Hi! I had to think a lot on this one. First, thank you for being honest on such a personal and sensitive subject! I find envy to be a very destructive emotion that leads to conflict, disorder, and down a dark path. It goes hand in hand with hate, and I’ve found the antidote in love, which fosters a communal way of being. Envy tears down while love builds up. Envy is a subtle emotion and it can slip under the radar and influence us to act in unrighteous ways. Essentially , love covers a multitude of offenses and envy stirs up conflict. Envy is prevalent in a materialistic culture where we constantly compare ourselves with others as compared to a more spiritual culture where focus is placed on nobler internal qualities. Envy is not my worst flaw, however. My battle is with unmet desires which fall outside of my control and leads to discontentment and eventual unhappiness. I must learn to let go of them. In scriptures, John the Baptist said “he must increase, but I must decrease”. In the biblical tradition, focusing on Christ and less on ourselves is the way to go.
Wow, I just found out the name of the thing I struggle with: it is called “ambiguous grief”. It is a dream crusher, to think you had something and then realize that thing you will never have is really hard to deal with because it is not “real” - but it is real to you! If anyone experiences this, do not chase the grief!
Does anyone ever consider that seeing something in someone that you feel/think that you want for yourself is a moment of awareness to have your version of that experience for yourself?
You’re very right! Though I find there's a fine line between letting envy enlighten us to what it is we want to pursue for ourselves, and letting our envy make us feel bitter. It’s always a bit of a dance.
@@existentialgroove yes, I see. I guess I don’t remember jealousy and envy ever making me feel better about myself (regardless of what I was saying) - I felt small and insignificant. Thoughtful video - thanks!
Put your big people adult pants on & just own jealousy when destined @ moments in your life & if it’s not real & congruent to be happy for people don’t. Get real & own what’s real for you. Also We are all destined for rejection, abandonment, loss, not being received trauma @ moments in life unique for us, along with all emotions & feels & energy levels scripted that nobody ever created in you beyond blame & victimhood. It’s the delusion, denial & illusion people stay in thinking others are creating how we feel. Owning your own personal experience is heart honesty vulnerability & personal accountability. Or in other words getting real.
