How Did I End Up Living In A Van? Stupidity 

I’m sorry to hear that you have been through this yourself and I am glad your faith has got you through. I open my heart to him and I am sure he will show me the strength l need. Take care and thank you 🙏 💜

@@AVanADogAndMyself and I will pray for you as well. Jesus bless you 🙏. I have my email in my description box if you want to share 🙏

The trust faith in our heavenly father through his son Jesus is the very reason for our happiness, the very reason that everything works out for the better. We can look back on our lives when we get there we are like a different person all together have piece of mind, happiness, contentment, no drama , found ourselves. We are so grateful, thankful, confident in our selfs, look forward to the morning’s look forward to the bed time, it absolutely wonderful. We are not in a relationship that is like a yo, yo, diet up down at all times who needs it so much uncertainty, no one deserves it. We were given a life to enjoy it is our decision to make sure to enjoy what is ours to enjoy. I have everything in life that I need to be happy, I am so grateful, if I can do it you can, you have to want it.

BLESSINGS IN JESUS NAME

Hi Stephanie, thank you, it would be difficult for you, lm so glad you have your cat and dog with you for some company in those difficult times. All we can do is the best we can and you too take care of yourself and l send you my love. 🩷🩷🩷🩷

I don’t get how people can be so mean and nasty yet to the outside world they appear so nice.

​@AVanADogAndMyself. I'll say. People like my husband and think he is nice but haven't a clue how he is at home.

I hope u realize by society standards, yrrr nuts. So much for the elites, setting our standards. Keep living free, frustrating the elites clan. 👍🤗😀💥💥💥

Sounds like an amazing life and a lifestyle many would think was not something they would ever do but l know many would love to. Simple yet very much worth the effort and getting established, sounds like you have plenty of furry friends around to keep you company. Just beautiful Thank you for sharing and l am grateful for what l do have. I hope one day you will do a channel, l would be one of the first to say hello. 🙏💜

You’re a very interesting and resilient person. Keep a journal of your life. Maybe one day you can write a book!

@@mikegrant6326 when the so-called men of today become real men: honourable, honest, kind, generous, brave, who want a wife, not a sidekick or uncommitted relationship..a wife who wants to be a homemaker, not a career chaser (I've always wanted to be a homemaker, despite the 2 masters degrees I have and 4 languages I speak) anyway, until they become real men, I'm a committed single, thank you very much. 😊😄

@@AVanADogAndMyself thank you. I do hope one day I can have a channel, maybe on Rumble not RU-vid. 🥰

I sure know how your heart felt and always to some degree will for your loss. I hope your doing okay yourself 💜

It's hard to let your beautiful babies go when they are a big part of your life. Hang tough, life continues to be interesting for you.

Wow, so sorry to hear about what adultery has done to your life. I hope you are doing good.

First of all YOU ARE NOT STUPID! You are a warm, lovely, compssionate person 💖💖 That as asshole and his ex are the stupid ones. They will pay dearly for that when karma catches up with them. I was told to get out after moving in with someone (we were supposed to be engaged but he turned out to be a compulsive womaniser). I'm a bit feisty though. I told him where to get off and said if you want me out of here you can bloody well wait until I've found a rental property and then you can hire a trailer and bloody well shift all my gear for me otherwise it's no deal! That guy's ex must be stupid going back to someone like that. He's obviously a total dropkick! Love and blessings to you lovely lady. Keep your chin up and rebuild your life. You deserve to be loved and you deserve to be happy. Don't let anyone else tell you otherwise. 💖💖💖

@@nonamehere-y2tmen can be total bastards!!!

That is so very true and definitely no plans to date myself. I learnt a huge lesson. 💜

And so are you!

Falling apart? No way! Hahaha 😎

You need Jesus

*you're a bitter vindictive one Alice.*

Thank you Claire 🙏🩷🩷

I never thought of it like that and truly appreciate giving me a different perspective and I appreciate that more than you know. Thank you Joanne. 💜

Hello Ravensgyrl, thank you so much and I do hope that l can help others and at the same time help myself to heal. I know at this time I am very fragile and have a little way to go but l will keep getting stronger as the days go by. 💜💜

We understand why you are fragile, it is understandable my dear woman. You got out of one abusive relationship his ex wife abused you. Then your family members came to help you out what do they do but abuse you more while you are down , especially the young lad you were so fond of hurt you terribly. I must say you are one strong woman, honestly you are, because you had no choice but to keep going when emotionally you were going through a living hell. I wish you happiness, you will heal emotionally. We care you are not alone it is always the good women who get treated in a manner that isn’t appropriate. When reading the comments these are strong women who are making it on their own. This is the problem, some men like women who are useless have to depend on a man for everything strong women are a threat to them they have to abuse you in some manner to try to beat you down thinking they can destroy the confidence you have in your selfs. That doesn’t work with me as I am not a controller there is no way I want to be controlled, I believe in freedom to take a breath for man, woman. We have one mother, father, we don’t need to be married to one.

