i feel this sooo much! since i've been making and editing videos my dp/dr is sooo much better! like suddenly i can perceive myself better again. i don't think making videos will cure me forever, but maybe it is a step towards healing. for whatever reason ... it is very interesting. i hope you feel better permanently!
Hi @ccvttc! Gosh that's fascinating that you also notice feeling better after editing videos. I thought it was fluke what happened to me. It would be fascinating if we've discovered this phenomena that the medical profession aren't aware of! Thank you for your kind wishes. I was actually bullied at work a few days ago, but rather than hiding, I actually grew stronger and confronted the bully! Even better, it didn't bring on dp/dr. I learn something new everyday. I also hope you can overcome things too. Best wishes.
@@trauma2wellness hey :) haha, yes,it would be really fascinating if we had discovered something new and important. was it also the case for you that you could no longer identify with yourself (your behavior, body, etc.) and saw yourself like from the outside the whole time? is it now really completely and permanently gone since you have made your videos? that would be really impressive! it's not completely gone for me, but consistently much better since my videos! Apparently I was able to identify with myself again on some level. i am so happy for you that this whole process seems to enable other great things in you! best wishes back to you :)
@@ccvttc I think I've experienced this my whole life, in all sorts of different ways, but only recently - through counselling - I realised that it's not 'normal'. Apparently I'd developed all sorts of coping strategies (as a result of an abusive childhood upbringing), so I'd masked and/or ignored the symptoms. I didn't realise what I had been through was abusive, until I had counselling, and reflecting back, it makes so much sense. It's only from doing these vlogs where I'm talking about my week that I made the connection. I guess it's because I'm actively being 'present' doing a vlog. If that makes sense? I can't say if I'm cured, because I can't predict the future. But the way the vertigo just lifted when I edited that simulation was ... unreal! The unreal became reality! I would say my life is like the scene in Interview with the Vampire (1994) when Lestat tells Louis to look with his vampire eyes; everything looks different.
Also, I remember reading that dp/dr is like watching your life in a movie - but that didn't make sense to me. However, I distinctly remember a few years ago going food shopping and reached out to grab some vegetables, and I looked at my hands like they were someone else's. So it was more like I was 'looking through a lens'. I have no idea what was happening in my life at the time, again, I've just blanked everything out. My poor brain 😞. I'm determined to look after it better now. Have a fab weekend! All the best!
@@trauma2wellness Hi :) Sorry for not responding, i had so much to do. How are you doing? I had a weird experience with my videos. At first it seemed sooo helpful but after a while, after making more and more videos, the positive effect went away and the DP got worse again. As if I had seen myself too much from the outside through the video editing and would therefore continue to see myself from the outside even if I don't edit videos. I hope you understand what I mean.. so weird. and frustrating. I stopped making videos a few days ago and the DP got better, so .. i think video-editing is not the cure after all - at least not for me, unfortunately. But I'm very interested in how it turned out for you! And i hope you had a nice christmas :)
How are you doing now? I got DpD after a vertigo episode (bppv). Crystals are 'cured' now, but my brain is still not working quite well. It's some kind of missmatch between brain and eyes, and it's causing this DpD feeling
Thank you for asking; I’m all over the place at the moment. I was doing well, then all of a sudden it’s not been going well. I do know that feeling you describe. I call it ‘spongy’, and describe it in the previous vlog to this one. It’s like the eyes are taking in information, passing it to the brain, but the brain has an ‘out of office’ auto-reply. How long have you had the symptoms for? Hopefully it will work itself out. Everyone is different, but I think it’s best to practice patience, as feeling anxious may fuel it longer. I think!
@@ДиманаЙорданова-и6н apologies for not replying sooner; I'm struggling with my mental health at the moment. I recall doing some of those exercises in 2021, and it didn't help at all. I'd previously had vertigo before (doc diagnosed it as bppv). Looking back, it was all trauma-related symptoms but I didn't join the dots to realise. No amount of vertigo exercises helped me. I've had one mild vertigo attack since that video and it was completely stress-related (stemming from my trauma). Everyday I'm learning something new about my ongoing trauma conditions. My new understanding is to have compassion for all the parts of myself.
@Skiink_X I do sympathise, it’s a horrible condition that follows around like a shadow. My vertigo has gone, but I still get bouts of DPDR. I find if I acknowledge that it’s happening, then when I’m ‘better’ I have to analyse what triggered it. Are you able to express your emotions through creativity?
