i didn’t even realize my ED was the cause of it for so long! i literally felt like a zombie. but also one of the best parts of recovery has been getting my emotions back
@@bentleymescall1684 same here!! I couldnt figure out why I didn’t have any emotions and looking back I feel like I was such a terrible girlfriend and friend. I was irritable and l didnt want to do anything.
Really nice to see how happy and radiant you seem to be now. I went to through something similar in my early 20s and now in my 50s things are so much better and healthier, but it still gets a bit complicated sometimes. For me it was about control. Being not the happiest of teenagers and slightly overweight this was finally something I could control. It was also the 1st time I started to get noticed and getting positive feedback of the way I look, so naturally I thought the skinnier the better... which of course is **cked up. So happy that you shared your story because I think it will be very helpful!
I knew you were a very special girl when I first saw you those years ago, only I did not guess how special. What an amazing break-out video. Thank you.
As a 16 year old girl who has struggled for years this is incredibly helpful to me. Wanting to enter the modeling industry is almost what keeps me from fully recovering. I am beyond proud of you for speaking out. Thank you.
I told my mum about my struggle and all I got was "yeah your face is actually puffy, you should start running" so I don't know what can I do, there's no day in my life when im not ready to jump under a driving car
Its really hard to have model body unless we starve ourselves. 😢The modelling industry is disgusting for only chosing tall, skinny sticks model. But the hilarious truth is the customers who bought those clothes are never that skinny. I am very sick of the ridiculous standard that the modelling industry has on human body. The government should step in and make it illegal to have models unrealistic skinny, its like physical and mental abuse to models. Not everyone is 5'11 and 105 bls and under. Anorexia nervosa kills. The law should change because its illegal to discriminate people based on ages/country. It should be illegal to choose only skiny and tall people to be models. Any thoughts on this? TIA❤
hi bentley, i just turned 18 and have been modeling for the last 3 years. last summer i went into an asian market for the standard 3 month term and had no idea what i was getting myself into. before and during that trip i experienced a lot of the same language and issues you’ve been bringing light to (measurements, degrading comments, eds). afterwards i’ve been very pessimistic about continuing my career even though i do really love many aspects of it. but so much of the culture is denial - denying that it’s unhealthy, denying that it can ever be changed, etc. hearing you speak up for yourself and have the courage to be honest about your experiences even just in this video is wildly powerful, not just for me but the thousands of models who face this every season. you make me want to continue a career and make it seem possible for the industry to eventually actually value the health of it’s models- the HUMANS a part of it. you are such a role model and i wish you nothing but the success you deserve that is 100% ahead of you. thank you so much for having the courage to share your story and work to change what’s been so wrong for so long. ❤❤
I am soo impressed how reflected you are! And I love the vibes you give us through your videos!! Thank you so much for everything you share with us, you are amazing! ❤️
Sometimes I just click on random stuff that doesn't apply to me directly. This is one of those times. I'm really glad to see this message getting spread to people who need it :) I think the most important part of the video is where she talks about how certain diets/fasting etc. are not for people in recovery. Different people in different stages have different needs, and I think you illustrated it perfectly. Thank you for being you
Girl, I know what you talking about! You cannot go out with friends cause you’re always scared for day to choose a bar or restaurant for hang out, and you get anxious to eat and can’t focus on the conversation
Thank you so so much. You are a gem. Everything you said rang true in my soul. I am SO proud of you for taking that huge step towards recovery! May I ask how you found your therapist, and/or how you knew they were the right one for you? I know I need help for my eating disorder, but I'm scared to just go through someone my insurance covers and they assign me someone who doesnt connect with me or that I feel hears/understands me:(
thank you so much for sharing this. i also went to costa rica this year (totally inspired by you actually) and we had a very similar experience. I could not fully enjoy my vacation because i was so preoccupied with what i ate and how i looked. i ended up eating the same salad over and over again even though i wish i had something different. its so crazy how i looked at your pictures in costa rica wishing i was like you when we both struggled with the same problems.
Hi hun! I was just scrolling through the comments and wanted to say congrats, recovering from an eating disorder is no easy feat. I'm so so proud of you!! I'm currently struggling with an ed myself and have wanted to get help for a long time now, but dont know where to start. How did you find your therapist and/or know they were right for you? I'm so overwhelmed just thinking about the process and possibly having to reexplain my situation dozens of times until I find the right therapist for me. Thank you so much!! Also in regards to periods, there was a time during my ed that I lost mine too. I've since gotten it back mostly, and though I'm not a doctor I would definitely say that you have to make sure you're eating enough and that what you're eating is nourishing. You could also go to your doc and see what they say, and/or get a hormone test! Hormone imbalances can cause tons of symptoms/problems, and even if you're eating enough now, if your hormones aren't balanced you could still see some issues with your menstrual cycle. x
hi! i did lose my period for a long time and i got it back about 3 months after i started eating enough everyday. sometimes it just takes consistent eating to bring back your period but i would consult a different doctor too maybe and get a second opinion
