How to Truly Love Yourself💗✨| PICK A CARD🔮 **Super Big Boy** Timeless Tarot Reading 

🚨🚨BEWARE OF SCAMMERS IMPERSONATING ME IN THE COMMENTS AND ON SOCIAL MEDIA! I DO NOT OFFER PERSONAL READINGS AND I WILL NEVER SOLICIT ONE FROM YOU THROUGH DIRECT MESSAGES🚨🚨 I love you, the universe loves you, and I hope you love you too. Your existence is a blessing to so many and you deserve to feel love every single day. I hope this video gets you one step closer to that. 🕚Timestamps🕥 Pile Selection: 4:15 Pile 1 (Labradorite Tiger): 5:54 Pile 2 (Blue Rose Quartz Sphere): 1:22:00 Pile 3 (Amethyst Rose): 2:50:08 Pile 4 (Rose Quartz Swan): 4:36:56 🌠Get the Extended Reading HERE!🌠 Page Link: vimeo.com/ondemand/slr122121/ Pile 1: vimeo.com/ondemand/slr122121/657186452 Pile 2: vimeo.com/ondemand/slr122121/658364967 Pile 3: vimeo.com/ondemand/slr122121/658808257 Pile 4: vimeo.com/ondemand/slr122121/658808352 👻Follow Me👻: Instagram: instagram.com/realesotarot Twitter: twitter.com/realesotarot TikTok: vm.tiktok.com/ZMR8yghKN/ 👚My Merch👚: crowdmade.com/collections/esotarot Get your first 10-minute reading with Keen by clicking here: trykeen.com/esotarot I will receive compensation from anyone who signs-up through my link, thanks for supporting my channel! 💸Leave me a tip💸 PayPal: @xesotarotx Cashapp: $palehag Disclaimer: you are absolutely not required to donate anything ever!! However, if the reading touched you and you want to leave a tip I’m keeping that option open :) I am grateful for anything but please never feel like you have to!!

POV- it’s 2041 and you are watching a 24 hour long eso reading, life is good.

Pile 2: “You are so priceless, don’t ever think that you’re not….you’re not allowed to give up, so stop believing that that is an option, cuz it’s not” this brought me to TEARS baby. Woah. I needed this message and I’m so grateful I was guided to it. Thank you for spreading light and power. We are doin the work ✨

I just ended a relationship with a person I care deeply about this morning. He's not a bad person, but he wasn't able to treat me right and meet me where I was. Let's just say, I'm very grateful to have one of your readings to listen to today, thank you Eso 🥰 💜

Pile 3. 😂 I cried. Listened to this 2 times because I kept crying the first time I did since it was so spot on and hit home. Not to mention the timing of when the video was released was during a time when I was praying and/or asking for guidance as to how to proceed with my journey to self-healing. So I want to really thank you for the honest and blunt collective reading. For the other people who chose the third pile, please keep on fighting. Life can be hard and a total butthead most of the time, but we'll manage. 😌😂 Fighting!

Pile 3 squad here. In a good example of “take what resonates and leave the rest,” I realized partway through that a lot of this was past energy, issues that I’ve been working on for a long time now. I definitely have further to go, but I’m in a much better place than I used to be. I think this was both a reminder of what I still need to work on but also how far I’ve come to extending love and compassion to myself. For those of you pile 3s who are just now turning to face that void inside you, I know it’s scary, but I promise that doing the work is worth it. Sit with the uncomfortable stuff. Try to talk to yourself like you would talk to your oldest and best friend. No one can do this work but you, but it’s a long-term project, so just keep chipping away at those old beliefs. Sending love to you all. ❤️❤️❤️

I'm pile #3. It was spot on. I'm a little heartbroken, but I needed to hear it. I hope every other #3 knows they're not alone.

Pile 2 - I started an application for a masters in psychology while listening to this 🙂 Thank you EsoTarot! 💞

Pile2, I kinda feel like I got exposed in the funniest way this reading.. you know I've been dealing with self doubt for years and when I came across your channel it finally made me feel as if I was at home... and then that's when I found the peace within myself to even be open... Thank you Eso for another amazing reading! 💖💖💖

I had to pause the video. I can’t stop crying at how accurate pile 3 is for me… I just found your page today and have been binge watching your videos! Thank you for your love and light and how you share it with the world. You are a gem for sure!