@@mildredmorine745 hello Mildred, I had been on my own for 20 years, l loved my life but I did make a massive decision (mistake) that was so destructive and wore me down to someone I didn’t know anymore. I wanted to believe this was someone I could trust and share my love of life with. I still ask myself why I was so stupid. I have no illusions that this was my mistake and I have been left with the emotional scars from it. I can only get stronger from here and I will be able to get stronger through sharing my feelings with others. I have been silent for too long, 2years if not longer. l have sat in this van for days without talking to or seeing anyone, I don’t want to live like that anymore. I’m so glad l did this channel to talk to people and share ups and downs with. I now have a lot to decompress from and l can do it in a safe place, my van has given me the freedom I need. Thank you always 🙏💜

@@AVanADogAndMyself There are times that we can be our own worst enemies without even realizing it. I am not for one moment judging because like I said I have been there. What I am trying to say is that after we have taken the abuse from them we end up on our own we continue to abusing our self by not talking about it keeping to our selfs. This is what I mean by continuing to abuse our selfs. From reading your comments I think you are far too hard on your self that is also punishing your self, that hurts my soul that you are doing this. If you can wipe that scheming scammer out of your mind because that is what he was, he had it all planed out you would have no idea because they cover up what they don’t want you to know. The person who I thought I loved paid to have my car stolen, he was in a business of selling cars. I had no idea until eight months later. Each everyone of us have a story to tell. We need to be there for each other without the blame or any disrespect. We would all like to have a companion in our lives once you get hurt taken for a ride you have had your fill. I found you can’t be a nice kind considerate compassionate person in this world today you will be taken advantage of. That should be that’s the world we are living in, sad yet true. I went for help, I found just laying everything on the line getting it out of my system instead of keeping it all inside helped me immensely, it was like the weight of the world was lifted off my shoulders. You are a caring, compassionate, strong woman who was taken advantage of, remember you are not alone don’t blame yourself for they are con artist good at what they do when it comes to taking advantage just like telemarketers look how many people they con world wide. Who wouldn’t want a companion to love do things together, that fairy tale is almost becoming extinct in today’s world. We do care, we are not all bad, we wish you peace of mind happiness. You will will find it once you heal inside it will take some time because you had a raw deal all the way which was horrible, it would get to you the hurt would be unbearable, unbelievable when you own family turned on you so viscously when you needed someone, so sorry. You are going to make your strong remember that. This does not mean to not cry you need to cry it is a normal emotion that we were given for a reason help us from having a nervous breakdown, it relieves tension make us feel better. We care, please reach out take care of yourself you are worthy of happiness can accomplish it on your own, I did many others have. We need to also remember that these same things happen to good men like us they are scarred for life don’t want to get involved again.

Thank you for your story.

Too many stories of this happening and your right, then and now. I hope more will keep talking about it and more services were available to help support those affected by it. 🙏🩷🩷

Matthew 24:12 KJV: And because iniquity shall abound, the love of many shall wax cold.

Good point! I pray 🙏 for you and everyone

​@@DebraMcKinney-t1yyep! Too many are addicted to p**n. Takes away the drive for intimacy with others. Sad!

If only one had a crystal ball, but l definitely could have avoided it. 🙏🩷

I let my guard down and I so regret it when it came to giving up my home, placing my trust in another. In someway I feel that was what it was but it was what my child did that has been a whole lot worse. Material possessions and the money became the least important over the past couple of years, what she did was heartbreaking to me. She was someone I should have been able to trust in my life, how wrong I was. If l could go back, l would still be in my home but my relationship with her l would most definitely have ended. I should have done that many years before. 🙏🩷🩷

@@AVanADogAndMyself Abuse from child is terrible sorry you had to deal w that. My sister had to push her oldest away for abuse, wouldnt let her date, criticized said never do anything..somehow thought he was an equal. She visited him in jail, gave $$, tried everything..finally Changed her phone # had to walk away until he changes..Your strong can get past this nonsense live for today, get done what you need to do for you in this life .

