Apologies for the unstructured video. I hope my experience resonates with someone going through addiction.
The reality is broken and games offered a solution for me. A short-term fix but a solution that made me trapped. It was only once I became aware of the cycle and continued the relentless search to break free.
Whatever addiction or challenges you are coping within your current life, I feel for you. I don’t know which battle you’re going through but I’m sure it’s a tough one. I think about what our ancestors had to go through not knowing whether they were going to find food for survival. I know it's a bit extreme but it shows the context that our mind is very powerful and is capable of adapting.
I still have daily struggles but I’m fighting resistance and I know you can too only if you ignite back the desire and constantly fuel it. I had to identify my struggles and choose which path to fall towards. I’m sure I’ll lose many battles but hey, effort’s free. It’s never too late to realize that effort is free.
“The mass of men live lives of quiet desperation” - Thoreau
Relapses were the hardest part of overcoming the endless cycle. I know in a matter of days I can get the old me back as if nothing happened. I’m terrified of that version of me and I’m running away from him. I don’t have it figured out. I just conceal my pain a bit better than others.
Here are my three desires from the video exercise:
Impacting someone who was in an endless loop like me and lending a hand out to them to give them the tools to start their own journey.
Being compassionate and sticking to who I am. I want to be compassionate with others in order to better understand others and learn from them. I value authenticity and I must be willing to listen to others to better understand this world and give the world the best of me.
Financial freedom. Grants me more opportunities in life and free from the rat race. Money is god for those who don’t have it and merely just tools to those who have it. I desire the feeling of providing for my family and being independent.
In order to overcome addiction, question your roots and principles and avoid relapse with substitution and recognizing your behavior. Seek to understand yourself and your motives. Negative feedback along with many factors helped me. However I don’t there’s a one size fit all solution. Be willing to try out new things and try for yourself ^^
Videos that I consumed that was insightful:
How Gaming Affects Dopamine Reward Circuitry, Dr. Kanojia (HealthyGamerGG): • How Gaming Affects Dop...
Dr. K has a whole series of lectures related to video game addiction and consuming his lecture made me more aware of myself and recognize the cues. Truly grateful for him :-)
How video games affect our brain TED: • Your brain on video ga...
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