Pile 1: thank you so much for this reading, there's a lot of love readings online that most people want to hear about (nothing wrong with it) but for me, this is what I really need...being more in tune with myself and having unconditional love for myself before I can give to romantic relationships.

WHERE ARE MY FELLOW PILE 2s? LET'S DREAM BIG TOGETHER!! 💛💚💙❤️ 2:08:57 WE CAN DO IT! LET'S take 1 sec to briefly send a love and support portion to our pile knowing that we HAVE the power to CREATE our HUGE dreams! who's with me? sending you infinite gratitude eso - as always you slay channeling pure wisdom in this reading

Pile 4 - Wow, hearing this pile made me proud of myself. I am someone who is humble, I do care about being someone who is accountable for the mistakes that I've made as well as my past. I am very hard on myself. I do have character, so true. True about letting go of control. I do shame myself a lot yet learning to stop. Man, when you read the cards, energy and spirit you are so enlightening and makes one feel as if they aren't alone in what they are going through. Thank you.

Thank you, I chose pile 3 - Im so exhausted I’ve been pushing myself for so long refusing to allow my self to make friends until im in a “good energy” It’s a cycle of self- abuse - I haven’t even noticed how badly my actions and thoughts reflected self hatred, I really appreciate this reading and I am just praying for healing and reflection because there’s no other way I know to move forward

Pile 4 - I literally laughed and cried and you reaffirmed everything I’ve been telling myself and feeling. Thank you! 🙏🏻👏🏻💕🦄🔮

Holy crap. Pile 2 here. I really, really needed to hear ALL of this. I will be replaying this a few times to remember everything you said. I needed this virtual ass kicking/ pep talk, especially w/ the holidays and having to face judgemental relatives who are responsible for my social anxiety from past trauma. Thank you for spending so much time on readings for all of us piles for FREE. Struggling to be my authentic self for fear of being judged, hurt, or taken advantage of. Lately, I feel like if I take my mask off, my authentic self will be an angry ass because of all that "butt clenching". 😅 (I adore you terminology btw. Your personality, humor, sassy, and sappiness. The way you deliver messages is amazing!) Love you so much! Hope to one day be able to book a private reading. This was such an amazing and important topic. Love and light. Happy, safe holiday, and have an excellent New Year. 💕

Pile 3 here! This pile was honestly exactly what I needed to hear. I came out as asexual back in July and I have always felt like there was something wrong with me. I’m not an overall lovely person in a sense of romance but I love my friends and family to death. I have always struggled with people not accepting me or seeing me as weird, I have ADHD, weird interests, and my personality is out of the ordinary. Honestly, sometimes I feel like I have to pull back my personality and not share who I am with others but I’m starting to come to terms with who I am and love myself regardless. Amazing reading overall, really spoke to me 🖤

i picked 3. im speechless and almost crying ive never seen myself more in a reading before. i honestly don't know what to say, I needed to hear so many of these things.

Pile 4: Wow what a reading…just what I needed to hear! 2022 is my year for self love and I’m so excited! 💖 I love how you always talk in riddles yet I totally get what your saying! Your a great reader! Thank you so much for this in depth reading! Xx

Pile 2: Girl I spit out my tea when you said holding ourselves back was energetically like a clenched butthole. 😭🤣🤣🤣 I needed that truth, and the laugh. This reading was fantastic. Thank you!

Cried so hard during pile 3. This is exactly what I’m going through right now, thank you❤️