Thank you lm slowly understanding it was not accidental but definitely deliberate. Im sorry to hear you lost your precious dog, it hurts and breaks our heart. My dog is my best friend and so precious to me. Their unconditional love is deserving of giving them the best life possible. 🙏🩷🩷🩷

Thank you 🙏

💜thank you

I do ask god often why? So many people suffer this and yet l know it’s learning and lve learnt one does not need a lot to be happy. 🙏💜

I love being in the van, it is a perfect home to me. I am no longer that sitting duck. Thank you, mot perfect but I try to be. 💜

@waynekaczmarek946 • you are so right! I've come to conclusion that often we don't see things as they are but as we are.

Peace is far more important and we do need to smarten up. Enjoy the peace and freedom you will have in your RV, l wish you all the best. 🙏💜

​@@AVanADogAndMyselfNot all men are the same.😮

@@marknewton6984 We know.

@@marknewton6984we know. I’ve seen some wonderful Wonderful husbands and fathers. However, the rate of The Other Kind is far too high. If I gave you a bowl of M&Ms and told you that 50% were poison, would you dig in?

Thank you so much. I’m staying positive but hopefully never fooled again, you as well. Much love 🙏🩷🩷🩷

Thank you, difficult times will pass l know and appreciate your support. 💜

It was heart wrenching to give up anyone of the animals, though l knew now that my life had changed but l was hoping to have time to get my own place, why l gave up some was only to appease my abusers. Not me. I try hard to not let this get me down but at times I struggle. I read my bible every day and pray God will guide me and l know that he will. Thank you l really appreciate your kind words. 🙏🩷🩷🩷

Appreciate you taking the time to watch and thank you for your comment 💜💜

I’m sorry to hear that you have been through this and never stop reaching out, you know you are doing the right thing even if they don’t think so. For sure animals love you unconditionally but we love them back, my dog saved me at the time. Though he has since passed away and l have another beautiful dog, l will never forget him. Everyday I attempt to do things that once l never feared but today l find very difficult but l will never stop trying. The van is my home, my safe place and lm grateful to have at least that. Thank you for sharing your story with me, you look after yourself. 💜🙏

@@AVanADogAndMyself Severe trauma sometimes takes *years* to get back to the point where you even begin to feel yourself again. Trying is the best thing you can do.

Thank you for taking the time to watch, yes back to back to back trauma. Resilient we are and like you my van is a safe place but it’s mine, that’s the most important thing to me right now. One day at a time, healing and with every comment that you and others have sent it shows how kind people are even though many have been through this themselves. So very much appreciated. 🙏💜

Thank you 🙏 been tough at times but having told at least some of my past experience with what happened has helped me with people like yourself reaching out to me. It helps more than you know. 💜

I loved my rats, l had three, two had recently passed away just prior, both were about 3 and half and I still had Jasper. Thank you 🙏 and the bond we have many just don’t understand 🩷🩷🩷

Thank you Yazzie 💜

Thank you, it was so hard and I was just trying to be strong but l couldn’t in the end. 🙏🩷🩷🩷

Thank you Kirstycat, I did feel stupid, being called it everyday l understand it mentally certainly makes you think one must be. Sorry you have dealt with abuse and I do understand your emotional damage and I hope those that think we were fools and made poor decisions can understand that we were never of deserving to be treated in this way. We will continue to struggle with this no doubt forever but we also are strong to have just got through it in the first place. Thank you 🙏 for sharing a little of your story, we certainly are not on our own and l hope your life has many happy years ahead 💜💜

Thank you for your kind words they are appreciated 💜💜

and you never get to know who they really are until you live with them or have to call them from jail to bail you out.

Thank you Patricia, appreciate your kind words 🙏🩷🩷🩷

Yes I can, having a channel before I thought of all those l was connected to, l could again reconnect. Losing touch due to the chaos in my life. Thank you 🙏 💜

Thank you your comment was very appreciated 💜

Your right, in the end they are only material things and l am grateful for what l do have, guess if life hadn’t taught me anything I wouldn’t be able to say that. I live much more simply now and that is good for me moving forward, but l didn’t like how it came to be. Trust is important but l have lost that and working hard with God in my heart to guide me. Im blessed to have a good friends and family who do love and support me. 🙏🩷🩷🩷

I am sorry how this played out for you too. Hurt people, hurt people. Unfortunately. You came out the otherside and should be proud of yourself. Not everyone could get through that kind of situation. Thank you for sharing your story. I imagine it was not easy to be so vulnerable. It will help others and gives them hope. Sending lots of love to you today from Canada 🇨🇦 XOXO.​@@AVanADogAndMyself

Thank you very much for your kind words 🙏🩷

That is very true and every day l work on that. Forgetting can be hard though. 🙏🩷🩷

Thank you for your kind words and thank you for taking the time to write and watch my video. 🙏🩷🩷

Certainly something we should never of had to go through and sorry you went through this what sounds like very similar, it’s not easy but life l hope will only get better from here on. Appreciate your comment, keep taking care of yourself.

