my family. Went into hospitalization twice for 3 months each. This year I started my first job, I've never felt more welcome by people. I hope I can hold this job and it's been a really difficult road up to where I am. Just don't forget, you can make it, it's not easy but it's definitely worth it. I still have issues with the anger/rage coming up for apparent no reason at all, things aren't entirely gone (they probably never will, according to my doc), but the quality of life and sense of self worth is definitely worth all the struggles. Give life a chance.

Amazing video! Needed this soo bad!

Work always ends up becoming my identity. If I do a good job. I am a good person. If I don't I am a failure. One of my schemas is unrelenting standards. If i dont make mistakes I can't be rejected. If I work 17hrs when my day should be 7.5 and constantly graft. I will be valued and will have self worth. When my working week is over and I have no structure or plans. I often don't know what to do. I start a hobby get bored or tell myself how crap I am at it. External validation because "I" just exist and fill a role in life. As long as I play that role well. I am stable. Is everyone else OK? Yes, then that is all that matters. Sad eh..

Why is it assumed that having a job is normal and something to aspire to? Can we admit that most jobs are horrible ? For some reason we are expected to conform. I appreciate the concept of this video, just wanted to say maybe we should live differently.

Society made me this broken.

so what job would be good for us? i’m thinking medical lab technicians for me… it’s stable, still some type of interesting things with the samples & i don’t have to talk to anyone but my colleagues. i just don’t trust myself with going to school & sticking through it for 2 years

i cant even get through an interview anymore

Thank you Sir for making a video about this. I so longed for this video. This puts some hope in me.🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏 You are helpful beyond words sir

The only job i was successful at was an escort for over a decade but then addiction came in and a sexual Assault i could never escort again. I miss having my bills paid and working for myself.

Thank you so much Doctor Fox You are a game changer

I don't know what disorder I have but I have anger/rage issues that prevents me from working, I looked in the comments and no one brung that up, so either that's not a common reason or not a main reason BPD people can't work or none of the people in the comments for some reason brung that up as a reason, for me, it's solely because of anger pretty much, I am somewhat ADHD disorganized but it's mainly me going off on people, for me, my anger might not be BPD, as I don't always get mad at someone leaving me, I'll get mad at almost anything to be honest. I don't think I have intermittent explosive disorder as it's not frequent (anymore) or over the top (anymore) and I don't have "regret", I relate to borderline personality disorder, antisocial personality disorder, and schizotypal personality disorder the most, my new psych doctor didn't diagnose me with anything yet, I've been to many psych doctors, the only labels I got were "ADHD" and "anxiety", I feel like I have more than that, I don't believe it's illness anxiety, I hold uncommon spiritual beliefs, I'm a loner, I have rage, I sometimes lose my sense of self, I sometimes avoid using labels on myself and have a "no self", etc.

Dr. Daniel, thank you so much!

Its been just over 3 weeks at my new employment (its in a different state) and every day is a struggle. I've spoken with my therapist, family, friends and partner but nobody gets what I'm actually going through. I'm crying all the time every day, i feel locked up in here. I know these are not just my new place, new office nerves as i have experienced all this before as well. I had to leave colleges as i couldn't sit for classes. But now i dont have the option to leave work and thats why, I'm stuck. Its difficult to work every day, its difficult to survive every day. Someone please help me

What can we do to learn appropriate boundaries?

What I hate about my job is that it’s hard to find some material sometimes and I feel like I’m taking to much time trying to find things then I start overthinking that I might get let go for taking to much time. Very stressful. I don’t like when people try to get close to me. Probably a way of protecting myself