Pile 3. You described me & my life in perfect detail lmao. Truthfully I really didn't feel anything for most of the reading exactly as you said, but I was surprised at how well you matched with my mental energy, the way you described it was 100% accurate. Ive been unable to be receptive of any positive thing said about myself for so long, and it's true that there's that deep sense of disconnect and feelings of not belonging & unworthiness that i haven't fully unpacked yet. I really do always feel like I need to stay constantly on top of myself and that I'm painfully aware of all my shortcomings to make sure no one would take advantage and attack me. The hollowness, the distance, the complete lack of self interest and giving from a place of lack, and just about everything you described in this reading is true to a T. At first I thought it wouldn't go that deep/beyond the basic stuff, but you really pointed out all my inner complexes and all the issues I've had to deal with for like more than 20 years of being alive to the finest details, and I guess that really touched me because I've rarely encountered people who can perfectly understand what I've been going through in my mind and how much it has driven me to the wall and like, just acknowledged how much effort I've had to put in just to stay sane and appear "normal" because hardly anyone, not even a lot of people close to me, ever fully believes me I think. I think it's because they only ever see my put together work persona I put up to front with them, that they just can't believe how hard it is to live with myself or that I really struggled that hard and it's incredibly frustrating. It really does feel like I'm living with an invisible roommate who treats me like shit constantly, but only me and a very very select few who've maybe dealt with the same thing or those very attuned to other people or like... my literal therapist, could tell that I'm not fucking making it up lmfao. All my life, it's like I'm constantly being denied of speaking of my own experiences, and when I do they never believe me and only belittle me so. Sorry I'm derailing a bit I got emotional here. But I really, really am so grateful to you anyone who's ever tried to understand and could see the same things I see. Thank you for handling it so maturely and treating it with the same respect and compassion as you did for the other piles and just for, understanding and acknowledging my/our experiences. It really means a lot to me and I'm sure to everyone else who picked pile 3 too. I'm really thankful for this reading because it came at the perfect time when I was trying so desperately to find answers on how to love myself, because I've just been incredibly frustrated by how... Vague self help books can be on this topic. Like the only reason I didn't watch this right away was because this was literally posted at the same time I was feeling absolutely shit about myself so I had to take some time before I could open it. So.. thank you, eso, really. Sorry this became really long winded and a bit repetitive, but I mean that. Also to the other pile 3s reading this: i see u, i understand u, and i wish u all the best luck with your journey. To quote my favorite line from any media ever: someday, together we'll shine :')

Every pile I’ve ever chosen on this page has been so spot on, what a diamond to find on this site. This one especially, I chose 2. I am currently going through art therapy to try and let go of all of the insecurity and powerlessness I’ve always felt since I was a child. I’m trying to start my own tarot business and have been struggling to take action. The part about constantly thinking about when I’ll say goodbye to loved ones couldn’t be more spot on. It’s something else I’m working on. Thank you for all of the time and work you put into these reads! You have a true gift.

Wow. Pile 3 here.... Self love has been a theme for this chapter of my life so this gave me a new brand new perspective to how to approach this issue. I constantly have to remind myself that I am human and I'm allowed to make human mistakes. I've listened to your readings for awhile but this one impacted me the most thus far and really resonated in places I had blocked for a long time 💜 Thank you 💜 Fellow pile 3s... Just start.. Even if it's small to us... We have the strength to be brave and grow out of these self limiting beliefs. 🙏🏻 We deserve to fill out cups first.

Pile 2 here✌:I must say this resonated with me on a deep level, and I Thank you for spreading this message❤ Personally,i tend to work a lot and think if "i rest im not doing much or that i need to be working"to feel worthy, It is amazing the way you express certain messages,like with the "Fuck ANXIETY" speaking with such fierce and strong energy,(I love it ❤)as well as telling us about your personal story too about what you're going through...It felt like we're going through similar struggles.. Much love and care to you all ,know that this too shall pass🫂 ☮

You always know what we need! You are better than Netflix!

Lol, pile 3 is so accurate. I started the video multiple times today but didn’t finish the reading everytime because I was tending to others needs 😂. Just yesterday I made an appointment for therapy tho, FOR ME! Yess.

Pile 2 💞 This is the 1st time I cried during a general reading... coz it hit soo hard & I was touched soo deeply I could feel my inner child actually feeling relieved too... thank you soo much Eso!!! Been watching u for 2 yrs since my DNOTS & am soo grateful, Appreciate this🤧 Such a Queen💞💞🌙🌙 perfectttt timing!