Thank you and hope all is well with you in your life now. Sad to know you went through this yourself. 🙏🩷🩷

Thank you 🙏 that’s what I’m trying to do. 🩷🩷

Thank you, l really appreciate your kind words. 🙏🩷🩷

Thank you, l have to agree talking about it has really helped a lot and though it was hard to do, lm happy to have spoken out and hope more will do this too. 🙏🩷🩷

I understand you and we must love ourselves enough that one doesn’t need another to do that. The abuse can come from those that say they love you and that’s the worst abuse l think. It took me 20 years to trust someone as in a man back into my life, but never again, lm perfectly fine on my own. Thank you for sharing your story 🙏💜

Amen

I feel sorry for you My ex wife divorced me at 50 and I met a wonderful young woman Worked my way back to better than before and happy after 20 years

You are a kind soul yourself and l am going to do as you have, love myself and continue to be who l want to be and enjoy. I was so lost and still occasionally get lost as my whole life has changed. I have my little dog, shelter and now a life to get on with. I really appreciate your support and love that l can share my journey with you. Big thank you 🙏 🩷🩷

@@AVanADogAndMyself Happy to hear from you. I also have a little Jack Russell mix, 14 years old. He is the love of my life. So happy we met by chance on your channel. Your life seems to imitate mine. God be with you and I will be praying for your health and happiness. ❤️❤️❤️

I appreciate you sharing your thoughts and you are so right. I am learning one does not need a lot and yes just some peace and feeling safe is the most important. 🙏💜

Thank you Tammy l really appreciate your support 💜🙏

Thank you so much 💜💜

Thank you 🙏 staying strong and positive 💜💜

Thank you for listening to me 💜

Sorry to hear that and I do hope you will get him back soon💜

I’m sorry you have had to go through that yourself and I know yes it is horrendous and l wonder if those who do this to anyone ever understand just how much it affects a person. I just can’t understand people being so cruel to people. 💜

thank you for sharing your story and experiences l really do appreciate it more then you know. Letting go is the hardest part and forgiving myself has not been easy but I am grateful for what l have in my life today and will continue to pray that it all gets a little easier along the journey.💜💜🙏

I sure felt stupid to be honest at the time but l understand it better now Tanya. I’m getting better now and life is all good. I have great faith that God will be there helping me. Thank you Tanya you have been a great support to me during this difficult time. 🙏🩷🩷🩷

Thank you for your kind words Diane 🙏💜

I didn’t see it coming, l sure wish l could have seen into the future. I have certainly learnt a valuable lesson but the biggest is to not allow those that hurt me to change who l know l am. I won’t allow hate to be in my heart just sadness and hurt for those that hurt me. 🙏💜

@@AVanADogAndMyself It sounds like a terribly painful way to learn a lesson. I am glad you didn't sink to their level and remained true to who you are. You are a good person and have value.

Thank you for your very kind words, they mean a lot. 🙏💜

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Thank you Mollie🙏💜

Thank you 🙏 ❤

Thank you and l believe he does myself 💜💜

I sorry it has happened to you too but so long as you’re all is good now, most importantly. It’s great to breathe 🧘 and find a little peace now l am feeling much safer. I so wanted to lose it with her and most definitely looking back l don’t know how l didn’t. 🙏🩷🩷

It will and already is in many ways, one day at a time. Thank you🙏💜

🙏 you are very welcome 🩷

Yes it was the result of my choice and I do not shy away from that, l agree. Now I will go forward and make sure I do not lose any more, especially my dog, the rest, well it is just materialistic, of course a roof over one’s head is important and lm grateful for that. I am glad you understand we can no matter how much we feel we know someone, we can be so wrong and it is good to know you were able to get back control of your life, l am happy for you. I am trying to do that and I will do what l can but it will take me a little bit of time to get back to being that person l used to be. Thank you for your prayers 🙏💜

Thank you and thank you for watching, your very welcome 🙏 🩷🩷

Thank you Elisabeth 💜

You’re very welcome and thank you for your support. So sad that so many have been through this but I always think there must be a reason. 💜🙏

