i am autistic 

I love love love this! "would you like to demonstrate this?" "No" Perfect!! Why do they always ask these nonsensical questions, why don't they just say "I don't think you can do this, because you don't look like you pay attention (eye contact) so I'm gonna force you to demonstrate this in front of the class in order to embarrass you in front of your peers to shame you to change your behavior to be what I want." I would love a world where people spoke that way, it would save me several minutes before I realized they well full of bs and are incapable of earning my respect. You are refreshing and wonderful! Thank you for being honest and being who you are!

I’ve been a fan of yours since your tiktok psych ward days. Seeing a fellow autistic person succeed in their studies and embrace their unusual interests rather than hide them is so refreshing to see. Your videos about university have inspired me to go back to school after dropping out of year 12 due to poor mental health and autistic burnout, I’m planning on starting an online a level course in September and potentially going to uni after that if I do well :)

So many of your experiences you stated were/are many of my struggles! One of the big ones I had forgotten about was the fact I would completely lose it when anyone tried to put socks on my feet, never liked them!! when I was 4-5, they didn’t care just yelled at me I had to wear socks bc that’s what people do, but I could feel the thick seam across the bottom of my toes and it I absolutely couldn’t stand it. I learned to ignore my body’s internal tension and just “go with it” on surface level. Still hate socks, if I do wear them and go to sleep(rare) I’ll wake up and find them in the sheets where I’ve taken them off in my sleep. My body knows, I just have learned to ignore

i am also autistic(recently diagnosed) and a psychology student! I feel very happy because your channel is quite underrated but im starting to feel like it will become one of my favorites and go tos for tips, overrall insight for essays, and the psych major experience:')) i feel so happy rn

you remind me so much of myself. we seem to be quite similar. im not diagnosed yet, but ive been waiting for 3 years on a waiting list for my adhd and autism assessment. in the past i was treated as anxitey and depression and i was pre asessed for bipolar disorder. I also have EDS that i figured out myself too. ive positively identified myself, my sister, my mum, my grandmother and an aunt as autistic. it makes SO MUCH SENSE. i had a doctor recently tell me i was very intelligent for downloading my own raw data for my dna and finding my own genetic mutations that caussed all my issues including my dyscalculia and a tic disorder lol. your awesome. love from toni from scotland x

Good videos, can relate a lot, and get what you mean about being overwhelmed/routine/sensory etc driving your mental health issues.

This video is ASMR relaxing. Thankyou for sharing your journey.

Early years part really sounds like autism, not just a child things. I also thought i do not have memories but more i research autism, read books from autistic authors the more memories gradually are coming back. School years part is like tell me you are autistic without telling me, relatable and so obvious 🙂. 31:36 look up monotropism 👍. 33:01 i dont know the names but 2 parts of brain are "switched on or off" the opposite way in autistic brain a therefore what eye contact gives to neurotypicals the same is given by no eye contact to autistic people 33:45 eye rolling as stimming i guess. 41:00 telling stories like Do you remember how this happened to you and how you felt ? that´s how i feel now helps with empathy when told to autistic person. 🧐46:30 Alexithimia probably. 49:00 So much relatable. 51:09 Yes it is autism thing. And this video even do not need autistic title just the one hour of stimming with hair, eyes all over the room,monotonous voice, this ""looks"" autistic so much. I did not learn anything new because i research and learn about autism for 14 months literally everyday so i know ALMOST everything from 1908 - term autism coined by Eugen Bleuler to PDA but still i love to hear more a more autistic stories so Thank you . 😀

First of all, you don’t have “a big schnoz” . I was bullied for probably 7 consecutive years from primary to lower high school and although I will never be able to forget the kinds of things that were said and done to me, but I can avoid thinking about them (maybe that’s not healthy idk but it works for me maybe it would work for others too). Also I really appreciate videos like this. They help me understand what autism is like and how it can express itself. Finally your uni vids have been very helpful and I’m sure they will continue to be as I get through year 2&3, thanks

Wait so that's why people think I roll my eyes when I don't!!

could i please ask a question, would this be considered a routine or ritual for eating... i used to be over the top about blowing and wiping over my utensils and plate / glasses and such, and if anyone put food on my plate without me doing this and making sure theyre clean i would absolutely lose my head, and my fork, knife and fork i would place them in a specific place and make everything very even and spaced out equally infront of me on the dinner table, yes or no?

Has anyone done any cognitive tests like WAIS? Memory tests? TOL? Rorschach?

Could you do a vid discussing pissing self in year 3? I have a similar story in year 4😊

Thank you, beautiful. Your story is meaningful and helpful. ♡ I get the frustration and the struggle. Wish you good healing.

“Old people smell” made me lol.

Your nose is nice don’t get plastic surgery to change it.

"Just lie, exaggerate, and bullsh*t, and get good grades" 🤣🤣 Lmao

Saskia: CAMHS fucked up on that one. Me (aloud): They fuck up everything. Saskia: What do they ~not~ fuck up with tho? Me (aloud): Exactly. 😂💀

15:00 teacher: 'pick that item off the floor.' child: picks item off floor. assignment is now complete. now I have an item in my hand, what do I do with this? puts it back where they found it like we're generally taught to.

"I only initiate conversation when I want to talk" Uhh, doesn't everyone do that? Why would you initiate conversation when you _don't_ want to talk?! 🤨 I always think that I need a reason to talk to someone otherwise it's just plain weird. I don't understand how people talk about nothing AND derive so much pleasure from it!

Naur way