Pile 3 here, this is the first time I nearly cried in these readings. When you said the reality won't be like the way we imagined things that hit. I need to wake up, and I'm a Taurus moon 💀

Group 3: yes, I finally hit the wall "time to sit down and self -reflect" because "achievement -based self love" can't last. Because I was over-achieving to compensate for feeling fundamentally defective. Wow, you have absolutely out-done yourself with this one. I wish I COULD give that child me a hug: she was so sure she was going to have the energy to fight and achieve forever. You really captured the essence of being so uncomfortable with receiving. All the ways it spins out in life. Thank you so much--this was amazing. There's so much to think about here. EDIT: "You're not all youself"--never were truer words spoken! To those of us who chose this pile correctly, that makes so much sense. A world of sense. Brilliant: the real person is what's underneath the conscious and unconscious personas fighting. Past the paradoxes. If I can tackle finding that real person, it will be because you've come so close to describing what's really happening here. BIG thanks! 💗 A long, complex, seemingly contradictory reading, every bit of it correct.

Pile three 💕 Thank you so much Eso, it was though to listen all the way through but was exactly what I’ve been needing to hear for a really long time. I took a lot of notes so I don’t forget. And perfect timing too, I’m ready to release this old energy in the coming New Year. 🙏🏻

Wow girl, you are dedicated!! 5hrs of so much beautiful energy for us💜🙏 Watching Pile 3 as my morning motivation & damn already emotional lol yes to identity crisis about sexuality

“You deserve the same love that you so freely give to other people.” That line gave me goosebumps as it was almost the exact same things my guides has said to me. 😭 literally about cried.

Pile 2🙌🏻you had me at, “Unclench your butt hole.” 😂💕You’re amazing. Your readings are so in depth, on point every single time and I appreciate your genuine energy and investment in the messages you’re channeling. You were extra passionate about this message and I loved it! Thank you!

Pile 3. Idk what to say, hope everyone is doing great

PIle #1 I just wanna say the whole need for security versus excitement translates perfectly bc if I could choose anything from any magical universe, it's Newt's suitcase, bc nothing sounds more perfect to me than to go on a trip, but in the end of the day, be able to come back to my own safe space. Also, about the prejudice, for me what actually happened is that I often feel like others categorized me and give me false attributes that have nothing to do with who I truly am (which blows my mind, bc I discussed exactly this yesterday on therapy lol).

pile 2 : this also made me cry. it really resonates within me.. I've always been such a trash in front of the people around me.. and all I wanted was to be happy, understood, and free, and this reading gave me inspiration to believe that there is still hope out there. thanks

Pile Two: I have been doing an inner journey to get myself back to remembering all these things after some major blows. Thank you Eso, quite literally half of what you said were EXACT synchronicities for me. I needed this, and I am doing my best. Thank you.

Pile 3 here; you said you felt bad that you did not help but you have no idea how much you did. You gave the gift of finally being seen and validated and that was one of the most helpful readings I have had so far in my life. Thank you more than you will ever know.

I'm gonna consider this reading an early Christmas present, thank you so much for all your readings and the effort you put in ❤

I had to stop the video and point out one thing she said for Pile 2: "When you are setting yourself on fire to keep other people warm, that is a massive red flag." The story of my life, and only because I thought it would make people love me more and it didn't. Thank you for letting me know that it was not ok, and is in fact, self harm. ❤❤❤

Pile 2 . Omg Eso.. This was one of your best readings.. I literally cried watching this. I am at a stage where I very much need to be in a self love journey cuz I have been feeling like shit for quite some time now.. Also I was very happy when you mentioned my country India. I love you eso. This is one of my favorite videos and I will make sure I'll come back to it again when I'm feeling down. ❤💚💜🙏

Pile 3 💓 The biggest takeaway for me is realizing that my perfectionism does not only tie to my performance at school and at work, but also to spirituality and my growth. I realized I feel so ashamed of not getting out of depression and stagnancy fast enough (even tho many many years of depression and anxiety can't be treated and healed in a year), of not fulfilling my creative aspirations. It sucks to be so ashamed, stagnant and afraid of failure (i.e. not being perfect or coming up with genius ideas, especially right off the bat) that it completely paralyzes You of ANY action whatsoever. But another takeaway is that I need to accept exactly where I am RIGHT NOW - with the depression, with stagnancy, with resistance and just forgive. Let myself be, damn it. Let myself feel miserable, because it's valid, and not shame myself for not doing 100% every time. It really helps not only doing gratefulness practises, but also writing down what we are proud of! Like, I am proud of getting up in the morning, of making myself breakfast, of continually working out etc.. :) Once You stop expecting perfection You can really start living. Even in my creative practices, once I let go of expectations of what it should be and focus on literally >>doing the thing

Pile 2. This reading brought me to my knees. Death has been on the mind of this particulary 40-something far too much. Thank you for such a powerful reading.