That is wonderful, it’s great to be single. 🙏🩷🩷

Thank you 🙏 l appreciate that 💜

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Thank you so much for your support, l really appreciate you taking the time to listen to my life and I hope that I will make a difference to others out there feeling pain and sadness themselves. 🙏💜

Hello jweber thank you 💜🙏

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They certainly are like our children and their loss never leaves us. Griffin is gorgeous and so grateful to have him. 🙏💜

Good luck and lm happy for you. 🙏🩷

I appreciate your comment thank you. Yes life will be a lot better now and finding some peace with my new life. 🙏🩷🩷

Thank you and l will keep all you said in my heart. I am learning to accept and love the place lm at right now and whatever Gods path he sends me on. I want more than anything, inner peace. My dog is my world and helps me stand strong from the start to end my day. Much love and appreciate your kind words of encouragement. 🙏🩷🩷🩷

@@AVanADogAndMyself Thank you for your response and engagement, dear❤️💋you will get another chance...

I'll write it as parts because I'm terrible for deleting while I'm writing. So I'm in the UK that particular Christmas was just before out ride it out until retirement head was retiring & M was starting in January. M decided she would come watch the Christmas production & meet some parents. She say down and C the bully shrieked at her "get out of MY seat!" m stood up, and said "oh I'm sorry, out her hand out to shake & said hello, my name is M, you're new head" I missed it but it was said to be glorious! Then we were off until January, the first day back C came in, said rang to say she was ill and wasn't coming in. The next day she came in, stormed around the place in her usual obnoxious way, slamming doors, glaring at people...horrible. She Then said she had a doctor's appointment and left, an hour or so after she came back, by then I was teaching her class, my bright "good morning" was met with a grunt! She was mid fifties by then, not a teenager. She opened her bag and swept almost everything off the desk with her arm into her bag, banged more doors and stormed out. I was told after she had gone to see M and she told her that her behaviour with other staff had to stop, she wasn't going to tolerate it like the previous head. Apparently the walls in the nearby classrooms shook, I was at the opposite end teaching her class. She wasn't impressed I was teaching her class either lol. When anyone complained before they were told tough, find another job, now when I look back with the confidence I have now I wouldn't have tolerated her. Between her, my now ex, previous horrible people in schools I'd worked in & years of a disability I wasn't diagnosed of and my mum could be extremely harsh. She has admitted to a cousin that she's been horrible with me at times. Something else happened during high school that I can't talk about. Why are people getting satisfaction from being horrible?

I did once see C in the hospital, she came towards me, with a big smile, probably doing to know why I was in a wheelchair, I just wheeled myself past and glared at her! I could tell you shocking things the previous head did which made staff into pretty much two tiers, if which M completely turned on its' head. Everyone was equal, from M to lunch ladies, cleaners etc, it was my job to keep them in the loop. Before it was like secret service. I really do understand how it feels to be treated like cra* I won't like I don't understand about animals, the autistic part of me struggles to understand connection to animals. X Stay strong! Remember with RU-vid you don't just have viewers you have friends from all over the world. Now I better finish this scrapbook album x

Thank you so much for sharing this with me, l meant a lot. There truly are some really disgusting people out there and lm so glad you came through it. It’s a hard road to travel when it is happening to oneself, losing trust in people who you loved dearly. I will recover but l know l will never forget too. Big thank you 🙏 💜💜💜

Your very welcome 🙏 🩷🩷

@@AVanADogAndMyself Bless your heart ♥️

Losing my animals was the hardest part of everything and I still can’t get over that part of what happened. Thank you 🙏 💜

You are very welcome Kathleen. Thank you 🙏 I talk to God everyday and ask him to keep me safe but help me find happiness and he is doing that for me. I’m not overly religious but do believe in God. He will help me with my journey. 🩷🩷🩷

I understand that and lm a little more wiser about this controlling behavior now, lots of, if only goes through my mind but I can’t change the past but certainly can be wiser in the future. Like being on my own. Thank you, being able to talk about it helped me to get through it and the wonderful people who watched the video were all apart of making me stronger. 🙏🩷🩷

Thank you 🙏 l do hope that to be true. I am happy to share my experiences if just to prevent it happening to others. 💜💜

Thank you 🙏 l will never forget the abuse by them and I am so grateful for what l have now, not a lot but still thankful. Never can l let them back in my life and it is a grief l feel like someone died that l loved with all my heart. I will never allow this to happen again. ❤

He will help me with all this. Thank you 🙏 🩷🩷

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Thank you Charlotte 💜