Pile 4 spoke a lot to me, which even readings for myself had been screaming at me for a while. Thank you so much.

Pile 2!! Round of applause to Eso!!!! I cant tell you how many times I cried. I was applauding you so many times. Your words awaken so many seeds inside my soul. I was feeling so low. So weak. And you have shone a light onto the moon inside and I feel like I'm full now. Weve got the power, weve got the love, time to shine and get out of our own way!! Love to you all!!!

I chose Pile 3. It resonated so heavily, I have a lot to process right now! You just hit one nail after another. I could write you an essay about my life and how it went. I’m in my early 30’s now and still learning and healing. I can’t thank you enough for the effort you put into the reading and that you made it happen to be seen!

i just read this somewhere, i dont remember who even said that but.. "you dont have control over how people receive your energy, everything you do or say gets filtered thru the lenses of the personal sh?t that they're going thru. so, its not about you, its them and their personal issues. keep doing your thing, stay authentic, you are special bcs you appreciate you, not their approval."

5 hours? am i seeing this time stamp correctly?? Eso???????????????????????????? PLEASE MAKE SURE YOU LOVE YOURSELF TOO AND DON'T PUSH YOURSELF TOO HARD

i chose pile 3 and it was very accurate until a couple of weeks ago i finally realized i’m a people pleaser and have a hard time creating boundaries with people because i don’t want anyone to hate me i give so much of myself to others that wouldn’t do the same for me and in the end i’m left with nothing but i’ve started to work on it because i’m tired of feeling drained all the time.

Pile 2: Well, this was single f***ing greatest peptalk I've gotten in my life 😄 Thank you for shining your light into this world. You really do help others do the same ❤

Esooo, I was in pile 2 and I literally started crying, thank you so much for doing what you do, you've helped me find out so much about myself and inspired me to take action to grow

I chose pile 3 and you really came swinging for my neck right off the bat 💀💀💀 this was accurate in such a scary way. I ended things with someone who didn’t accept that I came out as genderqueer. So I really felt down and was like we need some self love. I was looking up some spell to do with roses (I’ve been getting strong urges and signs to do some workings with roses lately) and saw amethysts were involved. Then I go to see your latest video: self love. I’m like okayyyyy. Then I chose pile 3 because it had both rose and amethyst involved. Then you said queer. I feel so genuinely attacked right now 😂😂 jkjk I know this is just the universe and my guides letting me know that they love me and are here for me. I am thankful 💜 Edit: lol when you said libra energy.... I’m libra sun 😫 Edit: ok now I’m in tears bc I’ve literally always thought there was something wrong with me even before I knew I was bi and genderqueer. I received a lot of emotional abuse before all of that so this hit home Edit: yes I’m achievement based. Yes it is my down fall and I have recently realized how unhealthy it is for me. I often feel guilty for resting so much so that the universe has forced me to rest jus like you mentioned. Edit: 03:26:00 ah the painnnnnn Another edit: everything is resonating. Do I know you personally???? Another edit: Help! She’s found out about my entire personality and life, now I’m hiding in my hoodie as she reads me for filth 😫 thank you eso for spitting facts at me

Madison, this is a master class in self awareness and encouragement. Sincere gratitude for all you do to bring us these readings. Your unique way of delivering honest humor within such detailed readings is a great gift. Wishing you and yours much beauty and abundance. Happy New Year. I chose pile 3 and 1. Been struggling through a 15 year cycle of setbacks and growth. Feeling stuck at the moment, but realize it is my own belief, not reality.Through this whole time I've consistently drawn the tower, hermit, and hierophant. I understand my prior life and perspective needed to change for soul growth (new purpose). Still, it can be tough to keep going. Definitely take the clarity herein to heart. As you said in pile 1: "a need for excitement and security","be your own representative/prioritize what you want", very true. I've always felt this dichotomous drive to integrate two passions: an artistic viewpoint, and a rather conventional sentimentality. (I have my artistic workroom in the basement) So appreciate your perspective, will refer to these points. :) lots of love and gratitude.

I chose pile 4 and when you said i am a hopeless romantic plus u mentioned libra and pisces, it resonated so much😭 im a libra sun and pisces moon🧎‍♀️🏃‍♀️

Omg, I love your readings Eso! Pile 3 hit the nail on the head for me, especially when you said that we want to be unique but also relate to people...but relating to people make us feel less special, lmaoo.

I chose pile 3... and wow. I needed this.

I did both pile 3 and pile 4 I connect with both in different ways. I struggle with ADHD it was more rough growing up and I felt alone in it, as I got older I became more shy, quiet, and introverted everyone made me feel like there is something wrong about it which made me feel like I was unworthy of connection and unlovable people still treat me like I'm invisible still. I love your Readings they make me cry but happy too Thank you❤

Pile 3, that reading was rough! XD With love and peace, thank you so much for your honestly. You really read me like a book. From the LGBTQIA+ to the negative judgements, perfectionism, and the constant need for external validation, it was so accurate. I have definitely been improving myself slowly, after almost giving up and unaliving myself, but I have been working with my therapist to help me fix my self-worth issues. Definitely stems from the fact I am LGBTQIA+, so I tried to make up for that 'failure' or 'undesirable' quality by being overachieving. Thank you so much for you reading. It felt difficult and rough for you, but I feel understood when you read the cards. I definitely am fighting still. Sending love and support to my fellow pile 3! :D We got this! Thank you so much Eso/Madison!

Pile 2- the most accurate reading in a long long time. I needed to hear this now. Can always rely on your readings resonating🙌🏼also 2:28:32 had me laughing & your terminology and references are so great🙏🏼thank you💕

Just needed a reading from you. You are so positive and I needed something like this for the end of the year. Let's start the next with good vibes, lots of love queen 🥺💓💓💓💓

Your readings have moved me before but never like this 😭 hello from Pile 3- queer, polyamorous, divorced single mom who grew up bullied for my weight. This reading brought me to tears and was exactly what I needed to hear. Thank you.

So, I got pile 3! To be honest, it was what I needed to hear and I related to all of it immensely. I’m very, very hard on myself. By the end of the reading I was in tears and from how choked up you sounded at times I could tell it was really challenging to channel. Self-love has been something I’ve struggled with for a while now. I know it’s going to take time to reprogram my mindset and really, truly accept myself. It’s very, very hard but… I don’t want to give up. But as you said I think I need to spend some time crying a bit first. The resistance is strong and tempting, and trying not to shame myself out of it. Thank you for taking the time to do this massive reading! It’s one of my favorite videos from you.

I just want to say you are a great reader and very intuitive......I've picked pile 3 and it resonate with me so deeply it hurts and everything you've said I've said to myself....I feel like you are reading me like a book 📖....great job 👏.....

Pile one ,,, I’m literally out of words . I really appreciate you and what you do Eso. Sending lots of love !! Happy holidays 🧸

Pile 2 spoke to my soul directly omg! 💕 I was doing a reading for myself earlier and I heard “now is the time to strike while the iron is hot.” This is literally my life story! I can create my own utopia on earth.

pile 3. "you feel like you have to overcompensate for who you are by being insanely impressive" DAAMN

Pile 1 here and I have never been SO CALLED OUT while watching a reading from you. It took me several session to sit through and allow your words to sink. Right on point. Time to change things and grow to new horizons ! Thank you for this massive deep reading ♡

chose pile #3, which felt a lot like past energy of 2019 and 2020! it took me so much to grow out of that. i'm really proud of myself for that growth and the development, thank you so so much eso. i nearly cried, but in a very good way. 🥺🌹 ps: also chose pile #4, which is more of my current energy now & everything you said has been really, really spot on. thank you again 💞🌺🤧💌💗

Another Pile 3 here. I just wanted to say, I could tell you were really frustrated at the end, like you thought there had to be more to give here, but like other Pile 3's have said, this was so powerful just for being honest and real. It mattered and it healed and it meant a lot. Thank you for it Eso.

Thank you so very much Eso, you sweet, kind and generous soul! ♥️ I was pile 4. Grew up in an emotionally abusive and neglectful home. I could only see the world through tainted lenses and never believed there was hope for a better life or version of me until a spiritual awakening in 2013. Since then I've tried to grow and improve, and more recently trying not to let the past define me. I've done lots of serious self and shadow work like my life depended on it, but this is a nice reminder not to try to control everything and trust in the universe, as well as to lighten up, nurture my fun/creative side and live my life in accordance with my truth.

Pile 3 tip: Reiki! Every intuitive, sign, video told me to journal, work on self love, and meditate but it was all seemingly impossible without rewiring my brain. Most of us know we’re worthy of love as humans but how can we grow this within us when our mentality is against us, right? It’s a battle. I was waking up to begin immediately sobbing to my guides to please tell me what my lesson is to feel this way, etc. I was lead to a crystal shop I’d always ignored, then eventually to their reiki services. I am telling you, it made a world of difference. I no longer feel one with the negativity and fog and darkness I was housing. Beginning to clear and heal my aura, energy and chakras made it possible for me to be able to meditate, feel like my thoughts are worth journaling, be less anxious about simply going for a walk. I physically feel healing progress. I implore you, and even the skeptics, to try it. I am now able to discern malicious/non-serving thoughts from intuition again, and that is such a feat. Sending good intentions ✨

Pile 3: You know it’s a good reading when Eso has you crying 10 minutes in 😂😭

pile 1 here: this was so accurate for me eso i cant even put it into words. you also called out gemini placements/gemini mars and i’m a gemini moon mars and rising😂 thank you so much again eso i love your helpful words!!! ❤️

I really needed this. I really struggle with self love and I was actually preying to Hestia for a way to know what yo do to learn to love myself. Thank you so much. You are the best. I choosing the pile 4.

*3 let's pull our talents together.♉⚖️ Say this to yourself. I'm worthy, I'm loving , I'm unique.

A self love reading first before a relationship reading?? GENIUS. I’ve enjoyed listening to all of your readings and advice but this one was the best one yet for me. Truly thankful that you came up with this big boy reading Eso 💜

Pile 3- I found this reading just now and I have to say that it describe perfectly my past energy, my past self, it was a rough experience and I felt like I don't deserve to be loved and I considered myself a monster without a heart, it was horrible. Now I am here to tell u, pile number 3 that u are not alone, I am here for you, sending u lots of love and I know that u can do it, I believe in u because u are a very, very, very strong and magnificent person with a very beautiful soul🥺❤ I love u soo much, don't give up just yet, u can do itt🥺🤗

Pile 1 was just on point I teared…like I’m not surprised because it’s you & I love you, duh. But seriously this big boy hit hard right off the BAT 🦇 Thank you for this & for just confirming so many things for me, giving me guidance as always. Happy holidays Eso queen!

Pile 2… thank you so much for your beautiful words 😘😘😘😘 It’s a powerful feeling to know that I am not alone in my perspective of the world and that there are a lot of other people who feels, thinks, and see the world from a light spiritual perspective… I promise all of you who are still in the dark that you just still have lessons to be learned. Remember that self compassion, have faith, and forgiveness is your biggest strength, once you get to the other side, the light is so beautiful. It’s been a long journey but I am no longer the same person I was 20 years ago…

Pile 4. There's definitely a new "returning to my true self" energy around me these days. Edit: also pile 1 🥺💕

pile 3 here: thank you so much for this reading it felt so spot on... thank you for being honest.. tears was falling from my eyes a lot during this reading. i am grateful to have listened to this and i now know that i have a lot of unhealed shadow aspects of myself that i need to work thru in order for me to truely love myself.

Pile 3, sooo true! Major blockages around self love and receiving! But I have been working on this this whole year. And it's getting a lot better. Thank you, Eso, for a fantastic reading! Sending everyone love and light! 💖

Love you Eso! You’re authenticity is so refreshing. I picked Pile 1 and it resonated soo much !

I picked pile 3 you are spot on I always felt like I don't deserve love and I always wondered what's wrong with me because I love love and I love unconditionally but I have never really experienced that . Then after this last relationship I realized it's not me and I do deserve love and I am amazing person I have been through alot in my life and I am not perfect but know matter what even when people hurt me I still love and I am still kind.

i choose pile 3 and it really resonates me.I'll stop chasing people when they don't treat me properly.I'll just focus on self-love.2022 will be only for self-development.Thanks eso for your effort.💜

I’m studying my birth chart and I was reading about my Chiron placement prior to this reading. It blew my mind how it described so many of my struggles in the past. I think maybe having that reflection interfered with this reading. I chose pile 3 and I never felt such annoyance in a reading lol. I mean, it was super accurate on how I felt about myself for a huge part of my life. However, I’ve worked a lot on all of these issues and I feel I have significantly advanced in my personal healing journey. When you said I need to acknowledge the truth I was like “how much more? It’s been a process of years! F$&k”. Nothing against you Eso, I see what still applies haha. Btw I grew up watching South Park and The Simpsons so whenever you bring those up makes me smile. The last section of the reading was especially helpful. Thanks for the messages.

You're a queen thank you soooooo so much. All the love 💖💖 #3

Pile 2 totally got me, I was bullied in middle school, even some teachers are made fun of me back then, I can forgive but can't forget because it left scars in me, thankfully I moved to different school after grade 9, and never got bullied in the new school, I guess my old school is just toxic.

Thank you Eso, I really needed this. I was called to pile 3. It was what I needed to hear. It was really helpful. I had more to say but I had to split up watching the whole thing so I forgot the things I had to say during the first part of it. I just remember it was very meaningful and resonated. I felt validated and seen in a way I didn't know I needed to be. Also I definitely remember and loved Sagwa. 🧿💕 Other Pile 3's I'm so proud of you for the work you have done, it's been hard and you are doing amazing even if it doesn't feel like it. Just starting is really amazing. I see you and eventually you will be able to see yourself in a more accurate light. Wishing you all the best!

WOW! I was torn between pile 3 or 4, but I "accidentally" hit pile 4. So spot on! I am a very mission-based person. I know I have a calling to spread love and do good. This was super uplifting. Thank you!

Pile 3 people I love y’all. We deserve love. We deserve self love

Pile 3 - super strange just how personal this felt. It was nice just to feel heard, please don’t feel unsettled. Thank you for all your time on this, it really meant a lot.

pile 3 is exactly what I needed. I am a taurus sun & resonated with everything. I will keep working on this journey. 🙏🏽❤️ thank you eso. ✨

Pile 3 - Being raised by 2 narcissists you can hardly expect anything different but I didn't know that for over 50 years! I've been working on this for a few years now and it's extremely tough. Sending massive love to all the other Pile 3's. I hope we can all find a way through this and safely reach the other side in this lifetime. 💕💜🥰❤️‍🩹

Pile 3-- HOLY SMOKES. This was a personal reading. WOW. Thank you.

Pile 3. Thank you for the reading, Eso. Having someone acknowledge the struggle helped, and you helped me realize a lot of things (every thing the reading says, actually) that I think I’ve always known, deep down, but didn’t acknowledge until now. I wish I know how to let go, at least, but as you said, this is my battle and I’m the one who have to fight it. Thank you again

Pile 4: I used to be so emotionally immature and because of this I emotionally abused my ex I loved him so much that I broke up with him and decided to heal. I am still trying to be okay with the fact that I hurt him but it's hard because I love him so much. I actually have a podcast where I talk about my healing journey and I do identify with being a Light Worker! I hope by sharing my healing journey I can help others not make the same mistakes or help them see things they should heal to become the best version of themselves. I literally pulled one of the same ego cards for myself yesterday oh my goodness 😅

Pile 3 here - You have no idea how much you have helped me. I am willing to fight now because of you. Thank you so very much. You're an Angel :)

Pile 3, started the reading paused midway and thought to myself "no way, I do love myself"'. Then took a shower and in the shower I realised how accurate the reading actually is and that I was just blind to this shadow aspect of me! Now back to listen to the next half of the reading. Thank you for lovingly calling myself out on my bullshit